 I have a question. You've been talking about mind, mind, mind, mind. What about the feeling, the emotion? Yeah. And my understanding is what is buried in the subconscious is the feelings, the feelings that took it, that projected that. How do you get those emotions and feelings out? There's only two emotions. Love and fear. Now, he does say that fear has many sprays in this world, in a sense of anger, irritation, frustration, envy, jealousy. Gosh, you could go on and on and on because they're all upsetting basically. None of them feel good and they're all like a giant spray off of that. And love, you know, a lot of times peace and joy, and peace seems a little bit different than joy. Joy sometimes seems just so exuberant, you know, but contained in peace sometimes is just so restless. Once again, it comes back to thoughts. That's why we have to always talk about mind because it's the thoughts that the mind identifies with that produce the emotion. Say that again. It's the thoughts that the mind identifies with that produces the emotion. So remember, we just talked about there's the Holy Spirit thought system in our mind, that light, the reminder that you have never left heaven. There's still this guy created you, he loves you and everything. Those are what the Course calls our real thoughts. But they're buried. They're buried in the mind because all these stack has been thrown over. The mind is so afraid that it's thrown to stack in between the real thoughts. So here's the Holy Spirit thought system and here's the ego. Now, every instant the mind is choosing one of the others. So the guilt is in the mind. The mind aligns with the ego, believes that the ego is real, makes a decision, we'll say, for the ego. And then what happens on the screen is there's a reinforcement that the screen just brings back to the mind whatever it wants to see. If it believes it's innocent and holy, guiltless, then you see the forgiven world. But if you believe in guilt and you still are buying into guilt, then you see a world of duality. You see a world where you're a victim and that. So that's why when we talk about emotions we always have to come back to mind and thoughts or cognition because it's the thoughts that are being brought into it. It's not like the feelings cause the thoughts, but which thought system is the mind buying into it. My conscious decision or my understanding is now, I don't want to choose that no more, but it's still coming out all the time. That's a good question. And this was my question about, you never talk about the emotion, how do you change that? Okay, now we've got a question where you're saying, I don't think I'm consciously choosing ego. I'm not going along. I don't feel like, oh, yeah, I'm going to choose ego on this one. And then it doesn't seem that way experientially. So what I'm going to talk about is the conscious mind, which is, we could say, I'm a person, Jeannie. I've got a job and I'm living in a world and it's still kind of a teeny view. Jesus probably wouldn't really call this conscious. He still would be calling it hallucination. In this world, it seems to be what the world calls a psychology called the conscious mind. That's at the surface of the mind. That's like at the top of the Empire State Building where the flag is blowing. That's the conscious part of what seems to be my everyday experience. Now what I'm saying is, once the separation seems to occur, God placed the answer right there where the problem was. He placed it right in the mind where the ego was. He wouldn't put the answer in the world when the problem's in the mind. Because then there would be no way he wouldn't do any good. So he put the answer right next to the ego. Now, that's down in the basement. You've got ego and Holy Spirit. These are the two alternatives. But now, here's the mind of the brain, so it stacks all these layers. First four, second four, third four. I don't want to remember. I've got to get away from that light. And fifth, sixth, seventh, eighth, forty-ninth, fifth. These are all the unconscious beliefs that are in the mind. That kind of prop up the surface, which says, I'm a person living in the world. So that's why it's seemed as if the person, Jeannie, is not going through her day thinking, I am so angry at God, I'm going to choose the ego again, consciously doing that. But in the mind, whenever we're upset, I think it's because of our boss or co-worker or the weather or, you know, the stock market or whatever it is, the dog pee on our carpet or whatever it is, it doesn't so much matter because that's the screen. That's really not what's going on. It's going on because of a decision that's in my mind. And it comes up through the filter of all these beliefs as, you know, I'm going to choose the ego. I know that. I mean, I know that. Is there a way where you can change that without junking up everything again? No. You have to look right, you have to look at all those floors. What you mean by looking? That means to come to the surface and experience it. Raise it to the left. That's what you call looking. Yeah, and you will have to go through the pain. There's a belief there. In other words, there's some thinking that fell in the mind that didn't come from God. This was not created by God. And instead of hiding that, you've heard of defense mechanisms like in psychology, denial, repression, projection, on and on and on. These are all ego defense mechanisms to keep from looking at the beliefs. You know, projection is a common one. Obviously, you know, if I could start blaming, that the blaming might be a more common word for it. If I can blame things and everything around me, then I don't need to look at my beliefs. Forget about that. What you mean, you have to look at the ego. What do you mean by that? My question is, if we have to unload, does that mean to unload and go through the pain? Is that to look at the ego? We have to unload one, two, three, five, ten floors, twelve floors? One by one? The good news is, at the beginning it seems like one by one. But the more you work with it, the more it teaches that all these layers and levels are all form distinction. In other words, you know, you can have many beliefs about the world of form. Just look at all the different beliefs. Belief and starting will start with the basics like time, space, bodies. You can have beliefs about men and women. Let's just take men and women. Sexual stereotyping. You know, what little girl has learned from mommy and daddy about what it means to be a girl? The boys, those are all form beliefs that are tied into the form of little girl. What does it mean to be an American? What does it mean to be from France? What does it mean to