 I'm about to come. I'm about to call my mama. I'm about to call Miss Billie Jean here get your Bindi continue your coloring. Miss Billie Jean, wait for me to put it in order for Thanksgiving pie. Medal and me ask what you mama your orders already your orders already booked are you already filled that's ago that's right Lord have mercy it's done I was gonna ask you if you have more pies mm-hmm yeah so are you gonna do Christmas too or just Thanksgiving yeah mm-hmm no we're here early that's why I am here for the black center and black black mrs. Claus yes come through with the representation I'm here for the great Santa too it's perfect so we just got a fries um it is cold now it's cold it's 54 degrees yeah that's cold so yeah I'll look real quick our fries has put in eight additional self-service when you calm stations like what is going on I like that but I'm like again they're trying to save money because they didn't got their heart no employees they got to worry about no uniforms no insurance no benefits oh he's talking about anyway so yeah remember I was talking about another mom that been seen at the gym and her body is banging if I haven't there is a mom her child go all her kids except one goes to JV school she has the perfect body when I tell you home gross body so I noticed that she's you know she does little cardio no I don't wait so she started talking to me a little bit more yesterday she just stopped me started talking to me and I'll say great the girl with the the great body coming up by now I thought she was very young she's 35 I'm a oh that makes me feel better she's 35 and she's like well have you seen me at the gym just you know we could work out together I'm like really I'm like I'm thinking in my head so great and then you could look way better you then you can really look good and my ass is next to you so again she's saying she's a vegetarian she eats lots of fruits and vegetables I knew this just by looking at her um yeah I need to go ahead and get home I'm pulling JB off his singular to I'm coming off the singular clearly and pulling JB off because like I told y'all I'm my and then my my neighbor who's a nurse she started sending me articles on the side effects of singular it's really bad for adults but even worse not the side effects are worse for her children like depression as young as four years old I'm like what pulling him off I'm so sorry yeah I have to handle that but my my neighbor who's an RN in Taiwan JB she's an RN she started sending me articles on the side effects and dangers of singular long-term use for children my new JB has been on singular since he was three three years old he's two years for adults it causes anxiety they just they just discovered this meaning in the last five or six years but yeah I was telling my husband he's like take him off of it immediately take him off he's like wonder why he's he's at crazy sometimes acts completely and in a minute here with I'm gonna lay out a blanket and lay down in the grass okay oh lord I got on a dress well I lay on my back to go to bed but normally girl when you when I had those big tittle vitties we not lay on my back boom all up in my face all up in your armpits and wait charlie she's so sweet okay let's look for you shoes and you can wear any shoes you want to wear them shoes hey you guys so I just dropped JB off of school and I wanted to show y'all that because I typically in one of those type of parents who don't want to have any I don't know I want the atmosphere of my channel to be a certain feel cuz I know a lot of you guys are going through things at home and this is your escape you know to go on YouTube and look at videos at least that's what I do so I sure as hell don't want to get on YouTube and look at it and know damn five-year-old screaming and crying but I wanted to show you that piece because life is imperfect and I'm telling you the past two or three weeks for my family has been at least for me my husband's like whatever girl for me it's been challenging and I'm one of those type of people that definitely gets the holiday anxiety those you know I was sick the last vlog I was sick getting over or actually was beginning with asthma and it turned into a full blown upper respiratory on the slew of steroids and those you don't know a lot of the times being on a lot of steroids can cause hypertension can cause anxiety and if you have underlying anxiety already it snowballs and so that is what I have been going through for the past week I am a medication I'm not ashamed to say that but I needed to get on something right away and so I'm on baris phony or bears with a nickname is the baris foe whatever and that has been happening but glad to get my Xanax and I just got my Xanax two days ago so I was without any type of emergency meds for about five or six days it was horrible but in between all of that I was reading my Bible I was praying existential oil girl have my Jesus oil Frank isn't all laughing at all and really just taking the time to slow down and changing my focus and analogy of it and then I heard the voice of God said change your focus quit focusing on this change of focus you are what you focus on that's