 from the future welcome to another week in my life vlog really far away from each other maybe we'll do this oh I like this little setup fine okay why would we keep you like that I don't know okay so this week's vlog is a compilation of just clips throughout the week between Christmas to New Year's Eve essentially I know about a ton of pressure on myself to vlog this week so I just picked up the camera when it seems like a good time you guys are new here be sure to subscribe as of right now I'm planning on posting weekly vlogs every Sunday so a long weekly vlog every Sunday that's what you can expect I want to talk about something and I wrote it down and it's New Year anxiety before we even get into the video I don't know about you guys but whenever like the New Year comes around I have so many goals and I'm so inspired I'm like so excited for like the future on what's happening and whatever I'm not a New Year hater at all I'm not even a resolutions hater I don't want to say I like even set resolutions ever but any excuse to like set goals and like vision board and stuff I do that like multiple times a year I'm gonna do it New Year's or not something happens in the first few weeks of January like every year where I get so overwhelmed and I'm so hard on myself and I'm doing the whole like shitting yourself like shitting that sounds yeah whatever and I just get so anxious and overwhelmed and act like everything that I wanted you I need to do in the next week like social media in general puts extra pressure on us like society also has pressure on us and then you add social media to the mix and then you see like 18 year olds buying multi-million dollar homes and like running some businesses and you're like what am I doing and and I just want to say everyone goes at their own pace and go into the New Year with like obviously I think it's good to have goals and things that you want to do and that's incredibly important and how I'd like healthy habits but make sure you're not putting too much pressure on yourself to where it's actually this anxiety inducing and making every single thing in your life work I just have a podcast episode about this entire topic basically coming out with Molly Carmel and it's going to be so helpful and she basically we're going off the topic of like you actually are doing your best and you are doing enough and the conversation that I had with her a few weeks ago in New York City when we are recording was just like so freeing to me so if you guys struggle with that if you're overwhelmed that episode I think goes out January 6th you guys gonna follow my Instagram and my podcast Instagram you guys will see yeah I love you guys this is a compilation of a lot of things over the next week so you guys enjoy subscribe hi guys Merry Christmas it is December 26 I am back vlogging kind of I just got my nails on and I said French manicure and I forgot to say thin and like I will never correct someone as they're doing my nails so now I have like a thick fridge manicure which wasn't the vibe but like it's okay it's my fault anyways I'm actually in my hometown my parents and neither of them live in my or have houses in my hometown anymore my dad used to for a while and my mom finally moved I grew up in a town called McKinney I love McKinney growing up I didn't always but I feel like that's like so typical for like teenagers anyways I'm just kind of sad cuz like going home for Christmas I'm being dramatic because I live in Dallas and I grew up in the suburbs of make it up Dallas and my mom only moved like 30 minutes away and really I'm only 40 45 minutes from my hometown to begin with but it's just really sad I know so many of you guys feel the same way but it's just really sad like when I come home for Christmas or Thanksgiving like I'm not even in my hometown it's like there are bigger problems in the world I went this morning and I went to my hometown Starbucks my hometown nail salon and honestly it's just like sad it's just made me think like I feel like I just grew up so fast like that went by so fast granted I moved out a year early I moved out my senior year of high school and I look back at my high school experience one I actually genuinely did love my high school even at the time but something about the schooling system just wasn't for me it's not for anyone in my family like none of us do well with it I was a good student I got good grades I was involved you know whatever but I just something about it like mental health wise growing up was just not good for me and it made me so miserable and it sounds crazy if you like knew me or you grew up with me but I always just felt like I didn't always like fully fit in which is also weird cuz like I had friends like I was never like outcast and it wasn't that anyone was doing that or making me feel that way and it wasn't that I thought anyone was like better than me or worse than you're like whatever I just I don't know I mean I look back on it and I'm like I did start YouTube you know in high school and that became like the biggest part of my life and I made other friends elsewhere and you know whatever I did have like different interests and I had stuff going on at home that like I don't share so like there's a combination this is also dramatic cuz like pretty much everyone that I hang out with in Dallas now is from my hometown which is something that I just like love and I've never felt more connected with my friends than I do now at 24 even if I've known them since I was 10 8 12 how old we were and maybe it's just cuz we're all like in our careers now and have grown up and like it's there's not as big of differences and interests but I don't know all that being said it's just like