 Hello and welcome to the vlog mess. I have a little bit of a better attitude today. Not a hundred percent But man, I'm getting there anyway There's a dog. I don't dog. He did not poop or pee in the house. I was gone today. So that's a success But yeah, we're gonna head out on our walk and go He well he goes potty and poopy outside. I don't do that Anymore anyway, so I just want to check in say hi attitude is better ish and Yeah, thank you guys so much for all the comments and love on the last video If you want to see what I'm talking about I will link it wherever it goes It's gonna be a journey and I am going to see my regular physician Next week. So once I see him then we will explore some other possibly some other options as well as You know petitioning the insurance company for sorry camera just like totally cut out, but my battery is dying That's why so I will see you guys a little bit later, and then we will discuss Thanks for the love. Bye. Well, hi. It's a bit later now, and I figured I was kind of getting ready for bed and I Just wanted to do my nighttime routine with you guys because I just feel like I don't really have much to say today besides Thank you. Um I've been reading all of your comments From yesterday's video. I haven't really responded to too many, you know There are a lot of opinions out there about you know what I should or shouldn't do but You know all you guys have been really supportive and giving me advice and everything too, so I'm really thankful for that especially You guys that I like been through, you know fighting with insurance companies and all that good stuff But to answer some really really popular questions. Yes I am gonna be going over this with my primary physician and I'll be doing like an appeal thing in the meantime I am going to be taking my physician and surgeon's advice and Trying to do some other things to get the acid blockers to work Like I want to try everything I can and I'm just open to everything I know there's like a big heated debate about the weight loss surgery thing if it would work and all of that stuff And I do trust the physicians that I've been working with over the last year to really help me Figure out what's going on with my body now that I know we can do something about it However, it's kind of like a hurry up and wait kind of a thing right now So yeah, I will be talking to my physician. We will be doing a petition. However, I'm gonna do some kind of Proactive type stuff right now Just to either, you know rule things out or see if there's other possibilities down the line So if I get some acid blockers that work, then I can just do the freaking surgery like I was supposed to But I I just don't know if that is Feasible or not. So we shall see so anyway, let's get into the skincare routine of the evening All right, so I'm gonna get my Think I'm a G out and I'm like, I don't know why I like put my robe on. I'm like, I just want to wear a robe right now Anyway, so I have my Clarisonic here. I use the Clarisonic Mia 3 that's what I use and then I have my Suit ofville which is a maze. So I'm gonna cleanse my skin real quick and then I will Come back with you know other things because you know It's it's not it's not very exciting y'all, but I'll be right back. All right Faces all wet now and like here's a quandary for you guys How do people not get like completely soaking wet? Washing their face in a sink. How do you guys? know because Every time I wash my face in the sink It just it's a it's a mess. It's it's now officially a mess. So I Have one towel for my actual face And then this towel is already soaked and I put it like in front of the sink Because if I don't it just goes all on the floor. So I get minimal splatter on the floor There is some minimal though And then the rest of this is used to like wipe up all the rest of the stuff and it's like sobbing wet so Like it's it's super wet y'all. So I end up Putting it while you guys can't see it, but I end up putting it Over here to like dry out for the night Because I can't put it in my laundry because then it's just gonna be wet and it's like never gonna get dry This however will get dry because it's it's just like damp. This is my face one. Anyway, okay Ah We are done with the face washing. Let's do the face toning and This is the season for hella dry skin and I have I don't know what is going on my skin It's all attributed to the cold weather because I live in Minnesota and it's really cold right now, but um Yeah, so I have like I don't like kind of like rough patches, but I feel like Scaly does that make sense? I don't know I Also probably need to do. Um, what's it called derma planning? No, I Can't remember it when you shave your face. I actually do that about once a month and It's so cool. I absolutely love it It makes like your skincare work so much better because it like soaks in and