be educated or intellectual? What does it mean to be a Democrat and Republican? These are all form things. They all relate to the world of form. That's the stack I'm talking about. But there is a shortcut. There needs to be a long, painful experience to go through these one by one. Jesus is trying to teach the mind and the Holy Spirit the difference between form and content. Form and what? Content. Purpose. If the mind can get the Holy Spirit's purpose, then you can start to see that these are all things. An illusion is an illusion. It may have moved in variations. Like, for instance, time and space. If you had a philosopher in here to discourse on time and space. Now, time and space seem to be different things. The distance it takes a light year is a way. It seems to be one thing. And then space in terms of space in a home, you know, you don't say... Space between objects. That door is, you know, two seconds away. It's usually up towards 15 or 20 feet away. It's usually in spacetime. Well, Jesus says, of course, that space and time are one illusion. It's part of the projection. Yeah. The whole thing, the whole sense that it's all connected. But you can see how space and time, male and female, Republican and Democrat, all these things are form distinctions that the mind has learned. It seems that the concrete and form is real. So Jesus is saying, we're going to work. The Holy Spirit is going to try to teach you in it. You'll start with the specific. That's where the lessons start. Nothing I see means anything. This table does not mean anything. This chair unit. He knows the mind believes that in specifics, tables, chairs, pencils, waste baskets. So he starts there. But the whole point of the Course in Miracles, the shortcut, if you will, is to see that there is one purpose that can be given to everything in the world of form. And that's the Holy Spirit's purpose. So I was given the example the other day of a chunk of a house that's decorated with all these paintings and Chinese vases. And we'll say some of these vases will say are ancient vases from the Ming dynasty worth thousands of thousands of dollars. And in my example, I have a little child a little girl coming into the house and here comes a dog. The dog gets into the house. She's happily, here comes a dog chasing the dog through this house and through the halls where these Ming dynasty vases are. And the parent comes out and looks and sees the girl chasing the dog around the corner and knocks one of the vases over. Now, this is a pretty extreme example of how we use it because the Holy Spirit's purpose in the mind is the healing of God's Son. It's always the attitude of love that counts, in other words. But you can see from the ego's perspective the ego believes in possessions the ego believes in the thing in this world and value not seeing the Christ and the child, but the things are you can see where a reaction of the parent could be kind of like go after the little child really scream and holler once you said why did you let the dog go? So, this is an extreme example because this is a form content thing where the ego sees the form as being important and the Holy Spirit, of course, knows the form as meaning. That the content of love, forgiveness is the big thing. Now, look at all the chances we get to practice this every day. When you start to get wound in the form especially when you're working with children and you have these things in your mind called your duties and your obligations and so forth that you take on as part of your job role which is still made up or you take on as part of your parent role what it means to be a good mom you may have conditioning in there every mom may have an idea of what it means to be a good mom to keep things clean part of maybe being a good mom well, tell ya when the little girl comes or the little boy comes tracing through the house with the mud then there can be some upset because something's being violated in the mind but what I'm saying is it's always being violated just in the mind the ego will say you know, project project the anger so the way to go through the stack or through the skyscraper is you start with Jesus on a specific level and little by little you learn that the only thing important is forgiveness the only thing important is love we all have a concrete and a concrete perception of feelings of different fears and different things that we experience in this world different things that we want to avoid and so on and so forth and we need to start after we give kind of a metaphysical basis we'll be nice if we could all just come in here and sit down and hold hands in a firm we are the holy child of God and then all of a sudden all the problems will disappear and basically the path of the Course is saying it's got all that good stuff in there that you're a holy son of God and that you're created by a loving father or a spirit and that you're infinite and magnitude and a lot of the things that we've read all around but the Course's path is basically saying that's the presence the Christ's presence is available to you always, right now but you've kind of covered it over with these dark veils and with these distorted perceptions and that's why sometimes it doesn't seem like Jesus or the Holy Spirit or the Higher Self or Harvard you want to look at that is available to it and basically the Course is just saying you put barriers in between your awareness of that that love so really this is kind of looking at in some ways instead of more affirming the light it's more of holding in mind that we are the light but kind of really looking at the darkness and kind of raising it up from the unconscious and taking a look at it and once you can see it then you can say it's like looking at the fear is how you peer through it so that's what this Course is it's a Course in opening your mind and changing your perception of the world and basically the only goal of the Course and it states it's over and over and over is this is the Course in peace of mind the peace of mind is the goal and basically the means for coming to that peace of mind the Course calls a miracle now when we use the word miracle a lot of times we use images of maybe whatever red sea parting or being healed of sickness leprosy or blindness or you may think in your own life of having a lot of it look back at your own life or something that just works out beyond anything that you think you can control and you think like well that's kind of like a miracle the Course is kind of in a sense a miracle is like a divine intervention or it's inspired by God what comes from that inspiration is a change of mind at the way that you're looking at whatever you're looking at