 Cwys yw'r f sometimes iddol? Tewch felly fe i roedden nhw'n gweld y gwaith. Rhyw oes cael ei chyfan sy'n gweld ar y cwrdd 19? Le'i mae'r cyflwydoedd. Do â'r rhain 이? Pwyd i wedi cael eu gennyd. Mae gweithiobarth ac i yn cael ei gwaith. Mae'r amser yn gweithio, a mae'r gwaith a'r gwaith yn ni. Mae'n gwaith iddyn nhw hwnnw. Mae'r gwaith iddyn nhw i'n gweld ar y chyflwyd. Mae'r gwaith iddyn nhw i'n gweld ar y chyflwyd? ac mae'n gwybod iawn, mae'n gwybod iawn. Yn gweld i'n gwneud, mae'n gwybod iawn, mae'n gwybod iawn i'r lluniau gyda ac mae'n mwyafol, ac mae'n oed i'n fath o'r gwrdd i'r ysgolog, a'n gwybod iawn i'r ysgolog. Rwy'n gweithio bod yn gwybod iawn i'n gwell, i'n gwybod iawn i'r ysgolog, rwy'n gweithio'n gwybod iawn, I was in a party, I wasn't having trouble with this gang of lads, I was just in a party and one of my mates was just fighting with this gang of lads. And you know obviously just fucking being a psychot or just went over to just try and sort it so I just started having like made it with this group of lads. But at that point the club was just going insane, I felt like everyone was having made it when I think back to it. And I, some lads come by and stabbed me and I didn't feel it, I had a white t-shirt on, cos when I looked at it after on the cameras you see what happened. So I'm just like hitting everyone and everyone in my way and this lad comes up and he stabs me once and then he walks away. But I haven't moved or anything, I'm just fighting, I haven't felt it and then he comes back around and he's like this fucking kid is still fighting and he does it again. And then me felt like I'd say 10 minutes after that I was still fighting, I was fighting with the dormant and you know what, just like put it in a nutshell, I fucking batted everyone in view. Like I couldn't be stopped, people were smashing bottles on me and them, the dormant were fucking even cracking me and I wouldn't go down, I was just went psychotic. And then I got backed up by the dormant and loads of people, me mates were just going mad, like I don't even know where they were, I got backed into a corner in the toilets and they were like that and you need to, like I knew the dorm, they were like you need to stop, you've been stabbed. And I was like I haven't, I was going mental and then I looked down and my top was just red, it just changed the colour red and I was like whoa, I was like nah fuck down I start, I was on the toilet seat thing and I was kicking the dormant and then as I've come up the toilet I'm still fighting the next minute, I've just got like a sage of like I come down and I just went whoa. And like collapsed on the stairs and I was like this is what I remember but I was like whoa I can't even move and then the dormant dragged me up to the front doors of the club in time and the head dormant he pulled me against the wall and this is the God's Honest. I remember this brightest day so I'm sat there and he's going you've been stabbed and I need to put my fingers in your wound so I think he had like a me too, he put his fingers in my wound and he's going to need you to stay awake and I was going nah and I kept on and I like shut my eyes and he's going dad and I can't let you shut your eyes, you're not dying, he was saying all that stuff to me so he had his fingers in my wound and I'm just like that, whoa what's going on. And then I remember like seeing all people around like crying and that and then I seen like blue flashing lights, the ambulance and he's still about us and I'm just I wanted to go sleep at this point I was just like whoa nah just let me sleep and I believe to this day if I went to sleep I would have died because where I'd been stabbed was so close to me arteries like even the doctor who didn't say you know what I mean he's like that and one more little bit and if you'd bought your arteries you wouldn't have survived so like I think of stuff like that. And I remember being in the ambulance and I was going to the woman just tell me if I'm going to die and she wouldn't answer me and I was going just tell me and she kept turning and then I was going, they had me strapped with my arms and I started like shaking the finger and I was going just fucking tell me if I'm going to die and she was like no you're not going to die. And I remember getting casted off to Rossport and I woke up like two days later and my mum and some friends and like standing at the end of my bed. How was that feeling? Do you know what mate? I'd be probably lying to you never said that it meant to me I was just like fuck on I got stabbed. I was like I'm going to have to kill that lad in the scene. But a lot of people cared for me especially in the gym a lot of people come to see me and I'm not going to need no names but they all come to see me and just give me words of wisdom. You know when I got out the fate I didn't go home and at that time I can't even remember where I was living mate I had been kicked out my mother's. I lived with my uncle being kicked out I lived with my fucking me grandad being kicked out gone back. So I think I was living with my grandad I didn't go me grandad to my mother's I went straight to the gym to see Colin and I remember it was a Tuesday morning all the fighters were in there Terry Mach and I remember seeing Colin Colin just looked at me and I was on crutches and I just sat on the ring. Mach and a few of the lads come over to me and Terry on that and then I waited till the end until to see Colin and Colin was like listen I want to chat to you later on like we'll have a chat on that. I said do you want me to come back? He said yes so I went to me grandads fucking stets on food and then I went back to the classes in the night and Colin was sitting on the radiators and he said come over here son. So I went out hob all over on me crutches and he went listen what do you want from life? He's very straight and dry Colin. Like as I say he's the most influential man in my life right now and has been for years but he's went what do you want he's like I'm not just going to blow smoke up your ass he's like you've got the potential to be the best in the world. I've seen it I can make it happen blah blah blah but he's like you're 50-50 now he's like you're training but you're going out and you're just being a fucking moron basically. He's like what do you want and I was like you know I don't really know I just want to be the best. He's like well if you want to be the best I'm going to send you to Brazil I'm going to send you over there you're going to stay there for as long as you need to stay and get yourself dedicated. Don't think about anything else don't think about having money or anything just fucking go and smash it. I was like all right then so like I know 90% of people are like nah I'm not going to be the comfort zone stuff like that and I was just at that time even though I had family and I didn't really have anything. I didn't have like nothing was important to me. You're homeless. Sorry. You're homeless. No that's what I say. I was floating about from house to house. Basically I had the like when I say about this is backtracking a bit now to be like open and honest. I had a great relationship with my mother and father growing up and me and my mum were always very close and then when I was like 15, 16, an incident occurred with my mother. I went out, it was New Year's Eve, went out with my friends, my friend Christopher. Come back about 12 o'clock we've been out you know just fucking causing me there. As you do. Yeah as you do I said come on you can stay in line you know. I lived in my mum's boxing in a small room. He's like yeah all right to that. So then we've gone to sleep and I've just my mum's quite a hothead. I'll probably get me angry. I'm two things I'm very angry when I need to be and I'm stubborn and my mum's two of them things like I just woke up to screaming and me mum's like at that point me and my mum were going down a sparrow because she seemed what was happening with me. She knew at that point she'd accepted fucking Darren's really good fighter like she'd been to see me fight every blah blah blah. But she was like he's fucking mental, like he's loose, like he's fucking, he's fucking, I was just fucking loose mate. But as I say I wasn't a fucking mad criminal. I was fucking dumb things and I wasn't like involved with guns and knives. I was just fucking monster, fucking bash anyone. But there was none of this like in my respect for anyone. I always used to think who's the hardest bastard in the club. I was fucking killing. I hope the fucking hardest bastard in the club. I was like what are you on about me? Does that mean anything?