what I heard you are what you focus on so I changed my focus like that within 40 48 hours I was like I can't do this it's not to say I didn't have about 73 off the day I did but I regrouped change my focus and it is it happens is the best of us and that's just life okay so dealing with a little bit of anxiety I'm good right now I'm smiling up right now I gotta smile so back at it it is November 9th work itself so let me catch y'all up on work because I typically don't like to talk about my work that much work for us doing this time of the year is slow as far as client goes those you don't know I manage online training for a healthcare IT company we produce software training for all of the major insurance companies in the country we touch about 80% of the US population I'm not even kidding you blue shield blue cross blue shield of California blue shield of Air Arkansas a signal at no oh my god current doctors offices fire stations anyone who has to deal with insurance and they have to use a software we provide training on that software ICD-9 oh god when they switch over to ICD-10 Lord have merchant that's coding medical coding so I basically set up the client soft excuse me the client training for my department and right now it gets a little slow because people take vacations including including our clients am I getting a pimple hold on y'all but it's also busy in terms of content when we go over to a new release and so right now we're transferring from 5.5 to 5.6 excuse me we are migrating over to 5.6 yeah you're going through that and JB acting crazy so and speaking of school I forgot until two days ago that I volunteered for today I'm like do what so I'm a type of person I stick to you know if I say I'm gonna do something I'm gonna go ahead and do it so all I have to do is bring some grand crackers give me some snacks and I said we saw some raggedy ass graham crackers around 230 but then I totally forgot I told my husband that we could go out to eat so what I'm going to do is go ahead and get ready beat my face the kids are gonna be looking at me they're gonna be like who are you again are you JB's mom because you didn't look like this before so I'm gonna get all dressed up dolled up come up here drop off the snacks get JB early and then we can go out to eat to Papa those cuz Papa those is the spot for black people uh on a friday night so we don't want to be out too late I'll ask my husband he'll probably want to leave it for if he leaves if he decides you know we can leave it for then I will wait and get ready at home um I'm also going to do a little hair video because I don't have anything really planned um as far as hair related content so but it is really sad the amount of times that I have driven around and I see flags or half mass I feel like flags are half mass for almost the entire damn year it feels like so anyway enough of that Trump is still on his fullery y'all I did watch the conference of him that man is is a psychopath there is something mentally no one in their right state of mind but we would react the way that he has reacted to people no one put it like this if this wasn't Trump and and this is something that I would question Trump supporters if that wasn't the president of the united states and just a random person talking to in a conference like at work let's say this is a work setting and this is someone talking down to another person wouldn't you think that person was crazy as hell girl so anyway enough about that so this is what I wanted to say because this was on my heart to speak about this um about friendships and you know um giving advice to friends and all that I'm the type of person unfortunately that people come to and they like to tell all that business to girl and a lot of the times they're not necessarily looking for advice they are looking for someone to hear them I'm um what you call an empath is that how you say it I'm very empathetic to people and I have that energy that attracts a lot of different people a lot of different personalities a lot of different broken people um I get people in their season of hurt but then unfortunately I take on that hurt because I'm a very sensitive person and I take on that energy so a lot of the times I have to be very mindful of whom I allow in my circle um I know someone I mentioned that the girl with the mangan body up here has approached me and last night there was a kids at the kids um the kindergarten event that I showed you guys clips of earlier she approached me again so I think her energy is pooling me in because I'm not approaching her she's coming to me you know what I mean so whatever I'm exuding out is gravitating and pooling sometimes people who have some really effed up issues and I listen to them and I politely uh send them on their way so that I can't keep because that that stuff can be toxic to you but but as far as friendships people that you have friends you know you have long-standing friendship relationship with I've always been the type of friend and I hope my friends are like this to me I'm very unbiased when they come to me with any type of issues they're having um first of all I let them I let them know exactly