 All right, I didn't do it live yesterday because I just wasn't wasn't feeling right and There's something that hasn't been feeling right for a while now I think it's really important for a person Maybe some people are different, but definitely for me and a lot of people I know it's really important to spend a certain amount of time by oneself With no outside input So just like spend some time in the dark In a quiet place Just alone with your own thoughts, right? I think it's a really important thing because it's It's where you It's where you can find It's where you can learn what you want to do with your life and what you care about You know, it's it's it's where you get a lot of It's where you can learn a lot of stuff about yourself and your place in the world So it's really important to spend time Just by yourself no phone no computer no movies no video games just Silence and your own thoughts and That's something I threw out most of my life. I've I've spent Kind of a lot of time just in my own thoughts like with with no other input But I've not I've not done it in a while It's like a year and a half ago. I mean many of you know I just had some like life got hard and stressful and just just difficult situations and You know, I've managed to I managed to wrestle my way through it and you know, it's resolved as well as it's going to be To an acceptable level But during the worst of it, I I just any time I wasn't doing something I Just wanted like entertainment or something just something to get my mind off So every evening I'd watch a movie or play a video game or just do anything to get my mind off This does that stress the difficulties there just that Just off off the world, you know off myself and just just think about something else but the problem is when We don't spend any time With your own thoughts They say like like stuff starts building up, you know, like demons demons start start building up and Yeah, I got some crap in my head now and in my spirit, you know, and I see there's just kind of a mess in here and I've gotten so used to Just tuning out like I'll spend all day Just working hard and doing things and keeping my mind occupied on that and then in the evening when it's quiet And there's no one around and it is dark and there's nothing on I'll just put on a movie or video game Or just just take my mind off off myself and off off of dealing with my own internal stuff however I can and Yeah, I've I've decided that I need to I Need to I need to fix that and It's funny how how difficult it is to do when you haven't done it in a while because before Like every day I would spend a certain amount of time just quietly with myself and just just processing You know, whatever happened in the day and what I want to do with my life and just just processing thing You know figuring out, you know Mistakes that I made how I can do better and just dealing with dealing with the demons. So they don't turn into big demons They're like, you know, the last six months it's been really hard to sleep There's like I get in the bed It's dark and quiet. My mind is just like downward spiral into into Into bad stuff and so Yeah, right now, you know, it's it's been a while since the Sun went down and The only the only electronic device I've turned on is this to do this live because I felt like I I felt like I should share this and As soon as I turn this off all I want to do is like turn on a movie or a video game or something and something Just get my mind off all that all the stuff. I don't I don't feel like dealing with but I'm not going to I'm actually gonna turn off the internet and just turn off everything Except my radio not my radio like walkie-talkie radio, you know for emergency communications and stuff Just turn off everything else. Well, I'll leave the fridge on, you know, you know what I'm talking about and Yeah, I'm just gonna spend the rest of the evening In my own thoughts gonna do some stretching and And just just process all these demons that have been building up that I really do need to to deal with man, so It's a mess in there right now and like dark scary mess So, yeah, let me just let me just see what you guys are saying before I get out of here And These are we still yes, we're still at hello to everyone. How's the project's going pretty good? Well, I mean when the sun's out, I'm just going from sun up to sundown just all day today I went to get the last of the boards from the jungle than ones that I cut with the with the chainsaw So they're on my boat right now. I didn't bring them in because I Figured I just take them right off the boat up to the lumber mill tomorrow or whenever it's sunny And then did a bunch of digging today Today I was just pretty much Well because I was thinking about you know dealing with these demons. I was just like let me just turn everything off and just just Just exercise really hard. Just just push myself physically really hard now that always helps me deal with things, you know So yeah exhausted myself pretty good and then ate a good dinner and Yeah, let's see Detop, I don't know what detop is greetings. Jamie here here. You've got this all will come back together. Yes I'm I'm confident that you know a week of just spending spending quiet time with my own brain will Will be plenty to just get get things straightened out And then I'll have to continue doing that like I like I used to always do Yeah You're a wise man. Jamie. Why is that? Maybe the fact that I understand what you talk about makes me feel like I might not be a total idiot Mojo, hey everyone Men's all probably the longest one on youtube by far that made it this far more than 50 years 15 years on youtube There's probably a few other people There's this there's one guy that I know who's who's been on for a long time. I can't remember what his name is now but he does like He's kind of a silly guy. He does like uh dance videos sometimes and stuff I can't remember what his name is now um I don't know who's