 Good morning, good morning, good morning you guys. This is going to be on whispering because it's early. I really have not felt like recording you guys. I told y'all last year, hold on let me go back here so I could be a little louder. This is actually what I'm at right now. This is actually considered the living room. Isn't this crazy? Like when we got this house and looked at the floor plan, this is considered the living room and the room that we have as our living room is considered what's called the great room. It's half of it was the great room and other half. It's a formal dining room. Who the hell would do that though? Anyway this is going to be a Sunday vlog or a Sunday vlog because I just have not felt like coming on and recording. It's going to be one of those years to where I'm going to be slowly pulling away from doing videos and focusing on my family you guys. I cranked out a lot of videos last year. A lot. And that's a lot of work and y'all know this. It's a lot of work. So I really want to focus on my family, my career, my goals. I'm really there's some things that I'm really passionate about that have been on the back burner. A lot of it was... I'm not going to blame myself. I'm not going to blame making YouTube videos because I didn't have to do that. But for me a lot of it was fear. Fearful for trying new things or just branching out there and doing what I need to do. And so instead of doing those things I was like well I'll just make some YouTube videos because I like this and it's a hobby. But I really did it to deflect from doing what I should be doing. If that makes sense I don't know what place. So what do you have there JP? Hold on y'all. You got it from the Tooth Fairy? Yeah. What is it y'all? JB lost a tooth. His hair is a myth. Excuse him. Is that a little note from the Tooth Fairy? Yeah. Can we can we read it? It says thank you. You can keep your tooth. I hope you like the gift. Love the Tooth Fairy. Wow. Let's see what it is. And let me look at this. Oh she made you a little pouch. Is there money in there? Look at that she left us some money. Isn't that cool? Yeah. Yeah. So sweet. Your lost tooth boo boo. You see that ball? Oh my goodness. He's so cute. JB. I didn't do that. The Tooth Fairy did that. You did this. I really did. I did it. Because see this washi tape. You have that kind of washi tape. Washi tape. No, I don't see it. You don't have washi tape. How do you know Tooth Fairy don't have washi tape? Because only Tooth Fairy's have Tooth Fairy's tooth. Well you have a smart child. He about 10 minutes ago he said I think you made this. He said yo yo hot glue gun is sitting over there. I'm like what the hell. Yeah. I see that I did this. Read that. No the Tooth Fairy did it. No you didn't. The Tooth Fairy did it baby. You did it. Okay okay fine. I went to it. I did it but the Tooth Fairy put it on me your pillow. She put it on me your pillow. I know the Tooth Fairy but you made this and the Tooth Fairy put it under my pillow. Yeah. I'm not even sure you know I was right but I can't. Hey you guys so we just got out of church. We got here a little late but can y'all see me? Got here a little late so JB had to sit with me. Hold on let me check my Facebook real quick. What are all these messages? Yeah I don't be on Facebook. I haven't been on here but I really don't see anything. I probably post once a week maybe. Just got out of church. We're trying to figure out where we're gonna go eat. JB said raisin cane. JB there's so many places that we could eat. There's in and out. We did make you or you did McDonald's. Chick-fil-A is closed. Let me order online at Panera Bread. Lord. Y'all I am going to have to I we're still in the parking lot. It is packed here. I mean we were packed like starting so hold on baby. I'm gonna say this and we're gonna go. This is the These Holes Ain't Lawyer church and the reason why I refer to it this church those of you who are new following me following my vlog. This church was playing the instrumental version of These Holes Ain't Lawyer doing a doing the announcements one time and I was like I could not get that out of my head. It messed up my spirit to why I didn't come to this church for two years. We come we come every now and then like once every other month just so I could be around other believers but it just really long story short I'm really even going to have to like to pray about this you know seek guidance from the Holy Spirit. I'm gonna have to find another church. I have technically I have found a church that I'm very much interested in and I love that I love that I told JB I was going to go visit it next week and let him say well daddy boo boo it's a new church I'm not sure the church is far it's going to take me about 30 to 40 minutes that's really not a big deal to be quite honest this church is closer I got to this church in 15 minutes probably less than that it's right down the street from us but I'm not gonna be able to hang y'all two things first of all the wife the wife the wife preached today two things that she said that made me like look at her like what she referred to the woman at the well and those you know if you're if you're a believer you know about the story about the woman at the well who wouldn't give water to Jesus because he was a Jew and she was a Samaritan she referred to the woman at the well as a thought and I'm like what what what I was like you know I kind of laugh at that but I was a little bit bothered by the like why are you gonna prefer to the woman as a thought so anyway um that happened then she made another comment basically saying how you know if there's any virgins in the congregation