 it's 1400 years ago it's the ninth of Muharram at night you're in your tent you hear noises coming from outside you leave your tent to come and see what's happening you look around you see people are leaving the camp of aba abdullahi sallam looking around for a split second your eyes fall into the eyes of monsayn alayh sallam in that moment you decide you're going to stay the day of ashura comes you're now the 73rd companion of aba abdullahi sallam imagine you walk up to the holy imam and you offer yourself your service to him and he gives you a choice he says you can serve me wherever you like which part of ashura would you want to be involved in to be honest it it is a difficult question and the feelings are getting higher if you imagine this image as you talked about ashura and karbala with aba abdullahi al hussain i will do everything what aba abdullahi gives me i tell him aba abdullahi do you want me to clean your feet i clean your feet do you want me to get water for you for your children no problem do you want me to fight or do you think it is better that i stay with the woman or the children it's up to you but my dream or the dream of us shia is to fight with aba abdullahi to fall with aba abdullahi because in ashura when we we cry or when we make some rituals of aba abdullahi al hussain like latom or tatubir or something like that we always remind that i hope this pain or this blood felt in karbala with aba abdullahi but it's up to aba abdullahi maybe he tells me i don't want you but if you say aba abdullahi asks me what do you want to do it's up to aba abdullahi because he's he's like a king and we are his slaves and a slave can't take a slave normally hasn't got his own his own mind his own idea he just do what the king tells him to do and aba abdullahi is our imams our king that's all i can say about it now imagine you've had a long day at work you come home you open the door you walk in you see your family running around the house frantically one person's bringing fruit another person's making tea another person's organizing food and it occurs to you that you might have guests you might have visitors who've come around to see your family so in that commotion you grab someone you say what's going on who's come to see us and one of your family members replies they haven't come to see us they've come to see you so you say who is this person who's come to see me maybe it's a friend from work a friend from school a friend from mosque and they say he's waiting for you in the living room so you come to the living room you open the door you walk in you see sitting on your chair is imams saying the next thing in that moment difficult question say what would you say to him what would you want him to say to you as you say if we imagine the picture if you come to the living room where normally you find your sister or your brother or your mother or your father and then you come and see Abab Abdullah Hussein salamu alaikum i think automatically you fall on his foot and you kiss his foot it's a dream as well it's a dream as well that you forgot about the line in your house as we because i dream as well that that when sahib is the man comes out salamu alaikum that he that i can get him to our house to make food for him to give him something to drink to make massage for his food i will tell about the law of Hussein abab Allah or what i belong or what i have got now my money my clothes my family my good manner is it's all from you abab Allah and all what i have got now my family my sister my brother my mother everyone my family everyone of my friends it's for you abab Allah it belongs to you abab Abdullah and i again as i answered the first question i will also ask him abab ab Abdullah what do you want tell me if you want me to die i'm going to die if you want me to fight i will fight because i can't normally if you've got a father or if you got a manager at your work or a professor in your university you always wait till he tells you something to do because for example the professor and the university he normally tells you you have to learn this for the exam or the manager at work he tells you you have to put this here you have to put this there so i can't imagine that i can say to abab Abdullah ab Abdullah i wanted to do this to do this or i wanted to do this or i don't want to do this we have to because abab Abdullah he comes with a message from Allah SWT and Allah SWT or what he said in the Quran or or what Ahlulbayt said in the books we can't come and say no i want i don't want to do it for example Allah SWT wants us to pray to fast i can't come and say oh Allah i don't want to pray iman khusayn it's just like this you come to your say and say to him oh iman i don't want to do this or should i do this you wait what abab Abdullah says but i know sometimes abab Abdullah his heart is the best heart ever as we listen in the lectures or when we read in the books in karbala abab Abdullah he came to abel falabas alaihi salam and told him i don't want you to fight i don't want that you you you go so you don't die i don't want to lose you he always said this to his son alakwar alaihi salam or to his friends abab Abdullah has got a heart not like the most of the people today when you go now to an army the general he doesn't care if you die or you don't die you are a soldier and you have to fight if you die okay then he will maybe be sad or if you stay fighting it's good as well but sometimes i think we have to decide for the way which is not so simple because amir mu'mini alaihi salam he said that our way is not a simple way and that he'll wait want to make it simple for us but we always have to take the way which is more difficult when abab Abdullah tells me i don't want you to fight i have to say to him abab Abdullah please i want to fight because i know you will fight as well and i can't stay if you and one or two hours will be killed let's say so imagine you've had a talk with him for one hour two hours now he gets up to say his farewell and leave your house just as his leaving the door he turns around he looks at you and he says i've accepted you as a servant how would you feel hearing that from