been on as long as me but somewhere around there. He's been on a long time Oh, let's see. What what type of movies do you like? I like inspirational movies where someone creates something like like I don't I don't like uh, all most of the modern movies where You know like all the superhero movies for example, and you know, I like comics and stuff but like It always bothers me that Stuff just gets destroyed so that you start the movie a whole bunch of stuff gets destroyed You know people save the world or whatever, but like so much stuff gets wrecked and then the end like I really like movies where You start And someone decides they want to accomplish something or or create something somehow they want to sometimes yeah somehow they want to create something It doesn't even necessarily have to be a thing um And then they struggle and do whatever and then they get to the end and it's like they they've accomplished it And you know, they had to go through all kinds of ups and downs and stuff That's actually one of the reasons I made the adventure building movie because I was like Man, I can't find any movies where where that's what happens. You know where people Like work hard on something create something and actually end up better at the end of the movie than they did at the beginning because all the movies today it's like Uh, something terrible happens and then the hero has to minimize the destruction you know That's not what life is about life is about make making the world better not not Preventing it from getting worse because of all you're doing is preventing it from getting worse You know as much as you can the things just keep getting worse The the real value is is is people working hard to to create a better world, you know so I really like movies where people like take on a big project and and just Carry a lot of responsibility and somehow You know create something that's Create something by the end of the movie that makes the world more valuable than it was at the beginning what one really cool example of this is the first half of The mosquito coast, you know dude goes into some Some I don't need to explain the whole everybody like dude goes into the jungle makes an amazing village It does all this cool stuff and inventions and then the second half of the movie it all turns to crap but The first half is really cool Howdy, I just rotated all the carbide teeth in my helical cutter head for my planer highly recommend upgrading blades Are awful. I also sharpened the teeth In my spiral cutter head and it was so easy yeah, I mean Spiral cutter blades would be great, but you know, I have the The straight ones so I mean I'm just gonna use them Maybe maybe I'll I don't know at the moment they're working. I'm just gonna keep going with it I seen the video where josh went to go Your man in treehouse very great work. It's not abandoned somebody owns it. I I sold it to them and it's I'm pretty sure someone still owns it. I don't think it's actually abandoned although. I have not been keeping up Go for a run. Oh, sure says go for a run. Okay, one of the One of the problems I'm I've been having is that I have a I strained my left calf So I can't can't run like You know throughout my whole life like running has been one of the best Just like stress relievers and ways to just process information and deal with stuff I just go go for a run sometimes for like an hour or two Or three sometimes I would just like, you know, some days when I really just had to like Think I would just go running basically all day You know stop for some Well, in the in the city where I grew up There were there were water fountains around the city and I knew where like all of them are And then I'd go out with a few dollars and like, you know buy some snacks and like You know, this is this would be on days when I don't have anything else any other responsibilities I would just go out really early in the morning and just like run all day That was really great for just Yeah, just processing information, you know But yeah, right now my left calf is Is strained it's not real bad, but I if I run on it right now I'll probably make it bad. So I have to you know, rest it for a couple days But one of the one of the things that kind of preempted me doing this is So I've got this calf strain right now and Right before that I had like a Like a I don't know like a strained stomach muscle thing kind of in my hip flexor So it was hard to lift up that leg and then before that there was another injury and I was just getting these injuries like like one at a time and Like I'd I'd fix one And then just another one would come right up and It's not because of anything physical it's because my my mind and my spirit are Are a kind of a mess, you know, like what why else would it be just one thing at a time? No, I'm too I'm too tense, you know, it's like right now my mind won't accept Like a hundred percent strength Jamie It's like no something is wrong and it just gets tense and causes another Like silly injury, right? So yeah, I really got to work out work out just just the just the bugs in my brain, you know Um Cheers Jamie go for a yeah go for a sharpening carbide teeth They are done in seconds like sharpening a chisel rather than a long knife You chip on a knot so we uh, it's so easy to rotate. I've only changed my blades once or twice in Yeah, I don't I don't have carbide teeth blades that would be pretty sweet Plainer blades the past four years. Let's see Demon ASMR One of my favorite youtuber youtubers was found dead the other day Whoa, he drowned. It hit me harder than I thought it would man. That's Yeah Well, I'll try not to be that guy but I mean Man life is fragile. It's it's amazingly fragile. It's it's incredible that That's so much life exists like considering how How many things have to go right? Like perfectly to be alive. It's crazy What the demons you ask me what are the demons just Hey, I mean I could try to explain my demons. We won't mean anything