 I would give us a C-minus overall. Yeah. You don't think so? You give the higher than that? It's kind of hard because... Well, there's tears, right? Yeah, it's like, do I want to grade us on effort and... We've really tried. We super tried. That doesn't matter in the real world, Shane. We actually could not have tried any harder. We tried really hard. We could not... I know that even like I wrote an email today and I was very particular not to apologize in the email. I was like, I'm empathizing with you and I acknowledge the errors, but please know there is nothing more that was possible on this end. Like we did everything we possibly could. So I apologize if I came up short. I didn't come up short. I went above and beyond. I just learned that my above and beyond is not that great. This video is sponsored by Squarespace. Buy a website, build a website, have an online store and market yourself all in one stunning, easy to use, customizable space that is efficient and awesome. 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But we didn't take into account that we are not outsourcing on a bigger scale. And then also just it exposed how many areas in our production company that we're just not at that level yet. And that hurt my pride a little bit because I'm like, I thought we were so good. I know. I'm not good at all. This made us look like amateurs. We'll be productive and do something that makes you happy. Yeah. Are you going right now? Going where? Like, you're going right now? Yeah. Are you not performing the whole thing? Let's cut this shit real quick. It's still good. Let's be honest, there is moments. There's moments where you can tell that we are good at what we do. I think it's just a little bit outside of our reach. Yes. So a long form type of content of that is hard for us to do. But if you get three minutes of it, you're going to think that this is really cool. So I think just long form wise, it was hard for us to pull it together. And the last thing I'll say is that at least I know when we are actually good because like you were saying, when you can tell when you're bad is when you know you have a realistic idea of what you should be working on and where you are at. Well, we took on this project during already my busiest month of the year. Yeah. It's now been your busiest month of the year. Jared was working on. Jared's on a brand new show right now too. I think that it was good not only for our relationship but for our business because it really highlighted where our strong points are even though it did highlight our weaknesses. Okay. Let's play a fun game. Okay. Let's talk about the weak parts and then the high parts. So we'll start negative and then go positive. Okay. On us or the production? Maybe it's also for you all too who watch the after show. You can play spot the mistakes with us. Oh. We can start with the cast interviews because I can hit 12 different things that went wrong that day. And then luckily we had an audio person there because if we had to try to mic that then it would have sounded like episode three. How many is ours? Right. That's what we got. You know what I'm saying? But my money should just be my money. You know what I mean? That's what I'm saying. All my assets. You know what I'm saying? That makes sense. That's what I'm saying. I think it's perfect. This is on your microphone. Okay. How do I sound on the microphone? It's not clicking. It's not clicking. Shot. It's tilted. So then we got to finagle that and add some weird pink bars to everything. Yeah. My audio. It made it look like artistic flair. But it would have been artistic flair if we would have put it across the whole episode. I thought about it but then I was like this is too much pink. It's too much pink. Another big flaw. Our set was different every time. Welcome to episode three of the Harlem After Show. No. That's not fair to say. We have set the intention. Ironically I think this experience like made me love you even more. It feels like 1,000 percent. You got my back. I got your back. I learned a lot off of this. That's what I say that. Yeah. I learned a lot too. Be positive here and say a lot went really well. Yeah. I think the casting of the group chats were incredible. Yeah. We had some beautiful moments in those conversations that I'm so proud of. First I'm coming out. Only my close friends know it. So I recently got diagnosed which should have made sense all my life. But I got diagnosed with I've been on ADHD since I was 28. But recently I got diagnosed with autism or being on the ASD spectrum. And so navigating that and learning to drop all the masks that I had unknowingly developed to kind of just be in the flux of society and school and upbringing and church. So you're not shunned or whatever. Wow. I was recently diagnosed with anxiety and I've known I've had ADHD my whole life but just trying to navigate how one's affecting the other was very new for me. And so me being able to like open up and talk to my friends and say, yeah, these things are what trigger me and these things I did the same with this one. I just, I'll feel this way and not know how to get out of it sometimes. I'm really trying to figure it out and navigate it. It was necessary so that they understood why all of a sudden I went from the life of the party to like I'm hiding in a corner. Because it's so