how I feel girl in a very PC way again very empathetic and I show compassion regardless of whatever your situation is um just to give me an example my best friend have been going through some issues I'm not going to go into detail because I want to respect her privacy and um going through some issues with her husband instead of being the type of friend because I knew some issues would come up because I'm just that type of person girl I could I could read energy I could I can read through uh personalities and I know when some things are going to happen because it happens you know you're married you're going to have issues so issues were coming up they were getting really bad and she was coming to me about it now I I saw it coming a mile away and I could have been the friend a bit of a type of friend that would be like oh I told you so I could have none I told you so this could have happened instead of doing that though I you know uh looked at it from both sides her husband side and her side and I let her I checked her on some things because that's what her friends is supposed to do I checked her on some things on her behavior I encouraged her to pray for her husband to pray for herself and um I prayed for their marriage uh even though you know it's so easier to walk away when you're going through it and it doesn't matter any type of relationship it is much easier excuse me to walk away the hard work is working on the relationship so I prayed over it and this has been going on for oh my god for like almost a year and glory to god by the grace of god they are at a better spot right now and they're working on some things and she sent me a text message a couple of months ago she's like you know thank you so much um for your advice and she's like you you basically gave me the same advice my therapist did I said girl let me go ahead and build your ass there um but I say all of that to say this a lot of the times when we feel like it's so much easier to tell someone oh girl leave that man oh girl you know um you know cut that person off you may be in that person's life for a reason or for a season we say um I would never tell someone to leave their marriage unless they are being uh physically and mentally abused I'm for I'm for marriage I'm for love so I'm always the one that you know if someone tells me they're going through a divorce or they're about you they're getting separated I'm like oh my god no let's well what can we do girl let's put you let me send you a prayer cloth so I encourage you if one of your friends come to you with a situation don't be that tight to have them to throw in the towel no matter what it is you know our job or I always show them the positive of things uh but but also be realistic what all these adults doing hold on y'all I'm very look I'm very wow all these adults getting out what are they doing okay Vivian calm down oh y'all I didn't even give y'all the news hold on y'all let me see I've been meaning to do it to do a chit chat video but I just haven't um been in a good mindset you know so I was like no we ain't gonna do that I haven't been in good spirits but have y'all been seeing videos of this four hundred dollar a four hundred dollar blow dryer first of all you gotta be at your damn mind if you're gonna buy it now if they want to send it to me yes but I'm gonna let my subscribers know don't don't buy no four hundred dollars don't buy this four hundred dollar blow dryer first of all it's giving me phallic teas and even I don't know what a phallic is look at it just don't look it up at work girl it's giving me phallic teas the way they moving it up and down girl the spirit of phallic see whatever the hell so blow dryer is four hundred dollars and I've seen a couple of people a couple of well-known youtubers first of all I'm not even a type of person to review something like that because I know that for my court audience you will not buy that so why in the hell would I feature them on my channel girl four hundred dollars it's supposed to I looked it up it's supposed to dry your hair three times faster I'm like okay four hundred dollars for can I pre-pool can I detangle can I dust my damn blinds I am not paying four hundred dollars for a blow dryer I feel like this hair accessory was marketed for salons and not for people and they wanted to say this is what they doing because y'all it's all about money they wanted to send it to some well-known black natural hair youtubers because they know that black women are one of the number one consumers black people in general or one of the number one consumers when it comes to hair products here in America they have a payment plan for those you who are interested but girl are you gonna pay your rent are you gonna get a blow dryer y'all there is no way my 25 dollars red blow dryer kiss is a kiss blow dryer will work just as fine baby I'm not paying four hundred dollars for no damn blow dryer so real quick you guys before I go to the gym a good opportunity came my way a couple of weeks ago I was contacted by Miss Arlette Pender she's a stylist I hear it in Scottsdale Arizona and I've had several videos y'all seen her in several videos of mine I don't