 CHAPTER 1 Puerhuy Lase, ye hei a wei sum welcome to a wei sum world. Dutch was the first greeting ever received by my heroine, Olive Rothsay. However she would be then entitled neither a heroine nor even Olive Rothsay, being a small nameless concretion of humanity in color and consistency strongly resembling the red earth whence was taken the father of all nations. No foreshadowing of the coming life brightened her purple, pinched-up withered face, which, as in all newborn children, bore such a ridiculous likeness to extreme old age. No tone of the all-expressive human voice thrilled through the unconscious wail that was her first utterance, and in her wide-open, meaningless eyes had never dawned the beautiful human soul. There she lay, as you and I, reader, with all our compiers, lay once, a helpless lump of breathing flesh, faintly stirred by animal life, and scarce at all by that inner life which we call spirit. And if we thus look back, half in compassion, half in humiliation, at our infantile likeness, may it not be that in the world to come, some who in this world bore an outward image poor, mean, and degraded, will cast a glance of equal pity on their well-remembered olden selves, now transfigured into beautiful immortality. I seem to be wandering from my Olive Rothsay, but time will show the contrary. Your little spirit, newly come to earth, who knows whether that waysome welcome may not be a prophecy? The old nurse seemed almost to dread this, even while she uttered it, for with superstition from which not an old wife in Scotland is altogether free, she changed the dolerous croon into a good guideess, and pressing the babe to her aged breast, bestowed a hearty blessing upon her nursing of the second generation, the child of him who was at once her master and her foster son. One weighs me that he's safe far away, and cannot do it himself. My boney bairn, you're coming to the world without a father's blessing. Perhaps the good soul's clasp was the tenderer, and her warm heart throbbed the warmer to the newborn child for a passing remembrance of her own two fatherless babes, who now slept, as close together as when twin laddies they had nestled in one mother's bosom, slept beneath the wide Atlantic which marks the seaboy's grave. Nevertheless the memory was now grown so dim with years that it vanished the moment the infant waked and began to cry. Rocking to and fro the nurse tuned her cracked voice to a long forgotten lullaby, something about a boti. It was stopped by a hand on her shoulder, followed by the approximation of a face which, in its bland gravity, bore M.D. on every line. Well, my good—excuse me, but I forget your name. Elspeth? Or, mere commonly, Elspy Murray? And no one ill-named, doctor. The Murray's a perth-work. No doubt, no doubt, Mrs. El-Sappy. Elspysur? How d'or ye came out of my name? We are unseevil English tongue. Well, then, Elspy, or what the deuce you like, said the doctor, vexed out of his proprieties. But his rosy face became rosier when he met the horrified and sternly reproachful stare of Elspy's keen blue eyes as she turned round. A whole volume of sermons expressed in her, eh, sir? Then she added, quietly, Ah, thank ye, no to speak ill words in the ears of this queer innocent newborn wean. It's no canny. Hmph! I suppose I must beg pardon again. I shall never get out what I wanted to say, which is that you must be quiet, my good dame, and you must keep Mrs. Rothsay quiet. She is a delicate young creature, you know, and must have every possible comfort that she needs. The doctor glanced round the room as though there was scarce enough comfort for his notions of worldly necessity. Yet, though not luxurious, the antechamber and the room half revealed beyond it seemed to furnish all that could be needed by an individual of moderate fortune and desires, and an eye more romantic and poetic than that of the worthy medico might have found ample atonement for the want of rich furniture within in the magnificent view without. The windows looked down on a lovely champagne, through which the many winding forth span its silver network. Until, vanishing in the distance, a white sparkle here and there only showed whither the river wandered. In the distance the blue mountains rose like clouds marking the horizon. The foreground of this landscape was formed by the hill, castle crowned, than which there is none in the world more beautiful or more renowned. In short, Olive Rothsay shared with many a king and hero the honor of her place of nativity she was born at Sterling. Perhaps the circumstance of birth has more influence over character than many matter-of-fact people would imagine. It is pleasant in afterlife to think that we first opened our eyes in a spot famous in the world's story, or remarkable for natural beauty. It is sweet to say, those are my mountains, or this is my fair valley, and there is a delight almost like that of a child who glories in his noble or beautiful parents, in the grand historical pride which links us to the place where we were born. So this little morsel of humanity, yet unnamed, whom by an allowable prescience we have called Olive, may perhaps be somewhat influenced in afterlife by the fact that her cradle was rocked under the shadow of the hill of Sterling, and that the first breezes which fanned her baby brow came from the highland mountains. But the excellent presiding genius at this interesting advent cared for none of these things. Dr. Jacob Johnson stood at the window with his hands in his pockets. To him the wide beautiful world was merely a field for the exercise of the medical profession, a place where old women died and children were born. He watched the shadows darkening over Ben Letty, calculating how much longer he ought in propriety to stay with his present patient, and whether he should have time to run home and take a cozy dinner and a bottle of port before he was again required. Our sweet young patient is doing well, I think, nurse, said he at last in his most benevolent tones. You may say that, doctor, you sooth can. I might almost venture to leave her, except that she seems so lonely, without friend or nurse, save yourself. And was the best nurse for Captain Angus Rothsay's wife and bairn, but the woman that nursed him sale? said Elsby, lifting up her tall gaunt frame, and for the second time frowning the little doctor into confused silence. And as for friends, you soothed just be uncoo glad of the chance that garred the Letty-bide here, and no among her own folk, else there would not have been such a sad welcome for her bonny bairn. Maybe a whore, though, added the woman to herself, with a sigh, as she once more half-buried her little nursing in her capacious embrace. I have not the slightest doubt of Captain Rothsay's respectability, answered Dr. Johnson. Respectability, applied to the scions of a family which had had the honour of being nearly extirpated at Flood and Field, and again at Pinky. Had the trusty follower of the Rothsay's heard the term, she certainly would have been inclined to annihilate the presumptuous Englishman. But she was fortunately engaged in stilling the cries of the poor infant, who, in return for the pains she took in addressing it, began to give full evidence that the weakness of its lungs was not at all proportionate to the smallness of its size. Crying will do it good. A fine child, a very fine child, observed the doctor, as he made ready for his departure, while the nurse proceeded in her task, and the heap of white drapery was gradually removed, until from beneath it appeared a very, very tiny specimen of babyhood. You need no trouble, Yourself, to say what's not true, was the answer. It's just a bit bernie, ongoos smah, and that's no wonder, considering the poor Mithyr's trouble. And the father is gone abroad. Just twam on sin-sign. But eh, doctor, look ye here? Suddenly cried Elsby, as with her great brown but tender hand she was rubbing down the delicate spine of the now quieted babe. Well, what's the matter now? said Dr. Johnson rather sulkily, as he laid down his hat and gloves. The child is quite perfect, rather small perhaps, but as nice a little girl as ever was seen. It's all right. It's no erect! cried the nurse, in a tone trembling between anger and apprehension. Doctor, see? She pointed with her finger to a slight curve at the upper part of the spine, between the shoulder and neck. The doctor's professional anxiety was aroused. He came near and examined the little creature, with a countenance that grew graver each instant. A wheel? said Elsby inquiringly. I wish I had noticed this before, but it would have been of no use, he answered, his bland tones made earnest by real feeling. Eh, what? said the nurse. I am sorry to say that the child is deformed. Slightly so. Very slightly, I hope, but most certainly deformed. Humpbacked. At this terrible sentence, Elsby sank back in her chair. Then she started up, clasping the child convulsively, and faced the doctor. Yee-lee! You ugly creepin' Englisher! How dare you speak so of any of the rosses! For the blued-o-wheel came the talus men and the bonyus letties, near a cripple among them, ah! How dare you say that my master's bairn would be a— Ways me! I cannot speak the word! My poor woman, mildly said the doctor. I am really concerned. Haud yer tongue ye fool! muttered Elsby. While she again laid the child in her lap, and examined it earnestly for herself, the results confirmed all. She wrung her hands, and rocked to and fro, moaning aloud. Oh, con, the weary day! Oh, my dear master, my bairn that I nursed on my knee! How will ye come back and see your first-born, the last of the rosses, a queer-beat-crippled lassie? A faint call from the inner-room startled both doctor and nurse. Good heavens exclaimed the former, we must think of the mother. Stay, I'll go. She does not, and she must not know of this. What a blessing that I have already told her the child was a fine and perfect child! Poor thing! Poor thing! he added passionately, as he hurried to his patient, leaving Elsby hushed into silence, still mournfully gazing on her charge. It would have been curious to mark the changes in the nurse's face during that brief interval. At first it were a look almost of repugnance, as she regarded the unconscious child, and then that very unconsciousness seemed to awaken her womanly compassion. Poor hapless wean, the little cain which are coming to, lack of kinsmen's love, and lack of stiller, and lack of beauty. God forgive me! But why did he send ye into the wafer world, ta? It was a question, the nature of which has perplexed theologians, philosophers, and metaphysicians in every age, and will perplex them all to the end of time. No wonder, therefore, that it could not be solved by the poor, simple scotswoman. But as she stood, hushing the child to her breast, and looking vacantly out of the window at the far mountains which grew golden in the sunset, she was unconsciously soothed by the scene, and settled the matter in a way which wiser heads might often do with advantage. A wheel! He canes baste. He made the world an' all that's int, and maybe he would gie into this poor weathing amique spirit ta bear ill loch. Aon must work, and neither suffer, as the minister says, it'll all come raked at last. Still the babe slept on, the sun sank, and night fell upon the earth, and so the morning and evening made the first day of the new existence, which was about to be developed, through all the various phases which composed that strange and touching mystery, a woman's life. END OF CHAPTER I There is not a more hackneyed subject for poetic enthusiasm than that sight, perhaps the loveliest in nature, a young mother with her firstborn child, and perhaps because it is so lovely and is ever renewed in its beauty, the world never tires of dwelling thereupon. Any poet, painter, or sculptor would certainly have raved about Mrs. Rothsay had he seen her in the days of convalescence, sitting at the window with her baby on her knee. She furnished that rare sight, and one that is becoming rarer as the world grows older, an exquisitely beautiful woman. Would there were more of such, that the idea of physical beauty might pass into the heart through the eyes, and bring with it the ideal of the soul's perfection, which our senses can only thus receive? So great is this influence, so unconsciously do we associate the type of spiritual with material beauty, that perhaps the world might have been purer and better, if its onward progress in what it calls civilisation had not so nearly destroyed the fair mould of symmetry and loveliness which tradition celebrates. It would have done anyone's heart good only to look at Sibyla Rothsay. She was a creature to watch from a distance and then to go away and dream of, wondering whether she were a woman or a spirit. As for describing her it is almost impossible, but let us try. She was very small in stature and proportions, quite a little fairy. Her cheek had the soft peachy hue of girlhood, nay of very childhood, you would never have thought her a mother. She lay back, half-buried in the great armchair, and then suddenly springing up from amidst the cloud of white muslins and laces that enveloped her, she showed her young, oblide face. I will not have that cap, Elsby. I am not an invalid now, and I don't choose to be an old matron yet," she said, in a pretty, willful way, as she threw off the ugly, ponderous production of her nurse's active fingers, and exhibited her beautiful head. It was indeed a beautiful head, exquisite in shape, with masses of light brown hair folded round it, the little rosy ear peeped out, forming the commencement of that rare and dainty curve of chin and throat, so pleasant to an artist's eye, a beauty to be lingered over among all other beauties. Then the delicately outlined mouth, the lips folded over in a lovely gravity that seemed ready