 But I hated taking care of my child. I felt like I was a lesson mind. A recent research on demographic, psychosocial and clinical factors associated with post-potam depression in Kenyan women showed that out of the 171 women who were fallen for 6-10 weeks post-potam, 18.7% were found to help post-potam depression using an Indobak post-potam depression scale cutoff, EPDS of 10. Data by post-potam support international prenatal mood and anxiety disorders fact sheet showed that 15 to 20% of pregnant women experienced moderate to severe symptoms of depression. Post-potam depression, also called postnatal depression, is the type of mood over disorder associated with childbirth which can affect both sexes. As a mother of three, Pascal Ingeri realized she was struggling with caring for her newly born second baby who apparently was colik denying her time to sleep or even rest. When I got my second baby, I realized that things were not okay. So I realized that I had become very emotional. I had started struggling through motherhood. At some point, I think it was because at some point my child became such a cry baby. Oblivious of her current state entrenched in her new solitary personality, Pascal Ingeri began having negative thoughts since she felt her husband was not being supportive enough. So I became very negative in life. I became still having negative thoughts. It always used to be I'm very overwhelmed. I'm not sure I can take care of this baby. I'm not sure I'm a good enough mother. And I felt like my husband was not offering as much support as expected from him. But now thinking about it, you see for him he was doing what he thought was enough support for me. However, from my side there is those things that I considered as help and support for him. Her condition was so severe that at one point she almost crashed and hated taking care of her child. There's a time I almost crashed because I did not see a car coming and I almost got hit. It was the I need help moment. I need help because I'm not okay. I hated taking care of my child because every time I would need to take care of them it meant that they need so much from me in terms of time and me being there for them. Yet I was not okay myself. I did not have the slightest energy to take care of them. Irrespective of all her precautionary missions to avoid being pinched, Geraldine Muiruri still found herself in the same corner. She avoided millions of questions raised in her mind. So, for me that one time that went things haywire and then I found myself pregnant even after all those mourning after and everything. How do people get pregnant in this day and age? Like how do you ever even have unplanned pregnancies, you know? And I was like there's family planning, there's the mourning after. How? Due to her economic times, collect baby, financial constraints and severe pain since she underwent cesarean birth, Geraldine sees her mum as the only support system and she one time felt like jumping out of the moving car and die for she felt like a lesser mum. The father of my child decided not to be part of the child's life of which I don't blame him because none of us was prepared for it. The other time I'd feel like I want to just jump out of a moving car and die. I loved my child so much that I felt I'm not being mum enough. I felt like I was a lesser mum. With Brigitte Kaveta, her story is no different from Geraldine's. I realised I have depression when I give birth about two months after. It was so hard for me because I was a first time mum and the pregnancy was unplanned. As a new mum without any prior experience on knowledge of pregnancy or child winning Brigitte struggled so much to an extent of neglecting her son. For two good years she did this without having tears about it. It consumed me for about two years. At some point I started feeling funny towards my own son. He could cry but I just assumed. He could do something or be in diapers maybe be wet but I used to assume everything. There are some times that I used to ignore him completely, get out of the house, go do my own stuff for hours, come back later and try not to feel anything that I did wrong for him. It is true that I did, at some point, hit my own child. Before I hated him, I hated myself, I hated everything that was around me. I used to feel like he is here to make my life become more harder than it was before because when you have a child he depends or she depends fully on you in everything. Plagued with postpartum depression, financial constraints and colic babies, these mothers now have something to smile about. They all got help and decided to give back to the society. We have reached more than 450 people through ground events. We have been able to cancel 31 mothers. We have a WhatsApp support group which has 150 mums so our projects are around educating mothers and they understand besides the physical well-being of a new mum and pregnant mum. There is also the mental aspect to it that we need to also understand so that they know if I am feeling like this you need help, you need to check with a counselor whether you are okay and if you are okay then you will find, but if you are not okay then you are able to get help. At Mami's Touch we look at the wholesome well-being. It's about the health, the wealth and the well-being of the mum and the child so that then we raise a healthy generation which means when you are healthy then the economic status are better. We have organizations like Zawadi Mama. You can find them on Facebook and Instagram whereby we meet and forget about our troubles, talk to each other, talk with each other, share our problems and be better like I am right now. Monika Ngatwa, a clinical psychologist points out how post-partum depression manifests itself and its diagnostic procedures. We could classify them in three or four reasons why we think and believe that post-partum depression happens in mothers. Number one there could be a genetic predisposition which there is history of mental illness in the family and also there is especially families that have had people suffering from bipolar mood disorder then there is someone who is likely to suffer the depression bit because bipolar has the depressive bit and the manic bit and also there is the environment that the mum is surrounded with. She could be living in a very strainer environment emotionally, physically, financially so every single day is a struggle to live so that would send them into depression and I think they might have suffered depression before and so it just comes back during this time because there is so much that they are doing. When depression comes to the hospital the first thing you want to rule out is the physical causes which they do a test for thyroid function if the thyroid function isn't functioning properly then it means they are presenting with the symptoms of depression and the second one is they do depression inventory test and you are taken through a series of questions and series of tests and assessments to determine whether you are suffering from PTSD so once it is determined that you are actually suffering from not PTSD but PPD once you are suffering, it is determined then the treatment begins and there are two forms of treatment there is psychotherapy and there is medication the high prevalence of significant postnato depression symptoms among Kenyan women underskos the need for addressing this public health burden depression screening and psychosocial support interventions that address partner conflict resolution should be offered as part of the maternal health care I would wish that the ministry of health we have this clinic books that were given at the start of the journey if they could only include most of the book is about the child most of the time but if only they would include a page that has maybe pointers to look out for how the man is like what's her well being, what's her state what environment is she in then it would be easy to know for example this man is going to depression or this man is going through depression and hospitals have therapist nutritionists the same way they send when they find a child is malnourished they send you to a nutritionist then from the questions on the board then they will send one to a therapist early enough before 20 to 30 courses then the other stakeholders like the employers what if a mom comes back because after the three months they come back after leave and they are suffering depression postpartum depression so how do you suppose it's always good that the moms are supportive in that workplace I'm glad some organizations are doing that while others are yet to do that well we have reasons as to why we do the things that we do it's clear enough from the story above that no mother in India writes in they never want to harm their children that's incumbent on each and everyone of us to judge less and understand more for I-254-TV, I'm Dereva Tilari