 It was, it was so hard, but it was, it was, it was, it was breaking. You know that there is also this entire world of psychology and psychiatry and, and psychopharmacology and have you explored those solutions ever? My profession is, I am a psychologist. Okay, so you understand these things, right? Yes. And what is your feeling? Your feeling is not that this is something that psychology can... I was two times in the psychiatry, but medication, it's getting worse. Namaskar, Maya. I had a really hard time and experience a lot in the spiritual way. I need two sources in my life. I had a lot of pain. I had a lot of sexual abusion. One wants to turn me from the light to the dark and I was fighting this energy about two years and also another guy would like to help me and he was also a bad guy. And I was in the perium jungle and I almost died there because his intuition was to bring me in another dimension that I died and I was really dissolving. I was not in my body. And when I came back to Austria in two years, I had a lot of vision. I didn't sleep for one year. I was maybe two months with medication. I tried to center, but I had even a little thought the energies go out of my head and I was in the whole night flying around and I only tried to stay in the body and I realized that I fall down in the consciousness of the spine. There was a lot of electricity and so on and I was going through the dark, through the deepest deeps of the dark side. My question is how to handle or integrate this experience or also the trauma that I had in Peru. How long ago was this Romana? It's 2019. So it's about two years ago? Yeah. Did you take any substances? The first time when I was in Africa, in Morocco, when the first sorcerer did body treatments, I didn't took any substance. Four months after, I couldn't work. I couldn't drive with the car. I was like really... Did you take any substances? Did you take any...? This, when I consulted a shaman, he was working with ayahuasca, but this was six months later. So you took ayahuasca after that and that didn't help? No, because this guy was also not on the positive side. He wanted to have me as a woman. It was a lot of abusing, sexual abusing and he opened my spine and so much energetical center. I was not anymore in my body and he also said to me, he wants to make me mad and that I really die. He said he wanted my wisdom and energy and so on. Okay. So this whole story that you're speaking about or these incidents, they are in the past. They're not in the present tense, right? It has happened in the past. Are you ready to leave it in the past? Are you ready today in this call to say, okay, it happened to me? It has taught me certain things and now I start a new life. Are you ready to do that? Because these are not small things. These are not small experiences. These are not simple stories you're talking about. These are occult. Just be very calm, very quiet, center yourself, feel your center, take a few deep breaths and now just quietly listen to my words. Yeah. Okay. Right. So all these things that have happened to you, they've happened in the past. Now we are in this present moment and one thing you can really, really rely on is the present moment. In this moment right now, this moment, nobody can mess with your energies because you're present in this moment right now. Try to imagine in this moment right now, you're present, you're centered. Would anyone be able to mess with you now when you're so present and so centered? No. No, did you say no? Okay. So that means that from this moment on in your life, anytime you feel endangered by any sort of vibrations or energies coming from the outside, we'll talk about the inside later, but whenever, anytime in your life, at any moment you feel scared or endangered by people's energies, by situations, by a circumstance that you're in, the first thing you do, bring yourself to this moment here and now. Because in this moment, here and now, nobody can attack you. Nobody can take away your life energy. Nobody can be vampirical with you. So each time that happens and it happens to everyone, everyone goes into circumstances where you feel something is unusual, something is strange. This is a bad vibration. This is a negative energy. Don't focus on that, but bring yourself to your center now to this moment, present moment and there nothing can attack you. It's a very strange phenomenon, but it works like that in the spiritual world that and in the world of the occult as well, that when a person is completely in this moment and present, no one can manipulate them. Which is why when there are people attempting to manipulate a person to take their energies, their Shakti, to take their money, to take their, one can say life energy even, they can be repelled if the person pulls themselves into this moment. So not only does it not impact you, but it repels these things. It's a very, very unusual and simple way to go about it. So the reason why people can pull somebody into all of those practices is because that person is not in the present moment and is not tuned in to their own center, their soul, their source, the truth within, the love, that is strong and central to your system. So you have to pull back instantly into this moment and focus on your soul within. It's a practice to do every day and all the time and no one will be able to attack you after that because it is true. There are people who do those things, you know, and it's better than that you that you are prepared for it. And when you sense it, you come into this moment and tune inward. Anyone in this present moment cannot be impacted by occult manipulation. You cannot be, that's how it is. So you pull yourself into this moment. And that's your key, that's your key to protection. About the electricity and the various movements in your body, it's very likely that you have an awakened Kundalini, not an awakened one because Kundalini is always awakened. I used that term because that's what people normally call it, but it's a disturbed Kundalini. Kundalini Ma is always awake, always awake. This is a powerful source of energy lying at the base of the spinal cord and it moves in the body and it's always there for a person throughout their lifetime to fight trauma, to help a person overcome physical trauma, emotional trauma, conceptual trauma, transformative trauma and other forms of trauma. But when it is shaken for some reason and it can happen because a person falls on their head, it can happen because of too much alcohol, it can happen because of too many drugs, too much of yoga done the wrong way, many things like that. So it seems to me that you have this disturbed Kundalini and the answer to resolving that movement in your system is and the pain and the and the confusion and the experiences of darkness. This is because your system is a system you included not in surrender at all. It doesn't know really the meaning of surrender. So you have to teach yourself surrender Samarpan, it's called in Sanskrit and that is a bending down, always bending, listening to the truth, going