it just like gets all the dead skin off of your face and Um removes all of your like peach fuzz to so Anyway, um makes, you know the products work better and then you know if you wear makeup Which I don't really I mean I wear like tinted moisturizer and a little mascara, but You know if you wear makeup it goes on a lot smoother as well. So yeah Um, I don't know. I really been doing it for a while and I really really like it And that's like very exfoliating. I don't know. I like it Okay, and now that that's done. I'm going to use my Cera V PM lotion and if I can find any of these products, I'll try to find like an Amazon link and put them below If you're interested But yeah, this is just my nighttime face lotion. I just I don't know. I really like The Cera V or Cera V. I don't know how to say it. Um and like Cedophil brand stuff. It's just Worked well for my skin. I've tried like super high-end stuff I've also tried like just regular, you know stuff too And I just feel like this stuff and like Cedophil brand for whatever reason just works really well with my skin like it just reacts Nicely to it which is Always a good thing Let me do a little layering today Since my skin is like super dehydrated. I am going to not super dehydrated, but you know I'm gonna use some of this. This is the Nutra Gina Hydra Boost water gel with hyaluronic acid my friend Jodi from Life's Organized Chaos turned me on to this and I absolutely love it and I'm getting towards the bottom of it But this is so nice and on the days that I don't wear any makeup at all like not even the tinted moisturizer just no makeup This is what I do It gives a nice I don't know. It's not like a sheen But it gives like a coolness to your skin, which is awesome in the summer by the way I'm kind of putting it on strong right now. So I kind of look a little I don't know the lighting in here is bad anyways But I really really like this and it's very very nice and it's very very like refreshing Um, I don't know it feels like it feels like you know water on your face But like good smelling water. I don't know if you all have tried this you probably know what I'm talking about Anyway, but yeah, the days. I don't wear any makeup at all. I will you know, just put my regular moisturizer on I'm using the PM1 right now because it doesn't have any SPF in it But normally the one that the SPF I will use If I'm gonna just you know be leaving the house or whatever be out and about taking Doyle on a walk and whatnot And then I'll put this on too just as like an added layer of You know moist moist jurisdictions And you always want to do your neck too because That's where it shows the age first y'all Okay, so now that that's done. I'm gonna give it a second to dry and Put the things a lot and PS my lips recently have just been like I Have this like one like crack in my lip and it will not Like heal so that's really frustrating Fascinating. Wow for rust rating. I can't talk today. So I'm using this. It's the CO Bigelow my favorite night balm And I actually wear this during the day too But it's super thick and it stays on all night The only issue I've had with this stuff in the past or even wearing Um like a balm at night is if I like lay on my pillow. I tend to get um like clogged pores and stuff right around here, but I Haven't had that happen yet this winter, but I'm sure it's common, but that's my own fault. That's my own fault Okay I need I Okay, so Like in my skincare drawer like trying to try to figure it all out Okay, since I really don't have like any crazy active breakouts. I am going to use a couple of things. So this stuff I love it's from the drugstore. It's by the brand rock ROC I feel like this works just as well as any like other high-end Eye creams or like wrinkle reducing creams out there because it's got a lot of the same ingredients So anyway, here is the eye cream and again, I'll link this one below, but it's the retinol Correction eye cream and it says visibly reduces wrinkles around the eyes crows feet dark circles and puffiness and um You know, I don't know. I just kind of put it here I do some up here as well. I do have kind of more hooded eyelids So I like to put a little bit up there and then like some right in here Because I always remember well, I mean I still wear makeup But once in a great while I'll wear like foundation And man it drives me nuts because it like cracks like right here So I always try to like get this little section. Um I don't know just one one of those things. You know what I'm saying? Um, yeah, but I don't know. I don't do the eye cream all the time. I used to do like a ton of eye cream and then um, I had to Unfortunately getting these little bumps Under my eyes and I think there was only like two of them. I had them removed But um, it was like build-up of product is what it was So it's basically like a clogged pore that