 There's a lot of beautiful saints and mystics throughout the centuries and a lot of them were pretty reclusive. They went through a lot of the dark night of the soul, St. John the Cross, and they were about it. It was daunting when they described the darkness they went through. It was like gut-benching and it wasn't like those were popular books. It wasn't like St. John the Cross and the dark night of the souls that were bound for the New York Times bestsellers. It's usually for those of us that somehow find ourselves drawn into this new, this pathway to know who we are. Like the Greeks said, know thyself. We really find ourselves unmistakably drawn to experiencing the truth of who we are and our identity. And then when we go deeper into it, the darkness rises up. But Jesus was, he was a public mystic. He was a public mystic, especially those three years. It was a very public mystic. He was very transparent and the stuff that came out of his mouth was urged that it was absolutely not in this world. And even since 2000 years ago, it's just been like a shockwave in this world. There's still reverberations going on. I just watched this movie called God's Not Dead and it was kind of inspired by all these lawsuits all over the country between universities and Christian organizations that are just wanting to talk about Christ and me enjoying everything. And this reaction of the ego to such a bright, unconditional loving light just are like tidal waves that continue to go on. The light of Christ kind of hitting this planet would be like a meteor hitting the ocean. It's like a big tidal wave over everything. Psychologically, that's kind of how it is. The ego is to believe that there is no God. There is no light. And the light, you might say that perfect love casts out fear but you have to bring all the darkness up into awareness that light before it disappears. So that's really the journey. But I will tell you that this journey is not a journey of sacrifice at all. That's just a belief. It needs to be somehow to give up something good and real and important to know who we are or good and real and important just to experience peace of mind is ridiculous. I feel deeper I went into the course, it just got deeper and steeper. And I thought I was like hanging on with Jesus like I'm barely hanging on here. And this is like turning everything I believe right side up and it's been upside down and now it's going right side up and it was quite tumultuous as this person was saying. It wasn't fun. And my pathway was more traditional since it seemed to be many years of just facing things. I didn't really do it so much with relationships in the early years or it didn't have a lot of whining companions around me. But wow, when I broke three of the limits of the ego and I'm going to shine this, I'm going to share this to the whole world I'm going to make it easy for everyone. Whenever I had to go through to pop through this darkness I'm going to let the light shine and make so many tools and resources and words, I'll travel, I'll do whatever you want to make this as quick and easy for everyone. Because how could you not? If you experienced such love and joy, you want to give it away. So if you find the way, if you find the pathway, you want to share that pathway. It's what love does, it just wants to share to make it easy for everyone. So what we found is our minds are quite unusual by what you might say traditional standards but not so much in the form we don't really live secluded lives. We are extremely available and people can feel the presence and the love that comes through because we meet with people and we were invited today on the way here to very Pennsylvania to stop and have breakfast with me and we did. We're very, very joyful. We're very, very accessible mystics. We're like, okay, Bob Evans, okay, we'll leave it. And we had a wonderful breakfast but we're very, very, very accessible. Also we're very accessible through all the channels of modern technology. People call to us, they write to us, they Skype us, they Facebook us, it's the messages. It just comes in all kinds of ways. They come in and they live with us. I'm having a happy time and now we're sort of three of them. How many? You count with 30. I've all over the world so I have many kinds. I live with many people in many different places. People ask me, but can you buy locates? I say, buy locates. I'm all over the place. I'm in people's dreams. On one day, that's sort of for people. So you were in my dreams, I say. Somebody else says, you were in my dreams. And you were. See, I'm multi-locating. And I'm not even trying to do it. I'm just showing up in people's dreams and helping out through things. It's fun. That's really a lot of fun too. You're not in one place. You really start to see that this is just a symbol. And that's why some of the mistakes and things have appeared to people in dreams and visions to help out because it's just symbols. Our mind just needs symbols that we can relate to. You get to a certain point too. It's really freeing when you start to realize that people aren't people. They're thoughts. Not there by accident. You've drawn forth these witnesses to you. They're just acting out everything you believe in. And as soon as you start to realize that it's your own beliefs and your own thoughts, then you're not going to be blaming anybody. You're going to be thanking everybody because whether they're acting out loving, kind, compassionate thoughts, or even if they're acting out the dark thoughts that you need to forgive and release, you're going to be grateful for even them acting out the darkness because it's going to bring it up into awareness and show you where you need to release. So as Jesus says in the Course, only gratitude is an appropriate response to your brother. Both gratitude. Both for his love and his calls for love. We can thank our brothers and our sisters both for their love and for their calls for love because both are capable of bringing love into our awareness if we allow them, if we let the Spirit use them. And you know how it is in relationships. There's so much mirroring that goes on. If you had children, if you had spouses, there's a lot of intense mirroring that goes on. When you live in community, other than a lot of different spiritual communities for the years, that's magnifying the mirroring. We share a house with a group of people, a case of our monestates, 49 acres. There's a lot of mirrors that go on in 49 acres. But you know when you do a lot of traveling, like I do, you're staying with people, mirrors, mirrors, mirrors. I have to thank all the mirrors, the many, many thousands of mirrors in my life because they really sped things up from my early days and trying to meditate my way through everything. To, oh, in my face, Latin is to be forgiven. Oh, I need to forgive that. It just kept coming at me. But I really got out of the grievance of blaming people and trying to get rid of people and trying to get away from people. I just was blessed when I realized that they all had a gift. Everyone had a gift was bringing me a gift. So, that's what you'll be hearing tonight from us. Also, so much, when you really clear your mind of all the resistances and all the judgments and the debris, then the fruits of the spirit come through. I never sought to write books or do anything. I was not a traveler. I was one