 Well, we're going to have a real deep session this afternoon because using a little mini-movie, Star Trek mini-movie, and some amazing ideas, we're going to go into the core of forgiveness. Because forgiveness is something that's been talked about for many, many centuries since the time of Jesus. Even in the Bible, it says, forgive seven times seventy, and that's, some of us have tried it, that's 490 times and it didn't work. And it still has to be great, except for 490 times. So we have to go for a qualitative shift in our mind, not a quantitative repetition of mantras and Hail Marys in the thousands and tens of thousands and millions of times. All we have to do is have a little tweak in our mind, one little tweak in one instant to have a life of happiness. And I thought I would just read just a little bit from the beginning of lesson 121 from A Course in Miracles. It's called forgiveness is the key to happiness. Here is the answer to your search for peace. Here is the key to meaning in a world that seems to make no sense. Here is the way to safety in apparent dangers that appear to threaten you at every turn and bring uncertainty to all your hopes of ever finding quietness and peace. Here are all questions answered. Here the end of all uncertainty ensured at last. So this lesson I will be giving today is going to be going to the root and then going beyond the root into the experience. And so I invite you all to really just come and join me today because everyone is entitled to happiness. That's all everyone wants. It doesn't matter what they're doing or how they're acting, what their behavior is, underneath they're calling out for a life of happiness. And with the ego as the guide, it just has a search and never find it. You know, it made up a world where we would search and search and search and it seemed to be very frustrating. But actually we want to go right at the root today. So sometimes, you know, you'll be watching something or thinking about something or behavior or something and you'll just think, yeah, that's just really messed up. And so we have things in this world that seem to be beautiful and wonderful and harmonious and just we feel so connected. And then there's other things which we say, that's just plain messed up. That's just not right. And I would say that when we talk about the kingdom of heaven or nirvana or oneness, that those are just words that are pointing us to a natural state of being which just is who we are. We're just naturally peaceful, happy and joyful in our creative state where not only where we create is what we create. We're co-creators. We have the same abilities that God has to create beauty, love, spirit, joy, happiness. And that the reason that we're out of touch with that is because we like a lot of duality and multiplicity and concepts come in the way. It's almost like filling a beautiful holy mind up with a bunch of things that don't really belong in that holy mind. And you can call it whatever you want. We have the piece of warrior, I think Sarkaritis, as soon as you saw the movie, he's a teacher, he said, take the trash out. I mean, we take the trash out in our homes, right? Why don't we take the trash out of our minds? And maybe it seems like a lot, but it's worth starting. If we're to take the trash out, we might as well begin. So the root of this whole thing is that when we say it's messed up, anything that comes from our source is holy. And anything that doesn't come from source that still seems to be real is an illusion that we're still holding on to and we want still to be real. We would rather the illusion be true than the truth. So really that's why Buddha is sitting with us now. He just said empty your mind of everything you think, everything you know. Come into the stillness, come into emptiness, come into the void. He offered a beautiful invitation for all of us. And the root of all the struggles and difficulties we have is time. Source did not create time. Time is an invention. And I think all of us somewhere deep down inside, we have an inkling of the truth of that. Remember when you were a child and you were playing and you were so happy you were playing and you lost track of the hours. You lost track of the minutes. You had no awareness of time. We've all had those experiences when we were playing. Or think of it even as an adult when you're doing something that you just love and you completely lose track of time in that experience of that love. Think of it even as maybe meeting a friend for a walk on the beach or going to have dinner with a friend that you haven't seen in a long time. How happy you are to see them. How you just want to hug them and then you just get completely absorbed in that love, that experience of being there with them and you lose track of time. So we all are clued into this that in order to go to that love and experience that love in a continuous way we have to now find a way to lose track of time. And conversely, when you think of anything that stresses you out, anything where you feel fear, guilt, stress, pressure, anxiety, it always involves time. Like I was sharing earlier, there's no problem sitting in traffic. I'm hard to get the experience. I come out here and I hope I can have some light sliding out and crank the music out. It's just a little glorious experience. But it has to do with because it's like a timeless experience for me. When I first came out and I was like seven lanes and all the red lights came on, oh pretty, pretty, pretty, so pretty, all the pretty red lights came on. And so the streamers too, just stream on and on and on. But the thing about it is, is all guilt comes from belief in time and all of these concepts, like for example we take on all these roles in the course of a human lifetime, we take on roles. We pick them up, we plan for a while, we set them down. But if you follow them down, all of these roles have roots in linear time. That the Spirit, even the Bible says God is no respect to a persons, but I would say probably the most profound line in the Bible for me was when Jesus said, before Abraham was, I am. That actually the present moment and eternity exists prior to time and the problem is we've got it all messed up. We think the present is between the past and the future. It's not. We've been struggling with all these practices and mantras and spiritual practices over and over and over. We don't seem to realize yet that time is the problem. Many of your time is the problem. That time and eternity can't coexist. Time is very incremental. It's broken up into pieces. And once we focus our mind on those pieces, we're lost. We may glide like the Simon and Garfunkel song, believe we're gliding down the highway. In fact, we're slip sliding away. You know, very profound. We really think we can be happy in linear time. And I'm telling you right now, it ain't ever going to happen. All the perennial wisdoms talk about the present moment. Everything associates present with presence. And we've had plenty of witnesses tell us about that and now it's time for us to really go for it. So we're out here, we're out here in California, LA, you know, if you guys are ground breakers, you know, you guys are cutting edge, you know. You guys have been doing it for years, the 60s, the 70s, the 80s. It's time we take the lead here and take it on, leave the way for the rest of the universe because the universe is us and we are the universe. You know, everything we do for ourselves, we're doing for the whole planet, for the whole solar system, for the whole galaxy, for the whole cosmos. So let's be clear on that right away that God didn't create time. That eternity doesn't have time as a component of it. Even the great mystic, some of you have heard of Joel Goldsmith. He talked about this whole experience as a parenthesis in eternity. So we're wanting to remove the parenthesis and come back to eternity. We are eternal beings. We have no beginning and no end. That's why in the end you can laugh at death because death is a belief that our Creator did not create. Our Creator is life, is the source of life and who we are as life and will be everlasting life. But this life does not begin at birth and does not end at death. In some cultures they actually mourn birth and celebrate death. So you know if there's cultures in this world that do that then we can't say that there's any truth to the idea that anything really begins at birth and ends at death. Some people talk about an afterlife. Well, again, life is prior to time. So life doesn't have anything to do with the past or what we call traditionally the present or the future. Let me take a moment to explain that. Everyone has a conception of the past but when we think of the present there's a conversational term called present like for example we are all present in this room right now but that's not the present. These images that you see around you are not the present nor do they have anything to do with the present moment. This construct of we are here in the room present is made up by the ego as well. It's part of the trick. So the ego invented the past and the present in its own version just like it invented its own version of love which is superficial and it's empty and when you go to it and you see it's a fantasy it's not what it seems to be at all. It's just another trick. And the future. The past, the present, the ego invented it and the future are all part of the trick. That's why it doesn't matter how many times you say the word help me be present, help me be present it's not going to be the words and it's not going to be focusing on anything of time and space including breathing, that's a helpful step along the way as you start to train your mind and concentrate but you won't be able to focus on anything of time to make it back into the experience of eternity. Now, in perfect oneness it's just the perfect state of absolute beingness it's just perfect, perfect love and there aren't any skills and there aren't any abilities it's just total communion with source it's just an eternal, you could say like an eternal song that just goes on and on and on forever without beginning or end. So one of