I'm in my hometown and I'm looking around I'm like this is where I went for like every school dance get my nails done and like go to more art and all that stuff and it's just really sad now we have people getting engaged and that's just like really weird none of my close friends or really like most of my close friends aren't for the people though that are getting engaged until like 2% of them are close friends of mine but it's just weird even when I'm on my hometown it's like no one's even here I don't know it's just like really sad and like I was so ready to grow up and I was so ready to leave for so long and I think that's my biggest regret like if I were to pick a regret in my life it would definitely be just like wanting to grow up so quickly even though I don't think that any of that would have changed and that was also like also that did kind of get me where I am which I'm really grateful for and I love my life but I don't know it's just like weird growing up so I'm gonna friends last night too and someone texted me and they're like I was just like getting emotional because it's like I think I'm in like a transition phase and I need to let go of like the past stuff in order to move on in my life and I'm like I just don't want to grow up honestly like I think there's a reason why I really am not interested in any like older guys that are like mature because I just don't want to grow up like I really really don't and it's just odd like even in my when I was like 22 I was like oh my god I want to get married and like whatever and like I just don't want that for myself right now like I want to get married my number one thing in life is like I want to have a healthy marriage and a healthy family but I can I can stall I turn 25 this year which is so crazy so I know a lot of you guys have like grown up with me watching videos and stuff and like it's just really really really weird and I feel old and I don't know I miss being young and you know a lot of growing up here especially was so much fun and just so great and like I will say there is no friendships like my hometown friendships like not even mine specifically I mean like the city of McKinney just like it just creates incredible friendships and most people are friends forever and they don't even all live here anything like that it's just like what for whatever reason we have so many friends that have been friends like their entire life which I think is such a cool thing so they talked to my friends from like other places and it's like not really that common but I love I love this town I love the people here I don't know I just like miss I guess like how it used to be even though I'm really happy I don't know maybe I'm just like emotional because it's holidays but just have an ice cream tea oh I have this new sweater from favorite daughter in the little scarf combo this is what I got for Christmas the only thing I wanted yeah I think I'm gonna head back to my mom's other house that is no longer in McKinney I literally drove 30 minutes just to go to this nail salon which is so dramatic but you know what's new so we're gonna leave tonight Presley Taren and I are going shopping and getting some dinner like see west so which is also so crazy because that's didn't exist when we were growing up it's a good yeah I think it actually open we are in college but like really college days which is also even crazy that I can say that like I just oh my god things are going by so fast church every single day that you have now I'm like oh my god I know I'm gonna feel that way about my 20s but I do not want to regret rushing any other phase of my life ever again so I will not be doing that I'll be doing quite literally the opposite say hello oh my god enough it is Monday night I am home I drove home this morning and I've just been chilling I was going to go to Pilates tonight and I just really didn't feel like it this is the week in between Christmas and New Year's where time just like feels like it doesn't exist my groceries are about to be delivered I am unbelievably tired and like I don't know why you know some banana bread just dropped this off for me do you guys like my crew if you if you know you know anyways my groceries are about to be delivered but I wanted to show you guys these two new cookbooks that I got that I've been looking through today but the first one is Dr. Amon's the Brain Warriors Way cookbook I'm obsessed with Dr. Amon he's like really into brain health he's an author doctor obviously I'm in like he's really cool he's a great YouTube channel too where he goes through and it's like brain scans which is like literally my dream to do I've also listened to him I'm like every podcast I think he's ever been on I just like love him he's actually coming to my show in 2022 anyways I realized there's a cookbook so I picked this up a few weeks ago and I was just going through and like marking the recipes that I want to make and I also got Kristen Cavallieri's true cookbook I really want to make these acorn he's acorn squash boats like look so good this week I'm not being hard on myself hence why like I cancel Pilates I am doing things that I like really want to do in the new year I want to get back into like infrared stuff which I don't know how I will fit that into my schedule like going adding another thing like going to a sauna if you was having Google the benefits of infrared my hot pilates class in LA was infrared and we don't have that here anyways I miss it so I'm at least gonna try out a sauna in the morning going back to Pilates obviously because I love doing that I'm going horseback riding this week which I'm so excited for I've been wanting to do that regularly for like two years now