of those kids, you know, are we there yet? The parents take you on a trip and my sister and I, we did not like to travel. It was hot, long travel. We would make our parents have motels and pools before we even get in the car because it was just, I think this was boring. But I never liked to travel and now I've been traveling for over a quarter of a century. I was very shy. I was the most quiet in my senior class. I was a wallflower and I didn't speak. I avoided people. I didn't have friends, a committee, in high school I might have had. I could count my friends on one hand and yet I was very still very quiet and reserved and kind of close with them. And then the spirit got a hold of me and just flipped everything around. It's like Moses stuttered. Oh, you're going to deliver the Ten Commandments. They would shout, I'm going to use you all over the world. You're going to be a speaker of truth. What? My parents told me never talk about God or politics. Now I mostly talk about God but I'm bringing some political examples not mainly to use that as a mechanism but more to forgive the idea that you have to make changes in the world to find peace of mind. Really you make this shift internally and you find the peaceful perception. So I just want to open it up to you. We have so much amazing music that is bored through the fruits of the spirit and it's just amazing to me. This tour is called the Quantum Love Tour most every stop. They sing them like a theme song. Quantum Love came through them. It's just an amazing song. And Akina is just so happy. She's just sparkling. She's like a little 12-year-old kid just all sparkling, happy and waking up in the middle of the night with noob insights or not able to sleep. She just gets so happy she can't sleep or eat. She'll sometimes forget to eat. You know, just stop. I don't get it. Food too. It's just, there's so much joy going there that it's like the things that seem to be so important in the human experience to start to fade away. Appetites fade away. You know, the joy just lights your mind up so bright that you don't really feel human. It's quite common too among our group. We've been at this for some time so deep meditations, losing awareness of time and space, losing awareness of the body. There's a part in the course where it says you will tell, you practice well like this the body should not feel at all. Body should not feel. You start to realize that your mind tells the body what you feel. Your body is really just like a puppet that just responds to the mind. You clear away your grievances and your judgments and you come to that inner peace. Amazingly, you have these deep experiences and mystical experiences where you absolutely lose track of the body completely. Some of you point ahead that experience in the deep meditation and beyond this perceptual world is a world of light. In Course America, it's called Revelation or the Great Rays or the Capital G and I've had a few of those experiences where the whole world kind of went from three-dimensional to figure-ground, two-dimensional, and then I just pierced the veil completely and in piercing the veil, I think we have a song about piercing the veil or lifting the veil. This was like piercing the veil where it was like getting hit with it. You see the turn of fire that was on you in your forehead with just light. That's what it felt like with like this blazing light and then the whole world just disappeared and it was like, oh, that is what reality is. Reality is light, pure love and light and these shadows that we call life have nothing to do with eternal life at all. This is just part of the veil that's been drawn all over the mind to keep it from knowing the truth. But I had those experiences and once I did, I just I really lit up my thought, well, this is going to be fun. I'm just going to let Spirit use all the symbols of the world. I started scribing books like Movie Watchers Guide to Mindfulness. People are tired of all these rituals. They want something fun. If they could have a pathway to just sit and watch movies and take them. I took thousands of movies and now I have tools on mind that use movie watching to take you back into Spirit, music, all kinds of different tools and it just goes on and on and on and they're fun and to say I've never really enjoyed watching movies to wake up. I enjoyed watching movies already but my ego was using it a bit for escapism and entertainment and the Spirit said I want to go a few tweaks here and we can make use of this thing. I enjoyed playing tennis, playing golf, that turned into my Tai Chi, the golf and the tennis. Everything that we like, everything that we're interested in in this world can be tilted and given over to the Spirit and the Spirit will use it because we enjoy it. It will take us back to God in an enjoyable way. It's going to be like this, what does it mean? There's penance and there's punishment and sacrifice. That is not the way punishment never gets you anywhere. It's not even an idea that concept that God really knows about. It's not required at all. You want your whole life just to be transported. You want to just be in that experience. Love lifts us up where we belong. Feel alive. Feel connected. Feel happiness and joy. Not happiness based on some world and reason. Happiness for no reasons at all. Just a state could be. Something that you don't have to do to maintain. Something that just is. It's who you are. And really that's what all spiritual practice is. It's letting yourself be done through. You don't go from being a person and a doer into a pure being. You have to go through a phase of being done through. Like that song was like a channel from spirit. You lose track. There's no performer. It's not a performance. You just feel a resonance just in your heart. A recognition of what that is. And a life of devotion is just really allowing yourself to be done through. Song through. Spoken through. Dance through. Smiled through. Last through. Just hugged through. Just the simple joys of life that we all know. We've all experienced. It's not. It can't be complicated to yield into that flow. That spirit. It's so natural. It's the most natural experience to be loved and standing. The Beatles sang about it. Then it's got these Beatles T-shirt on. We've heard it. We've heard it. We've heard it. And now it's where we get to give ourselves permission to just experience that. And we do that to forgive us. It's not to forgive this and forgiving somebody for what they've done and forgiving somebody for what they should have done something different or something like that. It's really just releasing all attack thoughts. Emptying the moment of attack thoughts and grievances. Being a beautiful vessel for love and light. And lately I've been talking about this teaching and song of prayer from Jesus where he italicizes four words. I like that. Okay, he's making a point. But I remember the first time I read this four italicized words. It was do not see error. Do not see error. Oh my God. If I get this one, that's going to be perfect. It isn't. I'm going to be just living in bliss sparkling. If I get do not see errors and do not make it real. And that's where you need the spirit. You need, I would say, Christian terms, the Holy Spirit. You need the spirit for that one because human beings are not capable of do not see error. They're part of the construct. They're part of the matrix. They were made by the ego. Human beings were made by the ego. We read the Bible. It was in the beginning that God created the heavens and the earth. And now we're starting to get a little more in tune when we see God, heavens, eternity, spirit, love, joy, peace, happiness. Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. The linear time-space construct that we call earth is you don't have to worry about burning in an eternal hell. Because you're perceiving many a time you are perceiving hell. It doesn't get any worse. We don't have to try to worry about eternal fires if there aren't any. It's just a day-to-day human life. Those little pains and annoyances, those little expectations, the struggles, the challenges that as you go through every day facing a new wave of struggles and challenges, a new wave of predictors. That's hell. That's what hell is. And when you surrender to spirit and you are done through, you find your function, you find your calling, you find your purpose, hallelujah, then the joy is so natural. You know, you don't waste words and let the spirit speak the words for you. I had a mailing list called Awakening in Christ and I have been for 12, 14 years answering questions and things, but I started off with Beloved One. It always comes out. It's the most natural thing. I really feel like I'm just writing to myself. Somebody told me that David leaves Beloved One, so really I'm writing to myself. Beloved One. So I would write Beloved One, Beloved One. People would pour their hearts out because they felt that I would never, ever, ever judge them and write to me or their hearts out long sometimes long emails just but underneath all the words was please help me, help me, help me and Beloved, my heart just poured out starting with Beloved One and then that turned into a book called Healing in Mind and these things just turned into books and videos and P3s and all kinds of things but it's just been letting the love in our hearts pour through because that's how we stay in the awareness of love is by giving away. Giving and receiving are the same to give is to receive. One is not better than the other. We're always giving and extending the receiving. As you sow, so shall you reap. It's right there. We've known this. Common is the same thing. Extend love, joy, happiness and receive the reflections. There's a spirit in this when you're sharing about the experience that I've been giving whether I'm a spirit or not just like a puppet and when I'm activated it's like there's movement and action and words are coming and then when I'm not activated it's just a very deep restful place where my mind is just very still and I feel like I couldn't move myself if I tried because I'm not me too. Who is it that would want to? And at first that was scary because what if I want to? What if I would need to be doing something and the more I'm just kind of cemented over to it it's just the ultimate rest and then watching when something comes from there and they do not see error it's just such a deep teaching that I would be playing and to practice so much recently and it's because really to see error is to try to make the world real to see error is it's really judgment because if you're judging something is wrong or something could be different it's already being judged and then it's trying to fix that and it's really just a way of maintaining the past or maintaining the world and the more we come into this accepting there is only one responsibility only one it's accepting the entitlement for ourselves and other reasons just accepting the spirit and replacing it for that judgment that's it one responsibility that's in mind like receive the gift receive the loving voice and then watching and then you realize that you couldn't really judge even that attempt to try to judge for how long I get it real it's just like some activity in mind that was just holding on it doesn't even make any sense but holding on to what and then when it just gets done everything just gets very simple so I just trust it's like a lead-in for the song the experience really seeing it is a split view of an experience sometimes I'll be telling a paragraph or something talking to somebody but I don't even know that story and then I'm witnessing it come out but yeah it's like a voluntary issue of being done through just moving into that more and more and that's really what he doesn't write because other than a voluntary experience there is no secret self you're not going to pass learning or pass memory at all you don't worry about it the last time you did something you're just completely done through a lot of experience and we can experience it and I'm sure everyone's experienced it to some degree whether it's through running or sports of some kind we're just so excited that it's just happening through you it just becomes so intuitive for music channeling counseling we just some profound thing comes through you with someone else and when you experience it a lot it doesn't make any sense there's a fear of it it's the most natural thing in the world so it doesn't make any sense if the ego doesn't make any sense it's the ego that's afraid and at the end when you realize it there isn't really even an ego that's afraid it's more just fear fear of the light fear of the love moving through so our whole community needs to let go of it there's no control let go of using and pass references to free everything so things are always changing if you spoke to anyone at some point they would say can I please just be given a project to do a task to do so I can feel good and successful but it's we're going for something much deeper we're going to turn this spirit into a thrill where that self and pseudo-safety will be really good and that's getting washed and at first it's very humbling and at the end you're just so amazed at what the spirit can do through you it's a serenity prayer and oftentimes I would say of course America is just an expanded version of this serenity prayer it's really super simple but there's just three elements to the serenity prayer to know what you can change what you cannot change and the wisdom to know the difference and it's really it does come down to control in the end of thinking you have control of anything or anyone even the body it's all part of the perception that you can control your behavior actually by force of thought gain weight or lose weight or do this or do that it's all the body is part of a pre-arranged script the script is written and it's all part of a destiny and really back back back back back in your mind to the point where you are just a witness you're just a witness you can see the sameness of everything in the world but you start to realize you have absolutely no control over the world that's the line from of course America you have no control over the world you've made Jesus is kind of speaking to the ego but he's also speaking to your mind saying if you want to be really happy I mean so so so happy completely eternally happy you have to first realize that you have no control over the world that's why we can't fix people that's why we can't change people we can't even change the person the personality it seems like the personality can undergo changes and we buy a book line and say for it to become better people you know we spend the whole life like better ourselves except God doesn't