the abilities that was made up in the Seeming Fall from Grace or the forgetting of that oneness is memory. So I'm going to talk a little bit about memory because our movie today is going to give us the key back to eternity through showing us a different way of using memory. Memory is an ability that the ego made up. There is no memory in heaven because memory is like recall there's nothing to recall in perfect oneness everything just is love. So even though the ego made memory the ego uses the memory to perpetuate guilt it wants to keep you guilty it wants to use memory which it made in a way that will perpetuate guilt because if it perpetuates guilt it will perpetuate the ego itself and the ego does want to exist even though it's a puff of nothingness and it wasn't created it wants to exist. So if we keep misusing memory we are playing into the hands of the ego and anytime you have a grievance against anything in this world be it a person, be it against the weather climate I mean against a politician against anything that is the misuse of memory that is the use of memory to try to keep hurt and conflict and awareness and so we want to realize it's about time we stop misusing memory now memory may be something that you've always associated with just the past but I will tell you something you can actually use memory in conjunction with your spirit to remember the present because the spirit can use anything that the imposter made including memory so that's why any type of spiritual discipline starts with its breathing tai chi, movement dance, song like we were just doing that was a beautiful inspired use of memory because we knew that song and we were inspired to feel the vibe and the love and the energy start to flow when crystal was singing you could feel how strong it was that is now going to be our spiritual practice we're going to use memory in a helpful way now another thing with memory is we have to use it in a focused way to just focus it completely upon the present because if you focus it in the future that's what we call ambition and goals and most a lot of us were raised in this world to have ambitions to make something of your life and actually the state of presence has no ambition in it I remember the very first time I was sitting there watching the very long movie Gandhi and he was walking with this American journalist along named Walker and I think they were in South Africa I actually went to South Africa and I happened to be at the same place where they had the ashram down there and they were walking along and the American reporters said to Gandhi looking at the big ashram they were building he said Mr. Gandhi you're quite an ambitious fellow and Gandhi's answer was I hope not and something in my heart I don't know how old I was but something just leaked when I heard that answer because I was raised in a Protestant family Protestant work ethic a lot of us work hard achieving your dreams shoot for something in the future mmm it's the ego it's tricking it's trying to trick us and to be successful in artificial concepts that have nothing to do with our creator and nothing to do with our source it's very sneaky and it's so reflected in the culture that if you seem to be very successful and earn a lot of money and have a lot of possessions and all kinds of things connected to the body there's a lot of reflections of very good you've done very well even from parents you've turned out well I'm glad to see that one in mind turned out well it's a big trick it's all a deception this little mini movie is going to show you that very explicitly because in this mini movie called time's end it's going to invite us into a new use of memory for example most of us are used to thinking about good memories and bad memories common common thing, good memories and bad memories who makes that distinction it's the ego it's the ego and the ego has invented it's own feel good memories and it's own bad memories and it's trying to convince us to feel good memories, feel better than the bad memories so we should just maximize the feel good memories and minimize and eliminate all the feel bad memories and the problem is they're all the same because they came from the same maker pleasure and pain, for example do they seem the same to you? no, not usually they seem very different but they both are generated by the imposter and that's what I mean by artificial goodness because if this world was nothing but pain everything was entirely painful you would drop it like a hot potato and be back in your mana you could say you're back it'd be really quick but because the ego disguises itself into things that seem temptingly good and yet when you reach out and you go for it, it's fool's goal you still feel that emptiness and then you go hmm, that wasn't it and then the ego goes keep trying and so it keeps shifting the kaleidoscope around making the diamond glimmer and shine from different turns and different angles so that you'll keep pursuing the diamond kind of like the Titanic the heart of the ocean is all about this diamond at the edge the lady still has the diamond the heart of the ocean she drops it into the ocean my heart leaked when I saw that diamond going down into the ocean because the diamond is so precious in the world's eyes it's worth so much money a huge amount of money and she just, oops she cared more about the love remembering the love affair than she did about the rock more about the love less about the rock and that was a big moment well this movie is going to it's actually going to show us an enactment of what seems to be perceived as a grievance some of you are Star Trek fans Trekkies this is going to be Captain Cisco in this one and Captain Picard is in it as well and the scene will open up with is that Captain Picard you know in his ship he was taken in by the board anybody remember the board they're the ones that assimilate into a collective consciousness I would say it's more like a collective unconsciousness they're still into power and control and everything like this it's more like the collective unconsciousness than the collective consciousness so they assimilate him and then Cisco is also part of the Federation his ship gets fired upon by the board who've taken Captain Picard Cisco's wife will be killed in the attack so this is a good forgiveness lesson the death of a wife the death of a spouse I don't know if anybody in here has experienced that but I will say there is beliefs underneath that grief belief in loss and the sadness of broken communication not being able to hold somebody to touch their face to caress them all the things that were so heavily associated with the love are gone and so he has a lot of anger and this little mini movie is going to take us past Cisco's anger and into we're going to go through a wormhole and come face to face with the light now I'm not the Klingons the Romulans the board all the different we're not going to different parts of the cosmos we're actually going to pierce through the veil of the cosmos and come directly into contact with the light so some of you have had that experience perhaps in meditation or just in a moment where you had a revelatory experience where you had a direct experience of that love and that light and I would say the interesting thing with the human race is that most of the human race has so pushed the light out of awareness has so denied that light and love that all it has is comparisons and contrast of circumstances and events in time and space you know we throw the words around love and I love you but a lot of times the love is just associated with romantic love or the love of a child or the love of a pet or the love of a geographical area the ocean, the scenery but it's not that kind of direct connection with divinity which is what we are and what we came from so this will give us a bit of a chance to go toward that because we're going to go beyond perception into contact with the light and the interesting thing about the light is very much what Jesus talked about and Buddha talked about because the light has no opinions the light is just pure love and there isn't a mix with the concepts of this world the light doesn't know of competition because what does competition require and love oneness only knows itself so it doesn't know to competition it doesn't know a human relationship in the sense that we're back on the timeline of the main character he's going through all this grief because he is sure that there are good memories when his wife was alive and he shared all these loving memories with his wife and when his wife is killed he just feels like it's gone forever he'll never be able to have that back again so he has this huge grief this huge projection of the anger of what happened to his wife and he's going to start off this many movie with a major grievance and he's going to go through a whole transformation with the light in which he sees memory what we were talking about from a whole new perspective he sees that it was only his judgments that certain situations were bad memories and certain situations were good memories that choosing that discerning between the good and the bad was the very thing that was holding the anger holding the hurt and that he can let go of his whole use of memory in order to go through a reborn healing experience and what's fascinating about this too is Cisco will be given an assignment to go down to this planet Bajoran and he thinks he's going down to help these kind of uncivilized people because he's like they don't have work drive and they don't have the technological advances so he's going to look upon this planet and these people very much like people in Australia look upon the Aborigines the Aborigines are very telepathic and amazingly connected they're perceived by western civilization as the primitive ones that's what's going to happen here he's going to go to this planet and he thinks he's there to help them out and actually they're spiritually advanced and so they're going to be a part of his healing there's going to be a thing called the tear of the prophet that literally is going to use his memories to start to take him out of his