know not a lot probably like two or three she's done my hair we did the Jane quarter healthy line review and she approached me to film an upcoming event she's doing next month I said me like I'm the greatest editor I think that I could be better I really do I think that if I took my time I absolutely could be a lot better than what I am doing right now I just don't have that much time in editing especially with the amount of footage I have y'all literally because by the time I do my vlogs I typically have an hour and a half footage yes my vlogs an hour and a half and I edit that down to between 25 and 30 my hair related sometimes 15 to 20 what the hell anyway y'all and my hair related videos sometimes be 15 20 25 minutes edit it down to like between five and eight minutes and I know some of y'all like longer videos but some I almost caught her hood right some young lady recently posted on one of my videos wow it took you almost five minutes to get to the product I get those comments for my longer videos wow get to the point so uh what's the point so anyway I'm going to be a videographer I could put that under my belt now so yeah I'm excited about that first I was a surprise y'all I'm like okay um me so anyway y'all let me hush up I've been rambling for a while I will talk to you guys I will show you my hair because I will be doing a hair related video today just taking down my twisters I have to have something for y'all help us so I'll just be showing you guys how I take down my hair but then I will be doing the tutorial for that hairstyle probably um probably next month I'll do the official tutorial for y'all um but all right you guys see you in a few you're out to eat the blue what are you gonna eat are you gonna eat your fries no oh she over there figuring out her life I'm done with my fries hey y'all it is sunday um I put my hair last night I was just busy and decided my busy I was y'all been binge watching the fear of the walking dead and I'm all caught up my best friend got me on it uh because we both are fans of the walking dead and those you know the walking dead it's done girl if it's season finale well it was rick grimes last um episode so I'm like I'm done with walking dead now let me get back on fear of the walking dead and oh I'm glad I did because Frank Frank from how to get away with murder is on there I'm like yes Frank not only do you hide bodies from anilines but you also kill zombies I am here for it although and um fear of the walking dead Frank is a little I don't like this y'all I don't like how a lot of the times in these movies when they have especially movies that are based in the south the people are kind of downplayed as being dumb so I wouldn't say that that Frank's character on fear of the walking dead is dumb but he's dense he ain't he ain't you know that that smart up a up top something's wrong up up top um but he's still fine as hell yeah I'll take you numb and fine um anyway I what was I talking about that for girl so I oh after I done then had a little productive day yesterday took JB to his Michael's class JB has been taking craft class at Michael's um he was gonna go to one today but girl instead he went to go to Sears now let me let me JB has been watching my child is unique I think JB's an old soul he has been watching documentaries on blockbuster torzara's dillard's um random stuff girl so he now has his infatuation now that he knows all about it he's like I want to go I said oh oh but you can't blockbuster is no longer available he's like well why didn't you take me there while we were in Texas I said baby there's no more blockbusters so so I said okay baby let me look and see so I'm like you know what radio shack radio shack I know for sure is on the chopping block and kmart so let me look around my local area to see what stores girl don't you know they shut down the last kmart and phoenix last year I was like what I was really shocked with that y'all I said okay well let me look for a radio shack so because he saw a video on radio shack none there are only five radio shacks y'all if this not I'm very surprised in a world girl in a world this is all prophesied revelations so anyway um I shared it on facebook and one of my facebook one of my old co-workers said actually there is a video rental place that's still open but it's in Mesa which is about a good 45 50 15 minutes from us but they are a video rental place game rental they sell um albums I said done JB will love it so we're gonna plan a trip there next weekend I'll take y'all with me they let me record I love do let me know y'all I love the blockbuster and it was just something about when we're a kid you know going up to blockbuster and I mean when they had VHS because I'm from Texas and blockbuster actually started in Texas those of you who don't know and those of you who are not in the states I'm sorry let me explain blockbuster was a very well known um uh VHS and DVD and game rental place here in the United States you will go in and I'm pretty sure they have this have this in other countries these type of stores but this was a known retail you will go in you will purchase your of your VHS you know whatever and then