 You know, David, I'm really a bit scared because once I get to hang of all this miracle, business, you know, I'm sort of frightened that there'll be no challenge in life and I'll be walking around like some sort of holy zombie or something. You know what I mean? Well, that is kind of cute because it's helpful. If you think about those old movies, the walking zombies, the zombies are like the walking dead. And then you start to go deeper into your mind when you realize that an ego made this world up and this is the ego's field and that it's already the walking dead. This is the land of the zombies. It's not like it could become where it is. It's like when they worked at hospitals. There was death all around everything, but I was really aware that I was just watching a scene and I would only seem to speak when I heard a really sincere question. In a sense, a lot of the people that were dying over their last days or hours would kind of come to me while I was serving them food or doing something. They would hear like discurgency. I was like, you can tell me what this is about. And I'd say, you're innocent and you're loved and you're so perfect and I would just be a conveyance of the perfection of all it is. And then they would check out me. I come back and they check out. I said, raising the dead. I was giving them permission to let the body go. Go ahead. You did a great job. You did a wonderful job. What about my children? Don't worry. They're fine. But if people are just seemingly reporting on something, it is a very interesting period of the mind training because you're in a phase right now which we could call true empathy. What Jesus says the difference between true empathy and false empathy is when true empathy, you stay with what's real and true. And if you start to become aware of the unlimited nature of life, which is really what miracles are showing and leading pointing us to the unlimited nature of life, then there isn't a sadness or a grief with the past. Nor is there a question even in terms of where do people go and all this stuff, it just starts to drift away and there's just a state of stillness and silence. And I have gone to superheroes where I have been asked to speak and they have been very joyful times where I've just expressed a lot of joy and people start weeping and crying because of the joy. They could feel it. They could feel it with no sense of loss, no sense of missing, a sense of presence, very strong presence there and they just were weeping because of the presence. And for me that is a very essential aspect of the mind training. Where I think it gets difficult is when we still have some unconscious beliefs that we could let somebody down or hurt somebody's feelings or lose a friend or whatever from our stillness. Like somehow our presence would be offensive to somebody. Love's presence would somehow offend somebody. Those are doubt thoughts. The idea that love's presence could actually offend is a crazy idea but it's like we're clear in our mind of those thoughts. Sometime I went to Michigan and I was visiting two friends and they said that somebody was dying in this community and they were on their death bed and I'm laid out on this couch and they were in their final hours or days or whatever. And then they wanted me to go and I said okay I went and I went into this home and there was a man laying there on the couch and he was dying and relatives and his sister, different people were in the house and I actually went in there and it was the feeling of like a very somber house. Like a very somber house. Heavy, like heavy with grief. I didn't actually feel it but I could pick up that that's what seemed to be going on in the scene. So I just sat there very still, very still and I'm always ready on the spots of the Spirit if there's anything to say or do or to just be there in presence in silence and then at some point the Holy Spirit started speaking through me and quite a lot came through and apparently the man's sister was Catholic or was a Catholic household. Whatever the Holy Spirit was speaking at one point the sister just said okay I am very uncomfortable with this and she looked over at me and she said you and your friends are going to have to leave. Have to leave the house, everything. And then the dying man who was laying there and all the strength he had left in his arm put his arm, his fizz in there and said no, let him continue. So and then as I continued to speak I even mentioned the Course and the dying man said I studied the voice of miracles and there were parts of the Course of miracles that I did not understand and I wanted to hear what this man has to say and the Catholic sister just sat down and the Holy Spirit continued. If that was David in there there was no way you and your friends are going to have to leave I probably would have just tucked my tail between my legs and I wouldn't have walked out but the voices continued speaking. It was almost like unfazed by this you're going to have to leave it was like the Spirit didn't even skip a beat. To me that was a real teaching in true empathy in truly staying a servant of the Lord and not getting caught into judgments and criticisms and self criticisms of embarrassment, humiliation or this kind of unworthiness in the ego mind that just doesn't want to offend it feels itself as offensive so it's always guarding against offending anybody and that's where the people pleasing comes in you know when you're too afraid to let the voice of Spirit speak through you you tend to err on the side of just people pleasing then you feel all wishy-washy and you feel like you've compromised and you feel it's disempowering when you compromise like that so I think you're just in a phase where the Spirit is using you in a sense of true empathy and it's this unswerving, unflinching dedication to the truth and this awareness that Jesus says I did not die, teach that I did not die is what he's teaching us to do and your presence in that is very, very important if it seems like people are offended if it seems like friends turn away and go oh I can't even be around that or this and that that's okay too doubt thoughts will disappear it's when we hold on to people and even if they're very negative and judging and criticism we say oh but that's my friend you know people really aren't people they're just thoughts and so when we have thoughts that seem to be very negative around us and so on and so forth we're so afraid to lose anybody nothing's being lost we're just releasing the judgmental thoughts in our minds and those complaining, whining people that seem to be around us we're our complaining, whining thoughts that we weren't quite ready to let go of I mean it just disappears I get phone calls, I get emails but these emails come flooding in with sincere questions or phone calls with people that are very, very sincere and very, very loving and respectful and we have this deep connection but when was the last time somebody called me up just whine, whine, whine, whine oh it's so bad, let me tell you how bad it is where he was on the phone for 30 minutes and whine I can't take it anymore because it's like, why would you why are you hanging on to those relationships why are you clinging and holding to those people it's like, oh but David, it's mom who is my father and mother, sister and brother he that does the will of our father in heaven is father and mother, sister and brother if it was mom, that's fine too I mean I was like, if you really let her go if you let the concept go, she will come back reborn I've watched it, I've watched it with my biological family I let him go, I just said oh whatever this construct is, it was made in guilt guilt, guilt, guilt, guilt, guilt and I said, yikes, I've got to really let it go it's very good, let it go then you let it go and you wait for it to be given back to you and you can wait patiently it can take weeks, months, years who's gonna hurt you? you know, if you're in the present moment and they're gonna hurt you, you can wait with patience that's something I did in the course about infinite patience produces immediate results I said don't try to figure it out it's Jesus this is how he talked but you can see where he's coming from infinite patience produces immediate results and that's where we're getting into that that's a really certainty in our hearts that we are love, that we deserve love that we can receive, give and receive love we don't have to compromise we don't have to try to cling and hold on to old patterns