 that Bruce Almighty get, I don't know if you've seen the film where he, God meets him and he said, okay, if you can, you think he can do it better. You've been God for a couple of days. So Bruce, which is Jim Carrey playing the character, is God. And then he hears all these prayers coming into his head like, please God, give me this, give me that, give me this. And he's come and have like hope with all these prayers. Everybody's wanting everything all at once. So he comes up with this master scheme. Like, okay, I'm going to do it via email. And all in, and he's in talks, he's just coming in. You know, increasing with all these prayers coming in. So he said, okay, I'm just going to answer yes, yes to all, hit all, reply all. Yes, because he just didn't want to hear it anymore. And then the next morning in the streets, this bedlam, because people have got their beautiful car and got the relationship. But everything's falling apart. And the cars are falling down instantly because they thought they, what they wanted, wasn't bringing them happiness. And he just saw how much... Everybody in the hotel, in the lobby, didn't they? Yeah, yeah, yeah. They said, well, I wish you'd visually know that anybody can see the job. Yeah, that'll go so well. So they got, everyone, I thought they got what they needed to make them happy, but weren't happy enough. It's a beautiful scene. It'd be beautiful to be on your list, I think that's the same, because only the Holy Spirit knows what we need. And I think of in the Song of Prayer pamphlet, which is one of the extra additions after the course. And in true prayer, there's something I'm dealing with, I think now is, in true prayer, I take Jesus in His hand or whoever, mine, to me, is significant. And I walk to God, and I sit down and kneel down and put all my wishes on the altar in front of Him, and say, if it though you'd die well, I will trust what you give me, but in the meantime I hand them over to you, because I know only you know what's right for me. That's good. Liz, what I hear from you, what I hear you say, it's about the difference between being up there and being down here. I think what it is that you look at, is you still believe that there is an eye, an eye that needs or wants, or has the desire to have things. And then there's a level above that, where there is no eye, and you essentially surrender that to God. And at that point, there's actually nothing that you want, but God gives you everything. And that's perhaps the difference in what you're seeing, the two levels. And at some stage each one of us is called to move beyond the eye. This identity that has needs or believes it has needs or would like to have other options than it has currently, and it still prays to God. To the other one, Liz has already surrendered that ego for that eye and said, this is not my life, this is your life. I'm living your life through this body. So whatever your will is for it, however you may use me most, and allow that space to take place, that's what I see as the difference between where you're comparing yourself and where David is. There is no eye. There is no eye sitting there, that's the thing. There is only Holy Spirit, personified, moving, living and breathing through that being that we call the state and that's the difference. So, yes it is up there but it is only because that eye has surrendered itself to the will of God and for most of us we've lived to do so. And we have a choice to make and every one of us at some point in our lives will get to the point where we really come to the realization that there is no alternative, there's nowhere to go and we do have this, if we want to fulfill that option on this planet and you wouldn't be sitting here, not one of you would be sitting here if you were not moving to that space where you will or we will all surrender that will take you into God and become one with that and allow that to work through us no matter what it chooses, whether it has a sweep in the streets or whether it has as one jumbo to Hong Kong or London, it's completely irrelevant. Can I please share something which was burning inside of me this morning and I feel that it's linked at the core to what Liz is asking about on everybody's behalf as far as what we want being manifest and also what Raj is talking about going from there to there being no eye and David's mentioned it a few times and like you were saying this morning about we all get in our face exactly what we need so for the last nine years for me I've had immense time alone in silence and really plowing through the layers using art and creativity as you know and also then being blessed with relationship three years ago so adding to that so it seems that's really all there's been for me there's no distraction of work other people anything else there's the alimony and there's relationship so that's constant so I surrendered my will nine years ago show me what you want me to do so I've gone through years and created work that's been constantly inspired but there's a deep deep level and I've gone through a lot of it of just absolute black self-hatred and I've kind of wondered about people's experience but I've had nothing to project it on so and I know I haven't I've been distracting myself in the last couple of years I've been so terrified of being caught in a place where I've been a few times where I didn't think I was going to come out of it so so I don't know whether that feels to me to be as we talk about going from here and just dropping the ego yeah well great but in my reality there's been a very real experience of that blackness and self-hatred massive yeah hopefully that hasn't obstructed but it somehow relates to because my other experience and deep things and awareness is that that the fullness just as your example of everything being provided that is so for all of us but in different ways in the ways that bring us the most joy whether being the perfect house or whatever it is it's actually there within us and I feel for me it manifests to a certain point and you can't go any further until that you know unworthiness and everything it's really gone for all of it to be manifest or for the wholeness yeah I think it all integrates together in fact in that a book that just came together recently called Waking Through Force of Miracles I put this a chart of concentric circles to kind of describe how the core is your prayer or your desire then the ring of belief is right outside of it and then right outside is a ring of thoughts or cognition and emotion and then perception so what we're talking about here when Les brings this question really all the questions deal with the perceived world you know that's what you're dealing with on a daily basis so that's where you have to start working and like you were saying if you use tools like art and relationship and those things in your perceived world to take this immense journey inward and it's uncovered a lot of blackness and hatred you know taking a lid off of stuff that was really buried down there and in terms of prayer the Sama prayer that Frank was bringing up that basically even when we pray for specifics when we ask for things in our lives we feel would be very helpful when we say we put them on the altar or whatever we always are really asking for deeper in our mind we're asking for an experience and what seems to be the specifics is what we believe will bring us that experience so like Leslie we're bringing up with Tina this idea of like a house with a white picket fence there's a feeling underneath that image or finding a jumbo jet or whatever or soulmate or whatever the image seems to be there's a feeling that we're going for and then that's where the belief system kicks in and the belief systems are all about variation so kind of like the example with Bruce Almighty or with people all getting a yes but everybody had different versions of what they wanted informed to bring them the experience that they wanted so it is important to go deeper inward