you will return it now the way that blockbuster made money because JB educated me on all this the way that blockbuster made money was by late fees at one point they had close to 6 000 stores now there's only one store open and then or again I believe it's worth it but long story short girl blockbuster went out of business due to online video streaming a man created a company by the name of netflix after some late fees he was acquiring from blockbuster at the time netflix was only doing and I remember this netflix was only doing um online dvds like you you would go online find what you want and then you'll get the dvd in the mail then they started doing the online streaming now catch this tea blockbuster was actually approached by netflix to buy in and blockbuster said oh no that doesn't that doesn't seem like a we're not going to do that we got our own thing going on big mistake clearly a big mistake it didn't take too long after that um so the last door I know here in phoenix shut down in 2013 so yeah anyway I say all that to say my child is very but very much infatuated with that type of stuff so today and I'll film some today we're going to sears because unfortunately sears has felt for bankruptcy um october's and I knew sears was having some problem and my opinion um after sears I have a feeling that jc pennies is gonna follow suit yeah let me catch up I'm gonna give a shout out to someone real quick she's on my instagram and I don't know if you watch my videos I'm assuming you do watch my youtube videos so a shout out to and I know you're pregnant um and I think you're a doctor let me get that correct because if you if you are a doctor I want to give you your props because that isn't a accomplishment she is doctor melanie howell I want to thank you for your words your sweet words um I posted a picture I'm gonna really try hard not to cry you guys around this time of the year I get really really homesick because especially with my father being ill and with the deaths in my family y'all those of you who don't know I had an aunt that passed away from cancer um a couple of a couple of weeks ago I also had a cousin that passed away and then some other family dynamics going on just on both side of my family's were making it is really hard this year to be away from home my husband is working on Thanksgiving so it will be jibby and I so earlier today I posted a picture of what I'm cooking for Thanksgiving you know my husband will be home can y'all see it my husband will be home to eat he doesn't go on to work to one o'clock but essentially we will be by ourselves for the holidays um so I'm cooking girl buttermilk chicken dressing but an squash toffee pound cake over bourbon caramel sauce balsamic green beans cranberry and buttermilk pie those of you from the south you know a buttermilk pie it's basically a custard pie so um doctor howell asked me miss melanie asked me she's like well how many you know people you haven't over and I said well unfortunately yeah and I got teary eyed just typing it back I said unfortunately you know I don't have any family here so it'll be my husband has to work it'll just be jb and I and so she wrote back let me read her comment it's just a very sweet comment and it just really I'm tearing up y'all because I really needed to hear these words right now um she wrote that you know she said you but you know what there's something beautiful about taking the time effort and care of making such a nicely plantat meal for your son it tells jb that the two of you are important enough for a beautiful Thanksgiving meal regardless of who's coming same thing with keeping a beautiful home um that really meant so much to me because I don't have any I don't have any family here and so with my husband working in jb it's a little bit older and you know you don't have the big family gatherings and um I'm seeing you know posts from my mom already online and she's already getting stuff prepared for you know my family back home because my sister has you know my sister has four kids so it's really hard you know being down here and I know there's some of you who are by yourself so we'll just be having Thanksgiving together y'all you know we'll be you know I will be vlogging that day I will have a separate cooking let me give my face together y'all all right I'll have a separate cooking video and then I'll have another video of vlogging you know uh what's going on throughout the week because I'm off that week hey man I'm off that week Ryan Litzel gospel that that's big Karen big Karen that's Karen from 1990 I think that's 1995 uh not 1995 girl early 2000 Karen Clark share with LaShon page from the Pace sisters y'all I'm out I love me some old school gospel 90s you cannot beat late 90s early 2000 gospel music not this mess they got today that they be mixing gospel with two chain and anyway you do what you gotta do what you gotta do to get the kids in church I guess but I'm going to be dropping JB off next door I'm gonna text Mrs Herb below to see if you get your hand out of that thing for I slept you in a new year I'm a slept JB I'm a backhand you backhand you into the next year all right y'all y'all take care