to you. You know like when when you go to bed and It's quiet and you're by yourself and your your mind No, obviously this doesn't happen every time you go to sleep. Hopefully But like if you've ever had that experience where you where you go to sleep and it's quiet and you're just there with your own thoughts and you all all your brain Can do is focus on the negative and it just keeps replaying like Bad things from the past that give you a bad feeling Which makes you think of more bad things from the past which gives you more bad feeling and I'm sure it depends on People's I'm sure it depends on people's past, but you know, I probably most people have a fair amount of Negative stuff that has either happened to them or that they've done And they feel feel stupid about it or just like they were treated poorly and you know I definitely have plenty of that stuff and when When I get stuck in that negative cycle It's just like that's all my brain can think about is all the all the negative Things that are like the worst things that have happened in my life just playing over and over and over in my head And it's just like god with this with this just just shut up You know just stop And then you know, uh, just I don't know, but it gets fixed if I If I spend time that's that's what I have to do. That's what I'm gonna do as soon as I turn this off I'm just gonna spend time with those thoughts Process them like deal with the hell just going through it and saying okay, you know Yeah, I did I I did some really stupid thing when I was whatever And it was horrible But I learned from it and that I didn't do that again And you know this this person treated me really bad when I was too young and and weak to defend myself, but You know, I learned to To I got stronger and learned to take care of myself. I learned to defend myself So I learned from you know, it's just like I just have to go go through all this and it's just process it correctly And then All those all those horrible thoughts and memories and you know the demons they they go back to bed But it's it's a kind of thing where they don't go back to bed forever You know, they they they come up they they keep coming back up But as long as you deal with them, you know, give yourself a reasonable amount of time A like a long time where you just with your own thoughts where you can process that stuff They they don't build up or anything. It's just you know, it's just it's gets really difficult when you've not been dealing with it for Like I haven't been dealing with it for like a year and a half. So there's just a lot of a lot of crap built You know That that's what I mean by the the demons Just I just said the downward spiral your brain can get into Hobo shoestring I have no idea what time um It always comes Comes to pass don't let it get you down. Well, I mean that's that's kind of what I'm talking about um Plainer carbide teeth. Yeah expensive, but do so much better. Yeah, maybe maybe I should get some some carbide Blades for my planer. That'd be pretty sweet. I don't know right right now. It's working. So I'm not gonna worry about it I've got a lot of metal and I can still sharpen Look forward to the future like your birthday and the abc meet and greet. I don't actually know if anyone's coming to the abc the adventure builder meeting um, no one's like emailed me and like asked for directions and stuff like that So maybe maybe that's just not gonna happen. I mean, you know, my friend lives right over there He's coming but maybe we'll just have a barbecue together and hang out. I don't know Um, yeah, if anyone's actually coming Email me and let me know Otherwise, maybe I'll just cancel and you know do it again next year. I mean if anyone shows up cool, but um I don't know people people have a lot lots of stuff to do and I live pretty pretty remote not the easiest place to get to um Meditation would be helpful. Well, that's kind of what I'm talking about is is meditation I guess I just wasn't using the word meditation And You know, I've been kind of getting okay, so when I would get Get into this mental downward spiral I would use meditation that to to kind of circumvent dealing with it And you force myself to relax and go to sleep um But I need to actually just just just deal with the demons. You know Do do that meditation You need to focus on body energy. Yeah, I mean, you don't you don't know what I need to focus on you You need you know what you need to focus on. You don't know what I need to focus on um But uh, yeah, and they're on energy body. Yeah, I don't um Hope you have a great inspiring inspired Hope you have a great inspired coming week. You've made such incredible progress A we want I rewatched the movie and enjoyed it immensely. Thanks for sharing your work and ideas um Plainer blades are fragile items You're doing physical and mental but you need focus on energy. It's a balance I I don't know what you're Saying to me right now like I I think you would need a much bigger sentence to explain it But the thing is I'm not going to be receptive to what you're saying because I don't care right now Because I already know what I have to do. So you could be telling me exactly what I'm Saying that I need to do and I I'm not going to hear it anyway, because I I'm Uh, I already know what I need to do um Lambo drives Zambo they dull and chip very quickly if they're the old style carbide teeth can cut against grain over knots not dull Hey, man, it's already here. I'm totally guilty of this not giving myself time to process stuff And I have plenty of crap to process take care Magnes you should do it too Why don't you why don't you do it too? Turn off all your stuff and just just spend the evening In your own in your own screwed up thoughts and you know kind of Do a house cleaning get out of get it straightened out It's a good it's a good thing to do It's hard to do if you haven't done it in a while The fact i'm standing shirtless about to shave cut my hair odd bonding