 addiction. You know, you can forget about heroin and alcohol and the sex and all these other addictions that people go to the 12-step groups for. They really, you know, we form a support group here for linear time addictions anonymous. Ego-holics. Linear time of holics. You know, hi my name is Sonzo and I believe I'm a linear being. Hi, my name is Sonzo and I believe I'm a linear being. It could start off with that, where I used to say for course groups, people could go around the room, hi my name is Sonzo, I have a perceptual problem. And they, because everybody needs to be reminded that you could start out every group with just that. You know, you come in, you take your coat off and sit down, maybe you're thinking about your relationship problem or your work, how boring work is or you don't like how rainy the weather is or you know, your finances are in a terrible condition or something and you really, you need to, your mind is just focused on the gap. You know, really, it's just swirling in the gap of unreal thoughts and really what you need is you need to come in and start to come clean. Hi, my name is Sonzo, I have a perceptual problem because how can you let go of a perceptual problem unless you first admit you have a perceptual problem? How does an alcoholic let go of the drinking problem, which really is just a symptom of just self-criticism, self-doubt and judgment, unworthiness. The drinking is just a mechanism to try to drown out this, a survival mechanism. How do I not think about this horrific world? Some people, you know, turn to drinking to divert their attention away from the world. Some people go to movies and get into other kinds of escapism. There's many ways to try to numb out or escape the intensity of the horrific sense of this world. But you have to first come to an admission that you have a perceptual problem and that will be the first major step in releasing your mind from the gap. If you, first of all, if you're perceiving a world that doesn't even exist and that's what we call hallucination in psychology and psychiatry, you're hallucinating your psychotic as a break from reality, right, and heaven is reality. So if you think you're somewhere other than heaven, that's a psychotic break. So you're hallucinating, psychotic, you're schizophrenic. You're schizophrenic too because that's a split mind. You hear multiple voices. We've been hearing a lot of multiple voices. We call them people. It doesn't even have to be like a beautiful mind when you saw that movie where you had these imaginary characters. We've got seven billion imaginary characters and that's a lot of voices. And if we're honest, most of us would say that we suffer from multiple personality disorder. Do you act the same around your parents as you do other people? You change completely like a chameleon. If mom and dad are around, that's multiple personality. You completely exhibit a whole new personality when you're around mom and dad than you are other people or around your family. Maybe you've layered on that people pleasing nice and thick like molasses and really try to be a good little boy, a good little girl around mom and dad. Then you go on the internet and you curse people. You're high behind the internet so you can curse people. You can go in chat rooms, take on an avatar, do all kinds of things. You can go in virtual worlds online and fly and do all kinds of things. But around mom and dad, it's like, okay, I'll do it. I'll do it. I said I'll do it. Because you don't want to rock the boat besides his mom and dad. They seem to bring you into this world. You better do what they want and it's all this people pleasing stuff packed in there too. So you can see, you have to start to come to an admission that you have a perceptual problem, that you're perceiving a fragmented world that, you know, you don't really see things exactly as they are that you actually need help. You need perception training. And how could you accept the help of perception training if you haven't first admitted you have a perceptual problem? If you if you are so convinced that your perceptual linear world is fine and dandy. It's just fine and dandy. It's good. How are you going to be open to help to heal it? If you already believe that it's good, the way it is, you know, in linear terms. So this this song and what we're talking about in the movies that we'll show and so are are all to just be reminders that that really linear time has never satisfied you and it's never you've never been really content with linear time. They used to tell me take the good with the bad. What kind of advice is that? That's terrible. Take the good with the bad. I don't want any to one. If God didn't create the good and the bad of the world, why would you settle for take the good with the bad? Make the best of it. Make the best of what? Linear time. How do you make the best of linear time? Try to distract yourself because eventually you're gonna die. Thank you. Make the best of it. I'll remember that one. Make the best of it. You know, just think of the most common things that we're told in this world. And it's people like, okay, you know, it's okay. I'll remember that. You know, try to do that. You know, we have to learn to forgive the world. We have to learn to first admit that we have a problem going on with all this linearity before we can go vertical. Before someone who goes to 12 step program for Alcoholics Anonymous will call it. If they go into Alcoholics Anonymous and they sit there and they said, I'm not gonna really participate. I'm just gonna be an observer. I'm not going to participate in this. They got these 12 steps. I'm not gonna do them. I'm forced to be here. Court ordered me to come here. So I'm just going to just sit here and observe. And the other one else is high. My name's so and so and I'm alcoholic. You think they're gonna participate in that? No, I could admit that they're an alcoholic. You don't want to admit because part of them is attracted to the misery of the drinking and they, they don't even want to admit that they have a drinking problem. That's why we have alanon. We have groups for families of people where there's so much denial going on that nobody wants to admit that there's a problem. All right, I drink, I drink a lot. Okay, I pass out from time to time. Okay, I shot a few people when I brought it. I mean, it's just not really a problem. You know, it's the denial mechanism can be can grow quite strong. I can stop any time. I can stop any time. Yes, you know, those are the things that go on and on and on. And yet, the first thing of course comes, you have to admit that that there's a problem that you're powerless. You've been powerless over this problem. And you need help. And you can call it whatever kind of help you want. They don't even call it your higher power, whatever you want to call it. They don't even say you have to call it God and call it whatever I need to help from something. And that's what we have to do when you have a linear perception problem. You have to come to an admission that it has been a problem. And that you need to have help to get out of it. You need a higher power help to get out of this linear perception problem. And to me, that's exactly, you know, you're saying I can't manage this anymore. I've tried my best. I've been using all these defense mechanisms. Look, okay, now I've been able to survive my body surviving, I learned how to work and earn money and spend money. And I know how to eat and I have to defecate and okay, all right, I got the body thing down. I'm surviving as a body. And the Jesus and the Holy Spirit are going, you think that's an accomplishment to survive as a body? That's you're in the gap. You're, you're perceiving your whole universe is in this tiny little spot of darkness that we need mind training to go higher and higher. You need to learn how to be a miracle worker. You need to learn how to think in miraculous ways to lift yourself out of this linear perceived linear darkness. And that's what that's why we're all here because we need new tools. We've been using the other tools to survive as a human being on planet Earth. And meanwhile, we've got a soul sickness going on, because our soul is not at home here. And it's yearning like ET to go home. You know, that's what ET wanted to do. He was never satisfied on Earth. You know, he finally he just says, phone home, phone home. He kept telling the little boy, and a little boy finally joined with him and said, Okay, let's get this done. You know, took off took off instead of probing ET took off with him to try and find a way to get him home. And then his little bicycle took off in the air. Isn't that great? If we are willing enough to go for home, the true home, our little bicycles will go up into the air, you know, or whatever means we have will will be lifted up towards this goal because that's really the only goal that we is worthy of our holy mind is to go home.