 talking about my daughter's health challenges and you said the world has no origin and it was like this really big moment for me where all of a sudden I thought whoa I don't have any culpability guilt in creating this health challenge out there and then my mind would go a few other places where and it would say ah but the script is already written and everything is a manifestation of holy spirit of holy will and there's no one I encounter and nothing I see that's not myself and just a reflection of my thoughts and it's like I can sort of hold the the world has no origin and hold those it but there's there's this really uncomfortable oscillation in myself where I don't know where I am and that the world has no origin was exquisite because I could feel all the guilt drop away for an instant yes it's so beautiful that you could feel it and in fact what we could do is like we could say my daughter has a health issue or something like that you know you can if you roll it back has a health issue you know I was just convinced by the holy spirit that actually I could really really finally see that there were no health issues in the world it was a beautiful realization I was like what a trick there are no health issues in the world I remember it started out with you know health is inner peace and my only my attack thoughts are attacking my invulnerability is bringing it first to attack us but that's not the world you know he's he is saying that my thoughts are images I've made but once I started to come inside more and more I thought hmm this is a big smoke screen and there are no health issues in the world so we can take off the last part my daughter has health issues we can roll that off clock we take the sword when you really can go into it deep enough you actually really can see that there are no health issues in the world how so well well it's because the world is causes because the world nothing's outside of my mind because that's the whole teachings of the course is the world doesn't have a cause if it had a real cause it would be it would have a real effect and then we'd be stuck I don't want to do this but then I also want to roll it back to my daughter has a health issue so that's one thing is just that realization that's there but then when you roll it back even further you get back to the daughter part and I just you were just at my gathering the other night where the woman the tall woman stood up and went yikes I'm doing lesson number one in the course and I'm like my eyes were moving around the room and I'm like looking at my photographs of my daughter my children does it mean anything you know nothing I see means anything just let your eyes move around the world and rest you know she's like you see so there's like whoa this was like whoa whoa whoa it's one thing with health issues but then now my now my daughter you see we're just working it back with the sentence my daughter and then if you go a little bit further back to my my daughter you know you really start to see that that there's a self-concept issue going on here with the mini me and the mini me is like taking everything for its own my house my car my bank account my job my my my my my you know remember the Linda Ronstadt song love is a rose but you better not pick it only grows when it's on the vine handful of thorns and you know you've missed it lose your love when you say the word mine as soon as it's beyond health issues it's beyond daughter it's it's this mind part you know it's this thing of possession it thinks it's possessing an individual separate identity and now it's pulled in all these images all these projected cosmic images and to my galaxy or my solar system my planet you know oh there's a lot of planets there's really a lot of planets actually we have to be honest there's a lot of planets but my planet earth that's what you have to go out to really be free of this insidious kind of possessive alien that's that's trying to take control in the money I've never thought that the world is God manifesting that's the thing I teach I teach the opposite I teach ultimately that manifesting is impossible that's why it's not so popular but I'm not interested in popularity I'm interested in truth and joy and love and happiness you know and even the distinction between thoughts and manifesting thoughts as it forms to be different no the teachings of the course are my thoughts or images I have made I've invented the world I see meaning the ego and the world that the ego made are the same and the ego has no origin I say the world has no origin and the ego has no origin I mean that's one of the biggest questions I get I thought the top question around the world who created the ego that's like saying who created the devil I said it has no creator if God is is all-knowing all-loving all-powerful why would an all knowing all-loving all-powerful creator create an ego probably the purpose of creating a death wish you know and then if you start to say the world is synonymous with the ego you can start to realize that you won't find the solution in the world because the world is causeless this is getting down to the deepest teachings that's why God is not a creator of hypotheticals either linear time seems to be filled with many many many hypotheticals which assume that cause and effect are apart the only way you can have hypotheticals is have a gap between cause and effect but what what did Jesus teach the father and I are one the father God is cause the effect Christ is the son father and I are one means there's the same spirit there's no difference between cause and effect in heaven and if heaven is pure love joy peace happiness and if I seem to be trying to find love peace joy happiness in a world of hypotheticals in a world of fragments in a world of idle images what do you think your chances are of finding perfect peace perfect joy perfect happiness in in a world of fragmentation what do you think your chances are of finding peace on the battleground when we're constantly called in the course to go above the battleground you know even Einstein said you can't solve the problem at the level of the problem he Einstein would say you're not gonna find a solution to anything and here comes Einstein along you know you've been a chemist you been a scientist Einstein comes along and he just totally pops holes in Newtonian physics you know Newton Isaac Newton said that time was a constant most people still believe in Newtonian physics you know they still believe time is constant everyone still believes that if you had little second hands on your watches that if you're in China or Alaska or Russia or whatever that those if you had these clocks that they would all measure the same time the time is constant all over the world it's the same movement one second is one second is one second so oh Einstein came along and said no it isn't he said time is relative it's it's connected to the space thing and they're both relative and that's what they've discovered now about black holes and all kinds of things they've even taken clocks atomic clocks and they take them up in supersonic jets and they they have a clock on earth and then they fly a clock around the world an atomic clock a very precise clock around the world same atomic clock very precise and they fly one in a jet plane around the world and then they take them out and see if the clocks have the same time they don't they don't have the same time time is not constant it's entirely relative and and I would say the same thing is we can't find truth in the illusion Jesus says over and over don't try to bring the truth into the illusion you have all these synagogues and sacred rivers and sacred cows and sacred elephants and everything's sacred people sacred saints and this is the man of God no that's the woman of God he said no don't try to bring the truth into the illusion bring all of your illusions to the truth and then the illusions will disappear and it gets pretty abstract and what you're saying is it gets pretty intense when you start to come back to that perspective because the ego feels like it's being annihilated in that abstraction it wants definitions oh I'm a man I'm a woman I'm a chemist I'm this I'm of this location you know that's what people put on their resumes they put all their concepts out there and they're trying to hold on to those concepts because it's very frightening to not have a concept of the self to the ego it is it's great