sadness and anger and show him there's a much greater perspective that he just has his blenders on so it's the same thing the same thing we face in this civilized world where we have lots of governments and technology and so on and so forth and then these primitive tribes that are so devotional and that are telepathic are seen as the primitive less advanced ones it's all flipped it's all backwards in this world and we're going to see that in here but he has to be humbled by working with these people this prophet that he's going to work with who knows far more than him spiritually and yet he thinks he's going to be the emissary and going to be the hero and save the day for them and she's kind of like using her telepathic powers to say ironic the one that is here to be the emissary to help us is the one that's in need of the most healing is the one that doesn't even want to be here and yet needs to be there more than anything so I will pause it a little bit but this is going to be a great adventure because it's going to give us a touch of that oneness that's beyond all comparisons and I think most of you can realize that the complexity in this world is that if you really trace it down it's because we're trying to choose we're trying to make choices in this world that will bring us happiness and we've got 7 billion people on the planet each doing the best that they can every day based on what they believe to find happiness and most are not having the 7 billion they would say they have a very coastal ride of emotions they're not reporting bliss and nirvana on this search oh I went out to Malibu beach I did this this this how do you think I'm a little tired you know we go on vacations we come back we're supposed to be pretty rested sometimes sometimes not you don't really get bliss from planet earth but I would just say it's just from the misuse of memory and we all have that power to turn our memory around we took a trip with alexander to walk out in the pier we were out in the sunshine we went and got ice cream and I would say we had such a fun day because we were just grabbed in the flow we were like twigs in the river just nothing in particular just enjoying each other's vibe going down there walking on the pier just having a wonderful day three of us it's because we didn't have any agendas nothing so we had to do nothing that we had to see nowhere we had to go he was driving we were happily we wanted to get out then we finally did get out and go in the sunshine splashed around in the sunshine but you see that's a good use of memory that's using memory for the flow and all of our programming is saying well you have memory for really good reasons it's called the gross national product it's gross and it's gross putting all that mind energy and that use of memory achieving outcomes when the whole point is to let go of all outcomes and be we're just here to be and you know some of this had little bits and touches of the hippie generations and I was like yeah that's why I love to come to California all the time I'm like oh I'm like out here maybe I don't have the beats and things that I heard out before I still have this tie down hippie and so we just want to bring out alive again we're not trying to bring the 60s back we're trying to bring eternity back into our awareness it's much bigger than the 60s that's a nice reflection now but we know that we want to have that joy that happiness and that love that eternal feeling no cares, no worries whatever the roles are we seem to play in this world we don't want to get too hung up in the role because then we lose sight of the nervous when I go to like a restaurant and I'm there and I'm sitting down at the border and I see a waitress come in one time it was like her first day and I can see she was kind of shaky and she was really nervous and everything and so and then she came to me I just took time to just say listen, I said you bring the food, you don't bring it it's okay with me, you drop the food you dump it all over my lap I'm still going to give you the biggest tip and then she just and then instantly after I said that I watched her just relax and start to glide around like she's been there for 20 years she just, it just takes the moment everything we perceive is a reflection of our thoughts and so if we had that gentle spaciousness that ease, that relaxation that everything's great everything's wonderful feeling then the world reflects that back to us and we all know that's how it works when we're having one of those great days everything reflects it back to us, absolutely everything we just have to remember that's how powerful we are and that's the good use of memory so here we go, we're going to see this, the first scenes are going to be scenes of the Borg having taken the captain Captain Picard over and he's going to make his commands and threatening Cisco's trip ship, he's going to fire upon it and we're going to see this destructive scene at the beginning and then we're going to shift ahead to some years in the future where Cisco still is carrying the grievance of his wife being killed, like something precious has been taken from him and he's still very, very angry and he's going to meet with Picard who's been released from the board but it's just like when you see an old friend, if you still have a grievance against somebody you need for lunch, you know how it goes you're kind of sitting there like hmm but there's something underneath there's some kind of an agenda running in there and you're not going to really enjoy your lunch if you've got some kind of grievance from the past and that's what Cisco has with Picard but then the movie is going to show us a way to use memory in a new way to release that grievance forever, so whatever grievance you still believe you have against anyone or anything but the movie can be a huge integral today to free your mind you're not helping them, you're actually freeing your own mind when you release that grievance and then you free them and you free everyone okay, here we go so there we go we saw the scene we saw the attack we saw the explosion his wife Jennifer died just of the loss of this illusion of losing a life partner he rescued his son Jake but he lost and he just was looking out and it was just a look up to despair and loss now again from what I'm going to talk to you about and what we're going to retrain our minds hopefully next time I come out we're going to have some centers going out here about time memory reorientation you guys can make a career out of feeling of this because it's what everybody needs so this is getting down to the roots of it it's not balancing the energy in the body or anything to do with the body time is messed up and we need to use a different memory we have to focus our memory in another way now that despair that you saw and the sadness and the feelings of loneliness and abandonment those all come from focusing our memory ability on attack you can never focus your memory on innocence and end up with despair if you use memory for innocence you would feel joy happiness peace really you would feel your natural state of being if you were focusing the memories on that intent but as long as there's a belief in attack and you keep focusing the memory on that attack then there's going to be a grievance and it won't matter even if you're like the princess of the pea if you seem to be well defended against that attack time you know the princess of the pea she was still sensitive enough to feel the pea underneath all the mattresses in the fairy tale we become that sensitized because we don't want to cover over something that's not real we want to see the unreality we want to see it exposed we want to see it in the light of day we don't want to just have to keep defending against and building more defenses against this shaky attack belief and that's what this whole cosmos is about is the belief that we could attack spirit or attack God and now it's more attached to linear time than we are desiring of eternity it's like we've bought debate seemingly and now it's time to refocus our memory on the innocence you know on the camping church for years they kept talking about original sin so if you've heard about that in Catholicism how about original innocence let's say hey for original innocence let's just shift the focus a little bit like away from the guilt of the shame and the pain and the hurt and the sin let's focus on the innocence well that's what's going to happen with our character here because we're going to go a few years in the future and he's going to get a chance to meet with Bacardi, Captain Bacardi but you could just watch him in his face to see how tense his neck is how he's just got this anger that's just under the surface just coming out of his face because he's proceeding in the car and he's the man who killed his wife, he's still focusing on the guilt, on the attack and he hasn't let go of that and it's really for all of us this is all being acted out for all of us because I'll tell you what if you're out and you seem to get a mosquito bite that annoys you a little bit a little mosquito bite and irritation there is rage underneath that mosquito bite absolute rage the ego has just deluded the rage over millennia it's spread it out so much over time that you don't always experience that rage you experience the annoyance the irritation of a mosquito bite but there is absolute rage underneath that mosquito bite if you follow that little irritation all the way down into your mind your powerful mind you would find there's rage down there and that rage is based on attack and that attack is being held in mind by the use of memory we don't have to keep doing that anymore we should so here we go we're going to give us a little parable here we have a big deposit there so again you see Captain Picard is he got released from the Borg he's on with his mission and he's actually wanting to send Cisco down to the Bajorans to help them out he's a proponent of them he would like to see them helped and so he's sending him on a mission of love and his mind isn't that focused what's going on here there's a disproportionate amount of anger