each moment to melt away into smiles. Her nose, but who would destroy the romance of a beautiful woman by such an illusion? Of course Mrs. Rothsay had a nose, but it was so entirely in harmony with the rest of her face that you never thought whether it were Roman, Grecian, or Aquiline, her eyes. She has two eyes so soft and brown, she gives a side glance and looks down. But was there a soul in this exquisite form? You never asked, you hardly cared. You took the thing for granted, and whether it were so or not, you felt that the world and yourself especially ought to be thankful for having looked at so lovely an image, if only to prove that the earth still possessed such a thing as ideal beauty, and you forgave all the men in every age that have run mad for the same. Sometimes perchance you would pause a moment, to ask if this magic were real, and remember the calm holy airs that breathed from the presence of some woman, beautiful only in her soul. But then you never would have looked upon Sibylla Rothsay as a woman at all, only a flesh-and-blood fairy, a Venus de Medici transmuted from the stone. Perhaps this was the way in which Captain Angus Rothsay contrived to fall in love with Sibylla Hyde, until he woke from the dream to find his seraph of beauty, a baby bride, pouting like a vexed child, because in their sudden elopement she had neither wedding bonnet nor Brussels veil. And now she was a baby mother, playing with her infant as, not so very long since, she had played with her doll, twisting its tiny fingers and making them close tightly round her own, which were quite as elfin-like comparatively. For Mrs. Rothsay's surpassing beauty included beautiful hands and feet, a blessing which nature, often niggerly in her gifts, does not always extend to pretty women, but bestows it on those who have infinitely more reason to be thankful for the boon. See, nurse Elsby, said Mrs. Rothsay, laughing in her childish way, see how fast the little creature holds my finger! Really I think a baby is a very pretty thing, and it will be so nice to play with until Angus comes home. She turned round from the corner where she sat sewing, and looked with a half-suppressed sigh at her master's wife, whose delicate English beauty and quick, ringing English voice formed such a strong contrast to herself, and were so opposed to her own peculiar prejudices. But she had learned to love the young creature nevertheless, and for the thousandth time she smothered the half-unconscious thought that Captain Angus might have chosen better. Women are a blessing for the Lord, as maybe you'll see any of these days, Mrs. Rothsay, said Elsby gravely, yamantech them as they're sent, and mark the best of them. Mrs. Rothsay laughed merrily. Thank you, Elsby, for giving me such a solemn speech, just like one of my husbands. To put me in mind of him, I suppose, as if there were any need for that, dear Angus, I wonder what he will say to his little daughter when he sees her, the new Mrs. Rothsay, who has come in opposition to the old Mrs. Rothsay, ha-ha! The old Mrs. Rothsay, she's your husband's aunt, observed Elsby, feeling it necessary to stand up for the honour of the family. Miss Flora was a cum le le diance, as other Rothsay's were, and this Mrs. Rothsay will be too, I hope, though she is such a little brown thing now, but people say that the brownest babies grow the fairest in time, eh, nurse? They do say that, replied Elsby, with another and a heavier sigh, as she bent closer over her work. Mrs. Rothsay went on in her blithe chatter. I half wished for a boy, as Captain Rothsay thought it would please his uncle, but that's of no consequence. He will be quite satisfied with a girl, and so am I. Of course she will be a beauty, my dear little baby. And with a deeper mother love piercing through her childish pleasure, she bent over the infant, then took it up, awkwardly and comically enough, as though it were a toy she was afraid of breaking, and rocked it to and fro on her breast. Elsby started up, Tuck-tent, Tuck-tent, you'll hurt it maybe, the poor wee. Oh, what was I going to say? Don't trouble yourself, said the young mother, with a charming assumption of matronly dignity. I shall hold the baby safe, I know all about it. And she really did succeed in lulling the child to sleep, which was no sooner accomplished than she recommenced her pleasant musical chatter, partly addressed to her nurse, but chiefly the unconscious overflow of a simple nature which could not conceal a single thought. I wonder what I shall call her, the darling. We must not wait until her papa comes home. She can't be baby for three years. I shall have to decide on her name myself. Oh, what a pity, I, who never could decide anything. Poor dear Angus, he does all. He had even to fix the wedding-day. And her musical laugh, another rare charm that she possessed, caused Elspi to look round with mingled pity and affection. Come, nurse, you can help me, I know. I am puzzling my poor head for a name to give this young lady here. It must be a very pretty one. I wonder what Angus would like. A family name, perhaps, after one of those old Rothseys that you and he make so much of. Oh, Mrs. Rothsey, and are you no proud of your husband's family? Yes, very proud, especially as I have none of my own. He took me, an orphan, without a single tie in the wide world. He took me into his warm, loving arms. Hear her voice faltered, and a sweet womanly tenderness softened her eyes. God bless my noble husband. I am proud of him, and of his people, and of all his race. So come, she added, her childish manner reviving. Tell me of the remarkable women in the Rothseys family for the last five hundred years. You know all about them, Elspi. Surely we'll find one to be in namesake for my baby. Elspi, pleased and important, began eagerly to relate long traditions about the Lady Christina Rothsey, who was a witch, and a great friend of Maester Michael Scott, and how, with spells, she caused her seven step-sons to pine away and die. Also the Lady Isabel, who let her lover down from her bower window with the long strings of her golden hair, and how her brother found and slew him, whence she laid a curse on all the line who had golden hair, and such never prospered, but died unmarried and young. I hope the curse has passed away now, gaily said the young mother, and that the latest scion will not be a golden-trust damsel, yet look here. And she touched the soft down beneath her infant's cap, which might, by a considerable exercise of imagination, be called hair. It is yellow, you see, Elspi, but I'll not believe your tradition. My child shall be both beautiful and beloved. Smitten with a sudden pang, poor Elspi cried, O, milleti, do not think of the future dinner! And she stopped confused. Really, how strange you are! But go on, we'll have no more Christina's nor Isabel's. Hurriedly Elspi continued to relate the histories of noble Jean Rothsay, who died by an arrow aimed at her husband's heart, and Alison, her sister, the beauty of James V's reckless court, who was no good, and Mistress Catherine Rothsay, who hid two of the Prince's soldiers after Coludon, and stood with a pair of pistols before their bolted door. Nay, I'll have none of these. They frighten me, said Cebilla. I wonder I ever had courage to marry the descendant of such awful women. No, my sweet innocent, you shall not be christened after them, she continued, stroking the baby-cheek with her soft finger. You shall not be like them at all, except in their beauty. And they were all handsome, were they Elspi? Nara any other Rothsay line, man or woman that was not fair to see? And so will my baby be, like her father, I hope, or just a little like her mother, who is not so very ugly, either, at least Angus says not. And Mrs. Rothsay drew up her tiny figure, padded one dainty hand, the wedded one, with its very fellow, and then, touched perhaps with a passing melancholy that he who most prized her beauty, and for whose sake she most prized it herself, was far away, she leaned back and sighed. However in a few minutes she cried out, her words showing how light and wandering was the reverie. Elspi, I have a thought, the baby shall be christened olive. It's a strange heathen name, Mrs. Rothsay. Not at all. Listen how I chance to think of it. This very morning, just before you came to wake in me, I had such a queer, delicious dream. Dream? Are you sure it was in the morning tide? cried Elspi, aroused into interest. Yes, and so it certainly means something, you will say, Elspi. Well, it was about my baby. She was then lying fast asleep in my bosom, and her warm soft breathing soon sent me to sleep, too. I dreamt that somehow I had gradually let her go from me, so that I felt her in my arms no more, and I was very sad, and cried out how cruel it was for anyone to steal my child, until I found I had let her go of my own accord. Then I looked up, after a while, and saw standing at the foot of the bed a little angel, a child angel, with a green olive branch in its hand. It told me to follow, so I rose up, and followed it over a wide desert country, and across rivers and among wild beasts, but at every peril the child held out the olive branch, and we passed on safely. And when I felt weary, and my feet were bleeding with the rough journey, the little angel touched them with the olive, and I was strong again. At last we reached a beautiful valley, and the child said, You are quite safe now. I answered, And who is my beautiful comforting angel? Then the white wings fell off, and I only saw a sweet child's face, which bore something of Angus' likeness and something of my own, and the little one stretched out her hands and said, Mother. While Mrs. Rothsay spoke, her thoughtless manner had once more softened into deep feeling, else be watched her with wondering eagerness. It was nay a dream, it was a vision? God send it true, said the old woman solemnly. I know not. Angus always laughed at my dreams, but I have a strange feeling whenever I think of this. Oh, else be you can't tell how sweet it was, and so I should like to call my baby Olive, for the sake of the beautiful angel. It may be foolish, but tis a fancy of mine. Olive Rothsay, it sounds well, and Olive Rothsay she shall be. Amen. And may she be an angel till ye are her days, and ye'll mind the blessed dream and love her ever-mere. Oh, my sweet Letty, promise me that she will! cried the nurse, approaching her mistress's chair, while two great tears stole down her hard cheeks. Of course I shall love her dearly! What made you doubt it? Because I am so young? Nay, I have a mother's heart, though I am only eighteen. Come, else be, do let us be merry, send these drops away. And she patted the old withered face with her little hand. Was it not you who told me the saying, it's ill greeting over a newborn wean? There, don't I succeed charmingly in your northern tongue? What a winning little creature she was, this young wife of Angus Rothsay, a pity he had not seen her, the old Highland Uncle, Miss Flora's brother, who had disinherited his nephew and promised heir for bringing him a sassanac niece. A charming scene of maternal felicity, I am quite sorry to intrude upon it, said a bland voice at the door, as Dr. Johnson put in his shining bald head. Mrs. Rothsay welcomed him in her graceful, cordial way. She was so ready to cling to everyone who showed her kindness, and he had been very kind, so kind that, with her usual quick impulses, she had determined to stay and live at Sterling until her husband's return from Jamaica. She told Dr. Johnson so now, and moreover, as an earnest of the friendship which she, accustomed to be loved by everyone expected from him, she requested him to stand Godfather to her little babe. She shall be christened after our English fashion doctor, and her name shall be Olive. What do you think of her now? Is she growing prettier? The doctor bowed a smiling ascent, and walked to the window. Thither Elsby followed him. You won't tell her the truth, I dourna? You will? And she clutched his arm with eager anxiety. And oh, for good sake, say it safely, kindly? He shook her off with an uneasy look. He had never felt in a more disagreeable position. Mrs. Rothsay called him back again. I think, doctor, her features are improving. She will certainly be a beauty. I should break my heart if she were not. And what would Angus say? Come, what are you and Elsby talking about so mysteriously? My dear madam, hem, began Dr. Johnson. I do hope, indeed I am sure your child will be a good child, and a great comfort to both her parents. Certainly, but how grave you are about it. I have a painful duty, a very painful duty, he replied. But Elsby pushed him aside. You're just a fool, man. You'll kill her? Say your say it, aunts. The young mother turned deadly pale. Say what, Elsby? What is he going to tell me? Angus! No, no, my darling lady. Your husband's safe? And Elsby flung herself on her knees beside the chair. But the lassie did not fear the will of God, and for good nay doubt, your sweet wee doctor, as is, I grieve to say it, deformed, added Dr. Johnson. The poor mother gazed incredulously on him, on the nurse, and lastly on the sleeping child. Then without a word, she fell back, and fainted in Elsby's arms. End of Chapter 2. CHAPTER 3 It was many days before Mrs. Rothsay recovered from the shock occasioned by the tidings, to her almost more fearful than her child's death, that it was doomed for life to suffer the curse of hopeless deformity. For a curse, a bitter curse, this seemed to the young and beautiful creature, who had learned since her birth to consider beauty as the greatest good. She was, so to speak, in love with loveliness, not merely in herself but in every human creature. This feeling sprang more from enthusiasm than from personal vanity, the borders of which meanness she had just touched but never crossed. Perhaps