please save yourself for marriage however there are other things you could do to make sure things are and I was like what and people would laugh half the people were laughing the other half was like what I'm like okay you you can't say stuff like that on the poll but I'm sorry you guys call me conservative you can't say you really shouldn't I say you can say whatever you want but you should not say things like that in the house of God so yeah we're gonna go ahead and go to a new church um next weekend because isn't that crazy chow but but what am I gonna order yeah I'm ordering something from Panera bread to go pick it up and then we're gonna go ahead and go I'm gonna go ahead and get some some mac and cheese and then we're going to get the half by chicken salad but I don't want any chicken on it because we're gonna go ahead none all right they only can see you I'm in the dark baby's like get your chicken out the way I'm putting chicken on top of my salad so y'all isn't that crazy about the church you know lair gordon did a video I know it's probably loud in here lair gordon did a video recently about leaving the black church and you know everyone has their reasons to why they don't want to church me personally I need to go to church every now and then um I need to be around other believers but lair was seeing how in Atlanta there's a lot of churches there's churches in Atlanta that apparently has they have atm's I've never seen that in my life excuse me and other people have you know we're agreeing with her how the church has become my business what I really a lot of millennials are leaving the church but what people need to understand the church the definition of the church is the people okay um and again me personally I have to go to church now and then I just I'm in a place right now why I really need divine intervention counsel with the Holy Spirit to see where I help me find a church thumbs up baby yeah to help me find a church home it is I think it's really important for believers to be around other believers and to commune together servitude all of that I hold on no church is perfect I get it but some of this stuff I can't roll with like what she said in the pulpit on this multiple issues that have came up I can't roll with it who was that John Gray a minute that he had a an affair are you okay well we don't we don't do those type of mukbangs mommy saying is back no mukbangs those you who follow her she has some personal issues I don't believe in gospel I do like the gospel but I don't want to have that type of energy on my channel but you want to know what happened with her you could just do a quick research what are you doing child I forgot to tell you I have y'all been watching the mask singer unmasked singer don't eat like that on my channel I actually have to watch it with JB lunch and JB was like this is scary and then I was like you know what there's something here's my conspiracy theory coming up there's something this music is loud there's something a little dark and sinister about that show I don't know call me crazy all but JB was like this is scary these these costs are he's only six years old but he was scared of the people in the crossings and maybe a little bit yeah it's maybe a little bit of JB said it not me yeah I showed my glasses from Furmo to my husband he started laughing they're tied on my head they're they're children's glasses they be putting my money back because I don't have to send it send them back in they say you can keep them as a backup backup for who JB backup mom back of me bendy y'all I had a great it's first of all it's Monday Martin Luther King Martin Luther King day like I said it's been a struggle I think I have a sugar addiction bendy I really do think I have a sugar I've been having something sweet to eat every day now I'm I'm I'm flow is here maybe that's part of it but I need to stop with the sugar I'm intermittent fasting I'm doing 10 to five for me personally and it's been a struggle because I get up so early well you get up at four o'clock you're hungry by seven so I'm having a stress to 10 o'clock to eat let me say this when we're gonna go to the store because JB's night night machine has stopped working and look do not have your child codependent on something to fall asleep and stay asleep JB sleeps with white noise he actually sleeps with little by music he's still a baby y'all he sleeps with little by music or white noise it helps in his sleep um we kind of do too because we have those air purifiers let me say this because I just got finished kind of watching somebody y'all you help us gonna learn I don't care what anyone says you need to be very careful when you're on this platform as a youtuber sorry for the background you need to be very careful what you show on your channel um there's reasons why I don't show my husband because I I don't want to this is my channel now we had a legit family vlog if we you know like um Yolanda Renee who by the way she doesn't even show her husband that much I love her she's pregnant by the way she's so cute um who is that I can't think of anyone they're also okay good one is peak mill which I love her because people didn't even know she was married and had a baby child she came back with a five six month old baby was like oh I have a baby and I'm married by the way I was like yes keep it private I love her peak mill she does the wigs and hair tutorials and makeup by the way you guys see a lot what's going on throughout the week but I don't show a lot with my husband and I don't go into all the details of what's going on and our family because it's just hot you can control but then a certain