and I'm trying to find a place that I like going to and make it more of a thing at least like monthly maybe I'll watch Yellowstone I already I already read a hundred books which is my goal for this year I posted on Instagram my like top reads if you guys need a book rack just follow my Instagram and my TikTok I actually started a series where I'm like a book matchmaker so people are telling me a little bit about themselves and their interests and I make matchmaking them with a book so anyways I'm gonna eat my banana bread and start Yellowstone I was having a really peaceful call I just got a call from my friend that there is a murderer on the list of our neighbor head so that's a smart sweet so I'm actually cooking dinner for friends for our night we're gonna make some vision boards I'm not a vision board hater I actually really like them but I make goals and do like vision boards and stuff like throughout the year you like vision boards like vision boards don't let these new year haters get to you the guy always has to ignore we know that's too much green juice I'm only here for a few days and they gave me two of these and I got an ocean spray juice because I was really craving it when I had COVID I was really getting used to just drinking so much power in so now I'm craving like sugary drinks which I don't know I don't know what to do with this juice I don't have room in my fridge all right so here's a little grocery haul I meant to only get one of these well actually meant to get two juices and I somehow have four and I'm only here for three or four days chicken stock kale Italian sausage I'm making my normal like go-to Italian sausage kale tortellini soup just because it's a crowd favorite and it's like something I love to make so I always make it because I know that people are gonna like it pasta crushed tomatoes like celery onion avocados whipping cream tomato paste smart sweets carrots I mean like normal stuff I'm gonna make that soup and then I'm also tonight I think going to make the like spicy parsley drawn a venice pasta I'm just randomly craving that I'm feeling like an at-home kicking night guys so sad good morning everyone it is I think Wednesday morning I'm in like 745 I naturally woke up at 6 30 this morning I woke up to a tax from my sister saying that she's canceling my hair appointment today and it's already been pushed back a week and I need my hair done so bad also I'm in mockingbird Plaza so we call police sneaker haven't never seen that I have my water have my sweats on I'm about to go to glow sauna I really like I said I want to try out some like infrared sauna stuff so I will let you guys know how I like it I don't know realistically how often I would get myself to go but I want to say something okay how to become a morning person I've been so off my early morning game I'm really been consistently waking up early pretty much all year well I would like seven but like I used to wake up really early I literally swing about five in LA I would go to training at six Pilates at seven shower get ready at the studio and then go get breakfast and go to class the studio or like workout wherever I was not gonna do 5 a.m. but I I do want to get back to at least waking up at like 6 30 here's how I'm doing it and here's how I've done in the past I always schedule things in the morning if you schedule and book something that you're held accountable to going to like either early morning coffee with a friend which I never do here but I used to know in college we would go like 7 a.m. to get coffee also we were all so busy was like the only time you could see each other scheduled to work at class making plans of the friend like typically something that requires accountability from some other person because I can wake up and be like I'm gonna go to walk but like because there's no accountability other people I'm less likely to like follow through and that's at the beginning like as I'm getting into the routine I like to schedule things and then eventually you're just like so addicted to waking up early and having your early mornings just feel so good like that is like the only time I really have for myself and have really set up my days and life just gets crazier and I'm really excited so I think I'm gonna make it a goal to wake up between like 6 to 6 30 we can give it 6 30 this morning felt so good I was awake this thing I don't know how to describe it makes me feel like I have like my life together all right everyone off we go by the way guys that's where you're my nails and I get a lot of questions I've only been wrong one time in like two years that's really saying something love it there off to glow what sauna studios we go so I'm in a room with a pod but they do have like the sauna like that you can sit up in like the higher dose looking ones that you can do with friends or just yourself but we're about to go 30 minutes alright I'm out I will say I feel very calm I like the place I'm not like absolutely obsessed again I think I have to like more than once I love to I just had it in hot Pilates though because it would just combine my workouts and the sauna but if I'm like really stressed or sore or something I would love that no I'm open I definitely liked it like now I feel incredibly calm which I didn't even realize until I stood up and I want to try the like actual sauna that you sit in rather than the pod I picked the pod yesterday when I booked it but I'm gonna also try the like sitting thing so if you guys do any infrared sonnas or any sonnas at all let me know what you do a miracle just happened the light what light shall I replace this with I take a shot actually don't please every time I said another place out there like that