also she was too conscious of her own loveliness, and admired herself too ardently to care for attracting the petty admiration of others. She took it quite as a matter of course, and was no more surprised at being worshipped than if she had been the goddess of beauty herself. But if Sibyla Rothsay gloried in her own perfections, she no less gloried in those of all she loved, and chiefly in her noble-looking husband. And they were so young, so quickly wed, and so soon parted, that this emotion had no time to deepen into that soul-united affection which is independent of outward things, or rather becomes so divine, that instead of beauty creating love, love has power to create beauty. No marvel, then, that not having attained to a higher experience, Sibyla considered beauty as all in all, and this child, her child and Angus' would be a deformity, a shame to its parents, a dishonor to its race. How should she ever bear to look upon it? Still more, how should she ever dare to show the poor cripple to its father, and say, This is our child, our first-born? Would he not turn away in disgust, and answer that it had better died? Such exaggerated fancies as these haunted the miserable mother, when she passed from her long swoon into a sort of fever, which, though scarce endangering her life, was yet for days a source of great anxiety to the devoted Elsby. To the unhappy infant this madness, for it was temporary madness, almost caused death. Mrs. Rathce positively refused to see or notice her child, scorning alike the tearful entreaties and the stern reproaches of the nurse. At last Elsby ceased to combat this passionate resolve, springing half from anger and half from delirium. God forgave ye, and save the innocent Baron, the doctor he gave, and that you're gone to murder, unthankful woman as you are! muttered Elsby under her breath, as she quitted the room and went to succour the almost dying babe. Over it her heart yearned as it had never yearned before. Your mother cassia, you pair we thing. Maybe you're no lang for this world, but while you're in it, you shall be my Aen Lassie, and I'll be your Aen Mammy ever-mer. So like Naomi of old, Elsby Murray laid the child in her bosom and became nurse unto it. But for her the life of our olive Rathce, with all its influences good or evil, small or great as yet unknown, would have expired like a faint flickering taper. Perhaps in her madness the unhappy mother might almost have desired such an ending, as it was the disappointed hope which had at first resembled positive dislike subsided into the most complete indifference. She endured her child's presence, but she took no notice of it. She seemed to have forgotten its very existence. Her shattered health supplied sufficient excuse for the utter abandonment of all a mother's duties, and the poor feeble spark of life was left to Elsby's cherishing. By night and by day the child knew no other resting place than the old nurse's arms, the mother's seeming to be forever closed to its helpless innocence. True Sibylla kissed it once a day, when Elsby brought the little creature to her. And exacted as a duty the recognition which Mrs. Rathce, girlish and yielding as she was, dared not refuse. Her husband's faithful retainer had over her an influence which could never be gained said. Elsby seemed to be the sole regent of the babe's destiny. It was she who took it to its baptism, not the festal ceremony which had pleased Sibylla's childish fancy with visions of christening robes and cakes, but the beautiful and simple naming of Elsby's own church. She stood before the minister, holding the desolate babe in her protecting arms, and there her heart sealed the promise of her lips to bring it up in the knowledge and fear of God. And with an earnest credulity which contained the germ of purest faith, she, remembering the mother's dream, called her nursing by the name of Olive. She carried the babe home and laid it on Mrs. Rathce's lap. The young creature who had so strangely renounced that dearest blessing of mother love would feign have put the child aside, but Elsby's stern eye controlled her. Ymon kiss and bless your doctor? Nay, tongue but her mother should call her by her new christened name? What name? The name ye geet her ye in sell? No. No, surely you have not called her so. Take her away. She is not my sweet angel-baby, the darling in my dream. And Sibylla hid her face, not in anger or disgust, but in bitter weeping. She's your own doctor, Olive Rathce? Should Elsby less harshly? She may be an angel to ye yet? While she spoke, it's so chance that there flitted over the infant face one of those smiles that we see sometimes in young children—strange, causeless smiles, which seem the reflection of some invisible influence. And so, while the babe smiled, there came to its face such an angel-brightness that it shone into the mother's careless heart. For the first time since that mournful day which had so changed her nature, Sibylla Rathce sat down and kissed the child of her own accord. Elsby heard no maternal blessing. The name of Olive was never breathed, but the nurse was satisfied when she saw that the babe's second baptism was its mother's repentant tears. There was in Sibylla no hardness nor cruelty, only the disappointment and vexation of a child deprived of an expected toy. She might have grown weary of her little daughter almost as soon, even if her pride and hope had not been crushed by the knowledge of Olive's deformity. Love to her seemed a treasure to be paid in requital, not a free gift bestowed without thought of return. That self-forgetting maternal devotion, lavished first on unconscious infancy, and then on unregarding youth, was a mystery to her utterly incomprehensible. At least it seemed so now, when, with the years and the character of a child, she was called to the highest duty of a woman's life. This duty comes to some girlish mothers as an instinct, but it was not so with Mrs. Rothsay. An orphan and heiress to a competence, if not to wealth, she had been brought up like a plant in a hotbed, with all natural impulses either warped or suppressed, or forced into undue luxuriance. And yet it was a sweet plant with all, one that might have grown, I, and might yet grow into perfect strength and beauty. Mrs. Rothsay's education, that education of heart and mind and temper, which is essential to a woman's happiness, had to begin when it ought to have been completed, at her marriage. Most unfortunate it was for her, that ere the first twelve month of their wedded life had passed, Captain Rothsay was forced to depart for Jamaica, whence was derived his wife's little fortune, their whole fortune now, for he had quitted the army on his marriage. Thus Sibylla was deprived of that wholesome influence which man has ever over a woman who loves him, and by which he may, if he so will, counteract many a fault and weakness in her disposition. Time passed on, and Mrs. Rothsay, a wife and mother, was at twenty-one years old just the same as she had been at seventeen, as girlish, as thoughtless, eager for any amusement, and often treading on the very verge of folly. She still lived at sterling, enforced therein to by the entreaties, almost the commands of Elsby Murray, against whom she bitterly murmured sometimes, for shutting her up in such a dull, scotch town. When Elsby urged her unprotected situation, the necessity of living in retirement, for the honor of the family, while Captain Angus was away, Mrs. Rothsay sometimes frowned, but more often put the matter off with a merry jest. Meanwhile she consoled herself by going as much into society as the limited circle of doctor and Mrs. Johnson allowed, and therein, as usual, the lovely, gay, winning young creature was spoiled to her heart's content. So she still lived the life of a wayward petted child, whose natural instinct for all things good and beautiful kept her from ever doing what was positively wrong, though she did a great deal that was foolish enough in its way. She was, as she jestingly said, a widow bewitched, but she rarely co-catted, and then only in that innocent way which comes natural to some women, from a universal desire to please, and she never ceased talking and thinking of her noble Angus. When his letters came, she always made a point of kissing them half a dozen times, and putting them under her pillow at night, just like a child, and she wrote to him regularly once a month, pretty playful loving letters. But there was in them one peculiarity, they were utterly free from that delicious maternal egotism which chronicles all the little incidents of babyhood. She said in answer to her husband's questions, that Olive was well, Olive could just walk, Olive had learned to say papa and else be, nothing more. The fatal secret she had not dared to tell him. Her first letters, full of joy about the loveliest baby that ever was seen, had brought his in return echoing the rapture with truly paternal pride. They reached her in her misery, to which they added tenfold. Every sentence smote her with bitter regret, even with shame, as though it were her fault in having given to the world the wretched child. Captain Roffsay expressed his joy that his little daughter was not only healthy but pretty, for he said he should be quite unhappy if she did not grow up as beautiful as her mother. The words pierced Sibyla's heart, she could not, dared not tell him the truth, not yet at least, and whenever else be's rough honesty urged her to do so, she fell into such agonies of grief and anger that the nurse was obliged to desist. Sometimes when letter after letter came from the father, full of inquiries about his precious first born, Sibyla, whose fault was more in weakness than deceit, resolved that she would nerve herself for the terrible task, but it was vain, she had not strength to do it. The three years extended into four, and still Captain Roffsay sent gift after gift, and message after message to his daughter. Still he wrote to the conscious stricken mother how many times he had kissed the little lock of golden hue severed from the baby-head, picturing the sweet face and live, active form which he had never seen, and all the while there was stealing about the old house at Stirling, a pale, deformed child, small and attenuated in frame, quiet beyond its years, delicate, spiritless, with scarce one charm that would prove its lineage from the young beautiful mother out of whose sight it instinctively crept. Thus the years fled with Olive Roffsay and her parents, each month, each day, sowing seeds that would assuredly spring up, for good or for evil, in the destinies of all three. CHAPTER IV. The fourth year of Captain Roffsay's absence passed, not without anxiety for it was wartime, and his letters were frequently interrupted. At first, whenever this happened, his wife fretted extremely—fretted is the right word, for it was more a fitful chafing than a positive grief. Sibylla knew not the sense of deep sorrow. Her nature resembled one of those sunny climbs where even the rains are dues. So after a few disappointments, she composed herself to the certainty that nothing would happen amiss to her angus, and she determined never to expect a letter until she received it, and not to look for him at all until he wrote her word that he was coming. He was sure to do what was right, and to return to his dearly loved wife as soon as ever he could. And though scarce acknowledging the fact to herself, her husband's return involved such a humiliating explanation of truth concealed, if not of positive falsehood, that Sibylla dared not even think of it. Whenever the long-parted wife mused on the joy of meeting, of looking once more into the beloved face, and being lifted up like a child to cling round his neck with her fairy arms, for Angus was a very giant to her, then there seemed to rise between them the phantom of the pale-deformed child. To drown these fancies, Sibylla rushed into every amusement which her secluded life afforded. At last she resolved on an exploit at which Elsby looked aghast, and which made the quiet Mrs. Johnson shake her head, an evening party, nay even a dance at her own home. It will never do for the people here, their uncogood, said the doctor's English wife, who had imbibed a few Scottish prejudices by a residence of thirty years, nobody ever dances in sterling. Then I'll teach them, cried the lively Mrs. Rothsay, I long to show them a quadril, even that new dance that all the world is shocked at, oh I should dearly like a waltz. Mrs. Jacob Johnson was scandalised at first, but there was something in Sibylla to which she could not say nay, nobody ever could. The matter was decided by Mrs. Rothsay's having her own way, except with regard to the waltz, which her friend staunchly resisted. Elsby too interfered as long as she could, but her heart was just now full of anxiety about her nursing, who seemed to grow more delicate every year. Day after day the faithful nurse might have been seen trudging across the country, carrying little olive in her arms, to strengthen the child with the healing springs of Bridge of Allen, and invigorate her weak frame with the fresh mountain air that had their breath of beautiful Ben Letty. Among these influences did olives childhood dawn, so that in after life they never faded from her. Elsby scarcely thought again about the gay party, until when she came in one evening, and was undressing the sleepy little girl in the dusk, a vision appeared at the nursery door. It quite startled the old Scotswoman at first, it looked so like a fairy apparition, all in white with a green coronet. She hardly could believe that it was her young mistress. Eh, Mrs. Rothsay, you're no going to show your cell in such a dress, she cried, regarding with horror the gleaming bare arms, the lovely neck, and the tiny white-sandaled feet, which the short and airy robe exhibited in all