it seems there but you see it's like of course teaches us we're never upset for the reason we think also it's not anything that's in the world that ever upsets us it's our misperception it's holding on to this guilt and this grievance in our own mind that we project it out and think, interpret that other people have wronged us in this case for Cisco it's like a major violation it's like he had the look of you killed my wife and I'm going to follow orders because you are my commanding officer but even in saying I will do the best of my ability you can see there's like daggers coming out rage it's coming out and it's all based on a perception of being harmed by something in the world now what I'm going to say the ego set up this whole thing the ego set up time and space so that we would forever feel guilty it's part of a trick that we try to project the guilt outside of our mind onto the characters and onto the images of the world and the ego says, good it get it out get it off your chest scream it, beat some bataka sticks go scream at somebody tell them off blast them and the ego is telling us that that's how we're going to get rid of this feeling of hurt and anger that's actually how we keep it we actually keep it by trying to project it you know I played the blame game I remember one time the Holy Spirit was kind of gone he said yeah, whenever you point the finger David at anyone there's three fingers back pointing back at you going to the sun, going to the Holy Ghost it's like the Holy Spirit is saying the trinity is coming right back at you saying, pull it in here don't push it out there pull it in and forgive it because you're just going to keep it if you keep fault finding projecting and so he's not saying much there but we can tell from his face and his tone of voice that he is furious and the only reason he's furious is because it's a misinterpretation he still doesn't see that he's using memory in an egoic way he's still trying to use memory to maintain the attack the attack is still going on in his mind and he's still trying to scapegoat some of you might remember that term scapegoat I like how we got that term from the Bible back in the Jewish tribes in the early days what happened is they had a ritual where when when the whole tribe, the whole village needed to be cleansed and purified of all of its wrongdoings and sins they would get a goat and they would bring a goat into the village and then they would put the high priest would place all the sin symbolically of the whole village on the head of a goat and then they would chase the goat out of the village and go whoo maybe it's for another year let's do this again next year because they haven't seen me like in so many seemingly sins and so that's where we get the term scapegoat scapegoat is to projecting on the head of this goat and then pushing it out of the village so this is what's happening in a mind sense where you're trying to get rid of guilt and hurt and anger by seeing it as if it's out there and somebody else so now we're going to see he's come down to visit the pejorans and like I said now it gets fun because he thinks he's going to help them to be their savior and they're highly advanced spiritually so the priestess is going to receive him very graciously but right away she's going to have to be kind of firm with him because he's like the big captain you know and she's like you know that's not why you're really here I'm going to help you get in touch with why you really come here the mind is so deep and the capacities for repression and denial are so strong and this amnesia thing that when he when he perceived his wife was killed he was so hurt and a lot of us know how that works when you feel really hurt you start to like distance yourself from things sometimes to even think of the person and the memories it can be too hard to like relive the memories because there's a sense of loss like well that's gone forever like thank you God for that and that was a pretty good year and a pretty good lifetime I had going there and then you know you take away my wife so there's this a fury in the mind and in this sense he comes there she says the prophet is you know the prophet says look for solutions from within she introduces him to the tier of the prophet and the tier of the prophet just gives him a glimpse of back at the time when he was so happy so very happy on that beach and yet the contrast between that happiness and the way that he feels now which is shut down and angry there's such a huge gulf there that you can see it's almost like his eyes were squinting like it was such a beautiful light memory and then he's back and he had to face this huge contrast of emotion so the Holy Spirit has to work with contrast and if you were asleep and dreaming and you'd completely forgotten the light of heaven and you've even pushed out awareness this is the fall from grace and now you're just kind of gliding down the highway sliding away as a human being just trying to make your way through every day the best you can and just counting your blessings and trying to get as hopeful of the day and purposeful of the day as possible then the Spirit has to use contrast because there's a lot of repressed unconscious darkness we know we can see the rage that he's got underneath him the Spirit has to find a way to let that rage up for healing because it's not going to heal if it keeps being pushed down out of awareness if it's not brought to the light so this is the process of healing and this has begun for him now so he's going to give him the gift of the tear of the prophet like take this with you the thing that opened up his heart to that memory of love but also he's going to need much further and he's going to let go of that rage and it's the same for all of us at some point you're just saying ok God bring it on Spirit I would rather go through it and use this seeming lifetime to heal for all eternity and come home all the way back to God than to just dilly-dally and try to make the best of things you know you got to take the good with the bad and all the cliches of the world we're worth more than that we're worth eternity is what we're worth we're worth divine love and so the rest of this mini movie is going to be the Spirit in amazing miraculous ways using experiences to show him a new use of memory so he can actually free his mind from the deep guilt ok here's the first major lesson for all of us that perception is unreliable and completely variable like we may look we may say the sky is blue the ocean is blue the clouds are crispy white the grass is green the trees are green it's become so accustomed to fragmentation and separation and illusion and it actually thinks that its feet are standing on solid ground and it's in a real world and we don't realize this is a perceptual nightmare like dreams that you have when your mind's all stirred up with a nightmare we've adapted and adjusted so much to the hallucination that we now seem to have somewhat stabilized in our perceptions except to learn through relationships that no two people see the same world it seems now instead of being one unified mind one unified spirit each body has its own little perception apparatus five senses its own view of the world and there's not total agreement even among soul mates I always like the soul mates where the soul mates find each other in bed one morning you believe once it's going to come up because no two people see the same world it's so variable now here he's just traveled in and they've just landed in what seems to be a wormhole he doesn't on what he's the first one out the door and we'll first see the light show us his perception and then we'll see the light show us her perception why relationships are so difficult because you've got two different perceptions trying to relate with each other that don't agree that don't have a universal agreement we may have common elements but that makes it even sneakier to think that there's a reality there when actually it's just one mind proceeding but it seems to have fragmented into seven billion different minds but here's our first step before we go to forgiveness this is our first lesson here we go now this is the first time they've ever gone Star Trek beyond the veil so this is not a new species this is not an angel the probe gave him a glimpse of the beach with his wife now the probe is going to open up a crack in the whole veil of time and space that has blinded everyone inside the veil from knowing the light and this is what we need this is why you will hear of mystics and saints and you have revelatory experiences I had three different revelatory experiences where I went so deep in meditation and so downpest of fear that I went into the great rays and I went into pure revelation where I had the actual experience of this light it wasn't any kind of earthly light but it was like they talk about near-death experiences where everything is one and words can't describe it was that kind of thing it just the figure ground broke and I just went totally into it and so ever since I went into that and came back from that it was very convincing the light is extremely convincing because it's nothing like perception at all they're going to kind of comment like crack through perception and then what's going to happen is the light is just pure abstract love so it doesn't have any concepts it doesn't even have words it doesn't even have there's no verbal content to it it's purely telepathic love and oneness so it's going to probe his mind and start to take the characters that he believes in and the words that he knows and now it's going to have to use those characters and words to reach him in a language that he can understand and that's how the spirit reaches us in this world it has to use what we believe in so it uses our likes it uses our dislikes our preferences like with the Course in Miracles the scribe of the Course in Miracles she was a big Shakespeare lover Jesus started dictating the Course at one point he just shifted it gears he shifted it into Iambic Contaminer and he did a chapter after chapter, line after line verse after verse in Iambic Contaminer for Helen