 Shame in self. So we will talk about now how not having access to the dominant language, but also the devaluation of the linguistic capital we have leads to a sense of shame in our own identity. So we talk about work and we talk about how not knowing the official language which most probably is English limits ones participation at work. So this student says that even if you know the work the presentation of that work has to be in English and that is where the problem lies. So you might have all the knowledge but you might not be able to demonstrate that knowledge not be able to make the argument not be able to negotiate compromises because you do not know the language within which the all of this is being done officially and then interestingly this child says the boss will never take with himself someone who cannot speak someone who cannot speak does this person not know any other language or is it that he cannot speak he is now equating the language that is English language with the right to speak and the right to be heard and I would like to remind you of the similar incident incidents in this private school if you would remember this boy who wants to say something of essence a problem to this principle who would not listen to this principle because do this child because he does not speak in English and again at workplace we can see the same ideology and how much he's worried that he'll never progress in his career because the boss will not take somebody who has this poor English language proficiency because people might think that his team is not competent enough or not educated enough again talking about Khalid Khalid is an interesting case we are talking about this person who is in a white who is in a blue collar job simple person managing a generator at a factory getting a low salary not a big deal but even then because people quote switch so much into English his boss asked him to hand over a certain tool using an English term and say something a very short phrase in English and he cannot understand he cannot understand and the people around him laugh at him and he sort of remembers the embarrassment to that day and then he talks about something is social life and he's sitting with his friends and is now suddenly not feeling well and he says in Urdu he says Mujhe Matli Oree and his friends start laughing and he says why are you laughing and he says there's no such thing as Matli there is nausea or you say I feel like Mujhe vomit Oree so although these students this group would not use a whole sentence because of course they do not have access to English language but even the use of one phrase in Urdu rather than in English makes it the makes it or legitimizes this making fun of this person so you can see how the depth of this I English hegemonic ideologies are working within the society then this teacher talks about a staff room this girl has worked very hard in her life moved up to this small low fee private school and what is her salary her salary is only 1500 rupees and within this staff room also she feels that when two or three teachers are talking to each other in English then she feels so excluded and doesn't know where to go and then we are talking about the low self esteem that she feels and this is this court we are like lesser has been used by several participants who feel they are lesser in position and which is very worrying because now they have all undergone secondary education the point of departure remember was secondary education and if you want this a very blatant example of how shame in self works think about this girl again who is now in this a teaching in this class three let's is class three low fee private school and you can think about where think about the neighborhood where people are only paying 300 to 500 rupees as fee and she says it is very embarrassing one day when I was teaching math to grade three I said per car she asked them to take out the per car the Urdu word for compass and the and a child said miss this is called a compass it was such a shame I did not even know that Bahare are multiplication tables and then they that is the students are started to ask miss how much have you studied I told them it was none of their business but they kept asking miss how much have you studied it is such a shame now this is the point where need to think about what we are doing this girl who had this FA that is she had done intermediate properly qualified to teach mathematics at least to this class of three cannot just turn around and tell the children that per car is an Urdu word illegitimate Urdu word for compass what is the big deal that Bahare is what we call tables multiplication tables in order and these are this is the difference between two languages and my education is this much and it is much more than you would need at this stage but she all she does was say again and again is what a shame it was how embarrassing it was and this is exactly what happens when we devalue the linguistic capital of people