their perfection. Indeed, but I am, and is quite a treat to wear a bald dress, I that have been smothered up in all sorts of ugly costume for nearly five years, and see my jewels. My Elsby, this pearl-set has only beheld the light once since I was married, so beautiful as it is, and Angus' gift, too. Did not say that name? cried Elsby, driven to a burst of not very respectful reproach. I marvel, you d'or, speak of Captain Angus, and ye with your havers and your jigs, while your husband's far away, and your bearin' sick. It's for nay good I tell ye, Mrs. Rothsay. Sabilla had looked a little subdued at the allusion to her husband, but the moment Elsby mentioned the little olive, her manner changed. You are always blaming me about the child, and I will not bear it. She is quite well. Are you not, baby? The mother never would call her olive. A feeble, trembling voice answered from the little bed. Yes, please, mamma. There, you hear, Elsby, now don't torment me any more about her, but I must go downstairs. She danced across the room in a graceful waltzing step, held out her hand towards the child, and touched one so tiny, cold and damp, that she felt half inclined to take and warm it in her own. But Elsby's hawk eyes were watching her, and she was ashamed. So she only said, good night, baby, and danced back again, out through the open door. For hours Elsby sat in the dark room beside the bed of the little child, who lay murmuring, sometimes moaning in her sleep. She never did moan, but in her sleep, poor innocent, the sound of music and dancing rose up from below, and then Mrs. Rothsay's singing. He better be hush in your prayer, we bear, and hear you heartless woman, mothered Elsby, who grew daily more jealous over the forsaken child, now the very darling of her old age. She knew not that her love for olive, and its open tokens shown by reproaches to Olive's mother, were sure to suppress any dawning tenderness that might be awakened in Mrs. Rothsay's bosom. It had not done so yet, for many a time during the dance and song did the touch of that little cold hand haunt the young mother, rousing a feeling akin to remorse. But she threw it off again and again, and entered with the gaiety of her nature into all the evening's pleasure. Her enjoyment was at its height, when an old acquaintance just discovered, an English officer quartered at the castle, proposed a waltz. Before she had time to say yes or no, the music struck up one of those enchanting waltz measures, which to all true lovers of dancing, are as irresistible as Maurice Conner's wonderful tune. Sibylla felt again the same blithe young creature of sixteen, who had led the revels at her first ball, dancing into the heart of one old colonel, six ensigns, a doctor, a lawyer, and of Angus Rothsay. There was no resisting the impulse. In a moment she was whirling away. In the midst of the dizzy round the door opened, and like some evil spectre in stocked Elsby Murray. Never was there such an uncouth apparition seen in a ballroom. Her grey petticoat exhibited her bare feet. Her short upper gown, that graceful and picturesque attire of the Scottish peasantry, was thrown carelessly over her shoulders. Her much was put on a rye, and from under its immense border her face appeared, as white almost as the cap itself. She walked right into the centre of the floor, laid her heavy hand on Sibylla's shoulder, and said, Mrs. Rothsay, your husbands come? The young wife stood one moment transfixed. She turned pale, afterwards crimson, and then, uttering a cry of joy, sprang to the door, sprang into her husband's arms. Dazzled with the light the traveller resisted not, while Elsby half-led, half-dragged him, still clasping his wife, into a little room close by. Then she shut the door, and left them. Then she burst in once more among the astonished guests. You may gain your gate, ye heathens, away we ye, for Captain Rothsay's come home. Sibylla and her husband stood face to face in the little gloomy room, lighted only by a solitary candle. At first she clung about him so closely that he could not see her face, though he felt her tears falling, and her little heart beating against his own. He knew it was all for joy, but he was strangely bewildered by the scene which had flashed for a minute before his eyes, while standing at the door of the room. After a while he drew his wife to the light, and held her out at arm's length to look at her. Then, for the first time, she remembered all, trembling, blushing scarlet over face and neck, she perceived her husband's eyes rest on her glittering dress. He regarded her fixedly, from head to foot. She felt his expression change from joy to uneasy wonder, from love to sternness, and then he wore a strange cold look, such a one as she had never beheld in him before. So the young lady I saw whirling madly in some man's arms was you, Sibylla, was my wife. As Captain Rothsay spoke, Sibylla distinguished in his voice a new tone, echoing the strange coldness in his eyes. She sprang to his neck, weeping now for grief and alarm as she had before wept for joy. She prayed him to forgive her, told him with a sincerity that none could doubt how rejoiced she was at his coming and how dearly she loved him, now and ever. He kissed her at her passionate entreaty, said he had nothing to blame, suffered her caresses patiently, but the impression was given, the deed was done. While he lived Captain Rothsay never forgot that night, nor did Sibylla, for then she had first seen that cold, stern look, and heard that altered tone. How many times was it to haunt her afterwards? CHAPTER V Next morning Captain Rothsay and his wife sat together by the fireside, where she had so often sat alone. Sibylla seemed in high spirits, her love was ever exuberant in expression, and the moment her husband seemed serious she sprang on his knee and looked playfully in his face. Just as much a child as ever I see, said Angus Rothsay, with a rather wintry smile. And then, looking in his face by daylight, Sibylla had opportunity to see how changed she was. He had become a grave, middle-aged man. She could not understand it. He had never told her of any cares, and he was little more than thirty. She felt almost vexed at him for growing so old. Nay, she even said so, and began to pull out a few grey hairs that defaced the beauty of his black curls. "'You shall lecture me presently, my dear,' said Captain Rothsay, "'you forget that I had two welcomes to receive, and that I have not yet seen my little girl.' He had not indeed. His eager inquiries after olive overnight had been answered by a pretty pout, and several trembling anxious speeches about a wife being dearer than a child. Baby was asleep, and it was so very late. He might surely wait till morning. To which, though rather surprised, he assented. A few more caresses, a few more excuses, had still further delayed the terrible moment, until at last the father's impatience would no longer be restrained. "'Come, Sibylla, let us go and see our little olive.' "'Oh, Angus!' and the mother turned deadly white. Captain Rothsay seemed alarmed. "'Don't trifle with me, Sibylla. There is nothing the matter. The child is not ill.' "'No, quite well.' "'Then why cannot Elsby bring her?' And he pulled the bell violently. The nurse appeared. "'My good Elsby, you have kept me waiting quite long enough. Do let me see my little girl.' Elsby gave one glance at the mother, who stood mute and motionless, clinging to the chair for support. In that glance was less compassion than a sort of triumphant exultation. When she quitted the room, Sibylla flung herself at her husband's feet. "'Angus! Angus, only say you forgive me before!' The door opened, and Elsby led in a little girl. By her stature she might have been two years old, but her face was like that of a child of ten or twelve, so thoughtful, so grave. Her limbs were small and wasted, but exquisitely delicate. The same might be said of her features, which, though thin and wearing a look of premature age, together with that quiet, earnest, melancholy cast peculiar to deformity, were yet regular, almost pretty. Her head was well shaped, and from it fell a quantity of amber-colored hair. Pale, lint-white locks, which, with the almost colorless transparency of her complexion, gave a spectral air to her whole appearance. She looked less like a child than a woman dwarfed into childhood, the sort of being renowned in elfin legends, as springing up on a lonely moor or appearing by a cradle-side, supernatural, yet fraught with a nameless beauty. She was dressed with the utmost care in white, with blue ribbons, and her lovely hair was arranged so as to hide as much as possible, the defect which, alas, was even then only too perceptible. It was not a humpback, nor yet a twisted spine. It was an elevation of the shoulders, shortening the neck and giving the appearance of a perpetual stoop. There was nothing disgusting or painful in it, but still it was an imperfection, causing an instinctive compassion, and involuntary, poor little creature, what a pity. Such was the child, the last daughter of the ever-beautiful Rothsay line, which else be led to claim the paternal embrace. Olive looked up at her father with her wistful, pensive eyes, in which was no childish shyness, only wonder. He met them with a gaze of frenzied unbelief. Then his fingers clutched his wife's arm with the grasp of an iron vice. Tell me, is that, that miserable creature, our daughter, Olive Rothsay? She answered yes. He shook her off angrily, looked once more at the child, and then turned away, putting his hand before his eyes, as if to shut out the sight. Olive saw the gesture. Young as she was it went deep to her child's soul. Then she saw it, too, and without bestowing a second glance on her master or his wife, she snatched up the child and hurried from the room. The father and mother were left alone, to meet that crisis most fatal to wedded happiness, the discovery of the first deceit. Captain Rothsay sat silent with averted face. Cebilla was weeping, not that repentant shower which reigned softness into a man's heart, but those fretful tears which chafe him beyond endurance. Cebilla, come to me. The words were a fond husband's words. The tone was that of a master who took on himself his prerogative. Never had Angus spoken so before, and the willful spirit of his wife rebelled. I cannot come. I dare not even look at you, you are so angry. His only answer was the reiterated command. Cebilla, come. She crept from the far end of the room, where she was sobbing in a fear-stricken childish way, and stood before him. For the first time she recognized her husband, whom she must obey. Now with all the power of his roused nature, he was teaching her the meaning of the word. Cebilla, he said, looking sternly in her face, tell me why all these years you have put upon me this cheat, this lie. Cheat? Lie? Oh Angus, what cruel, wicked words! I am sorry I used them then. I will choose a lighter term, deceit. Why did you so deceive your husband? I did not mean it, sobbed the young wife, and this is very unkind of you, Angus, as if heaven had not punished me enough in giving me that miserable child. Silence! I am not speaking of the child, but of you, my wife in whom I trusted, who for five long years has willfully deceived me. Why did you so? Because I was afraid, ashamed. But those feelings are past now, said Cebilla resolutely. If heaven made me mother it made you father to this unhappy child. You have no right to reproach me. God forbid! No, it is not the misfortune, it is the falsehood which stings me. And his grave mournful tone rose into one of bitter anger. He paced the room, tossed by a passion such as his wife had never before seen. Cebilla! He suddenly cried, pausing before her, you do not know what you have done. You little think what my love has been, nor against how much it has struggled these five years. I have been true to you, I to the depth of my heart, and you to me have been not wholly true. Here he was answered by a burst of violent hysterical weeping. He longed to call for feminine assistance to this truly feminine abolition, which he did not understand. But his pride forbade. So he tried to soothe his wife a little with softer words, though even these seemed somewhat foreign to his lips after so many long-parted years. I did not mean to pain you thus deeply, Cebilla. I do not say that you have ceased to love me. Would that Cebilla had done as her first impulse taught her, have clung about him crying, never, never, murmuring penitent words as a tender wife may well do, and in such humility be the more exalted. But she had still the wayward spirit of a petted child. Fancying she saw her husband once more at her feet, she determined to keep him there. She wept on, refusing to be pacified. At last Angus rose from her side, dignified and cold, his new not his old self, the lover no more but the quiet half indifferent husband. I see we had better not talk of these things until you are more composed. Perhaps indeed not at all. What is past is past, and cannot be recalled. Angus! She looked up, frightened at his manner. She determined to conciliate him a little. What do you want me to do? To say I am sorry? That I will, but—with an air of coquettish command. You must say so too. The jest was ill-timed. He was in too bitter a mood. Excuse me! You exact too much, Mrs. Rothsay. Mrs. Rothsay! Oh! Call me Sibylla, or my heart will break! cried the young creature, throwing herself into his arms. He did not repulse her. He even looked down upon her with a melting half reproachful tenderness. How happy we might have been! How different had been this coming home if you had only trusted me, and told me all from the beginning. Have you told me? Is there nothing you have kept back from me these five years? He started a little, and then said resolutely, Nothing, Sibylla, I