because she liked Shakespeare and I've even seen musicians that are poets and everything they'll be going man you know how hard it is to do an paragraph of that Iambic Contaminer to do chapter after chapter Jesus was like I love you so much and she liked Shakespeare so he gave her Iambic Contaminer Shakespeare in line verse and lots of it page after page chapter after chapter also she was a research psychologist so he used psychology terms he used educational terms and he used terms from the Bible he might as well correct this distortion of the Bible while I'm at it I've got a good scribe here so I'm going to reinterpret things like the last judgment which is upside down punishment punishments crazy ideas that the ego inserted into Christianity and Jesus just decided he's going to reinterpret the whole thing back to right side up instead of upside down so this is beautiful because the light just probes and now we're going to see the light communicate not only with Cisco but really it's communicating with all of us because it's going to use the words and the symbols that we can understand but it's just pure extractions pure love pure oneness okay look at the difference on the right side the face of anguish of seeing something that seems to be gone and lost and will never be experienced in that way again you see the face of loss and you see the light is using her character and she's just going what is this there's no associations but it's just pristine it's just innocent it doesn't have positive connotations or negative it's just purely love but it doesn't love doesn't meet with linear perception it doesn't meet with linear time that's why when we build churches and synagogues we do rituals and we try and try to pull the light into this world and we think that by doing all these rituals it may help us somewhat to remember as a step but what we really need to do is we need to bring all of our concepts including linear time back to the light and give them over to the light so here this is my present this is what I made I'm bringing it back to what is light, real and true and illusions will disappear when they're brought voluntarily and willingly to truth but if we hold on them with ego defense mechanisms if we defend them right instead of being happy if we want to be have intelligence worldly intelligence more than wisdom if we want to have freedom of the body more than freedom of the soul freedom of the mind you see we have this choice to make whether we want to open up to the way we were created by God which is pure spirit or do we want to keep holding on to these concepts that are all false idols hold no graven images before the Lord by God hold no idols before the Lord by God that was from the Bible now we're starting to see oh it's not just talking about golden calves it's not talking about totem poles it's talking about our identity and these images that we've made up the ego has made up as our identity so really this is about bringing truth to the illusion I just want to read one more little passage from the Course so this is from lesson 22 because he's getting ready to go into a major forgiveness lesson this is what Jesus says to us what could you want forgiveness cannot give do you want peace forgiveness offers it do you want happiness a quiet mind a certainty of purpose a sense of worth and beauty that transcends the world do you want care and safety and the warmth of sure protection always do you want a quietness that cannot be disturbed a gentleness that can never be hurt a deep abiding comfort and rest so perfect to be upset all this forgiveness offers you and more it sparkles on your eyes as you awake and gives you joy with which to meet the day it soothes your forehead while you sleep and rest upon your islands so you see no dreams of fear and evil malice and attack and when you wake again another day of happiness and peace all this forgiveness offers you and more it's like that's why we're doing this he's using all of his words and and he's saying and more like you have no idea this is going to blow your socks off and this is going to give you a joy like you have never ever experienced take your most joyful moment memory in this lifetime multiply by 10 and then another 10 and another 100 and you're still not there this is really worth everything it's worth putting your attention that's why we do mind training that's why we do forgiveness and that's why we're watching this mini movie just to help get a remembrance of how important this really is in all of our priorities to come back to this so he's going through a forgiveness lesson here where he's bringing all of his ideas to the light he's actually trying to describe and explain a linear existence and the light just doesn't relate and the light will never relate to it because one this pure one this doesn't take on a disguise it wants to be openly revealed it's not like God is trying to hide something or hold it back it's just like the ego has been in the ones doing the hiding I would try so hard to explain why his attitude has justified over and over again oh he's just beginning he's going to try to explain baseball to the light he's going to try to let the light in but we do have some really nice things and you'll see what the light's response is to all of his things he's going to try he's going to really try so that's the motive to coexist and learn it ain't going to happen it ain't going to happen darkness and light don't coexist you bring the darkness to the light and the darkness disappears even in this world there's a parallel when we talk about ignorance what happens when ignorance comes upon wisdom it disappears and all that remains is wisdom so to explore he likes to explore well you know that's part of the whole Star Trek thing to explore where no man has gone and everything too badly popped through into the light and now exploration can stop in the sense that what he's so excited about with baseball is this idea of hypotheticals you don't know what's going to happen why would people pay money to go to a Dodgers game if they knew what their outcome was why do people go on a first date isn't there something exciting about a first date yeah because you don't know what's going to happen you don't know whether you'll say okay can I have your number can I call you well it's kind of been nice thank you I'll find you you see it's the anticipation it's the hypotheticals that the ego is using to keep the mind from discovering its true identity generating false excitement has anybody ever gone to a casino imagine if you knew your entire visit to the casino the top table the cards you already knew if you were going to lose you think people would go and throw down money if they already knew they were going to lose you see that's where it's playing it out and so that's the thing whether it's with dating whether it's with baseball or sports whether it's with politics there's some political candidates they're starting to get geared up here for primaries and this the whole political system what drives what's the energy that's behind that we talked about that earlier about maybe you want to bring love and peace and joy but I was saying you can do it through your mind through your purpose not through trying to effect a change projecting out a government as if they're the ones governing who governs your mind are you going to govern your mind or are you going to play little play small and put politicians out there and watch them do their antics and play the judgment game I like this one but I don't like this one I'm going to vote for this one but I'm not going to vote for that one and then election night what happened who's going to make it come on Bernie come on are you going to play that game are you going to play that game but you see it's showing us in this movie that it's hypothetical and what's the solution well again if you use your memory and your prayers to focus on what you really want joy, happiness, love, innocence the world's just going to play out reflecting the desire of your heart isn't that wonderful like you don't need to think that this will end in the world or this person will be elected or this party will take all these effects to be in a certain way for you to be happy you just need to focus the power of your mind on the use of memory of what you want the most and then you draw everything to you and that's what I was sharing earlier today that's why I had a ball I had so much fun over the last 25 years since my first visit to LA because there was a prayer of my heart just to extend this happiness and joy and try to control this I didn't see myself getting invited to 44 countries I didn't see myself having all these dear loving friendships all over the world that were just reflecting the joy in my heart it's like everything came so easily and it didn't cost anything in fact that's the most wonderful part there's no cost to it by focusing your mind and your use of memory in that way everything gets given to you and then there's more gifts and more and more it just keeps coming to you and coming to you and that's what the value of forgiveness is and that's what we need we need to see that there's an important value there instead of trying to use time and use memory to just keep recirculating guilt some of you are going to classic movies with Bill Murray where he gets he's in this loop and he tries killing himself over and over again I might add unsuccessfully and then he tries relationships he's got his eye on Rita and he's going to use all this past knowledge and he's got more of a broader perspective to try to seduce Rita to get her into bed and he's using the ice cream she likes Rocky Road she's at the world peace he knows all these personal values that she has so he's using them for one outcome and he starts to get really close and then all of a sudden she starts slapping him and she slaps him and she slaps the heck out of him because there's at some point when you're playing the ego's game to try to use the ego to get that's not forgiveness you might remember the bartender in that scene where he was watching the game that he was using everything and he was just smiling