it's there's nothing I hate more no offense anyways a miracle happened and I got a color appointment today at noon I asked all of you guys actually in our Geneva group I called every salon I got a rec for and then no one came yet and then the salon called back and they're like hey we were actually able to move an appointment if you want to come in I was like my sister is so good at hair so it like sucks when I go elsewhere but that's also the con of having your sister do your hair is that like you're just the last priority what is y'all's relationship like with your siblings I'm actually really curious I would say Maddie and I are really close but we definitely fight a lot like we go months without talking and then we must use you know that is like really fun and she's very she's really freaking funny like she doesn't really mean to be funny but she's really funny it's not necessarily like intentional which I think like makes it better like it's one of those things I see in the moment anyways also I need to know what is your like your healthy Starbucks order in the morning I just don't like getting a sugary drink every day I do that during the holidays and I'm so over it so let me know okay oh I just showered I put on a cute little chocolate brown set I really need a tripod because the way you guys are set up is not the best but I have my coffee I don't really like it that much just a cold brew with a splash of milk actually while we're here I want to talk about this so this is Chloe she has like the she's so talented I follow her on Instagram that's my phone cases from being questions about that I tag it on everything though guys so if you want to know where something's wrong I promise it's tagged on my Instagram anyways I'm she's an artist and she came out the coloring book and I forgot how helpful like adult coloring books are I've started okay um it makes me want to do like a Broadway house like coloring book or something because at night when I get really really anxious and I need to be off my phone I kind of want to watch something instead of like read which I'm kind of trying to watch with more shows doing that is so helpful like it is the most common thing you can do if you have anxiety get a coloring book I'm not getting and get that one because it's like the cutest one I'll show you really cute so alright Sephora haul I picked up some stuff this is a really really random thing I go into Sephora every few months I grab a bunch of stuff I check out I leave every time I leave my total which I'm not getting the same products either my total is between 298 and 301 it's a very odd thing about me but anyways got the Sephora 64 brush I have a bunch of these that has always picked them up because I somehow lose makeup brushes a lot but I love that one and this is the 50 it's the pro blush pro blush clout pro brush powder I just needed a good powder brush I'm not the biggest powder person I need to be because my skin isn't so oily recently so trying to get better about it who are your favorite like bloggers to watch or vloggers have lawyers oh my god like I just don't got that okay oh I got the two-faced primed and poreless primer I've never used this before but I did need a primer so I picked it up I got a mini translucent setting powder because the other one is too big for my makeup bag it's easier from traveling I got the hourglass unreal okay so this lip gloss when I was super blonde this summer about to be again and have that like bright pink lip gloss all the time this is it it's in the color fever it is like the prettiest lip gloss and it's like as you can see like bright pink but it's really pretty so I like it a lot this is my like problem every time I go I just get so many lip products and I have so many lip products this is like really holiday easy my beauty lip gloss we'll see if I like that oh I got Kosas airbrow brow gel in clear I don't really like getting color brow gel it's just like too much I don't even do enough to my brows but this I like then I got the Charlotte Tilbury airbrush bronzer wait a second I'm confused because this is fair pale I thought this was her face and body okay this is a return because I thought this was a face powder not so confusing anyways I'm gonna finish getting ready and then I'm gonna head out to my nail appointment I'm so happy I have an appointment today it seriously saved my life all right I'm getting my hair done I am so excited I feel like I'm about to be a new person so like it's just it's needed to get done I'm at least a month overdue so it's very exciting I'm by the way I'm still drinking this coffee that I don't like so and I'm using my bright wedding housewife toe I use this every day like this is where I keep everything in I literally use it every single night I'll link it below in the hat so many of you guys got it for Christmas and it's just like so cute alright guys I'm so blonde but I just feel alive again I was there for so I'm like the blondest I think I've ever been actually you know when your hair just like feels disgusting and the only thing that will fix it is if you go get it done that's where I was at anyways I'm going to get a drink with a friend and then my friend Lauren is coming over tonight to I'm gonna cook and work in like vision boards whoa it is it is so hot I just can knock it over this December in Texas I think it's like the hottest December we've ever had anyways I'm gonna go meet my friend Doug for a drink at HD supply on the roof it's a little bit warm to be doing that but it's fine anyways here's my hair again very blonde okay all right I'm back from HD got some drinks okay Lauren's coming over and we're going to while I'm cooking dinner and then we're gonna