 And just me and my eyes with a little puffy. Five o'clock in the morning. I'm here. I'm gonna go get some coffee. Mikey loves coffee. Mikey, ain't much of a morning, dude. We got things to do, communities to build, and people to meet, to allow them to train. So, we're gonna grab a coffee. That's all I got. So I'm gonna spot my brains out. Maybe when I get the coffee in me, I got something to tell you. Pack up the backpack. I probably won't train today, but someone asked in the last vlog about anxiety, and how I talk about it, and maybe some things I do to deal with it. Not sponsored. This is what I take for creatine, because it's candy. I'm a child. From California's capital city. And I heart radio station. News 93.1, KFBK is available everywhere with the I Heart Radio app. But now, number one for podcasting. I'm sure everything is handled correctly, and if you read the- Was he in bright? Mittens, knit caps, scarves, and blankets? It's not just a care package we're sending to those- You may or may not know me, your boy Mike. He's not a professional, but we're talking about some habits that I do to kind of manage some of my anxieties or negative thoughts or excessive worrying or things I may have learned in therapy. Lot of therapy over the years. I had a lot of good chats this weekend with people visiting the gym. And I don't think about it, because it's just a part of my life. It's the same as when I tell you guys, man, I really like Chipotle, or I listen to this kind of hip hop music, or Jordan 3's are one of the comfy shoes I wear, or keep your back in this position relative to your hips when we're trying to deadlift. Me going to therapy is just like a part of what I've done and a little bit of part of my story. So it's not like that big of a deal to me. I do realize that the world doesn't speak about it, especially American males. There's a stigma, so I'm not completely ignorant to the fact, but I also grew up in like a pretty nurturing environment with great parents and really lucky to go to the school I went to where it's not like shameful to cry, it's not, you know, you're not a pussy if you say that you're sad. And, you know, so I kind of grew up in a world where it's not that uncommon. But to know that it relates with you all is cool, for sure. Because I do know, even on a friendship level, same people that grew up in a nurturing home or a nurturing school, they don't deal with anxiety. It's not everybody deals with it. Not that everyone deals with, you know, some darkness or depression. Everybody has bad days. For those of you out there that, you know, struggle, you know it's a lot worse than a bad day or a grumpy mood, you know. And so me sharing the stories is just me sharing me. You know, and that's all this channel's ever been is me trying to answer your questions. That's how we started. Me sharing my journey, and then me sharing my experiences. But, you know, the most basic one for me is just routine. And that's what I've been needing and that's what we've all been needing. Being stuck at home or favorite coffee shops closed or gyms closed or sleep schedules off. We're not going to the office or we can't go on the trips we want or we can't, you know, wake up and go to bed at the same time. I mean, that's the start, sleep. For me, I know if I don't sleep well, my anxiety's through the roof. My heart feels every ounce of the day like I'm going a billion miles per hour. Something small may happen, but if my sleep isn't on point, my heart literally will be in a sprint for hours over the smallest thing, over one of the dumbbells chips or something so negligible. And obviously I can say that now because I'm not in the middle of like a mini anxiety attack. So it's easy for me to step back and say, oh, that's crazy, it's just a dumbbell. But in the moment, you know, you can't tell yourself to relax, you can't tell yourself to this or that. Your mind spirals a little bit into what's the worst thing that's going to happen and how much it costs you and what if the member needs the 45, what if, you know, what are we going to do? So for me, it's sleep. Waking up at the same time isn't been something I've done my entire life. So I'm not a morning person. Here we are at five o'clock in the morning. We're going to bed, going to bed's huge. And some of the boys make fun of me, but I literally tried to get in bed around nine, nine, 30 every single night. I spent an hour, hour or two just watching TV and numb in my brain. And then from there, you know, I tried to fall asleep at 10, 11 West Coast time. I'm trying to start a stream over here. Sorry. I'm thinking about live streaming in the morning, just Q and A since I'm going to be stuck here and we're all going to be chilling. All right. Yeah, so sleep's number one and then general routine's number two. You know, every Sunday I like to visit my mom. Haven't been able to do that because we've been working. I like to work out at least three times a week. I like to be around the same time. I like to eat around the same time. I like to, you know, do my laundry on the same days at the same time. And some of it, you know, if you're obsessive about it, obviously it can't be healthy either. And obviously I suggest to everyone whether you get obsessive anxiety, if you feel kind of okay, I suggest everyone go to therapy if you can afford it. It's so simple, man. My left arm's bleeding. Y'all are taking me to the doctor, you know, I'm a little too sad, I'm a little too anxious. I need to express my feelings. You go to a checkup, you even go to a checkup, you know, once every six months or whatever you guys do, I don't go to checkups. But you go every six months. Why not go to therapy every four weeks, once a week? Check in with yourself. Sometimes it's really hard in this world because we're constantly putting on, I don't want to say a persona, but we're putting on our best face and we're putting on our work facing. I do agree with it, a lot of times you're meant to be professional. I'm not gonna sit here and bitch to every member that comes in here about all my personal issues. And it's not me being fake, that's just me doing what I think is best for the people around me, you know? But there's