people I'm like why would you do that so I guess I'm getting into I don't understand why people who are in new freshly fresh as a baby new relationships bring their their loved ones or excuse me who they're dating on the social on this platform that's just a recipe for disaster you have to know 100,000 or how many subscribers you got people are going to nickpick everything even if like I said I'm married you know even if you're married you gotta be real real careful because this is like reality tv you guys there have been incidents and I'm gonna name drop her the other people I'm not gonna name drop one sexy Tina had a couple of incidents where people actually hold on baby one sexy Tina y'all know her she's in her fanny 40s fanny she's in her 40s out in California um guys look at this anyway a couple of subscribers actually contacted her husband now she is legally still married I believe correct me if I'm not y'all she is legally still married to her husband even though she dates other people oh my that's another story but my point is is that you know this is someone because she showed her husband a couple of times and she stopped doing it get your shield baby get your shield did it come off it's still on let me get to the point y'all because we gotta go to the store a couple of subscribers at least one or two I know at least one incident where they actually contacted her husband and I believe they I'm like how do boy women can work for the CIA FBI PT OPTA we are some research and help us they contacted her husband either at his job or just found him on social media I think yeah that's what it was they found him on social media and contacted him I guess at the end of the day people can do whatever they want but this is like reality reality tv anything that you do or any any type of issues you have in your relationship are going to be almost highlighted on social media or on your vlogging channel if that's what you decide to do so you got to be careful you got to be real careful girl I'm not doing it I will never now my husband has held the camera every now and then y'all may see a bicep you know a little ball in the head that's about it girl I know that's right baby hey y'all y'all's president is a hot ass mess the news is on now my husband has started watching news on tv for some odd reason normally he just says stuff on his phone yeah y'all this government shutdown this man is is I said I won't really get into politics because honestly I stopped watching it really stopped watching yeah I mean I understand what's going on but it could be depressing well what almost a month into this government shutdown those of you who are not here in the US what the government shutdown has done is affected the everything from the airport forming it has affected our reformers it has affected what a little over 400 000 employees and their families you got people who are taking on side jobs and working for a lift lift just to have lift as a um a cab a type of cab service by the way because I didn't know I have quite a few people who watch me who are not here in the US um and it's really sad I have a friend who works for the FBI and I asked her I say you know is how is the shutdown affecting you and she's like well it doesn't really affect my husband or I because our jobs are funded you gotta have someone watching the nuclear weapons I'm like girl is that what you do no no but she kind of her husband is currently I'm not even I'm not gonna I shouldn't say all that anyway um her job is safe but she said that um the building that she's in some of the other employees she said they're down in the gym room or the rec room she said just watching tv because they have to come to work there are some of these people were going crazy over this um over what is it the refund checks which I understand my husband was kind of a little you know anxious not necessarily anxious but we were going to come we were we are okay you guys not even okay we are blessed we are very good um well I'm not gonna get into how much we make but we're we are we're good y'all see you know you see that we are we're not struggling okay so it's not like we're looking for that income tax our income tax we use that towards we put some towards savings and to help of our house um and even if we wouldn't be able to my husband will be able to pay out of pocket we won't want to but he will be able to do it um I think I've mentioned a couple of blocks ago that we're redoing our master bathroom we're putting in a whirlpool hopefully jacuzzi having the insight painted house um but I know some people use that money to do stuff like pay off bills which I totally get I've been in there girl I get it y'all we have worked let me tell you something my husband I have worked ourselves up from the grant from the ground and maybe I should do a story time on this my husband came here with no education to be in a supervisor in one of the top hospitals here in Scottsdale excuse me here in Phoenix um he was working in Scottsdale Arizona for a certain time uh my family was I wouldn't call us um poor they were working middle class um we never went without but I remember my mom and dad paying people for food stamps because they made too much money to you know qualify for food stamps they were again that struggling working class they didn't say look for me to go to college are you serious that was not an option I worked my way through school from 17 working multiple jobs I've graduated from high school at 17 I always worked multiple jobs actually up until um I had JB meaning multiple jobs while I had a separate job um on the weekend or something you know that's what I did I funded