do vision boards guys this came in the mail I made this order a few days ago from we're not really strangers got the New Year's edition of cards and this is a self-reflection kit so oh my gosh I can go through and I have a self-reflection journal and questions and a pen which is cute so I'll do this alone and then I'll do the cards with her but I think it's gonna be fun I just love having people over and cooking and just like chilling at my house my favorite thing to do I think I'm gonna pull out the recent strings I have so many they just like put me in a good mood and they're a really good to do obviously not that I don't drink I drink tonight I really don't drink on weekdays but anyway so when I'm cooking from home I like to do a little recess dream we've got some Texas country playing the candles are burning it is a very good vibe in here back at Starbucks again happy Wednesday at my coffee I'm going to my brows done then I need to go inside a bunch of paperwork which is not fun but then oh my god it's raining and we're going horseback riding today wait well we're we're supposed to be riding horses today so hopefully that's fine it is like 35 minutes away so I don't know guys you guys are gonna recognize me I'm dressed currently like a 2012 horse girl got my first pair of skinny jeans in about eight years these are good American they're actually like the most comfortable jeans ever but I needed jeans to wear with boots not just cowboy boots but like all my boots we know cow it's my favorite thing in 2022 my biggest thing that I want to do is well not my biggest but one of the things the main things that I really want to do is collaborate with a brand and design my own cowboy boot like that would literally be like my dream anyways I'm dressing like a horse girl today I feel a little bit out of my element I feel you know I feel like which is really good feeling let me tell you okay my closet like this stuff is ridiculous this is the puffer I'm gonna wear I just keep throwing stuff around when I pack but I did want to show you guys what I picked up recently slash like what I got for Christmas so this bag is actually the bag that I should wear today I got this bag it's the coach pillow tabby bag and this was what I got for Christmas and I love it I've been getting a lot of purses lately I feel like I don't buy purrs for a year and then all of a sudden I have a bunch of other ones but I just think this is so cute and like such a just beautiful bag like I actually love coach and I love this bag it was on back order anyways today was my first time to use it so I love that then I also you guys already saw this in a recent vlog but I do want to show it to you I got the Balenciaga I don't remember the actual style of this this is a pink bag I'm gonna make a tiktok with these bags in a second but it is just so beautiful I got it on sale literally half off I will link them below if they're still available but they actually fit a lot of stuff like my vlog here fits in here my wallet my phone lip gloss like pretty much everything that I could ever need is in this bag so I absolutely love it so we have that and then another thing I picked up this is basically a sort of luxury haul which I never have but we did today I got the Prada loafers the chocolate brush ones these are like the thicker sole I've worn them like every day since getting them they're just such a good everyday black shoe I actually don't have designer shoes but I love them I wear them all the time they're super cute true to size I've I don't know I've been thinking about giving them for like the longest time so that's great also guys don't forget to get your brimming house wife come on alright I changed this outfit is more me still skinny jeans look Casey boots which by the way are the most comfortable boots and these are so cute I got that for my birthday and I love like in the summer just wearing them with dresses and stuff because they're super cute the detailing they're really fun as you can tell anyways this white t-shirt that's from Brandy Melville unfortunately and then this puffer I have two that are identical ones from a sky to one from agent of last season so I accidentally bought two beige puffers and this is my look to go horseback riding I'm really excited this is like a new thing I want to do so I'm also using my new bag which is really cute like I love this look I maybe should get the other strap maybe we'll go try the other shop but I do like this bag I just think it's so pretty okay so this is why am I craving chilies right now maybe Lauren don't want to go to chilies this is the long strap it feels really long actually I'm at least gonna like bring it on my car it's a little bit more convenient this way has a nice little latch this bag is definitely like thick I honestly could have done a smaller size of this bag but I just wanted it to be able to fit my vlog camera I think this is a bag that I'll get a lot of wear out of two in the long run horseback riding it was so good I had the best time I felt like when I left I got a massage like that's how calm I was okay I need to show you guys this you're sitting on it I got the hot shave razor from the skinny confidential this is like a face razor essentially I the branding is like perfect for her so there we go oh well if you guys listen to the skinny confidential love them I also picked up two black dresses as backup for a New Year's Eve I got this one from revolve super cute and then I also got this one so I literally have four options of dresses to wear so I'm just gonna throw everything in a bag and go but I start like getting ready and stuff it was a really good day honestly then I went to HG and Lauren and I got drinks