create people God created spirit the personality is the mask that's what persona comes from the Latin mask and a mask just covers over who you are you're created perfect by God and the mask is a cover over that perfection so we're really here to forgive the mask not just the personality mask of ourselves and others but to forgive the whole cosmic mask that's covering over this light and love that we truly are that we are eternally and that's what the piercing avail is and that's also the sense when you really see that you have no control over the world then you ease into this involuntary case of miracles everything is involuntary imagine how peaceful that is when you start to realize that everything is involuntary and it just always amazes me as a miraculous I think in the last time we have this strawberry feels forever music and enlightenment retreat every year it's going to be our third year it's going to be August 27th to September 3rd I remember I was sitting there and the audience and a few rows back and my friend Charles was up on stage and he can make all kinds of sounds and he does all kinds of fun variations and he kept looking down and he said you come up come up come up he was calling someone up to come and do something it was hip hop and what else is it it was big box of rap and he was calling me up to do hip hop rap so I just got up there and amazes me thank god everything is involuntary nothing like being called on stage to do that and I just went up and it was fun and when you pull up the parking lot or the monastery we've got a picture of Jesus with arms outstretched it says something like trust settles every problem it's a variation of the Course of Miracles teaching from Jesus trust would settle every problem now if you really start to give your mind over to that you can start to feel a joy coming out trust would settle every problem now because it's again it's teaching us that this has been a time problem that we're told in the Course of Miracles that time and eternity cannot coexist something that is true about that if eternity is forever if eternity is changeless it's endless we have a word for it we actually have a word in the English language called eternity but there's no experience in eternity there's no experience in this cosmos of eternity everything has a beginning and an end everything is changing there's no changelessness the more we find out about the galaxies the stars it was very romantic I love you as long as the stars shine in heaven we know they're burning gases you can't even propose something like that everyone's too sophisticated that all that's fine if you offer me a finite love I can do better and the love of God is what's real but there's nothing here that's eternal so trust would settle every problem now doesn't that sound like an invitation to go inside your heart and find perfect trust because that would be the solution to any conceivable problem you can think of that fits in with do only that just give give it your all go for it completely don't go for it heartily don't think that you can kind of compromise with the truth the truth is true and only the truth is true that's another teaching from the workbook of A Course in Americans Jesus says you must accept both parts to realize the truth the truth is true and only the truth is true truth doesn't have exceptions truth doesn't have an opposite but that it's going to take trust to know that state of mind we're going to have to really exercise our trust and that's the fun I think for me and for all of us like I said I was in university I went through the typical things on the planet Earth and then when I found the Course in 1986 I got a sense that even though it was a big book 31 chapters and some pages I got a sense that really the whole thing was just about getting in touch with an internal teacher getting in touch with the Spirit and following guidance of the Spirit that as soon as I would make contact with the Spirit I would really be able to hear the Spirit's instructions for me and really my need for a Course in Miracles would be over the words would have done their job if I could just get in touch with the internal teacher life would be easy life would be joyful life would be fun imagine having the Spirit of the universe the universal Spirit giving you instructions and imagine yourself so willing to just follow those instructions without exception that's like a pathway to joy pathway to love and happiness and it's nothing's a brand everything that comes to you is part of that one lesson so now I have to say that I enjoy the reflection and I enjoy meeting my brothers and sisters all over the world that are telling me their stories tuning in of hearing guidance of hearing feelings prompts from the Spirit I love that you're cascading witnesses and people that are living intuitive lives not lives based on past learning but they're becoming intuitive and with our community we have different we had one over in Spain for a while one over in Canada, Hawaii, Mexico they're all just tuning in to this internal listening where the song writing comes from Kirsten and Ricky just recently right before this tour there was a CD that came out of all these songs it's giving, it's really the Spirit gives it to you everything, the Kino living your life the people in our community is living based on intuitive inner listening it's breaking away from models of leader follower kind of informed with condensed monastery you listen to the event you listen to the Monsignor you listen to the Cardinal or the Bishop or the Priest or the Rabbi what about your internal listening what about your connection with Source or the monasteries there's Mother Superior you know you could do this and this and this but they're better run it by Mother Superior but what if you have that same intuitive voice in you and what if you can connect with that and you can increasingly connect with that and you know you're increasingly connecting with it by how you feel by when you become more consistently peaceful, happy joyful, that's it that's your experiential evidence right there your state of mind is the evidence of how tuned in you are to that intuitive listening and what if you could be a hundred percent intuitive what if you got to the point where you became so intuitive that you didn't react and respond to any of the images of the world you weren't being informed by form you said no no, I'm not going to pay attention to the form anymore, I'm going to tune in in my heart and listen what that small still voice is telling me that's what the workbook of A Course in Miracles is doing it starts off with lesson number one nothing I see means anything it's beginning a rinsing and a washing of this addiction to thinking that who we are comes from what the world is telling us from the images even believing that in this dream that we began with Mom and Dad you know that the source of our being the source of our existence was Mom and Dad you notice Jesus never said that to go through the Gospels he never gives credit to Mary and Joseph not even once in four Gospels you never see a thank you in though I tell you Kingdom of Heaven is at hand and thank you Mom it's just because the presence the source is the creator is the I am presence is the spirit and he gave all the glory to the spirit and his teachings were so profound because he was he was being sourced