 Don't let me dry. Don't let me dry. Oh my god that looks so cool. Hey what's up you guys, welcome back to my channel if you're new here. Hi, hello my name is Lydia and I'm in mental health videos here on YouTube pretty much every day. Now before you all comment, Lydia, what is all that on your face? Basically, when I was in hospital, I got a job. So Lydia, what are you talking about today? Today I want to have a conversation about chronic fatigue and mental illness. Now I know a lot of you guys, and especially those of you who find me on Twitter and who already talked on Twitter, also have chronic fatigue due to having mental illness. For me, it's caused by my BPD. My BPD pushes me into overdrive a lot of the time. Because of being an overdrive, I get very, very exhausted. I was, I've been working on the video for about a week now where it's like me introducing myself and all the different types of personality I have in me at different points for different things. And I don't know, it's quite an interesting video, I think so though. Chronic fatigue, what is it? Chronic fatigue is a chronic health condition. I want to put you first out there, and this is like factual information, I did my research. BPD is very common to occur with chronic health issues. Such as fibromyalgia, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, and other chronic health issues. I just have chronic fatigue and insomnia, which... chronic fatigue, BPD, and insomnia as a combo. I have to take sleeping tablets, even though I'm constantly exhausted. Like the level of exhaustion I feel, I literally can't put into it. I don't, I don't do a lot in my days. A lot of the time I'm lying down in bed because I just don't have the energy to get, like I physically cannot get out of bed because I feel so de-energised, completely exhausted. Everything I do in a day. Chronic fatigue is something that people don't really talk about. When you do talk about a people thing, they just mean exhaustion. Chronic fatigue is so much more than just feeling tired, physical. Like if you can't move a limb, you cannot physically do it. Extreme, horrible, I literally wouldn't wish on anyone. And I know a lot of other people who struggle with mental health that have... who struggle with mental illness that have chronic fatigue as well. All of dissociative identity disorder, end-to-havoc, body, the vessel, body that these all was living, it gets fatigue so much going on. And I know, especially with BPD, being someone who's in the BPD community and talks to a lot of people in the BPU community, I can tell you chronic fatigue goes hand in hand with BPD. Believe me, there's literal studies on it. And I'll try and link some of them in the description down below. I think what goes with it really from BPD is like, you are thinking so and so fast that you can't even keep up with yourself. And your body is trying to keep up the speed that's going on in your head. And it exhausts itself, even if it's not actually doing anything. Because you use and got all this energy to think. And even though you're not physically doing anything, it still takes up power basically. Think of your body as a battery. And your mind is taking up all the energy that the battery is providing. There's nothing left of the body to have, so it's just fatigue. And it's exhausted and it just can't do anything. And everyone experiences it differently for me. When I do experience this on a daily basis, it's a daily thing for me. That's why you don't really see me going out and about as much as I used to because it's just got worse as time's gone on. When my BPD is bad and when I'm thinking very quickly, I'm probably at my most tired point. I'm pretty much always in bed, which is where I am right now. I'm sat with my dad and I've been lying down for like two hours. Going to LD to get a drink. I think she went to get a drink. And I come back and I just blame them. And I was like, I'm just absolutely exhausted. Didn't have the energy. It doesn't have the BPD energy I've ever set up to do this. And because I need to take my medication and then I'm going to BPD bed. Because I just thought that this was a video I could make. I thought it was just a video I could make that I think a lot of you will be able to associate with and understand. And maybe if you're new to the BPD, well, this whole community is a whole. And you're always like completely fatigued. Maybe it'll give you some insight as to why I'm not setting that this is always the case. And not a professional do not use this video as a diagnosis tool as always. I'm just a person who experiences a fuck turn and decides to share it on the internet. I think I just defined my life very well. And with that, I'm going to end the video here. Thank you for watching and I'll see you guys soon. Bye.