my way through college by working of course taking us to loans girl I guess my point this is that we had been there so we were looking for that income tax but now we're at a spot thank god and it's funny it's after it's really after we had JB that we really got our stuff together because before we would spend at least I would spend my husband's time it's always been good I would spend carelessly let me tell y'all something it was nothing for me to go and have I remember one time I had to humble myself I had a bag of shoes and there was only a few shoes in there in that bag retail for $600 $700 worth of shoes there was literally only like five pairs of shoes in there that should tell you that would tell you the type of now you cannot get me to pay more than $20 for a pair that's a lot I'll pay $30 for a pair of shoes I'm not paying $100 yeah I will pay $80 a hundred dollars for some pumps that I will only wear two or three times so that was the type of person I was just spending carelessly not really saving not investing I've gotten so much better like I said since I've had JB because you always at least for me I changed my perspective and I think about the future anyway y'all I'm running around hey y'all it is to see and girl it has been one of those days you guys I mean are those my shoes JB has my shoes in his pretend Kmart store well we over that um sunny a little chilly today when I was out it was it was windy you know when it's windy it feels like it's cooler so I felt like it was even though it said it was you know 55 60 it felt 40 so anyway um yeah it's I've been in a certain mood JB got up a little early it been sleeping pretty good since he started back in school um and so I'm sorry y'all I'm over here in the hallway so it's echoing is this better now it's not echoing as bad um we have high ceilings and this now see if it sounds better huh I was up there where it's really I don't know how many feet this area is but it's pretty pretty up there y'all um I don't know I've just been in a I've been in a certain mood you know and um this is just y'all this is real life this is how it is what put me in the mood first of all is JB waking up early as hell JB woke up early three something yeah girl three something in the morning um I was up don't ask me why but I was already up and it's okay because he actually his hat started sleeping a lot better I'm getting up around better meaning getting up between five thirty and six so I was okay with that um got his new night night machine he was okay with that um but that threw off my morning routine because normally I have my morning to myself that's my me time which by the way that my me time video should be coming up soon anyway girl I'm gonna why am I out of breath because I've been running around this morning this is one of the few times I actually have to myself in this house y'all I need it I need to have time by myself and just sitting here so I can relax um so so y'all what I'm cooking for dinner I'm cooking dinner early it is 229 because JB has karate at four o'clock and I just want to have it just ready done I'm gonna put the oven on the Sabbath set I'm gonna put it on warm I put everything in so anyway um I have some spinach and kale with carrots here really really yummy I have some cinnamon carrots with a little bit of brown sugar just a little bit some coconut cilantro rice this is so good y'all very very good some apple pie you know what this has been baking for an hour but I want this top a little bit brown more brown so when we get back for karate I'll pop this back under the broiler for like five minutes and I have some chicken wings in the oven I'm gonna let those go you know at 375 for about 30 minutes probably bring it down to 365 let me show you my cute little set up for this week for my planners aren't these stickers cute you guys these come from the happy planner some of these I printed myself um I'm feeling real good at this real good good but I see why people have tons of stickers cuz I feel like I'm running out but I know I'm not this is next week's girl yes look at this it's cute I would say all of this I got online um just images I found and put together some other stuff that I found and yeah I don't know what this was trying to be but yeah I'm already scattering stuff out and this is my February February was I wanted to do an anti-villain day but no we just went in at Paris in Love and Paris isn't this cute y'all let me get out this garage y'all look I was thinking about just telling my husband about this I was thinking about creating my own stickers and selling them on the Etsy shop but I first of all the sticker Etsy shopping is oversaturated there are a lot of people who do stickers thousands of people who do stickers but if I could get a target audience and really horny on that that would be different but the other thing is that I think my startup cost would be a lot in terms of real quick my startup cost would be a lot because I would have to get the software my laptop is oh I definitely need a new laptop um that's money I would have to get um I wouldn't do it to where you would print them out because that right though is easily $300 to get one of those circuit cutters or whatever um and I would do mostly what's called productive stickers I wouldn't do it because I'm not a graphics artist either that's another thing I'm not a graphics artist so I would do more so the productive stickers not the decorative stickers but like the call later important um but yeah I'm not gonna do that it's too much I'll stick to what I'm doing I stick to what you know girl but I definitely need to think of another type of side hustle