 I did actually ask, you know, am I going to die if I don't have this operation? And he said yes and I said well I want to live so let's just get on with it. My name is Jane Hunt and I'm a Member of Parliament for Loughborough. I went to see my GP and they sent me for a colonoscopy. I went to Leicester General Hospital, they carry out the colonoscopy and you can see it on the on the screen at the same time. So you could see you know pink pink this lovely all the way round your colon and then there was this big black thing. I'm told it was about the size of a satsuma and I'm afraid I said what the hell's that? And the surgeon said I'm sorry I'm afraid that's cancer. So they go through the rest of the process and I have to say I'm not quite sure I was aware of everything at that stage. He went through the situation explained it very well very very calmly matter of factly that I did have bowel cancer. I was very grateful to him in fact I thanked him for the way he put it. Because he was perfectly calm he explained it to me thoroughly I understood and I really trusted him. I did actually ask you know am I going to die if I don't have this operation and he said yes and I said well I want to live so let's just get on with it. I was terrified I'll be honest with you. The surgeon and anesthetist all leaned over me as I was lying down and said they knew who I was and what I did and they said so about planning and of course we just we're just laughed and I laughed they relaxed me completely and that's the the last thing really I remember before I woke up in they high dependency unit. You have the operation you have a recovery period and then you start chemotherapy so I did try to go back to work earlier I promised I would do a speech for the police. I lent the back of my legs on against the chair and stood up and said it and sat down. I knew I wasn't well enough to come back which was really really heartbreaking. It's hard to explain but I felt like I'd let the side down and so I just couldn't tell people I just couldn't not not at first. I need to look after Loughborough. I've wanted to do this job my whole life and what with COVID and everything everything thwarted me this last four and a half years absolutely everything but I'm damned if it's going to stop me definitely go and get a diagnosis what I don't want to do is get people scared about chemotherapy it's worth it because if you just go through the 12 weeks of chemotherapy you know you've done everything you can possibly do to help yourself recover. I feel really really good I'm gradually coming out of it life is really valuable that's what I've taken away forget money forget ambition forget any of those things it's people that you you really really realise are the most important things in your life.