a time that we need to break those down in therapy, not only by law, but eventually if you find a therapist you're comfortable with, allows a place for you to not filter what's going from your brain to your mouth and you can just go. And even just that fact, if you learn nothing, even though I almost guarantee if you find a good counselor or therapist you'll learn something about life and yourself. Even if you learn nothing, very least that, being able to break this open the door, that's never open, it's never open. Even in our own head, I mean, that's part of what anxiety is, it's kind of like, and whatever you guys believe in is what you believe in, but you take your spirit or who you are, whatever you want to call that, versus like your brain, which is like a computer that's taken inputs for 32 years of me on this planet and then has outcomes for each of those. I stub my toe, my body goes and grabs it and says, oh fuck, my toe hurts. I'm not really like doing that in a way, you know? That just is like a reaction. And so emotionally and even thought process wise we're programmed to do a lot of things. Someone, I hear rumors, someone talking bad about me, reactionary in my head goes like, fuck that guy, he hates me and I hate him. Well, who knows why or who or what was said or even if it even happened, but our brains, you know, wiring kind of just automatically does that for us. So if we go to some therapies, one, we can learn tools to deal with stuff like that and deal with our emotions and our reactions, but two, you can allow yourself to not just filter and program, but kind of unfilter and let, you know, I hate this term because all these hippies are talking like true self or true brain or true thoughts or true words kind of rip out. So I think I might go live on Twitch, bro, that's 6 a.m. grind, 6.05. I assume we'll be pretty slow in the mornings until we get, you know, we're right by the capital. And so when work's going normal, people go to work at seven or eight and maybe they need to work out at six. Right now a lot of folks are working at home. So I promise I'd be here though. I promise the gym would be open. So here we are. So I might go live on Twitch, say what's up to the homies. We'll catch and see what the day brings us. Happy opening day. I opened a gym. Sorry man, too busy getting up. I'm starting to think I haven't been birthday of the vlog. You're talking with your girlfriend. I was just talking about my girlfriend. Sorry folks. What's your name, dude? The name's Dan, 28 years old today. Don't really have a lot going for myself, but handsome friends they might keep me going. What's up, buddy? Good birthday, kid. It's Dano's birthday, so we got him a little breakfast. Let's see what he's doing in the back office. This is so good. What'd you get? Oh, the sconeys? Scone little. With the cream though. You gotta put the cream in. You want me to put the cream in? Yeah. I'll show you the cream, buddy. I love whipped cream for some reason. I don't know, eat other white things. I think it's like frosting though. I don't think it's like cream cream. No, yeah. I think it's like frosting. You look real nice here. See single ladies? Out of Storm Cloud 415. That's good. Where are the DMs open then, or private, or? The DMs are open, you know. Open for business. I'm taking open DMs. What are the open hours in the DMs? Open hours typically, let me see here, 24 hours a day. Oh, okay. It's not a 12 a.m. sad boy. No. Hours. No, it's also not like a 2 a.m. type of thing. It's 24 hours. Mm-hmm. The meaning you are available at 2 a.m.? I'm available. Not only. I'm available at 2 a.m.? Show them what we got, dude. Whip it out. So we got. People love mukbangs and things. We got, Mikey decided to get some, what are these, like donut hole scones? I think they're scones, dude. I don't know. What he also got was a Snickers mocha. That's not for me, but it sounds delicious. I'm lactose intolerant so I couldn't have the regular milk, so let's see how this tastes with almond milk. That's very California of you. Yeah. What does Snickers actually taste like? Wow. What does Snickers actually taste like? You got it. I don't want it, dude. I'll try one of these. These are okay. They're not too great. Maybe you go stone like scones. Scones are supposed to be a little bready. They're not a donut. They're too dry. That's what a scone is. Yeah. That's why we got this white stuff. And then I also got a Denver omelet and Mikey got, what did you get, Mikey? Chicken bakey omelet. Fox and Goose is good. Oh, this might be butter. Yeah, I think it might be butter, too. Fox and Goose is good. I like it. Got a little toast. Local spot. Support local business fam. What's in here? What is this? Oh, fruit. I got fruit. I was like, what the fuck is going on? That's a terrible idea. Oh, this looks fricking great. This is a terrible idea. This thing's now dripping with oil. Why would you put? Fruit. My fruit in a coffee mug. In an oily-ass omelet. Yeah. That's not smart. Come on, Fox and Goose. Come on, yeah. Come on, Goosers. Hopefully no one's coming in. I've been here since like five-ish. Five-thirty, five-thirty, five-thirty. Now we're probably new-nish. Daniel's birthday. I got work to do. Damn, they didn't send utensils either. No, utensils. I think we got forks. How do they do that, dude? Door-dash was already a thing. And then it's obviously been the biggest thing of COVID, right? So how do they not know to put forks and knives and shit in my shit? Very true. I don't know, bro. I know we have them. I just don't know where they are. What the hell, dude? I don't know. Might have to eat with our hands, dude. An omelet? Yeah, I know. It's just gonna be hard. That's a very upsetting. Ha ha ha. That's very upsetting. I feel like they were, I just saw plates over here somewhere. Yeah, we have plates right here. Plates are right here. Of course, that'd be something. I know. We have a box. Anyways, Dan's gonna squat 800 for you guys again. And he's on the mission. Is this what's gonna contribute? Hey, we're doing all right. To maybe lose. What do I gotta do? Lose a couple pounds. That's where we're starting. Lose a couple pounds, get strong at the end. Game on.