that brings that money y'all I I have my youtube thing I'm gonna tell you the different ways that I have different streams of income for me youtube is definitely one of them and that brings me a couple hundred a month um I also do app in which is uh I don't know what you want to call it um they do all types of stuff that I recently just got um I'm a little paranoid y'all I'm too now paranoid to be working for them because they will they be wanting you to download their software on your phone so that they'll have access to your to your stuff as I want to say I don't know girl I don't know if I want to do that so certain things I will do when you get paid by project and I think the most I've ever gotten paid was $40 for a project so that's another way to bring in money but I need to think of another way to bring in money I used to sell my own hair oil but girl people don't be wanting to buy hair products I know every now and then people would be like you should create your own hair products been there done that no was no people don't want to do that um they don't want to spend more than $10 for hair oil and the type of oils I was putting together the costs were getting up there as far as yes so I sold primarily to um to uh what am I trying to say y'all I'm out of it I sold primarily to hairstylists now that's where most of my sales came from more stylist the lighting is dark I definitely want to think of some type of other side health so food related no I would never ever be the type I see my mama do it my best friend do it I love to cook y'all but I'm not passionate about it you know what I mean I love to cook I'm really good at it I'm cooking putting things together good at putting things together last minute but I have no desires to bake and sell baking some L1 on bakery no thank you my my passion comes in planning organizing decorating I love to decorate but mostly organizing stuff like I love that type of stuff which is you know anyway so let me hush up y'all I need to go to the bank and then go to the credit union y'all lord um work work work work work has been crazy this week I'm just gonna say this I'm gonna talk about talking about work a lot I don't like it when people are true or clearly trying to manipulate the situation but you can read through them both Christine and I can read through the foolery but anyway my manager just sent an email about an hour ago that basically was like anyway she was basically like um team team meeting in Denver um our director basically wants us in Denver for three days either this quarter or next quarter and I'm like what so I call my husband immediately I'm like my manager just sent us an email and basically was like they want to have an all hands on me meeting out of town out of state for three days you know my husband goes you don't know my husband works second shift in a hospital you know and we don't have any friends or family here who could keep JB for three days straight so I was like what the hell so I wrote her back I didn't say yes or no I basically said you know the earliest I could travel for work is in June due to my husband's work schedule I just left it left it at that not really seeing yes or no or you know making any excuses but just telling her that's the earliest I could do it now technically that's the end of q2 but yeah I can't do that so now what I have to do if this is definitely going to happen I need to go ahead and reinstate my company credit card I'm not putting this stuff on I'm not spending my own money because the reimbursement policy and all that is crazy and it would be at least a thousand dollars out of pocket for three days and going to be around eight hundred dollars if you include hotel for three days and um and uh what what is it the flights and yeah I don't have to be keeping receipts I rather just go ahead and get a corporate a corporate card and just be done with it ain't this awesome oh I'm like y'all got the budget for this now y'all didn't have the budget earlier so hopefully my manager will respond back but yeah I can't do that you know hey you guys so I'm going to show you real quick let me pause this I'm binge watching Dexter girl um I'm making a crockpot type of chicken potato mill because I don't have time to cook dinner excuse me so I have some diced up carrots here I have two potatoes yes one is yellow I'm using what I have I purchased this Campbell's oven sauce I've used these before they're very good it's the creamy garlic butter chicken hold on I gotta sneeze never mind I only use half of this okay and my crockpot I have a little bit of onion one tablespoon of garlic one tablespoon of olive oil I have some parsley over here I'm brownies with chicken drums and I have it seasoned with onion for the onion powder garlic powder Italian seasoning black pepper paprika and a little bit of salt it is Saturday let me show you what I'm wearing because I look cute today girl this is a perm rotset comparing those four that's going to be coming out I guess and a few more days I'm gonna show you I want to wear we're going to her birthday party around the corner I don't know where she's at we're going to her birthday birthday party I have on some high-waisted jeans just like a mom huh very casual some boots can y'all see this let's go makeup is very simple and I have a tan purse to just blend it all together baby this child the reason why I haven't been uploading consistently it has been a hell of a week and so yeah it's been a week since I post up a vlog but now I am remember well let's watch thumbnail picture let's watch thumbnail picture JV lost two teeth hug a mugga mugga all right y'all see y'all next week