 So it was during our first prayer line service and I'm standing there and people are screaming and writhing and the pastors are Casting out demons in the name of Jesus and me a former good Mormon boy former member of the LDS church I'm looking around. I'm thinking how did I get here? Well, the truth is we got here through the tender loving hand of Jesus who brought us out of that religion and into a Relationship with him and his gentle hand has moved us all the way through Salvation into deliverance because he came to set the captives free My name is Chris and I'm Michelle And we're here to tell you about our testimony I think the year was 2011 and we were outside of the LDS temple all dressed in our Beautiful white clothes and we had just gone through the sealing ceremony to get our family connected and we were At the top of you know Mormonism basically of the LDS church We had our our ticket punch there. We were in a wonderful spot. We were riding high But then things changed for us. I was reading The New Testament it was at the kitchen table and I was reading John chapter 3 and this is where Nicodemus comes to Jesus and Says essentially, what does it take to be saved? And Jesus says you're a teacher and you don't know And I just had this moment of like What are we doing here? Why are we going through all these steps? Why are we going through all these rules? And it just started Kind of bringing up this question mark in my mind of what are we doing? What is this all about? I had never really questioned the theology of the Mormon Church before I had I'd been a member all my life And I've been active and inactive and even when I was inactive. I hadn't really I always thought it was true I just wasn't living according to the standards of the LDS church We were often running into Christianity. We had lost our religion But we had found a relationship with Jesus and that was even more powerful even more important We didn't have a church to go to we didn't have a system We had no idea how to Christian and what was next for us was Jesus and so that's we launched right into Christianity we were born again is not very common that happens So for me it planted a seed in my heart to look to God's word differently I Started to question and so that was how God's word started to work in my heart But I was still very very scared when Christopher asked questions In fact, I thought that it was probably going to lead to divorce. I Was so scared. I had seen it firsthand and other people and in our word that that probably would end our marriage That was just the gut feeling that I had the fear that I had so what would happen for me is that I I would go from just your normal feeling like Relaxed and calm and peaceful and just that your day-to-day how you are I would go Immediately into a panic mode. I would feel like I got punched in the stomach. I if I was alone I would just drop to the floor And just in fear this kind of gut feeling this feeling of fear Wasn't only that fear of losing my marriage, but I felt it in general about the health of my My family where I I would go to the deepest fear of losing him These types of things wouldn't just fixate my fear Mentally, but I started to have physical sensations associated with them Prickling pain that would move. There was a time when all one side of my face. I had the sensations The most recent time Was on my back so after that experience it was very clear that there was something spiritual going on and that it was real and That it wasn't something that we were going to be able to Handle on our own and so we started looking at Deliverance as an option. I Had this student who for months has been going on and on and on about Hungry Jen and so I Asked Christopher when he got home. I said do you want to go to Hungry Jen on Sunday? and so he was like of course and That Sunday came and here we are in Hungry Jen and I just was like this Feels different than anything I've experienced We we went and and we were among the first people to be prayed for and as he prayed over me I remember hearing him renouncing things and breaking Curses and and saying things but at the same time my body started to contort and to twist And I remember him telling me to relax and I thought But I you know, I tried to when Pastor Vlad said For that to come off of my back. I I Had been feeling prior to him saying that I had been feeling intense feelings all through The middle part of my body and then I felt this strong urge to just to just like shake things off my hands and I was twisting as I said I was bent over and I remember just stomping my feet Just stomping my feet. It was like just release get out. You know that that feeling like the muscles just Tell I it was like my body was on its own just shaking something off and I had a very powerful Deliver its experience one that surprised me I I was aware the entire time of what was happening But I had prayed to if there was anything left there Lord to just I Want to let anything go. I am not holding on to anything including my dignity afterward I felt relief afterward I felt gratitude and It was after that that I told Christopher I I knew that that he had a number for a doctor and I said I need you to make that doctor's appointment For us and so that was a huge step. We did make that doctor's appointment. We did go to that doctor's appointment She was calm and collected throughout. There was no hiding under the blanket and crying or crumpling in the Closet and having breakdowns. I mean she was she was totally there since she went and got her blood work done, which is, you know, amazing And we're we're kind of back to normal. We're back to where we can talk about medical things again The kids don't have to hide their medical stuff. We can actually make some jokes about Medical things which before that was there's no way so yeah, this has been absolutely transformation. After that last deliverance experience It wasn't as though there were never thoughts, but it was like they were over here somewhere outside of me and I even one time Sophia and my daughter was complaining about her head hurting or whatever and There was the thought Kind of bubbling around and I literally just yelled and said no out in Jesus name. That is not My portion that is not my thought and I scared her a little bit then she was like clapping for me She's like alright mom, you know and as as Things would happen like I can pray for people now. I can pray for their healing and nothing none of it upsets me So I would just want to say to anybody that is struggling with fear in any form. You don't have to Do it all yourself It's not about you figuring out how to get from step one to step ten It's moving in the direction of God and he will do it for you And I just want to say something for the families out there, you know so often when people have these big Religious changes or spiritual changes they can fall into agnosticism or atheism But Jesus doesn't want that. He wants you to find him. He's out there and you don't have to go through that Trauma alone that Jesus is there for you and just because something else got it wrong doesn't mean that Jesus doesn't have it right So I know that there's hurt. I know that there's a sense of betrayal I know that there's a sense of pain but move towards Jesus because there was something in there that was right And that's something in there is Jesus So go to the Bible learn of him get to know who he is develop a relationship with him because that's more important That any religion you could ever have my name is Chris and I'm Michelle