by God I and the Father are one he was basically saying we are the same spirit not the flesh that which is born of the flesh that which is born of the spirit is spirit that's what the born again experience it's not to say the name is Jesus Christ I believe upon Jesus Christ and going along with your earthly life it's actually having that feeling of merge where your will as the Christ and God's will are one so you even go past not my will but thy will be done you actually come into an experience of perfect happiness where my will is not one that you actually share the same will with God doesn't that make more sense than thinking that God has a different will than you what must you be if God created you and you have a different will than God why would God do that I am all mighty and I am happy and joyful but I am going to give you a different will because every day it's like do I want the problem or do I want the incident every moment of every day is an opportunity to really come into an experience of who your source is or that youtube video that I have somebody labeled it who's your daddy I saw that one time I was going to my youtube that's a good title I'm going to have to watch that one is your daddy the ego a belief in separation a belief in libelness fear, guilt, shame is that your daddy as long as we stay identified with these personality cells we're answering who's your daddy with the ego with limitation lack, sin, guilt, fear, pain that's not our inheritance we're worth everything and it's so practical life is so fun but it's all because it's sourced you're just given the symbols that you need for a while you're given anything you need if you need a word you're given traveling around we've been so beautifully hosted I think you're watching I didn't know that this was going to come up here I think you've got it perfect we were waiting for that that microphone is there waiting for someone I resonate strongly with these words what they're showing us what I strongly with is they said karma what you come into with and what limitations we have and when we find those how that can be I don't know if I have a question in that karma question comes up and it's as if you have done some things in the past and there are consequences to those things that were done that have to be undone or have to be resolved in some way and I would say it's a version of as you so so show you and in the context of reincarnation it's like things seem to loop like Groundhog Day you keep making the same mistakes until you don't like in Groundhog Day when he finally recognizes there's a puddle in front of him and he steps in the puddle all those consecutive days and then he notices the puddle and he goes over the puddle and not going on even ever steps in that puddle like a karmic kind of dealing of recognizing something and not falling into the pit now with the Course in Miracles it's such a deep teaching that basically when we say do not see the error or we talk about atonement or forgiveness it's saying that you have the power this very instant to bring an end to the error and you don't know what the answer and the answer would be the end of the karmic wheel it would be the end of error even karma in a reincarnational sense is you just keep learning your lessons and healing and healing your errors until you reach perfection you go back to God in the future and what the Course is teaching us is that even the future is a construct it's part of the error that the ego invented in your time and put the present moment in between the past and the future as this little ineffectual little blip and then it tells you that you have no power in the present you're guilty in the past and you're going to be guilty in the future and therefore seals up this misperception of guilt and the teachings like Jesus would say before Abraham was I am really the teachings are the present moment is not between the past and the future it's actually prior to time innocence is prior to linear time so I'm always staying open to these things myself and again Dennis has the Beatles I went to the wise sage John Lennon for the song anybody ever hear John Lennon's song instant karma what an interesting idea John Lennon sings about instant karma instant karma is going to get you going to knock you right in the head better get yourself together pretty soon you're going to be dead why in the world are we here you don't have to live in pain and fear and why in the world are you there when you're everywhere going to get your shit the song is great because what it's doing is taking the karma idea which is cause and consequence and it's bringing it all back again to the present moment which is a point of decision that the only reason that in time these errors this karmic error seems to go on the wheel of time seems to go on is because Jesus says your main mistake is you keep making the same mistake in the present you keep drawing upon the past and you're drawing upon the past as if it's still here as if you can still access memory in the past but it's gone he even comes out and says this world was gone long ago so it's almost like we're in some kind of a memory loop an imaginary memory loop it reminds me of a Star Trek episode too there was a Star Trek episode I think it was Star Trek the next generation where every time the crew would go through all these different things and they would get to the same point and the ship would go on and then they'd find themselves back in this loop and they'd go through the same kind of circumstances and the ship would go on and they'd go through the same thing again and then the ship would go on and then they started to notice that they were in some kind of a loop, a time loop in which the ship kept blowing up so they decided to join together and they said we've got to stop this we've got to do something different we don't know what we have to do differently we've got to do something different and so they relied on data again going to the non-human states they said you notice when these things start to happen you tell us we're going to make another decision and that's eventually how they got out because they got to a point where the ship didn't blow up but they needed to be triggered that there was some kind of a mistake going on that they weren't recognizing so that they could make a different choice that's really what Of Course Miracles is saying is saying I'll train your mind to get to a point where you will transcend the error you'll get out of the ground called loop of time you won't keep making the same mistake because time is the problem and that's where karma comes in and if you just look at time you could make a really good case for karma because it just seems like the past repeats and past mistakes repeat over and over you've heard people give testimonies why is it that I had three spouses and I kept marrying an alcoholic why could I keep tracking an alcoholic you think I could learn from the first one but I did it again and again it's the same kind of karmic cosmic loop that goes on until we can recognize who to sit now what we do in our community is basically that's where all this sharing of private thoughts comes in letting all the unconscious out instead of just pushing things down trying to brush over things let it come to the surface to talk about it we need to be inspired by the spirit to openly bring everything up from