shaking his head like you're in for a rough landing and he gets so close to getting her into bed and then slaps he gets so dejected then he goes into despair tries to kill himself the whole movie is showing that as long as we believe in hypotheticals as long as we go searching for this happiness and outcomes of the world we're just looking in the wrong place we need to go inside and find our happiness our joy our contentment find our purpose and then let that purpose just come radiating through us maybe we sing it maybe we dance it maybe we laugh and tell jokes we hug and who knows who cares actually who cares how it looks how it feels how it feels is important to us and he's going to go through that because now he's still excited about baseball he's still trying to convince the light that there's something good and you know the light gave a pretty quick answer you value your ignorance oh no it's so much more exciting to go pay a fortune teller money to tell you what's going to happen in the future instead of tapping into your own mind and starting to know what you already know like the oracle in the matrix she gives Neil a little time she looks at his hands she looks up in your mouth she's getting in time to recognize she already showed him the sign and she's giving him as much time as he needs and then he goes I'm not the one and she just the horrible can't give him what he has to know that for himself know thyself is not something you go to an oracle for you know your identity you may get a glimpse of what's going to happen in the future but even that it's how you use it some of us have got some interesting things told to us but how do you use it you see it still comes back to the power of your own mind you have all the answers already in there but you won't know those answers as long as you keep focusing on the guilt focusing on the attack focusing on the shame the grief so here we go he's going to go through this now because his main issue is he's got this anger and this deep sense of loss around his wife and the life I loved it how we were saying this is one of the worst memories it is this is where I lost my wife and she comes through what in a pink bikini may type almost lost it there she's like ah because it was such a dark memory this was just like something stabbed me in my heart it was just like ah I can't stand it because I got so cold like I was freezing like that moment because it was the contrast of the two and here's the light using his wife and a pink bikini to come through to say you exist here and what she's really saying is what? you exist everywhere why are you do you keep breaking time into the good and the bad the right the wrong when you exist everywhere it's like he's trying to tell I don't want to exist in bad memories and I do want to exist in good memories like the light saying you exist everywhere you exist everywhere that's the fact of it that's the truth you're a holy child of God you're not even bound by time and space your spirit could never be limited to a little body you exist everywhere so this is the beauty of this little movie because yeah it can be piercing when you see that because it's such a contrast to the ego's perceptions wasn't I felt like she was saying you're stuck here you're stuck here that's a choice but the thing about it is like what she told him before like he said it's the past Jennifer's gone she says she has parted her existence you know whether it's whatever he's trying to break it into past present future which is why I set this whole thing up it's own version of past present and future and he's trying to limit his awareness to some aspect of these artificial constructs and they're saying no it's beyond that yeah it's all about allowing so we're going to see him crack here he's like a nut that has got all that anger pent up but he needs to crack he needs to pop okay let's see him pop that's the only realization that I come to is that the mind is choosing and the temptation is to project it into these things happen you have stories this is my story this is what happened to me you know the stories keep getting repeated over and over the ego loves it when you just repeat these stories over and over and over to anybody you can talk to it's like the mind is trying to justify it's state of mind instead of accepting that it's a choice that it is not linear at all that all those so-called factors have nothing to do with anything and that we can choose to be happy we know inside we can feel it we still have that memory in us that we can choose to be happy you know I remember in my life when I was reading Victor Frankl's books about Nazi Germany and that was that just lit my heart up when I first read Victor Frankl I was like oh my god you mean we could be happy in the face of Nazi Germany I thought if you could be happy with that you could choose happiness with anything that's what they're teaching him they're just teaching him it is not linear he had to crack because he kept trying to tell the stories we're appropriation every day shapes the next what doesn't? days don't shape days we have a power of mind to choose our attitude and nothing can block us from having the kind of experience we want to have except taking our fault our memories and focusing on attack and if we've been mistreated we were taken advantage of those are all the victim stories and it's just focusing the mind on that belief and victimization it's the misuse of memory and we don't have to do that anymore we have the power we have the tool whatever pathway you choose of course is what I use to just really start to see that I have the power of choice an angel has come the symbol of innocence the symbol of innocence the symbol of innocence the symbol of innocence he could go around this is what I'm talking about guys this is what I'm begging my tail he's so full of his happiness and energy oh very kind so let's see the very end of this because the very end of this is he's going to Cisco have a chance to meet the card again and that's the blessing of forgiveness that's the blessing you can see the transfer value that has enormous transfer value you can see like wow my whole experience of the world my whole experience of life and just going in a fresh clean clear direction I don't have to feel burdened by the past by whatever someone told me or whatever I thought about myself the memories it's not even asking you to like redo the memories it's more just asking you to hold the purpose in mind that you want and let your mind just draw forth the reflections of that fresh new clean clear purpose and it works that's the best part of it this is an evidence like oh yeah and you feel how worthy you are of love that's the greatest thing this belief that we're unworthy of love just gets acted out in so many different ways and the mind can even be a little hesitant like oh it's it started out this way started out good a few times and they took a really bad turn and then those memories are so strong it's just an ego of the use of the memories that the mind is shaking and afraid to meet in a holy instant to meet for the first time what if instead of dating with all kinds of future expectations what if you really would go on a date to meet like a holy encounter like Jesus calls it when you meet someone remember it is a holy encounter when you see him you will see yourself as you treat him you will treat yourself as you think of him you will think of yourself he says never forget this for in him you will find yourself or lose yourself so imagine every time you go out to get guests in the car every time you go to the grocery store to do your laundry, to do shopping to go on a date I mean tell you the last 25 years I've had a lot of amazing dates I've had group dates like we're having here I've had dinner dates lunch dates, breakfast dates if they looked at my life they would see that I'm just having a bunch of fun with a lot of encounters just letting the encounter come in a beautifully collaborative way where there's just this acknowledging the presence and the love and the beauty that's already there and it's a beautiful purpose for those encounters and it's very convincing you can imagine just like in this world if you practice something and you repeat it over and over and over it just strengthens it in awareness but you go into it with that glee, with that joy with that openness you don't even know what's going to happen in fact you're so happy that you have a great time too because you don't even have an expectation that somebody's going to be there it's not about them it's not about them, it's not about bodies it really is one, it's about this opportunities to extend this emptiness of joy and then then your mind starts to waft up in the higher and higher states of consciousness where you notice that the old motives and the old programming it's just absent it's just not there anymore things can seem to fall down all around you and you just burst out laughing you just think, oh this is perfect and then you just laugh at so many things people say why don't you really have an interesting sense of humor but it doesn't really matter what the outcome is you can't sometimes stop from laughing and before when things can fall apart the ego is just oh it has such an emotional fit when things don't go a certain way and then the contrast of that gentle laughter when things just start crashing apart we've seen it in movies where people are having one of those days where okay what next and then when the next thing comes they just burst into laughter because they just realize somewhere deep inside them that it doesn't matter it doesn't matter like Grace Flick said let the world around us just fall apart maybe we can make it if we're heart to heart that is a classic line it's a classic line heart to heart and you don't even need any more than that Angel is like yes, yes yes we had the babies singing along with us and now I have to ask is there an amen can I have an amen from the park she responded she's responsive so that's a confirmation what a vibe okay anybody have anything to share cause we could come up to one of these chairs and I can pass the