declare to heaven, nothing. Save perhaps some trifles that I would at any time tell you, now, if you will. Oh no! Some other time. I am too much exhausted now, murmured Sibylla, with an air of langer, half real, half feigned, lest perchance she should lose what she had gained. In the sweetness of this reconciled lover's quarrel, she had almost forgotten its hapless cause. But Angus, after a pause of deep and evidently conflicting thoughts, referred to the child. She is ours still. I must not forget that. Shall I send for her again? He said, as if he wished to soothe the mother's wounded feelings. Alas! In Sibylla's breast the fountain of mother's feeling was as yet all sealed. Send for Olive! She said. Oh no! Do not I implore you. The very sight of her is a pain to me. Let us two be happy together, and let the child be left to else be. Thus she said, thinking not only to save herself, but him, from what must be a constant pang. Little she knew him, or guessed the after-effect of her words. Angus Rothsay looked at his wife, first with amazement, then with cold displeasure. My dear, you scarcely speak like a mother. You forget likewise that you are speaking to a father. A father who, whatever affection may be wanting, will never forsake his duty. Come, let us go and see our child. I cannot! I cannot! And Sibylla hung back, weeping anew. Angus Rothsay looked at his wife, the pretty wayward idol of his bridegroom memory, looked at her with the eyes of a world-tried, world-hardened man. She regarded him, too, and noted the change which years had brought in her boyish lover of yore. His eye wore a fretful reproach, his brow a proud sorrow. He walked up to her and clasped her hand. Sibylla, take care. All these years I have been dreaming of the wife and mother I should find here at home. Let not the dream prove sweeter than the reality. Sibylla was annoyed. She, the spoilt darling of every one, who knew not the meaning of a harsh word. She answered, Don't let us talk so foolishly. You think it foolish? Well, then, we will not speak in this confidential way any more. I promise, and you know I always keep my promises. I am glad of it, answered Sibylla. But she lived to rue the day when her husband made this one promise. At present she only felt that the bitter secret was disclosed, and Angus's anger overpassed. She gladly let him quit the room, only pausing to ask him to kiss her, in token that all was right between them. He did so, kindly, though with a certain pride and gravity, and departed. She dared not ask him whether it was to see again their hapless child. What passed between the father and mother whilst they remained shut up together there? Elsby thought not, cared not. She spent the time in passionate caresses of her darling, in half-muttered ejaculations, some of pity, some of wrath. All she desired was to obliterate the impression which she saw had gone deeply to the child's heart. Alive wept not. She rarely did. It seemed as though in her little spirit was a pensive repose, above either infant sorrow or infant fear. She sat on her nurse's knee, scarcely speaking, but continually falling into those reveries which we see in quiet children even at that early age, and never without a mysterious wonder approaching to awe. Of what can these infant musings be? Nurse! said the child, suddenly fixing on Elsby's face her large eyes. Was that my papa, I saw? It was just him sale, my sweet weepet, cried Elsby, trying to stop her with kisses. But Alive went on. He is not like Mama. He is great and tall, like you. But he did not take up and kiss me as you said he would. Elsby had no answer for these words, spoken in a tone of quiet pain, so unlike a child. It is only after many years that we learn to suffer and be silent. Was it that nature, ever merciful, had implanted in this poor girl as an instinct, that meek endurance which usually comes as the painful experience of afterlife? A similar thought passed through Elsby's mind, while she sat with little Alive at the window, where a few years ago she had stood rocking the newborn babe in her arms and pondering drearily on its future. That future seemed still as dark in all outward circumstances, but there was one way of hope, which centered in the little one herself. There was something in Alive which passed Elsby's comprehensions. At times she looked almost with an uneasy awe on the gentle silent child who rarely played, who wanted no amusing, but would sit for hours watching the sky from the window or the grass and waving trees in the fields, who never was her to laugh, but now and then smiled in her own peculiar way, a smile almost uncanny as Elsby expressed it. At times the old Scotswoman, who, coming from the debatable ground between Highlands and Lowlands, had united to the rigid piety of the latter much wild Gaelic superstition, was half inclined to believe that the little girl was possessed by some spirit. But she was certain it was a good spirit, such a darling as Alive was, so patient and gentle and good, more like an angel than a child. If her misguided parents did but know this, yet Elsby in her secret heart was almost glad they did not, her passionate and selfish love could not have borne that any tie on earth, not even that of father or mother, should stand between her and the child of her adoption. While she pondered there came a light knock to the door, and Captain Rothsay's voice was heard without. His own voice, soothed down to its soft, gentleman-like tone, it was a rare emotion indeed could deprive it of that peculiarity. Nurse, I wish to see Miss Olive Rothsay. It was the first time that formal appellation had ever been given to the little girl. Still it was a recognition, Elsby heard it with joy. She answered the summons, and Captain Rothsay walked in. We have never described Olive's father. There could not be a better opportunity than now. His tall, active form, now subsiding into the muscular fullness of middle age, was that of a Hercules of the Mountains. The face combined Scottish beauties and Scottish defects, which perhaps ceased to be defects when they become national peculiarities. There was the eagle eye, the large but well chiseled features, especially the mouth, and also there was the high cheekbone, the rugged squareness of the chin, which, while taking away beauty, gave character. When he came nearer, one could easily see that the features of the father were strangely reflected in those of the child, altered the likeness was, from strength into feebleness, from manly beauty into almost puny delicacy, but it did exist, and faint as it was, Elsby perceived it. Olive was looking up at the clouds, her thin cheek resting against the embrasure of the window, gazing so intently that she never seemed to hear her father's voice or step. Elsby motioned him to walk softly, and they came behind the child. "'Do ye know si, Captain Angus?' she whispered. "'Tis your own bonny face, eye and your mithers, ye mind her yet?' Captain Rothsay did not answer, but looked earnestly at his little daughter. She turning round met his eyes. There was something in their expression which touched her, for a rosy colour suffused her face. She smiled, stretched out her little hands, and said, "'Apa!' How Elsby then prided herself for the continual tutoring which had made the image of the absent father an image of love. Captain Rothsay started from his reverie at the sound of the child's voice. The tone, and especially the word, broke the spell. He felt once more that he was the father, not of the blooming little angel that he had pictured, but of this poor deformed girl. However, he was a man in whom a stern sense of right stood in the place of many softer virtues. He had resolved on his duty. He had come to fulfil it, and fulfil it he would. So he took the two little cold hands, and said, "'Papa is glad to see you, my dear.' There was a silence, during which Elsby placed a chair for Captain Rothsay, and Olive, sliding quietly down from hers, came and stood beside him. He did not offer to take the two baby hands again, but did not repulse them when the little girl laid them on his knee, looking inquiringly, at him, and then at Elsby. "'What does she mean?' said Captain Rothsay. "'Pweer bairn! I told her when her father was come him, he would tuck her in his arms and kiss her?' Rothsay looked angrily round, but recollected himself. Your nurse was right, my dear. Then pausing for a moment, as though arming himself for a duty, repugnant indeed but necessary, he took his daughter on his knee and kissed her cheek, once and no more. But she, remembering Elsby's instructions, and prompted by her loving nature, clung about him and requited the kiss with many another. They melted him visibly. There is nothing sweeter in this world than a child's unasked, voluntary kiss. He began to talk to her, uneasily and awkwardly, but still he did it. "'There, that will do, little one. What is your name, my dear?' he said absently. She answered, "'Olive Rothsay!' "'Aye, I had forgotten. The name, at least, she told me true. The next moment he set down the child, softly, but as though it were a relief.' "'Is Papa going?' said Olive, with a troubled look. "'Yes, but he will come back to-morrow. Once a day will do,' he added to himself. Yet, when his little daughter lifted her mouth for another kiss, he could not help giving it. "'Be a good child, my dear, and say your prayers every night and love, nurse Elsby. And Papa too, may I?' He seemed to struggle violently against some inward feeling, and then answered with a strong effort. "'Yes.' The door closed after him abruptly. Very soon Elsby saw him walking with hasty strides along the beautiful walk that winds round the foot of the castle rock. The nurse sat still for a long time thinking, and then ended her ponderings with her favorite phrase. "'God guide us. It's our come-ricked at last.' Our honest, humble soul. CHAPTER VI. The return of the husband and father produced a considerable change in the little family at Stirling. A household, long composed entirely of women, always feels to its very foundations the incursion of one of the nobler sex. From the first morning, when there resounded the multiplied ringing of bells and the creaking of boots on the staircase, the glory of the feminine dynasty was departed. Its easy laissez-à-l'et, its lax rule and its indifference to regular forms were at an end. Mrs. Rothsay could no longer indulge her laziness, no breakfasting in bed and coming down in crow-papers. The long gossiping visits of her thousand and one acquaintances subsided into frigid morning calls, at which the grim phantom of the husband frowned from a corner and suppressed all idle chatter. Cebilla's favorite system of killing time by half hours in various idle ways, at home and abroad, was terminated at once. She had now to learn how to be a dubious wife, always ready at the beck and call of her husband, and attentive to his innumerable wants. She was quite horrified by these at first. The captain actually expected to dine well and punctually, every day, without being troubled beforehand with what would he like for dinner. He listened once or twice, patiently too, to her history as of various small domestic grievances, and then requested politely that she would confine such details to the kitchen in future, at which poor Mrs. Rothsay retired in tears. He liked her to stay at home in the evening, make his tea, and then read to him, or listen while he read to her. This was the more arduous task of the two, for dearly as she loved to hear the sound of his voice. Sibilla could never feel interested in the prosy books he read, and often fell half asleep. Then he always stopped suddenly, sometimes looked cross, sometimes sad, and in a few minutes he invariably lighted her candle, with the gentle hint that it was time to retire. But often she woke hours after, and heard him still walking up and down below, or stirring the fire perpetually, as a man does who is obliged to make the fire his soul companion. And then Sibilla's foolish but yet loving heart would feel itself growing sad and heavy. Her husband's image, once painted there in such glittering colors, began to fade. The real Angus was not the Angus of her fancy. Joyful as was his coming home, it had not been quite what she expected. Else why was it that at times, amidst all her gladness, she thought of their old and past with regret, and of their future with doubt, almost fear. But it was something new for Sibilla to think at all. It did her good in spite of herself. While these restless elements of future pain were smoldering in the parents, the little neglected, unsightly blossom, which had sprung up at their feet, lived the same unregarded, monotonous life as here to fore. Olive Rothsay had attained to five years, growing much like a primrose in the field, how none knew or cared save heaven. To that heaven did both know and care, was evident from the daily sweetness that was stealing into this poor wayside flower, so that it would surely one day be discovered through the invisible perfume which it shed. Captain Rothsay kept to his firm resolve of seeing his little daughter in her nursery once a day at least. After a while, the visit of a few minutes lengthened to an hour. He listened with interest to Elsby's delighted eulogiums on her beloved charge, which sometimes went so far as to point out the beauty of the child's one face, with the assurance that Olive, in features at least, was a true Rothsay, but the father always stopped her with a dignified, cold look. We will quit that subject, if you please. Nevertheless, guided by his rigid sense of a parent's duty, he showed all kindness to the child, and his omnipotent way over his wife exacted the same consideration from the hitherto indifferent Sibylla. It might be also that in her wayward nature, the chill which had unconsciously fallen on the heart