looked like a little whitehead and you couldn't like You wouldn't have been able to see it unless I was like really close But it really did bother me. So, um I went to a dermatologist and they actually removed it and it hasn't come back yet But they're like it's just build-up product. So just be aware of that. Um Yeah, sorry, my nose is like running Best vlog ever All right, and then this is the rock retinol correction deep wrinkle night cream Clearly they have a day cream. I would assume then and then this is for like Not eye stuff. So I like to put it Like right around here You know all the all the good places and then You know right around here because it's kind of like where your lines kind of start And then I like to um Get my forehead too, even though I don't like that's like that's my that's my forehead look I don't really have like too many wrinkles on the forehead And I'd like to keep it that way. So you just you know It's just all about the moisturization of the skins Last thing I'm going to do tonight is this cares wild rose Sleeping facial. I believe this one was called. Yeah, advance of brightening sleeping facial This stuff Smells like a goddamn dream um It's so good and I don't have a ton of it left, but We're gonna go in anyways um It's all I I think my mom has tried this one before too and she's like oh, it smells so good And I must say like this is a it's a sleeping facial. So um It's like a thicker cream You put it on and you sleep with it on and I gotta say in the morning Your face smells so good. I mean it smells good when you go to bed But it's kind of amazing that like it kind of lingers the next day especially when I do this on like a saturday or sunday and I don't really have like Tons of plans. I'll you know start the laundry or whatever. Um, and I'll just kind of like Wait to take a shower for a while Because it's like oh my face smells so good and it's so hydrated Um, yeah, so I kind of put a lot on you don't have to put this much on I'm just putting a lot on because my skin is getting a little drier due to the winter times Um, but yeah a little goes a long way though a little does go a long way So if you're in a way better climate than I am Just fyi it's gonna last a little longer, but I've had that jar for Um a little while now. So I will probably have to invest in another jar Soonish, but yeah, I've probably had that jar for a little over a year I don't know how long they're supposed to like keep but I'm the only one dipping into my stuff and if it ever looks a little suspect I will Not use it, but um You know, I probably keep my products for a little bit longer than is recommended, but whatever But yeah, the I think that one was like maybe 50 bucks or something Um, so yeah, it is a little expensive, but you know what like it's kind of worth it Um anyways, so that's my routine and since I don't have like This isn't a breakout even though it kind of looks like it And then I don't really have any breakouts at the moment. This is just you know My skins Um, normally I would put on if I had like an active breakout I would put on this stuff this mario bedescu Drying lotion and it like literally dries up any active, you know pimples or Imperfections or anything like that, but this is just my blotchy face. That's Always kind of there. So yeah, but My skin is very fair and like these little things Are from previous Breakouts, but it just it just stays nothing I can do about it. It just stays whatever Um, so yeah, oh, there's a dog in here Wow Oh, hi bumble. What are you doing? He doesn't know what these things So yeah, I think I'm gonna head to bed here pretty quick. I might Edit uh, maybe not. I don't know. I haven't really decided. I kind of want to just go to bed um, I feel like today's been a lot um just because of Like I had to kind of tell my co-workers what was going on and stuff too like they know Um about, you know, my health troubles and that I was going to see my surgeon and all of that. So You know, they're very invested in like what's happening and um concerned because I'm not Always at the hospital or not always at the hospital. Wow. Um, not always at, uh, the office and um, You know, I send them emails when I'm working from home. Um So yeah, it just It sucked to have to, you know, let people know what I told you guys yesterday. So And you're pretty. Um, yeah, so I've got my computer screen up I think I'm just gonna load the footage and then I will edit, um, You know when I get home from work tomorrow or something because I is tired and then Doyle is Doing Doyle dog things. Yeah, he's gonna he's gonna sit in his little spot Okay. All right. I'm just gonna I'm gonna go because I'm gonna keep on blabbing on and you guys know me I can just keep on blabbing on So anyway, I hope you guys are having a wonderful day and I will talk to you tomorrow for the next vlogmas Bye guys