microphone if you'd like to share speaking about memory and the importance of remembering what we want to remember but at what point is that giving into disillusion what I mean if a person is very sweet in loving one moment but then maybe the very opposite in another moment are we supposed to tell ourselves oh this person is an angel and so sweet I mean how do we how do we see clearly but still see through the eyes of the divine light and how Jesus would want us to see yeah that's a good question cause that's getting down to the practicalities of it which I think are the most important always these ideas don't come down to practicalities sometimes I think a lot of us who've come to earth we have we have owner's manuals for cars, for appliances for watches, for phones but we never got an owner's manual about that very question cause that would probably be one of the first things that you would want to address in your owner's manual what happens when a person seems loving and then they turn on you it's like Jekyll and Hyde whoa you get the other side and Jesus in his Course in Miracles when you work your way back through all these chapters when you start to get towards the later chapters he has a beautiful section called rules for decision basically he lays it all out and he says basically he starts off with two he says here's it's kind of cool just to have two things to keep in mind every day to go through your whole day with but his first one is decide the kind of day that you want which is really good that's why I say focus focus your mind focus your use of memories on what kind of day you want you could be specific but I think it's better if you focus on really the emotion you want you want a loving day, a joyful day a peaceful day, a happy day a gleeful day focus on the kind of day that you want and then comes number two and he says say to yourself if I make no exceptions if I make no decisions by myself this is the day that will be given to me so you see how powerful it is he's saying decide the kind of day that you want and if I make no decisions by myself this is the day is to be given to me what does that mean no decisions by myself no decisions by my ego self no decisions by my personal self because remember the ego is a death wish it will try to sabotage that happy joyful peaceful day so you start to get an experiential sense that whatever you're perceiving you are receiving you are giving it and you're receiving it like you sent a messenger out from your mind and this character is acting out that message and when we sent out hurtful angry vicious messengers they do what they're meant to do they bring back witnesses so the reason that we need more than the first two he doesn't stop there he gives three four five six seven he actually gives you procedures to do once you've gotten off of your first two it's easier to have a happy day if you can just stay very devoted to the first two commandments it's easier to practice the bible if you could practice the first two commandments you don't need the rest you don't need three four all the way after ten you do real well with number one and two it's the same with this thing with one and two now where the other part comes in when the mind seems to go off is when it has an egoic self concept goal so that's where preferences and beliefs come in when the mind gets locked into the sense of like oh I know how my happy day is going to go I get a callback from this I get this happening and so it pays me the money that they said they'd pay me oh you go down there to those beliefs and expectations and your chances of having a happy peaceful joyful day have just gone down the tube it's like that song maybe it was the temptations but it was just my imagination running away with me running away with my identity my very identity because of these beliefs these agendas these forced things and I was trying to get the characters to act out in a certain way and when they don't play the part that the ego has assigned not happy at all and then even worse the ego might try to fight and manipulate and control to try to bring about the outcome at once and it just gets more twisted and more distorted when we go through that so I was talking to Victoria about that when you were saying about the trip to India it was we were talking about this I was saying well he brought up the question like what did you do if you had thoughts about the long travel or could be anything luggage combinations and logistics traveling to India but you kind of get bogged down into that and I was saying I had to get to a point where what this movie was showing was so important to me that I finally decided to have kind of like what the Christians call like the born again moment but it's not the born again I'm just professing the name Jesus Christ because it's not the words I can do it's one of those moments where you really say God, spirit, source whatever you want to call presence I'm really going to go for this I am not going to try to manage my little personal life to try to get the outcome of happiness from my personal plans my personal agendas past learning using all of our past learning because that's the trick I was in university for 10 years and when anybody spent 10 years in university except the belief that you're learning something that big it's going to make you happy later in life and ultimately I had to give that up too I had to say okay I give that over to I don't know anything I don't know anything you do I don't you shall lead I shall follow there's even a work request in the course where it's like I choose the second place to gain the first second I'm the follower here I will follow ever sister act where you think I will follow you know they take all those great songs and they turn them into songs to God and it's spectacular they all sit very well I have a really good example about I went to Malaga in August to do the the gathering with Jenny and Greg and I just got guided to go and I don't try to do anything like that but I got guided from the Holy Spirit and I took my flight and went by myself and I got to Malaga and it's a big city and I got not that many people spoke English and I got on this bus I shoved my luggage on this bus and they set it off I was asking people do you know where this hotel is you know people like that I'm guided for the whole time I'm going on complete guidance this lady turns around she looks at me she was going to speak perfect English I'm going to this hotel she was I'm getting off there I've spent one night there she said grab your luggage and get off and go with me and we'll get off it was such a profound example about the midst of all this here she was she just turned around and looked at me that is a beautiful example because that's really it's asking us to give up our firm belief that our past learning has taught us enough for us to navigate and survive which we really it's not going to go pretty if we keep trying to use the past to escape the past how is that only the Holy Spirit can use the past to escape the past to keep the past to make it seem like that's all there is and that's part of everything in the perceptual world Jesus tells us is all past he actually goes so far as to say this world was over long ago like he's living in a state of ecstasy pure bliss and happiness that he calls the Kingdom of Heaven and he says hey listen it's over long ago this thing's been answered and why don't you come back with me into the projector room back into the light and let's have a good laugh at the thing it doesn't matter whether it's a horror movie you want to watch Godzilla? fine came on? that's fine too besides adventure we'll have a good laugh they're all funny when you are not caught up into the body as your identity as soon as we get identified with the body then a dragon the scale of these monsters become pretty big I was just watching on facebook it was this big man but he was a massive grizzly bear some of you might have seen it where they were just hugging each other he was massaging it looked like it must have been like 500, 600, 700, 800 pounds and this was a big big man but I mean this bear was massive and he was just the bear was holding his mouth open and he was just coming then I looked on another one and it was a man with all these lines he had raised them from cubs amazing they just loved him and loved him big cats but it just shows how it's just the fear it's the interpretation in the mind that something is dangerous out there and then the mind sets up all these defenses you know fences, protections protective clothing guns, Cecil the lion you know shooting the lion and taking the skin all the rage that came up all over the world but that's that rage that actually needs to come up it's been so suppressed it's been pushed out of awareness and everything is a forgiveness lesson often times I have people work with the cores and mind training and kind of build their confidence in their momentum like you don't have to go diving in the deep end if there's something that's traumatic you don't have to force yourself into things it was years ago a friend of mine who channeled all this music from the angels she just came to me and she just said I have major issues with the matrix when the first matrix came out and I just said you really and she said yeah I can't even I couldn't stand to watch it I just had to turn the movie off because it was so violent and I said well why don't you just try journaling like watch the whole movie with your journal and just write down all your thoughts and your feelings as you go through the movie let them up into awareness but just put them down and so she did and then she said I can't stand these Christian and televangelist either I just can't stand these preachers I said okay watch the 700 Club turn it on I said journal all your thoughts and feelings with the Christian preachers too and it got to the point where she did it she practiced, she practiced because I would say the judgment in our mind that's the violence it's not a violent world it's judging the world that's where the violence is because God's not has nothing to do with any of that she got to