under talked about especially among black women and women in particular. It inspired me to have the kind of discussions that I wouldn't have had like the ovarian reserve discussion. I wouldn't have had that conversation so impactful. The prenup conversation which I actually think we should genuinely go and talk to a lawyer about that. Let's make it happen. I would say 90% don't want to have those conversations. And I have to admit this. I know nothing about this area. And I feel like in some cases knowing feels like a betrayal. Do you know what I mean by that? I'm really really proud of your director camera shots. I'm super super you know happy about the social content that we can make out of these things. I really love the one thing that I really liked about the video overall was the color schemes. And also on top of that I did a lot of learning how to fix mistakes throughout this entire process. You know there was a lot of mistakes that we thought really cannibalized the entire content. We were able to figure out how to make it work. Which is I think I'm super proud of us for being able to do that because it just shows us that we're scrappy and gritty when it comes to content. I think we can add that to like our like lower third like shared entertainment. Scrappy, gritty, tasteful content. Yeah. What was your favorite episode of the four? And then what would you give us great overall? My favorite episode was... Episode one. Not because I'm in it. Not because I'm in it but I think that you can feel in the episode one our wide-eyed excited innocence when it came to the content. No guy has ever wanted to make that. I mean I've been in locker rooms. I played football my whole life. I ain't never getting made fun of. That's all I'm gonna say. But I wasn't like, yo, Jared over there, he's strange. Jared has a shower with a towel on. That's why he never got made fun of. No he didn't. He showers at home. I think the content was amazing. I really do. Don't separate it though. Just go... If you were watching it on YouTube, what would you give the great? If I listened to it, I would give it an A. If I watched it, I would give it a B. Oh that's good. It's just tricky. I guess it depends on the lens I'm looking at this. Am I looking at this lens? Is it a YouTuber? Or a production company, an after-show. I wouldn't change a thing. I mean I definitely would change a lot. I would change a lot. But I would never in a million years have said no to this job. And I am so glad that we did it. Because even though this month, I'm genuinely probably three hours a night of sleep for the past week. And I know I'm breastfeeding. My body is very tired. I'm just giving a lot of myself all the time. There are days of run-on-sentence. We wake up, we read the kids, and then we work from home. We have people who come, and then we're in work mode. And then the very second that the people who work here leave, the kids come back home. She's tired, guys. She hasn't had any sleep. She sounds a little bit spoiled. It's okay. She just needs to drink her tea. We've already ended the video. I don't know why we're here right now. Okay wait, let's talk about... One more time for her to... Go ahead. What do you want to talk about? What do you want to talk about? What do you want to talk about? where you can try it out for free. Two weeks to see what you can make happen. And when you are ready to launch, which will be in 2023 perfect timing, you can get 10% of the purchase of a website or domain at squarespace.com slash yambudy. I think people look at the way that we show intimacy in a very linear way. And I look at it more like a web. There's so many different directions that this thing can go. It's still at the root intimacy, you know, when we're sitting down and playing with Ryu and she's saying new words and doing things and we're doing that together and we're sitting by the fire like that's stuff that we're just not filming. Like, yeah, so I just, I don't take that comment seriously. I don't even know what to tell that person. Like, sorry. Don't need your help. Thank you. I mean, I wouldn't mind your help if you wanna come over and watch the kids. And I would say it's been going a date night, but the real truth is right now, if I had free time, I would go and finish my course work right now and I would get ahead in a few other things. Yeah, yeah, some work stuff. And I might just look out the window because that would be fun too. Hey, there used to be a time in our life when I thought I'd never hear this sentence from Shan. Which one? I just wanna look out the window. One of our like earliest roadblocks was Shan just wanted to talk about everything. All the time. She just wanted to talk. So, what are you feeling? How are you feeling? You wanna give me a love speech? No, no, no, no, no, no. I'm just like, I'm just like, Shan, I like sitting in silence and just watching you. And just enjoying your company. I'm only laughing because the love speech thing. And now you don't understand it. I do understand it. How romantic would it be if this couch was flipped around and we're looking out the window, looking at the rain, drinking some tea. Not saying anything, just holding each other and looking out. Yeah, that makes me misty. It's nice, right? Yeah. Keepin' it simple, I need me a tempo to get in a limo and keep me all in board.