the darkness to the light so that we don't follow this unconscious pattern of just making the same mistake over and over and over and in one sense it's like that moving trauma basically pulls all the projections of his entire life back the father does and that's a great moment of forgiveness so it's exciting it's like the adventure of bringing an end to karma that's a challenge when you look at how deep the pattern seems to be to bring an end to karma is exciting, I was excited about it I was singing that distant karma song I have a question yes how do you pull out an unconscious belief if you're not conscious of it so how do you with one become conscious of the unconscious that was my number one thing because when I was in the parable of David when I was young I would look at this really, I was kind of like a zombie I looked at my gear book pictures my eyes were half closed I just looked on my face like I didn't want the future to come nothing looked appealing I went out of this world you see that in your book pictures so then finally I get into my 20s and I start to go this unconscious shadow this unconscious belief system and how do I bring this up to the surface so nothing came my passion I'm going to go outside with everything and so I prayed to the spirit the spirit said well I'll take you to the movies the music was really helpful too because I would listen to all this music and it would invoke all these emotions you know I'm crying and bring up all these emotions I'm like I'm feeling I'm feeling, I'm finally feeling this is wonderful and then I would go to movies and I would be guided to which movies to watch and that would bring up all this kind of tools and techniques and bringing unconscious up into awareness and then I start to get more and more tools and what do I do with it when I'm there at the movie theater or when I'm listening to music or relationships I was alone alone on my first date when I was 27 the place where I said now we're going to really see that unconscious skill come up try a relationship so between the music and the movies and relationships and whatever that became my quest was to do anything I could and so we share that we share that on our online news in fact everybody you know, Ricky when she came it was like two and a half years of really like intense you know bringing it up and Kirsten when I first met Kirsten two head injuries and she was receiving disability and was very sensitive to noises and all kinds of things and you could say going through that that became how do we bring it up and that was my that's the fastest way past the Karmic meal I know is bringing the unconscious up into this so I'm going to say not only have I gone through but I've dedicated my whole life to coming up with the best ways to do it and the spiritual community is right in there everybody's seen it just ask the kid about Hawaii she had some of them in Utah but mostly Hawaii and everybody's got to talk about their own little eras when they went through the major major darkness the main thing is just that is the prayer of the heart of course the prayer of the heart it's not even bringing up the unconscious it's just like wanting to be in the light so much wanting to be wanting to know the light within it's not like to the point where you can't even do anything it's just like you recognize it and you feel like you're just being pulled within like drawn within and then with that usually comes unconscious like as soon as there's that experience of light of God's love like instantaneously all the unconscious comes up so strongly and to this it depends when you call how deep you call it and there's a really deep call to really wanting to go for it and now wanting my prayer is always the spirit make it swift there's just no I didn't want to take my time it's just like quiet wait but there's just like something inside of you knows that there's literally a different world like beyond this world is the world I really want and it's quiet wait and so when it came so when there's that prayer it's gonna come up and it's gonna look the way it's gonna look and what happened in my life it was it happened to be Hawaii and up until then there's just just took my step the way I did and everything it seemed like I don't know the expression sessions that I've done but in the end it's kind of like I just get a few people would just like wait for me they want to honor my darkness or something but then it's just like they would sit there just holding their desire to laugh it's just no one really took it seriously it's kind of like and so that went really fast and then kind of like I went I was up when I was in this very place of extension like I was just standing out hearing very well and I was just like in the big like I felt like I was in the very high way like yes like yay like something's just like really the experience again it's like this experience of like I am actually it was just like that David and I we are like I had a taste of it when I first came to Utah for the first time like my first night it's just like really like not separate like same mind like really and then again so that experience started really accelerate again and again and I was just in this really place of both like I want to call like enlightenment just like this awakened mind and I was like yay all for it and right after that I got guidance to quit the job but I kept hearing I want you full time I want you full time I was like yeah that's right full time like so and I was like that means I need to quit my job and I worked part-time I was like okay done done done guidance and then I got called to Hawaii and I was just on this highway this is what it looks like like I was on this highway I get to Hawaii and it just felt like drop all the way to the bottom like to the basement as David called it a parable of the basement into the pure just unconsciousness it was just all the whatever fears like it was to the point there's no like like expression sessions it's kind of like it all fell away because you don't even know how you can't even express it because it's so right so it's not like you're unprojecting on you I don't like you or something none of it it was just so you could just feel something within it's like that darkness it's not even out of that if you felt like I was just feeling all the time I would wake up and I'm like walking on fire like not everything it's just on fire I couldn't even describe it but emotional pain physical everything just everything and beyond and and I was unconscious as far as I knew like that that was unconscious it was just happening and and all there was it was just trust trust trust and making conclusions and I don't I don't remember watching it really rather than next thing you know it's just done and I felt like I was like that and I moved on and and and the whole new world opened up the world that I truly like the world that I truly that what I truly I was coming to what was calling me just opened up and I just which I always knew was true but and that was like the whole but that's why I didn't really never spoke about it really too much because I did it's kind of like I didn't want to indulge in it because the truth was that I was going for the gift and the for something I knew I was like I knew I must have it and there's nothing that I could stuff man and that was the gift so I was just like