the point where she took me to IMAX theater which was like so many stories I could see the matrix with her and we sat there and watched the whole matrix with this giant theater and she was so happy with all these metaphysical excited reflections that we drew but she just took it in she just allowed herself to feel the feelings to let it all come up I'm very interested in this and this is something very new with this and I want to know if there's a conflict because I'm a clairvoyant psychic and a hypnotherapist that's what I do for a living and it just sounds like you're not going to mesh I'm just, what's your opinion well clairvoyance and psychic abilities and even the therapy and everything they all can be used like I've seen everything that those people would consider part of the new age I've seen the spirit use it all so graciously I've seen people that are like I traveled one time and the woman I was traveling with had a lot of repression and she went into the convent and she was 14 years old and a lot of repression and we were traveling and I got a little a flyer that said Course in Miracles Hypnotists and we went there and this man took her down into hypnosis and she had all these repressed emotions that came up for human the same with clairvoyance and the same with even psychic abilities that there's nothing right or wrong about the abilities but it's what use do you put them because the ego will try to hijack the psychic abilities I always think of the the end or we're cut line and this and that I mean if any, if ego tries to use it for its goals fame, fortune, recognition so on and so forth often times the psychic abilities will leave, you'll lose them when they're so misused by the ego in the wrong direction and yet Jesus used a lot of those same kind of things with the scribe of Course in Miracles Jesus was always talking to them about past lives and at one point I think the scribe had killed her collaborator in a past life but he just was using them for them a progression and there was healing occurring so you know conflict it's all a good setup for innocence innocence for ringing the bell I wanted to get a little bit more clarity the question that Lindsay was asking about so if someone's really nice and they turn on you and then you talked about perceiving the violence outside of yourself I just didn't feel like her cause that's a question for me there's more to that basically the Holy Spirit in our mind only perceives two orders of thought love and a call for love so when we drift out of those two orders of thought then we get into very defensive interpretations very fearful interpretations so the way I say it is the Holy Spirit sees love or a call for love the ego sees attack so when we say like Lindsay was saying what is the person turning on you and everything as soon as we perceive attack in other words we've taken a bite out of the ego's bait and it's a dark road it gets very insensitive it gets into attack and defense and all kinds of twisted things so the Holy Spirit is there to convince us that attack is impossible and that takes practice like I call it mind training I never tried to paint a rosy picture that overlooks the mind training I see that 25 years ago when the Course came into my life right out here in Southern California it's dropped into my lap then I thought oh my God I've got no excuses now this is just plain as day I couldn't have it explained to me any clearer than this now it's on me I can't say you didn't give me enough help when I'm at the pearly gates and not in there because where were you Jesus was like oh it's actually there every step of the way so as soon as I kind of really felt it then I thought I'm a practical application I'm just going to apply this what it did was it opened me up to miracles of going from shy and closed down to being used in very helpful ways especially for myself but practicing, practicing, practicing so much so that one time years ago I went to visit a friend of mine and she said oh come on we'll watch movies and have popcorn and have a good time so I went to visit her and I spent some time there watching movies and she didn't tell me that she was divorced a couple of years before and she had an insanely jealous husband who basically was kind of you know just acting out in whole kinds of ways and so I basically oh we're going to write this terrible for this playtime so anyway there was one time where I was on the floor and she was back on the couch we were watching one of these metaphysical movies and I was kind of on my side and I was laying with my hand like this and watching a movie and then this guy shows up and it's like Jack again, it's like Jack Nicholson movie his face with these kind of beady eyes his red face he's even kind of got some saliva and so I'm in focus I'm in purpose and I'm watching the movie and you know at this point I just feel so happy and relaxed and secure in Christ for everything so there's this pounding and banging and in the door he comes and I'm just on the carpet watching the movie so I'm just kind of there watching and then he's kind of he's alive and he runs it's one of these characters I don't think it's heavy it's a raging exception although I don't know any of this I'm just invited to watch the movie he's a popcorn so I'm there and I'm watching and he comes in and he just comes only standing over me and then he reaches down and he grabs my shirt and he starts to pull on my shirt and I'm still in the same position I'm just watching the movie as if nothing could always happen actually because that's actually my experience I'm kind of like watching a world so I'm enjoying the miracle and everything and then this character is in the miracle it was a sweater it was a sweater and it was being stretched I was like looking at the sweater stretched and I still wasn't moving I was still in my reclined position you know how Jesus told me to be me I was being me I was being me I didn't put a hand up nothing then my friend comes shooting off of the couch she's like this power aerobics stuff and she's like an aerobic trainer she comes shooting off of the couch like a missile and blasts into this guy I'm still down there in my same position she blasts into him and knocks him across the living room knocks him across the kitchen and blasts him out the door I think I didn't give him some blood that was flying I mean she hit him the NSL national football league they were pads she had the dremel and I just was still watching a little stretch I noticed but that's just the way it went and I mean that was that episode but I that's the teaching of the course the workbook lesson is in my defenselessness my safety lies in my defenselessness that's what he was talking about blessed are the mink for they shall inherit the earth that was one of his teachings when we really go into that it's interesting that the best defense is no defense when we're peaceful, when we're still when we're relaxed of course we're invulnerable because we're aligned with source and what could be greater than be aligned with source that's in the Bible too if God is with me who can be against me it's very practical in many many times I've even had that where an animal would come charging at me growling and everything I never know what the spirits can do sometimes they fall down to my knees the ground and throw my arms open the dog or whatever just kind of stops because it's just love that's back in the days now it's these are the kind of witnesses that get mad we don't get growling dogs we're talking about so when Nikita comes she has the same thing going on in the cameras with the cat the cat loves her socks now they look like little animals too it's got little eyes and little nose and ears and it's a perfect place but yeah if you keep working it if you keep working it you see it's so powerful I really need to be free of these attack thoughts because if I hold on to anything then it will be reflected and it works with symptoms as well if you just start to develop some kind of symptoms in the body then it's no different than seemingly an attacker or whatever it's the same thing that if there's dis-ease in the mind if the mind is not in harmony then it just draws forth witnesses and then at some point you say I don't want to do this anymore I don't want to play those games that's wonderful and myself isn't crafty at all I mean if I could see someone angry and if it's not love it's crafty love yeah yeah so myself yeah I mentioned too a little bit later on I was taking a walk to do a meditation in a pine forest or something and this car reached to a halt and this guy jumped out and he came out and he grabbed the body of David and threw the body down and the body seemed to hit like a metal post or something I didn't feel anything I didn't feel anything like this then as soon as that happened then another car was driving around and this lady came up and she rolled her window down and she says what's going on here is everything okay? and he was like everything's fine, everything's great and then he turned from attacker into mother Teresa he was like scooping the body out and then we went and he even heard something from his ex-wife about I guess what I do and he was he was trying to bring in methylate and pain pills and he's spilling them all over the place because I know you don't even believe in this but it was very conflicted and then his heart cracked open because he it was a call for love and he had all this sadness and hurt about losing his wife and the perception and the family the same kind of hurt that everybody is healing and we ended up just sitting and talking for quite a while he had never gone to a psychologist a counselor he had stuffed all this hurt down and this was just a back job for him to heal to crack open and it turned into a beautiful encounter and that's the beauty of how behind an even peace program always felt whenever she was just walking around she would meet somebody at a bus stop or something here that she was always being used in a very purposeful way for him well it's 545 it is time flies when you're having fun thank you all what a beautiful day thank you thank you