 general practice nursing student, ambassador, nursing network, nursing network, shiny way, workshops with shiny minds coaching, that was a mild course, thrown away, it's going to be amazing I think, we're not 100% sure it looks fair, we're thinking leadership, management skills, public speaking skills, that's what we're saying, personal and professional, so we're going to log in, obviously, to show you all, do you try it? Well, do you try it? Yeah, go and do the try it. I'm going into mine, this corridor is a little bit creepy, not going to lie. Are you ready? Here we go. So that's us finished our workshop, oh my god, well this is just stage one, we only had an hour and a half. And I don't even know what to say about it. When they said it was a mind spa, it is a mind spa. There's so much information that we've been given to think about and analyse about ourselves, about thoughts and feelings and our filter process and our brain and all of this and about being honest about ourselves and authenticity and all of that. It's just too much I think to put into one vlog, but it's given us something to work on and think about ready for tomorrow's full day session of workshops. But I think after tomorrow we can definitely update you on it properly and how it's gone and how amazing this workshop is because right now I'm feeling excited about it. I don't feel nervous anymore because I was feeling really nervous at the start, I think Kate was as well and the other girls that are attending and we were all sort of sat there not knowing what to expect, things like that. But now I think we're all a little bit excited and a little bit like actually we can do this, we can open our minds, we can public speak, we can do a lot of things if we put our minds to it and we're going to learn how to tomorrow. So tomorrow's a new day and I shall see you all tomorrow. So this is a message for our fellow ambassadors of the GPN Studentness Network. Hi! Kate and Claire here. So for those of you that missed the event we just wanted to show you how absolutely amazing this was and if this opportunity comes up again please, please, please go. I know it can't be helping sick and stuff but just try and go next time because it's been amazing and we have come out this so different. We feel, yeah. I don't know how you feel Claire but I feel like, I feel like a different person. Yeah, we are different people. It's so strange. Standing strange. Yeah, it's really strange. It's such a strange feeling but it's amazing. It's so powerful and liberated. We are liberated and empowered. I've got guns. I don't have fear. I've got these guns. Katie's just scoffing she's got guns. I've got the gun show. So yeah, so we just wanted to share that it's an absolutely amazing experience and the girls or guys, girls and guys that are going tonight and tomorrow please just keep your mind open and just get yourself thrown in because you are going to see such a transformation at the end. It's going to really, really shock you. Trey. And yeah, can we just say another massive thank you firstly to Karen Story who's made this possible. Thanks Karen. And to the lovely Beck and Danny. I've told you I was skeptical at first. I was not buying it. I thought it's not possible. It's not possible to gain any kind of confidence in however many hours we had together. Not many. It wasn't many. It wasn't many. But I am a true believer now. I'm a convert. It's really hard to convert Kate. Oh yeah. I know my own mind. It's a good one. My own mind. So thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart and I will be practicing and putting into practice all the tools that you've given us. Yeah. We're excited. Yeah. We've got this. We can do it. We can do this. So the past couple of days I've had two days off and I had a workshop for the general practice nursing ambassador leadership program. And to be honest we didn't know what to expect. We weren't sure what we were getting ourselves into. We didn't really know what was going to happen. We knew that we had sort of a challenge and we had to go there with something we wanted to improve and build on. And public speaking was my thing. This was what I wanted to gain from this. And it's actually what everyone in that room wanted to gain from this was be confident. Be confident in public speaking and presenting and getting that impact out there. So we went in and we... I don't even know where to start because the past two days, well it was a day and a little bit in the evening before. And these were just workshops to sort of build ourselves and deal with the emotions that we have whilst public speaking like the anxieties, the fears, the little voices in the head and how to control those and lower them so that we can concentrate on our presentation and not let it affect us. And before I went to this workshop I think I said this before in previous vlogs but I have a massive fear of public speaking. I really dread it. I don't look forward to it but it's something I physically want to do. It's something I want to do. I want to be able to stand in a room full of people and inspire them and motivate them and get my message across to those people in those seats listening to me. It's something I really wanted to do. I have a massive fear of it and people think oh my god but your vlog and stuff like that and you seem quite confident but actually I'm not. This is just me at home with my camera in my own comfort in my own skin but put me out on a stage talking in front of millions of eyes looking at me. No, it was a massive fear of mine. I dreaded it but I wanted to do it and I wanted changing myself to be able to do that. And guess what? The impossible became possible. I had no idea. I mean I thought I was just going to go and get the skills and tools to help me be able to sort of like body language and things like that to make me look confident but I never expected for the fear to be removed. Like I am cured. That's really strange. That is like massive. I am cured and I have no fear and this is weird. This is weird. I don't know what they did to me in those workshops. I don't know what happened but I'm not scared anymore. I've turned it into excitement. I'm really really excited to get up and talk in front of a room of people that fear's gone and I don't know how but it's magic and it's just the best feeling thinking do you know what? I can do this. I can do this and I can do it well now. Now that that fear's gone I can do it well. So bring me back to the room today. We had our poster presentations and instead of fear in it and instead of the dreading thing and another poster presentation I was excited. I thought I'm going to stand up and I'm going to present in front of the class and it's going to be amazing because I'm not going to have that fear holding me back anymore and yeah the nerves are still there obviously and that I think nerves are now a really good thing for me and it just shows that I care about what I'm talking about and that's okay but the fear that I had that was really holding me back has gone and I was able to stand today and present properly like I should and I think next week, next poster presentation, next week again I'm going to be able to do the same thing and it was just amazing and I said to my friend did you notice a difference last week and this week the way I was talking and things and she said there was like a massive difference so that's really really good, that's a really positive so it just shows that the workshop and everything helped it's not just in myself and my head but actually other people can see it as well which isn't big and it's going to be amazing and just on the back of all of this we have me and Kate have been asked to do a talk at a GPN conference I know next month on the 3rd of July I'm going to be hitting the doctors, the qualified nurses I'm going to show how amazing student nurses are and I'm going to get their minds thinking and I'm going to make an impact so that they leave that room taking something away from what I say on that day and I'm really really excited I can't wait, I'm not scared, I'm not nervous I'm going to go up there and smash it