of the wife caused the mother's heart to awaken. And then the mother would be almost startled to see the response which this new, though scarcely defined, tenderness created in her child. For some months after Captain Rothsay's return, the little family lived in the retired old-fashioned dwelling on the Hill of Sterling. Their quiet round of uniformity was only broken by the occasional brief absence of the head of the household, as he said, on business. Angus was a word conveying such distaste, if not horror, to Sibylla's ears, that she asked no questions, and her husband volunteered no information. In fact, he rarely was in the habit of doing so, whether interrogated or not. At last, one day when he was sitting after dinner with his wife and child, he always punctiliously commanded that Miss Rothsay might be brought in with the dessert, Angus made the startling remark, My dear Sibylla, I wish to consult with you on a subject of some importance. She looked up with a pretty childish surprise. Consult with me? Oh, Angus, pray don't tease me with any of your hard business matters. I never could understand them. And I never for a moment imagined you could. In fact, you told me so, and therefore I have never troubled you with them, my dear, was the reply, with just the slightest shade of satire. But its bitterness passed away the moment Sibylla jumped up and came to sit down on the hearth at his feet, in an attitude of comical attention. Thereupon he patted her on the head, gently and smilingly, for he was a fond husband still, and she was such a sweet play thing for an idle hour. A play thing? Would that all women considered the full meaning of the term? A thing sighed for, snatched, caressed, worried of, neglected, scorned, and would also that every wife knew that her fate depends less on what her husband makes of her than what she makes herself to him. Now Angus, begin. I am all attention. He looked one moment doubtfully at Olive, who sat in her little chair at the farther end of the room, quiet, silent, and demure. She had beside her some purple plums, which she did not attempt to eat, but was playing with them, arranging them with green leaves in a thousand graceful ways, and smiling to herself in the afternoon sunlight, creeping through the dim window, rested upon them, and made their rich color richer still. Shall we send Olive away? said the mother. No, let her stay. She is of no importance. The parents both looked at the child's pale spiritual face, felt the reproach it gave, and sighed. Perhaps both father and mother would have loved her, but for a sense of shame in the latter, and the painful memory of deceit in the former. Sibylla, suddenly resumed Captain Rothsay, what I have to say is merely, how soon you can arrange to leave Sterling. Leave Sterling? Yes, I have taken a house. Indeed, and you never told me anything about it, said Sibylla, with a vexed look. Now my little wife do not be foolish. You never wish to hear about business, and I have taken you at your word. You cannot object to that. But she could, and she had a thousand half-powding, half- jesting complaints to urge. She put them forth rather incoherently. In fact she talked for five minutes without giving her husband opportunity for a single word. Yet she loved him dearly, and had in her heart no objection to being saved the trouble of thinking beforehand, only she thought it right to stand up a little for her conjugal prerogative. He listened in perfect silence. When she had done, he merely said, Very well, Sibylla, and we will leave Sterling this day month. I have decided to live in England. Old Church is a very convenient town, and I have no doubt you will find Meraville Hall in agreeable residence. Meraville Hall? Are we really going to live in a hall? cried Sibylla, clapping her hands with childish glee. But immediately her face changed. You must be jesting with me, Angus. I don't know much about money, but I know we are not rich enough to keep up a hall. We were not, but we are now, I am happy to say, answered Captain Rothsay with some triumph. Rich! Very rich! And you never told me. Sibylla's hands fell on her knee, and it was doubtful which expression was dominant in her countenance, womanly pain or womanly indignation. Angus looked annoyed. My dear Sibylla, listen to me quietly. Yes, quietly, he added, seeing how her color came and went, and her lips seemed ready to burst out into petulant reproach. When I left England I was taunted with having run away with an heiress. That I did not do since you were far poorer than the world thought, and I loved little Sibylla Hyde for herself and not for her fortune. But the taunt stung me, and when I left you I resolved never to return until I could return a rich man on my own account. I am such now. Are you not glad, Sibylla? Glad! Glad to have been kept in the dark like a baby, a fool! It was not proper treatment towards your wife, Angus, was the petulant answer, as Sibylla drew herself from his arm, which came as a mute peacemaker to encircle her waist. Now you are a child indeed. I did it from love, believe me or not it was so, that you might not be pained with the knowledge of my struggles, toils, and cares. And was not the reward the wealth all for you? No, it wasn't. Pray, hear reason, Sibylla, her husband continued, in those quiet unconcerned tones, which to a woman of quick feelings and equally quick resentments were sure to add fuel to the fire. I will not hear reason, when you have these four years been rolling in wealth, and your wife and child were—oh, Angus!—and she began to weep. Captain Rothsay tried at first, by explanations and by soothing, to stop the small torrent of fretful tears and half-broken accusations. All his words were misconstrued or misapplied. Sibylla would not believe but that he had slighted, ill-used, deceived her. At the term the husband rose up sternly. Mrs. Rothsay, who was it that deceived me? He pointed to the child, and the glance of both rested on little olive. She sat, her graceful playthings fallen from her hands, her large soft eyes dilated with such a terrified wonder that both father and mother shrank before them. That fixed gaze of the unconscious child seemed like the reproachful look of some angel of innocence sent from a pure world. There was a dead silence. In the midst of it the little one crept from her corner, and stood between her parents. Her little hands stretched out, and her eyes full of tears. Olive has done nothing wrong. Papa and Mama, you are not angry with poor little Olive. For the first time, as she looked into the poor child's face, there flashed across the mother's memory the likeness of the angel in her dreams. She pressed the thought back almost angrily, but it came again. Then Sibylla stooped down, and for the only time since her babyhood, Olive found herself lifted to her mother's embrace. The child had better go away to bed, said Captain Rathsay. Olive was carried out nestling closely in her mother's arms. When Sibylla came back the angry pout had passed away, though a grave troubled shadow still remained. She made tea for her husband, tried to talk on common topics once or twice, but he gave little encouragement. Before retiring to rest, she said to him timidly, There is no quarrel between us, Angus? Not in the least, my dear, he answered, with that composed deprecation of any offence given or received which is the most painful check to an impulsive nature. Only, we will not discuss matters of business together again. Women never can talk things over quietly. Good night, Sibylla. He lifted his head a little, a very little for her accustomed kiss. She gave it, but with it there came a sigh. He scarcely noticed either one or the other, being apparently deep in a large folio, commentary on the proverbs, for it was Sunday evening. He lingered for a whole hour over the last chapter, and chiefly the passages. Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far above rubies. The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil. She openeth her mouth with wisdom, and in her tongue is the law of kindness. At this, Captain Rothsay closed the book, laid his arms upon it, and sighed, Oh, how heavily! He did not go to bed that night until his young wife had lain awake for hours, regretting and resolving. Nor until, after many determinations of future penitence and love, she had at last wept herself to sleep for very sorrow. CHAPTER VII Looking back on a calm and uneventful childhood, and by childhood we mean the seven years between the babyhood of five and the dignity of teens, it always seems like a cloudy landscape, with a few points of view here and there which stand out clearly from the rest. Therein the fields are larger, and the sky brighter than any we now behold. Persons, places, and events assume a mystery and importance. We never think of them, or hear them named afterwards, but there clings to them something of the strange glamour of the time when we saw men as trees walking. Olive's childhood was passed in the place mentioned by her father. Maryvale, old church, in her future life the words, whenever heard, always sounded like an echo of that dreamy time, whose soul epochs are birthdays, Christmas days, the first snow drop found in the garden, the first daisy in the field. Such formed the only chronicle of Olive's childhood. Its earliest period was marked by events which she was too young to notice, troubles which she was too young to feel. They passed over her like storm clouds over a safely sheltered flower, only perceived by the momentary shadow which they cast. Once it was in the first summer at Maryvale, the child noticed how pleased everyone seemed, and how Papa and Mama, now always together, used to speak more tenderly than usual to her. Else be said it was because they were so happy, and that Olive ought to be happy too, because God would soon send her a wee, wee brother. She would find him some day in the pretty cradle, which else be showed her, so the little girl went to look there every morning but in vain. At last her nurse said she need not look there any more, for God had taken away the baby brother as soon as it came. Olive was very much disappointed, and when she went down to her father that day she told him of her trouble, but he angrily sent her away to her nurse. She looked ever after with grief and childish awe on the empty cradle. At last it was empty no longer. She, a thoughtful child of seven, could never forget the impression made when one morning she was roused by the loud peeling of the old church bells, and the maids told her, laughing, that it was in honor of her little brother come at last. She was allowed to kiss him once, and then spent half her time watching, with great joy and wonderment, the tiny face and touching the tiny hands. After some days she missed him, and after some more else be showed her a little heap in the nearest churchyard, saying, that was her baby brother's cradle now. Poor little Olive, her only knowledge of the tie of brotherhood, was these few days of silent watching and the little green mound left behind in the churchyard. From that time there came a gradual change over the household and over Olive's life. No more long quiet hours after dinner, her father reading, her mother occupied in some light work, or resting on the sofa in delicious idleness, while Olive herself little noticed, but yet treated with uniform kindness by both, sat on the hearth rug, fondling the sleepy cat, or gazing with vague childish reverie into the fire. No more of the proud pleasure with which, on Sunday afternoons, exalted to her grave papa's knee, she created an intense delight out of what was to him a somewhat formal duty, and said her letters from the large family Bible. These childish joys vanished gradually, she scarce knew how. Her papa she now rarely saw he was so much from home, and the quiet house, wherein she loved to ramble, became a house always full of visitors, her beautiful mama being the center of its gaiety. Olive retreated to her nursery and to Elsby, and the rest of her childhood was one long, solitary, pensive dream. In that dream was the clear transcript of all the scenes amidst which it passed, the old hall, seated on a rising ground, and commanding views which were really beautiful in their way, considering that Maravale was on the verge of a manufacturing district, bounded by pastoral and moreland country. Those strange furnace fires, which rose up at dusk from the earth and gleamed all around the horizon, like red fiery eyes open all night long, how mysteriously did they haunt the imaginative child. Then the town, old church, how in her afterlife it grew distinct from all other towns, like a place seen in a dream, so real and yet so unreal. There was its castle hill, a little island within a large pool, which had once been a real fortress and moat. Old Elsby contemed a like tradition and reality, until Olive read in her little history of England the name of the place, and how John of Gaunt had built a castle there. And then Elsby vowed it was unworthy to be named the same day with beautiful sterling. Finally did she impress on the child the glories of her birthplace, so that Olive in afterlife, while remembering her childhood scenes as a pleasant land of earth, came to regard her native Scotland as a sort of dream paradise. The shadow of the mountains where she was born fell softly, solemnly over her whole life, influencing her pursuits, her character, perhaps even her destiny. Yet there was a curious fascination about Old Church. She never forgot it. The two great wide streets, high street and butcher row, intersecting one another in the form of a cross. The two churches, the Old Church, Gloomy and Norman, with its ghostly graveyard, and the new church, shining white amidst a pleasant garden cemetery, beneath one of whose flowerbeds her baby brother lay. The two shops, the