here somehow I could definitely Use some shave Have you seen fly away home? No Is it good? I don't know. I don't care about movies right now. I just gotta like focus on this thing um Uh, let's see I'm just gonna kind of go through these quick because Um, we said mosquito We said mosquito close at the same time. That's funny He makes ice in the jungle. I do make yeah the mosquito coast guy makes ice in the jungle I also make ice in the jungle, but I didn't make my ice-making machine um I don't watch movies anymore. Very good arc Yeah, i'm turning off the movies um Yeah, they're I mean that kind of stuff is mostly a waste of time. It's just like a distraction from From what's really important uh, you know I mean some Some movies are useful, but most most of them. It's just it's just a distraction from from life I noticed you had a swing arm mill in vermont. I remember it being I remembered it being a band side. Did you have both? I did I did build both. Yeah Or am I mistaken about everything? Yeah, when I was in vermont I built a band saw first and then I built a swing mill A swing blade mill. I like this. I like the swing blade much more um Let's see say you have the perfect setting to try mushrooms Uh, do you have I do have a milling machine. Yes Not surprised you're injured you beat the crap out of yourself I guess it's the price of being awesome. No, I'm not injured. I'm not injured because of any of the work I do I'm actually Still able to do all the work that I'm doing like I carried a whole bunch of boards out of the jungle today You know for miles and miles just carrying heavy stuff on my back and you know Going around with a wheelbarrow No, it's it's I actually strained my calf going for a relaxing run, which To me is stupid because I've I've run all my life. Um It has nothing to do with the physical problems. It's it's a mental thing. I'm Too tense and you know Anyway, I'm gonna straighten it out. I can't I can't just I can't just leave it any longer. I gotta I gotta fix it Just letting you know that I listen to all these lives usually while doing something and I very much enjoy them excellent You seem like a cool dude all the best. Thanks, man What's your favorite spice? I don't know Well, I'm growing oregano, oregano So I have I eat that a lot. Maybe ginger. Actually, I like ginger a lot What's being printed adventure? So much cool stuff. Yeah, I have a lot of stuff going on. I think your body can't keep Up your giant spirit. No, my body can definitely keep up it's um Well, and this is this is one of the things actually so if my I'll explain this so I could just force my body to keep doing things um And say, okay, I've got this little injury and then whatever just keep going And you know, maybe end up getting some hospital operation at some point to fix something But the problem is I can't I can't accept that. I don't have time for that stuff and I can't just get operations to fix things if they're broken. So I I really do need to get my my mind and my spirit in tune with my body so So I don't get injuries because whenever whenever I have that stuff together You know, I don't get any injuries. I do ridiculous amounts of hard work and You know, I don't don't get injured from anything It's when it's when something's wrong up here and in here. That's that's when the injuries come Um, let's see Uh, I are those bad things or just thoughts of regret. Wait, what? Yeah, I didn't think I got there. Um, all right. I just gotta Just this is funny like the the last live I did there were not many comments, but now there's like tons of comments Okay, um I gotta skip through the rest You guys are saying excellent stuff right now and this this could lead to a really good conversation Hey, hey jamie. Where in massachusetts did you live? I lived in um Newton yeah right by a crystal lake And then and then I lived in Cape Cod for a little while Um Do you do I do I like muslims? I don't know um Maybe a nice night fish to clear your mind. No, I gotta To clear my mind. I really need to do nothing um Let's see. All right, I'm gonna get out of here Um, just I know I'm skipping a bunch of comments and I try not to do that I try to answer them all but um, yeah, I gotta go I gotta go sit in my darkness and uh, yeah, just process some demons and uh It's It's a really hard thing to do when you haven't done it in a while, but um I know I know like a week from now. I'm gonna feel so much better. So all right I'm gonna get out of here. You lived in Newton. Yes. Did you ever go to the Grahamingham mall I don't know. I didn't really go to malls much I used to bike from newton To the hay market the farm market every weekend. That was my favorite thing to do in boston Um, that that farmers market is amazing Do you regret the move or do you think you chose correctly? I think I love it here. It's amazing here. Um Yeah, that that I don't regret But in terms of choosing correctly, I don't know. It's like When you have life, you gotta pick something. I think that I think the I think the worst decision you can make is not to choose anything And I had this conversation with someone recently um About one of our mutual friends who just kind of did nothing with her life because She didn't choose anything, you know I think that's the that's the worst choice um Choosing some like choosing anything is better than choosing nothing and and then I think I made pretty good choices about where I'm living and all that stuff Um, it's probably somewhere better, but this is this is pretty awesome. So I I don't really regret that at all Every once in a while, I think about what it would be like to move back to a city and I'm like, oh Oh Like freedom gone Oh, all right You know what you have to do. Thank you bk broiler. You are absolutely correct. I'm gonna go do it I hope everyone has an excellent Time and don't forget don't forget to deal with your darkness Do the kids ever get hurt? Yeah Okay, I'm out of here And I wish everyone the best take care