him for him to say he's happy with you with your actions with your manners that he's taking you under his family under his servanship to be honest i will be proud if imar hasen talks to me what if he tells me something like that i think i will i will fly because i will be so happy because i will be so proud because we she are today most of the people are against us the Wahhabis there are much people who are against us and in this moment when abab Abdullah tells me you are good you now belong to me it's the same dream which every one of us she dreams now when sahib is a man salamu alay comes out and he choose you as a soldier because the soldiers of ahlulbayt are be chosen he can't go and say can i be a soldier you can do it as well like hurra riyahi wa du'am Allah ta'ala alayh he was first an enemy of abab Abdullah and as he came to Karbala he saw abab Abdullah he went to abab Abdullah with his son and his slave told him abab Abdullah can we fight with you but to be honest hurra riyahi was chosen as well from Allah before we know the friends of abab Abdullah the soldiers the people who fight with ahlulbayt they are being chosen and i don't know how i will react on this what abab Abdullah says to me because i will think okay i'm not just chosen from abab Abdullah from Allah so it was a secret which i didn't know the whole time i always tried to make the best and finally i had this from abab Abdullah i think my reaction was i don't know if i will laugh or if i will cry or if i will shout loud i don't know but if abab Abdullah tells me okay you are now one of me then i don't need anything more i don't need my work don't need my money no don't need my family as well because i forgot you are the same i don't even need this world at the beginning i asked you about 1400 years ago i asked you about a day that most of us have at least a little bit of information on obviously no one knows the depth of the tragedy but we know who was killed where they were killed how they were killed now knowing what we know of that day it might be easy to say for example if i was there with abab Abdullah i would have at least given him five more minutes with imam saying when he shouted Ya Ahi for example if i was there with the tents of the women and children maybe i could have stalled it five more minutes from them burning the tents down or hitting the children and at the beginning i said to you imagine you walk up to the imam and the imam gives you the choice he lets you decide now in this day and age a lot of people often forget that we have a 12th imam who's also with us may Allah is in his reappearance and in a way him being physically absent from us is giving us a choice in how we want to serve him because he's not here to say for example go and pick this up for me go and do this for me go and bring this person here he's absent from us so we have to use our own logic our own understanding to do what we can for him now my final question i guess is what do you think you've done for the 12th imam how do you think he feels about you what do you think he expects from us today i don't think Sahaba Zaman will accept me because what i do for Sahaba Zaman is just like nothing just if i think now about okay a day has got 24 hours how many hours do i think about Sahaba Zaman i i think it will not be an hour it will not be an hour at the day and to say okay Sahaba Zaman i will fight with you as you said if we imagine now it's just a dream but if we come to the reality and you really have to leave everything and go with an imam if you've got a woman who you love or children or family or friends it will be difficult but i think it will be not difficult if your heart is filled up with love to Sahaba Zaman or generally to Ahlul Bayt alayhi Muslima sometimes if we think about what we do in our life i don't think Sahaba Zaman say okay i'm proud of you your person is really good because we i don't know if everyone is like that but normally when i look at myself or at my friends i see we just make us ready for ashwara just make us ready for shahara madame but we always forget we have to make us ready for the thing which is most important and it is Sahaba Zaman it's just it's always in the pack of our mind that there will a day comes and we have to stay and we have to forget everything and leave everything and stay with Sahaba Zaman so i don't know what to answer about that if someone wanted to become closer to Sahaba Zaman alayhi Zaman what would you recommend for them to do the first thing your manner for your family and to your parents have to be good because when we look now to the your they don't have much respect to their parents that's the first thing because Ahlulbayt say if your parents are happy about you then Allah's oh so happy about you second thing that you always have to pray and not two three hours later the third thing is that you fill up your heart with Ahlulbayt not with women or money or cars or anything of this world you have to fill up your heart with Ahlulbayt so you have to read books a hadith of Ahlulbayt you can read a hadith what will be happened when Sahaba Zaman comes out what he will do first and where will he go first that's the most important thing that you always go to the hadith go to the people who has got many informations about these subjects and there are some things which are very simple but we always leave it like which we can read every morning Imam Sadaq alaihi salam told us if you read the Ahlulbayt 40 days it will be inshallah be a soldier of Sahaba Zaman or every Friday oh Sahaba Zaman told us as well if you want me to come so first as possible then read du'a al faraj and du'a al faraj is also a du'a which is very important but here we have to stay at this point I can't read du'a al faraj a thousand times a day but how do I read it am I busy with this world and my heart is not filled up with love to Sahaba Zaman and I read du'a al faraj it's just like if you for example sing something and do another thing at the same time du'a al ahad if you read it it has to be it has to come from your heart from the inside of you there are many points but now these points are just in my mind now huda huda