only ones she ever visited, the confectioners, where she stood to watch the yearly fair, and the booksellers, whether she dragged her nurse on any excuse, that she might pour over its incalculable treasures. Above all, there was fixed in her memory the strange aspect the town wore on one day, a coronation day, the grandest gala of her childhood. One king had died and been buried. Olive saw the black-hung pulpit and heard the funeral sermon, awfully thundered forth at night. Another king had been proclaimed, and Olive had gloried in the sight of the bonfires and the roasted sheep. Now the people talked of a coronation day. Simple child, she knew nothing of the world's events or the world's destinies, save that she rose early to the sound of caroling bells, was dressed in a new white frock, and taken to see the town, the beautiful town, smiling with triumphal flower arches and winding processions, how she basked in the merry sunshine and heard the shouts, and the band playing God Save the King, and felt very loyal, until her enthusiasm vented itself in tears. Such was one of the few links between Olive's early life and the world outside. Otherwise she dwelt, for those seven years of childhood, in a little Eden of her own, whose boundary was rarely crossed by the footsteps of either joy or pain. She was neither neglected nor ill-used, but she never knew that fullness of love on which one looks back in afterlife, saying deprecatingly, and yet sighing the while, ah, I was indeed a spoiled child. Her little heart was not positively checked in its overflowings, but it had a world of secret tenderness, which, being never claimed, expanded itself in all sorts of wild fancies. She loved every flower of the field and every bird in the air. She also, having a passionate fondness for study and reading, loved her pet authors and their characters with a curious individuality. Mrs. Holland stood in the place of some good aunt, and Sandford and Merton were regarded just like real brothers. She had no one to speak to about poetry. She did not know there was such a thing in the world. Yet she was conscious of strange and delicious sensations, when in the early days of spring she had at length conquered Elsby's fears about wet feet and muddy fields, and had gone with her nurse to take the first meadow ramble. She could not help bounding to pluck every daisy she saw, and when the violets came and the primroses, she was out of her wits with joy. She had never even heard of Wordsworth. Yet, as she listened to the first cuckoo note, she thought it no bird, but truly a wandering voice. Of Shelly's glorious lyric odes she knew nothing, and yet she never heard the Skylark's song without thinking it a spirit of the air, or one of the angels hymning at Heaven's gate. And many a time she looked up in the clouds at early morning, half expecting to see that gate open, and wondering whereabouts it was in the beautiful sky. She had never heard of art, yet there was something in the gorgeous sunset that made her bosom thrill, and out of the cloud ranges she tried to form mountains, such as there were in Scotland, and palaces of crystal like those she read of in her fairytales. No human being had ever told her of the mysterious links that reach from the finite to the infinite, out of which, from the buried ashes of dead superstition, great souls can evoke those mighty spirits, faith, and knowledge. Yet she went to sleep every night believing that she felt, nay could almost see, an angel standing at the foot of her little bed, watching her with holy eyes, guarding her with outspread wings. Oh, childhood, beautiful dream of unconscious poetry, of purity so pure that it knew neither the existence of sin nor of its own innocence, of happiness so complete that the thought, I am now happy, came not to drive away the wayward sprite which never is, but always is to come. Blessed childhood, spent in peace and loneliness and dreams, hidden therein lay the germs of a whole life. CHAPTER VIII. Olive Rothsay was twelve years old, and she had never learnt the meaning of that word whose very sound seems a wail, sorrow, and that other word which is the dirge of the whole earth, death, was still to her only a name. She knew there was such a thing, she read of it in her books. Its shadow had passed her by when she missed her little brother from the cradle, but still it had never stood by her side and said, Lo, I am here. Her circle of love was so small that it seemed as though the dread specter could not enter. She saw it afar off, she thought upon it sometimes in her poetical dreams, which clad the imaginary shape of grief with a strange beauty. It was sweet to be sad, sweet to weep. She even tried to make a few delicious sorrows for herself, and when a young girl, whose beautiful face she had watched in church, died, she felt pensive and mournful, and even took a pleasure in thinking that there was now one grave in the new churchyard which she would almost claim to weep over. Such were the tendencies of this child's mind, ever toward the melancholy and the beautiful united. Quietly pensive as her disposition was, she had no young companions to rouse her into mirth, but there was a serenity even in her sadness, and no one could have looked in her face without feeling that her nature was formed to suit her apparent fate, and that if less fitted to enjoy, she was the more fitted for the solemnity of that destiny to endure. She had lived twelve years without knowing sorrow, and it was time that the first lesson, bitter, yet afterwards sweet, should be learned by the child. The shaft came to her through Ellsby's faithful bosom, where she had rested all her life, and did rest now, with the unconscious security of youth which believes all it loves to be immortal. That Ellsby should grow old seemed a thing of doubtful future, that she should be ill or die was a thing that never crossed her imagination. And when it last, one year in the fall of the leaf, the hearty and vigorous old woman sickened, and for two or three days did not quit her room, still olive, though grieving for the moment, never dreamed of any serious affliction. She tended her nurse lovingly and cheerfully, made herself quite a little woman for her sake, and really half enjoyed the stillness of the sick room. It was a gay time, the house was full of visitors, and Ellsby and her charge, always much left to one another's society, were now alone in their nursery, night and day. No one thought the nurse was ailing, except with the natural infirmity of old age, and Ellsby herself uttered no word of complaint. Once or twice, while Olive was doing her utmost to enliven the sick chamber, she saw her nurse watch her with eager love, and then sink into a grave reverie, from which it took more than one embrace to rouse her. One night, or rather morning, Olive was roused by the sight of a white figure standing at her bedside. She would have been startled, but that Ellsby, sleeping in the same room, had many a time come to look on her darling, even in the middle of the night. She had apparently done so now. Go to your bed again, dear nurse, anxiously cried Olive, you should not walk about. Nay, you are not worse. I, I maybe, but do not fear, dairy, will buy till the morn, said Ellsby faintly, as she tried to move away, supporting herself by the bed. Soon she sank back dizzily. I cannot walk. My sweet lassie, will you help your pre-old nurse? Olive sprang up, and guided her back to her bed. When she reached it, Ellsby said thoughtfully, It's strange, Anco's strange. My strength is again. Never mind, Ellsby, dear. You are weak with being ill, but you will get better soon. Oh, yes, very soon. It's no that. And Ellsby took her child's hands and looked wistfully in her face. Olive, can you where to tie in your pre-old nurse? Can I where to gang away? Where? Going to God, said Ellsby solemnly, Dearie, I wouldn't agree with you, but am I sure this sickness is unto death? It was strange that Olive did not begin to weep, as many a child would have done, but though a cold trembling crept through her frame at these words, she remained quite calm. For Ellsby must be kept calm likewise, and how could she be so if her child were not? Olive remembered this, and showed no sign of grief or alarm. Perhaps she could not, would not believe a thing so fearful as Ellsby's death. It was impossible. You must not think thus. You must think of nothing but getting well. Lie down and go to sleep, she said, in a tone of almost womanly firmness, which Ellsby obeyed mechanically. Then she would have roused the household, but the nurse forbade. By her desire Olive again lay down. It had always been her custom to creep to Ellsby's bed as soon as she awoke. And now she did so long before daylight, in answer to a faint summons. I want ye, me bairne. You'll come to your old nurse's arms. Maybe they'll know how to long, murmured Ellsby. She clasped the child once, with an almost passionate tenderness, and then, turning away, dropped heavily asleep. But Olive did not sleep. She lay until broad daylight, counting hour by hour, and thinking thoughts deep and strange in a child of her years, thoughts of death and eternity. She did not believe Ellsby's words, but if they should be true, if her nurse should die, if this should be the last time she would ever creep to her living bosom. And then there came across the child's mind awful thoughts of death and of the grave. She struggled with them, but they clung with fearful tenacity to her fancy. All she had heard or read of mortality, of the coffin and the mold, came back with a vivid horror. She thought, what if in a few weeks, a few days, the hand she held should be cold, lifeless? The form whose faint breathings she listened to, should breathe no more but be carried from her sight and shut up in a grave under a stone. And then where would be Ellsby, the tender, the faithful, who seemed to live but in loving her? Olive had been told that when people died, it was their bodies only that lay in the grave, and their souls went up to heaven to be with God. But all her childish reasoning could not deceiver the two. It was a marvel that, loving Ellsby as she did, such thoughts should come at all, that her mind was not utterly numbed with grief and terror. But Olive was a strange child. There were in her little spirit depths of which no one dreamed. Hour after hour she lay thinking these thoughts, horrible, yet fraught with a strange fascination, starting with a shudder every time they were broken by the striking of the clock below. How awful a clock sounds in the nighttime and to such a watcher! A mere child, too. Olive longed for morning, and yet when the dusk of daybreak came, the very curtains took ghastly shapes, and her own white dress, hanging behind the door, looked like a shroud within which. She shuddered, and yet all the while she could not help eagerly conjecturing what the visible form of death would be. Utterly unable to endure her own thoughts, she tried to arouse her nurse, and then Elsby started up in bed, seized her with burning hands, and asked her who she was and what she had done with little Olive. I am little Olive! Indeed I am! cried the terrified child. Are you sure? Oh, well then, dearie, did not greet, murmured poor Elsby, striving vainly against the delirium that she felt fast coming on. My Baron, is it near morn? Oh, for a drink of milk or tea? Well I go and call the maids, but that dark, dark passage, I dare not. It's no matter, bite ye till the daylight, said Elsby, as she sank again into heavy sleep. But the child could not rest. Was it not cruel to let her poor nurse lie suffering burning thirst rather than encounter a few vague terrors? And if Elsby should have a long illness, should die, what then would the remorseful remembrance be? Not another thought the child crept out of bed and groped her way to the door. It is easy to laugh at children's fancies about ghosts and bogey, but Dante's terrors in the haunted wood were not greater or more real than poor little olives, when she stood at the entrance of the long gallery, dimly peopled with the fantastic shadows of dawn. None but those who remember the fearful imaginings of their childhood can comprehend the self-martyrdom, the heroic daring, which dwelt in that little trembling bosom, as olive groped across the gloom. Halfway through, she touched the cold handle of a door and could scarce repress a scream. Her fears took no positive shape, but she felt surrounding her things before and things behind. No human courage could give her strength to resist such terrors. She paused, closed her eyes, and said the Lord's prayer all through. But deliver us from evil, she repeated many times, feeling each time stronger and bolder. Then first there entered into her heart that mighty faith which can remove mountains, that fervent boldness of prayer with the very utterance of which an answer comes. And who dares say that the angel of that child always beholding the face of the Father in heaven did not stand beside her then, and teach her in faint shadowings the mystery of a life to come? Olive's awe struck fancy became a truth. She never crept to her nurse's bosom more. By noon that day, else belay in the torpor which marks the last stage of rapid inflammation. She did not even notice the child, who crept in and out of the thronged room, speaking to no one, neither weeping nor trembling, but struck with a strange awe that made her countenance and mean almost unearthly in their quietness. Take her away to her parents, whispered the physician. But her mother had left home the day before, and Captain Rothsay had been absent a week. There were only servants in the house. They looked at her often, said, poor child, and left her to go where she would. Olive followed the physician downstairs. Will she die? He started at the touch of the soft hand, soft but cold, always