and then I met one of you guys actually which is really fun but I need to get my life together hello guys it's me again um in the same spot I am back from horseback riding and I went to HG and I just wanted to like sit down and talk about things that I'm excited for in the New Year and also like what I want my life to feel like I'm gonna think about this lately and I think so much like what I want to say on the internet I think just like sounds so cheesy so I just like don't say anything but who cares this is my channel I can say what I want there's a lot of things that I want to do and be better about in the New Year the first being like going back to my early morning so I'm just a happier person this second I'm not getting more vertical videos in general I feel like I'm always filming horizontally for vlogs and I need to start filming vertically in general because I need to be a tiktok star so I need to get that all together okay I also like miss when I would go to like the same coffee shops in same places like workout places and things but I'm kind of starting to do again here and know everyone's name so I just want to make it a point to like make a habit of going to certain places and making sure I know every single person's name I just think there's a lot of power in knowing and remembering someone's name I think it makes me feel good I love the like neighborhood feel that you get from that I have like so many random things too I said this already but I really want to do a cowboy boot collaboration that is like my number one goal I want to design a boot with a brand obviously my clothing brand is launching this year which is crazy I just really want to focus on like traveling with friends and then they probably thinking like so many of my goals are so much more about like who I want to be and not like what I want to do necessarily and I don't really show the ones like who I want to be because sounds like cheesy and like kind of annoying and then I was thinking like what about my life to feel like and people always talk about like what is life actually feel like not just like look like and my life feels probably 10,000 times better than what it looks like which I'm grateful that that's what it is but I just like love country music so much and I want my life to feel like a country music song or country concert like there's nothing that makes me happier than being at a country concert or driving and listening to country music I'm not kidding that's like all I listen to at this point so yeah my question of the day what do you guys want your life to feel like I did not feel like doing everything to do tonight at all I would rather just like get embedded read oh I actually started reading a new book it's actually called good morning monster I'm pretty Jackie actually told me to read it and then I'm pretty sure more boss I told her to read it but it is so good I've only gotten through the first one it thought there's a therapist and it goes through five like patients of hers and I got through the first one last night and it was crazy and also I learned a lot and even certain things are highlanders like that's my problem you know I've been talking a lot with friends recently about just like the cause of it growing up and I know that I'm already 24 and I turned 25 next year which is so crazy like wild and I'm actually really excited for that and I'm not like super afraid of growing up and also aside from like getting married and having kids like I'm already a homeowner I own my car I don't like there's not really that many other things I can do that would like qualify me as like an adult but I still feel like I'm 17 and the fact that like we're talking about this the day the fact that like I can just get in the car and drive anywhere or like get online a book of light and go anywhere which is something I do all the time it is so crazy that I'm allowed to do that and I'm 24 I've had my license for what eight years now and I just like I don't know when I got this old like it's actually really scary but there are definitely things that I do that are not necessarily healthy and my life that I think route from me not wanting to grow up but I honestly do feel really good about 2022 I could not believe I've been doing YouTube since I was 16 like I'm 24 that is wild I'm turning 25 this year like how what are you guys who I feel like my demo is my age right I don't know I'm gonna get my life together though I'm gonna stop tan tonight and just like do the whole thing but let me tell you I will be riding horses this year like it just makes me so happy morning guys I'm off to Pilates I'm wearing a year of RS sets that I have puffers Princess Polly it's not like I kind of wish I would have bought a really nice brown puffer but I didn't do that have my eyes of course I'm about to make a Amanda we're off got my two drinks my water my coffee and my cute bag that I'm up just obsessed with yeah it's truly like alright guys I'm back for the day I'm ready for the next two days and I'm off for New Year's Eve I am finally feeling excited and inspired about this channel for the first time in honestly a bit so I'm excited let me know what you guys want to see on the channel and the New Year things you like things you don't like be nice yeah anyways I'm about to head off so I love you guys so much and I will talk to you soon you have two choices you can either be a man or you can be a bitch music you can be a man and look yourself in the mirror and say although that your circumstances were tough and although you're in here now it's up to you to change if anybody's gonna change it's gonna be you and no one's coming to save you and that's like an important message for people