from then on it was just I naturally kind of something clicked it was just like mind shifted into pure extension like extending extending this like teach love that is what you are and it's been pretty much it's been non-stop but sometimes it's just there was a like a bit of a thought here and there well it's gonna stop and again there's gonna be some kind of darkness and then more and more I just like this recognition it's never gonna stop like it's just never gonna stop and but all of it is it's like due to desire your heart and the thing is no matter what what happens no matter how tense like the pain might be if there's that true desire the prayer of the heart you're gonna be like you're gonna be safe like the fact that it's coming out in such an intense way it's a sign that it's safe something within no matter what something within that knows that there's deep deep deep deep trust just so much trust that willing to drop any kind of idea any kind of concepts anything just go with true I do I don't know anything because in that place there's not even that there's nothing it's just something just carries you through it just go with because something there are just some total total reliance and spirit and so yeah it's just a symbol of how much do you want it and of course it doesn't have to be like that also and yeah it could be this way but from then on it's like there's actually a few of us who have gone through this through high intensity and so happens to be Hawaii just one but it's like one we go through this intensity and then another one it's just one at a time right and and then at some point we all gather together and there's still a little bit of fear in the mind because you know Hawaii imagine and it's like Hawaii kind of a little bit like Hawaii no one's not here Hawaii a little bit and then just started to hear it because the gift was that's not the experience of Terra that's never been gift the clarity of the mind just like I came out of it like a newborn like a newborn like a spirit just so pure like I didn't even remember so I kept demonstrating that's the true like the perfect heart only the truth is true right and then I started hearing because there's still a little bit of fear and I was just I heard it very clearly that kind of thing it's it's done and it's not and it's just not going to happen again it's truly it has served and also the gift was just you know full trust like give in whatever like it's trust that makes everything gentle and so it's a bit like also rough pool like that so that every part that is sure there's some kind of places in your mind that we don't know just that they're still hanging on all of it was just very swiftly just washed away and so from there on it's just total trust and it felt like ever since then it just felt like a smooth a smooth smooth smooth right and then there's stuff that's how it does that gratitude it's like oh you never and the true experience I've never been abandoned there's nothing that can be lost because the fear of loss is just like so high and like the course says the journey if you truly take my hand if you trust me the way I'm asking you to trust the journey can be like a walk in the park and it's like and it is it has since then it has been like a really like a walk in the park there's just this experience that you're always being carried and you're allowed like you're allowed that to happen and that's where that soul gentleness is because there's just that uncompromising trust you uncompromising and you want to trust it's kind of like nothing's hanging on you you know it you know it within it's very joyful and and yeah and then there's no memory of anything being not that it's just like with Hawaii there's been a lot of lately the clash on the body we get together and you're like oh Hawaii just someone who mentioned Hawaii so that was Hawaii it's just it's just laughing because it's just really good there's that gratitude underneath and it's like you can't explain it's kind of like if you haven't been there you don't know that but those who have they've got and they've received and then and they give us the clear mind the clear and yeah and from then it's a walk it's pretty much it's just a very beautiful walk in the park yeah so that's so much really unconscious and it's just empty you know it's just kind of like you're not afraid it's just there's no fear of that darkness the experience is like you know the darkness is not real because it's kind of like we go as much as we go we trust as much as we trust and then there's sometimes there could be that here but if I let this up boy like there's gonna be consequences and there isn't there's nothing that there's nothing that spirit cannot handle there's nothing that because there's nothing to handle and like we want to learn that really do it's kind of like for karma there's still like the thought of karma there's still that thought behind it that you have to earn your way back home you have to earn you have to be good now you have to personally do something where the course and Jesus teaches that you don't have to earn nothing because you haven't done anything how could you earn something it's given in every moment now and so the experience is if you allow that if you're willing to really not back away from fear if you allow that the gifts are so apparent and in your face all the time and that's what's overwhelming because it's like there's still that thought that's not worthy and God's like oh yeah this spirit well then you have another thing coming and it's just and that's the that's the like that's the tears because it's like how could I be so wrong like I was totally wrong and and it's like so much because the love the love is so in the face and it's just never ending that is like that's the gift of it all and so no matter what's going on it's just it's all it's worth it it's just that trust and going with it it's worth it knowing the prayer just same with the prayer of the heart all the time and yeah knowing that we do not need to earn anything this is not the path of earning this is a path like that's what I say I call it it's the path of the worthy this is indeed a path of the worthy there isn't any it's like there's a part of that line that's like believes in punishment and wants to even prove that punishment is real not going to happen it's just going to be very tiring and because it's never going to happen it's just you never going to be punished it's not that's not what God is that's not what we are so and that's what's true it's really interesting too that of course there's the more that you look at the fear the less you see it really meaning the more that you look at fear with the Holy Spirit the less you see it if you look on fear with the light it's going to disappear but it's like he was saying face it to be willing to face the fear when it comes up and look upon it with the Holy Spirit that's how it's healed it's transcended it's not a matter of I call this world this cosmos it's like distraction though you've landed in distraction though and there's a lot of distractions in distraction though you can entertain you can find all kinds of worldly fancies and pleasures to take your mind away from simply facing the darkness when it comes up and allowing it to come up and then allowing it to pass through that's what Hawaii experience was and then as you can see with