cold. He looked at the little creature, whose face wore such an unchild-like expression. He never thought to pat her head or treat her like a girl of twelve years old, but said gravely as though he were speaking to a grown woman. I have done my best, but it is too late. In three hours, or perhaps four, all will be over. He quitted the room, and Olive heard the rattle of his carriage-wheels. They died away down the gravel road, and all was silent. Silent except the twitter of a few birds, heard through the stillness of a July evening. Olive stood at the window and mechanically looked out. It was so beautiful, so calm. Out the west the clouds were stretched out in pale folds of rose-colour and grey. On the lawn slept the long shadows of the trees, for behind them was rising the round red moon, and yet within the house was death. She tried to realize the truth. She said to herself time after time, Elspy will die, but even yet she could not believe it. How could the little birds sing and the sunset shine when Elspy was dying? At last the light faded, and then she believed it all. Night and death seemed to come upon the world together. Suddenly she remembered the physician's words. Three hours, four hours. Was that all? And Elspy had not spoken to her since the moment when she cried and was afraid to rise in the dark. Elspy was going away, for ever, without one kiss, one goodbye. Weeping passionately, Olive flew back to the chamber where several women stood round the bed. There lay the poor aged form in a torpor which, saved for the purple face and the loud heavy breathing, had all the unconsciousness of death. Was that Elspy? The child saw and her tears were frozen. The maids would have drawn her away. No. No, Olive said in a frightened whisper. Let me look at her. Let me touch her hand. It lay outside the bed-clothes, helpless and rigid, the fingers dropping together as they always do in the hour of parting life. Olive touched them. They were cold, so cold. Then she knew what was death. The maids carried her fainting from the room. Mrs. Rothsay had returned, and, frightened and grieved, now wept with all a woman's softness over the deathbed of the faithful old nurse. She took her little daughter to her own sitting-room, laid her on the sofa, and watched by her very tenderly. Olive, exhausted and half insensible, heard as in a dream her mother whispering to the maid, Come and tell me when there is any change. Any change? What change? That from life to death? From earth to heaven? And would it take place at once? Could they tell the instant when Elspy's soul departed to be beyond the sun? Such and so strange were the thoughts that floated through the mind of this child of twelve years old, and from these precocious yearnings after the infinite, Olive's fancy turned to earthly childish things. She pictured with curious minuteness how she would feel when she awoke next morning, and found that Elspy was dead, how there would be a funeral, how strange the house would seem afterward, even what would be done with the black bonnet and shawl, which, two days since, Elspy had hung up against the nursery door never to put on again. And then a long silent agony of weeping came. Her mother, thinking she slept, sat quietly by, but in any case Olive would never have thought of going to her for consolation. Young as she was, Olive knew that her sorrow must be born alone, for none could understand it. Until we feel that we are alone on earth, how rarely do we feel that we are not alone in heaven? For the second time this day the child thought of God. Not merely as of him to whom she offered her daily prayers, and those repeated after the clergyman in church on Sunday, but as one to whom, saying, Our Father, she could ask for anything she desired. And she did so, lying on the sofa, not even turning to kneel down, using her own simple words. She prayed that God would comfort her when Elspy died, and teach her not to grieve, but to be a good patient child, so that she might one day go to her dear nurse in heaven, and never be parted from her any more. She heard the maid come in and whisper to her mama. Then she knew that all was over, that Elspy was dead. But so deep was the peace which had fallen on her heart that the news gave no pang, caused no tears. "'Olive, dearest,' said Mrs. Rothsay, herself subdued into weeping. "'I know, mama,' was the answer. "'Now I have no one to love me but you.' The feeling was strange, perhaps even wrong, but as Mrs. Rothsay clasped her child, it was not without a thrill of pleasure that Olive was all her own now. "'Where shall Miss Rothsay sleep tonight?' was the whispered question of the maid. Olive burst into tears. "'She shall sleep with me. "'Darling, do not cry for your poor nurse. "'Will not mama do instead?' And looking up, Olive saw, as though she had never seen it before, the face which, now shining with maternal love, seemed beautiful as an angel's. It became to her like an angel's ever more. "'How often, in our human fate, does the very hand that taketh give?' End of CHAPTER IX. Mrs. Rothsay, touched by an impulse of regretful tenderness, showed all due respect to the memory of the faithful woman who had nursed with such devotion her husband and her child. For a whole long week Olive wandered about the shut-up house, the formal solemnities of death, now known for the first time, falling heavily on her young heart, alas that there was no one to lift it beyond the terrors of the grave to the sublime mysteries of immortality. But the child knew none of these, and therefore she crept, awestruck about the silent house, and when night fell, she dared not even to pass near the chamber, once her own and elspice, now deaths. She saw the other members of the household enter there with solemn faces, and pass out, carefully locking the door. What must there be within? Something on which she dared not think, and which nothing could induce her to behold. At times she forgot her sorrow, and, still keeping close to her mother's side, amused herself with her usual childish games, using disjointed maps or drawing on a slate, but all was done with a quietness sadder than even tears. The evening before the funeral Mrs. Rothsay went to look for the last time on the remains of her faithful old servant. She tried to persuade little Olive to go with her. The child accompanied her to the door, and then, weeping violently, fled back and hid herself in another chamber. From thence she heard her mother come away, also weeping, with a feeble nature of Sibylla Rothsay had lost none of its tender-hearted softness. Olive listened to the footsteps gliding down stairs, and there was silence. Then the passionate affection which she had felt for her old nurse rose up, driving away all childish fear, and strengthening her into a resolution which until then she had not dared to form. Tomorrow they would take away Elspy, for ever. On earth she would never again see the face which had been so beloved. Would she let Elspy go without one look, only one? She determined to enter the awful room now, and alone. It was about seven in the evening, still daylight, though in the darkened house dimmer than without. Olive drew the blind aside, took one long gaze into the cheerful sunset landscape to strengthen and calm her mind, and then walked with a firm step to the chamber door. It was not locked this time, but closed a jar. The child looked in a little way only. There stood the well-remembered furniture. The room seemed the same, only pervaded with an atmosphere of silent, solemn repose. There would surely be no terror there. Olive stole in, hearing in the stillness every beating of her heart. She stood by the bed. It was covered, not with its usual counterpane of patchwork stars, the work of Elspy's diligent hand through many a long year, and on which her own baby fingers had been first taught to sew, but with a large white sheet. She stood, scarce knowing whether to fly or not, until she heard a footstep on the stairs. One minute, and it would be too late. With a resolute hand she lifted the sheet, and saw the white fixed countenance, not of sleep but death. Uttering a shriek so wild and piercing that it rang through the house, Olive sprang to the door, fled through the passage, at the end of which she sank in convulsions. That night the child was taken ill, and never recovered until some weeks after, when the grass was already springing on poor Elspy's grave. It is nature's blessed ordinance, that in the mind of childhood the remembrance of fear or sorrow fades so fast. Therefore when Olive regained strength, and saw the house now smiling within and without amidst the beauty of early autumn, the horrors of death passed from her mind, or were softened into a tender memory. It was well for her that she had looked on that poor dead face, to be certain that it was not Elspy. She never thought of Elspy in that awful chamber any more. She thought of her as in life, standing knitting by the nursery window, walking slowly and sedately along the green lanes, carrying the basket of flowers and roots collected in their rambles, or sitting in calm Sunday afternoons with her Bible on her knee. And then, passing from the memory of Elspy once on earth, Olive thought of Elspy now in heaven. Her glowing imagination idealized all sorrow into poesy. She never watched the sunset. She never looked up into the starry sky at night, without picturing Elspy as there. All the foibles and peculiarities of her poor old Scottish nurse became transmuted into the image of a guardian invisible, incorporeal, which seemed to draw her own spirit nearer to heaven, with the thought that there was one she loved, and who loved her, in the glorious mansions there. From the time of her nurse's death the whole current of Olive's life changed. It cast no shadow over the memory of the deep affection lost, to say that the full tide of living love now flowed towards Mrs. Rothsay as it had never done before, perhaps never would have done but for Elspy's death. And truly the mother's heart now thirsted for that flood. For seven years the little cloud which appeared when Captain Rothsay returned had risen up between husband and wife, increasing slowly but surely, and casting a shadow over their married home. Like many another pair who wed in the heat of passion, or the willful caprice of youth, their characters, never very similar, had grown less so day by day, until their two lives had severed wider and wider. There was no open dissension that the wicked world could take hold of to glut its eager eyes with the spectacle of an unhappy marriage, but the chasm was there. A gulf of coldness, indifference, and distrust which no foot of love would ever cross. Angus Rothsay was a disappointed man. At five and twenty he had taken a beautiful, playful, half-educated child, his bride and his darling-to-be, forgetting that at thirty-five he should need a sensible woman to be his trustworthy, sympathizing wife, the careful and thoughtful mistress of his household. When hard experience had made him old and wise, even a little before his time, he came home expecting to find her old and wise too. The hope failed. He found Sibylla as he had left her, a very child. Ductile and loving as she was, he might even then have guided her mind, have formed her character, in fact have made her anything he liked. But he would not do it. He was too proud. He brooded over his disappointed hope in silence and reserve, and though he reproached her not, and never ceased to love her in his own cold way, yet all respect and sympathy were gone. Her ways were not his ways, and was it the place of a man and a husband to bend? After a few years of struggling, less with her than with himself, he decided that he would take his own separate course and let her take hers. He did so. At first she tried to win him back, not with a woman's sweet and placid dignity of love, never failing, never tiring, yet invisible as a rivulet that runs through deep green bushes, scarcely heard and never seen. Sibylla's arts, the only arts she knew, were the whole armory of girlish coquetry, or childish while, passionate tenderness and angry or sullen reproach, alternating each other. Her husband was equally unmoved by all. He seemed a very rock, indifferent to either sunshine or storm. And yet it was not so. He had in his nature deep, earnest, abiding tenderness, but he was one of those people who must be loved only in their own quiet, silent way. A hard lesson for one whose every feeling was less a principle than an impulse. Sibylla could not learn it. And thus the happiness of two lives was blighted, not from evil or even lack of worth in either, but because they did not understand one another. Their current of existence flowed on coldly and evenly, in two parallel lines which would never, never meet. The world beheld Captain Rothsay in two phases. One as the grave, somewhat haughty but respected master of Merivale Hall, the other as the rash and daring speculator, who was continually doubling and troubling his fortune by all the thousand ways of legal gambling in which men of capital can indulge. There was in this kind of life an interest and excitement. Captain Rothsay rushed to it, as many another man would have rushed to far less sinless means of atoning for the dreary blank of home. In Mrs. Rothsay the world only saw one of its fairest adornments, one of those charming women who make society so agreeable. Beautiful, kind-hearted, at least as much so as her thoughtless life allowed, lively, fond of amusement, perhaps a little too much, for it caused people to note the contrast between the master and the mistress of the hall, and to say what no wife should ever give the world reason to say. Poor thing! I wonder if she is happy with her husband. But between those two stood the yet scarce recognized tie which bound them together. THE LITTLE DEFORMED CHILD.