Nikita there's a confidence that starts with her there's a confidence there's a certainty stronger, stronger, stronger I was down with her in Mexico recently and she came out one morning and she was all happy and she had this real confident smile on her face and she said the ego tried to tempt me last night she said with a big grin on her face I was like yeah I didn't have a chance now that's what you've got to you've got to gain that confidence in the spirit trust would settle every problem now really going into that aligning your mind on the strength of Christ, the strength of the spirit knowing you can handle anything you can look upon anything and that means you can look upon a holocaust that means you can look upon a massacre you can look upon what seems to be so what was the movie that came out right around Christmastime about the tsunami no it was the one with and then we watched was in it and the impossible the impossible the impossible I was attracted to a title like that and I was thinking of a movie called the impossible because all movies are the impossible so finding the name point of the impossible I knew I would get into so I go in and it's a movie about the tsunami in the title that we just released and so I'm in there and I'm watching the movie with my magoo mind Mr. Magoo watching, watching the movie and watching all shows of family and her husband and the children playing pool and then the trees start shaking is it earthquake no it's not earthquake it's a wall of brown water that's coming and the next thing you see glass breaking and blood it's like you're there movie being hit with a tsunami it's a huge wall it just rinses and washes everything and I can say this movie was graphic silence of the lambs nothing it's called the impossible so anyway I'm sitting in the Washington movie in my state of mind my Christ mind and I'm watching the movie and my friend Francis she was with me last time she quickly started watching me instead of watching the movie she was like look at the screen and people started heaving like throwing up it was so graphic and people started people started heaving because this is that graphic and it wasn't like just one scene it's the whole movie it's the whole movie after but it's like graphic graphic makes silence of the lambs nothing yeah and you see this shots of the water for the last cutting everybody wants some breast being sliced and I mean I think it was and I'm there watching the movie and Francis is watching me watching the movie but she's here at the evening and they're going like I wish it but the thing was meaningless thoughts are showing me a meaningless world it's not the shadows on the screen that make you throw up I mean it's a bunch of shadows on the screen it's just the same as Freddy Krueger or any horror movie Jack Nicholson, Red Run Red Run, whatever it's none of the screen that scares us it's all being generated inside our consciousness and what is so scary except our interpretations our interpretations of fragments we're scared because of our interpretations we're coming from what, our thoughts where do our thoughts come from they can't be our real thoughts it must be these attack thoughts that we have in the unconscious mind and what are our thoughts coming from except our beliefs we believe it's possible to separate from God we have attack thoughts we generate fearful emotions and we project out images that are stories it's a fearful story that's what dreams and nightmares are those are night terrors and it's whether we do it during the daytime or we have night terrors at night our mind is generating the whole thing so once you start to realize that you start to realize that we've had everything in the school background our fears don't really hear we've been taught that there's sound waves and they come in or hit the ear ground the signals go to our brain a trick that's a trick too our ears are more like speakers our consciousness through the body is they're like speakers they're projecting the sound out the mind is generating the sounds the ears are not receiving sounds the ears are like guess what these little things are we think the light comes in through the retina again you know it's ferned these things we've learned we've been advised to it's mass hypnosis we've been tricked to think that there's light coming into our eyes these are projectors these are being used by consciousness to project out an entire world that's going to shake your world when you start to realize how you've been duped to believe that you're a human being there's a world outside of you and it's coming sound waves coming in and light waves some of you might have seen movie what the bleep did we know it was teaching the same thing in it just consciousness even the characters in our life are just acting out our thoughts and beliefs and even those little peptides we have in our brain where do you think those peptides are getting activated from consciousness it's all in our mind the entire world is in our mind it's not out there but the good news is it's the world being projected from our consciousness what if we forgive the attack thoughts what if we change our consciousness from a fear based consciousness to a love inspired forgiven consciousness and then we see a completely different world don't you think that must have happened with Jesus if he was on the cross and he was saying things forgive them for they know not what they do that had to be a different consciousness when you wake up blood coming out of your arms and legs you better be in a different consciousness not the Catholic consciousness that tells you that he suffered and died because that's not it if he had a healed mind why would a healed mind suffer that makes it a sense at all that's ridiculous not poles and their feet aren't burnt Jesus Christ for Christ's sake the suffering Jesus very much a misperception pain is a misperception oh we're running out of time you are awesome I can't get out of here well and we're going to do more of this yes we'll be back so one till six we're just getting rid of that we're going to page the duped part to Peter's file and going he'll try to temp you last night it wasn't fair it's you again but see that you want to get into the confidence of the spirit you want to feel the strength of the spirit inside you and tomorrow I think we'll see what happens but we will have a variety of things that will happen from one to six so if you're free and you want to join us please do and thank you so much for showing up tonight whether this is your first exposure this or whether you've been into the Fridge Malony for years and it's starting to trigger some interesting experiences it's beautiful and what my wish is for you is just happiness and joy and freedom you are worth it you deserve it life and then do the Truman Show in case I don't see you say to the world good afternoon, good evening and good night and that's the way to live this life not to fear death and fear suffering and think that your life will end in the name of suffering and death but that you will reach a state of mind or you can take a bow and say to the world in case I don't see you say good afternoon, good evening and good night and reunite with your creator and live a life of eternal life and that is worth it that's worth every bit of forgiveness every bit of facing the darkness and exposing it to the music