with the truth of your system, the soul, listening to its impulse and going with that impulse and the more you learn surrender and the more you practice this surrender, the more you will be in a balanced state, whether disturbed Kundalini quiets down. It's a wonderful key and it's it's one of the only keys because when Kundalini is disturbed, unless the person is in total surrender, it's not possible to control that symptom or symptoms and then people go to neurologists, they go all over the place and they don't find any answers because nobody really knows about this in modern medicine. Thank you so much and Mr. Kundalini, I really go in surrender and before I didn't know that it is Kundalini and she showed me every drama, every pain in picture, she pulled me out, I even had one thought and I was I don't know in another land and it was really really I should say crazy and I was on the border to madness because it was so intense. The last three years was yeah like the hell but also positive sides of awareness and deep feelings of love. Yeah, thank you so much. Thank you. It will be all right. It'll get better. Just be in surrender as much as possible, bend, bend, bend, bend and tune into the truth impulse. You train yourself to tune into the truth impulse and to circumvent the loud noise of the ego, you know. Namaskar. Namaskar Maya. Namaskar. Namaskar. Namaskar. Romana. Yes, last time in the video saksang I had great pleasure to meet you and I felt back in my subconsciousness and I felt in tricky situations and I always go to the truth to the surrender to my soul and then there was a I don't know a really big energy open and things will happen. It's like people feeling the energy or also my trauma and it makes the people very some really different things were happened in real life here with the energies and so I don't know if you have any advice or some guidance for me. I really bent down and I really bent down for you Maharishi Kapri. This energy that you feel within you, is it a feeling of a truth within you expressing itself? No, no, sometimes when I'm in center in the heart I really can feel the love, the impulse, the a really unbelievable state of love in my heart also when I was a child. When people had pain in the hand for example later the people were without any pain and I had it on my body so I'm like a swarm. This is before you started the practice of tuning into the soul. Yes, so you already had these movements in the system before. Yes, for many many years and when I go in temples I always fell down because the energy are coming and my whole body is shaping and this was when I was 24, 25. So essentially your system is open, it's open to energy entering into it you know and the way to keep the system intact so that you don't allow all these energies to enter is to very very strictly as much as possible bring yourself to this moment and in this moment what you do you you center yourself and you tune into your truth your source that source of love the truth not the ego not the idea that I am the soul and stuff like that but more I am the instrument of the soul. So when you bring yourself to this moment in those moments when you feel an energy is taking over and you bring yourself to this moment that energy cannot take over the system. The system can only be taken over by external forces and energies when you're not present so it's a way of bringing you to the present moment and then what will happen the more you are in this moment in this moment like right now this moment the more you are here and now the stronger your system will become to defend itself against external energies entering into the system generally through the head. I had a lot of pain in my head because I couldn't stay in my in my body for one year and without any sleeping and everything was changing in my body it was like a state of wow where I got crazy and now I'm coming back through the truth and through the bending down when I say I am an instrument of the source really different things happened people had problems they fell down on street I was there I get some information it was really really strange things what happened it is okay but I have not to have thoughts were negative because I have one thought and at the next moment the important thing is in this practice and you have had a history already before you took up this practice so there's a lot of unlearning that the body has to do it's not a conceptual unlearning it's a physical material unlearning that your body has to undergo or it has to allow and generally when the system is open and energies can enter the ego increases it becomes bigger and bigger and bigger because as your system opens up you also are not present in the body you're also not present in the system so what takes over is the ego so when you start to reintegrate into the body and into being present here and now there is a period when you are still dealing with a huge ego this is not a negative thing it is simply a fact and that huge ego causes this pain it causes fear it causes anger it causes all these things a refusal to reintegrate because reintegrating into the body is a very very challenging and painful process it's easier to be outside floating around and sort of now your period of reintegration is happening so you need a bit of time you have to practice this practice for quite some time since you've had it you know a person whose awareness has left the system and been outside even for as long as a year so the reintegration can take many years actually so it starts out slowly step by step step by step step by step have faith in yourself don't give up but also realize that if you allow the ego to take charge of your system then you won't be able to get out of this messy situation it's a step-by-step process each time you feel that fear or that anger or that shaking of the system bring yourself to this moment this moment this moment always this moment this moment there won't be pain but if you wander away again it starts there won't be fear if you wander away it'll start again that's the sadhana to start with gradually you will gradually you will start to integrate better you know and the more you integrate the more you enter and stay in the system and hold this energy in the system and hold yourself in the present moment the more you start to inhabit your body again and be present again and and become more and more actually aware of the center of the truth of yourself as an instrument but not in a state of fear in a state of deep surrender you have no choice you have to take that route because if you don't take that route you're gonna be in trouble you know you know that but have that faith that you will succeed you know be involved be present be connected and gradually you'll resettle into your body and you'll reintegrate and then things will be quite okay okay it's correct do not go into the story only reintegrate the emotions to feel it in the body it's not just the emotions that you reintegrate it's actually everything it's reintegrating the awareness that you are this body because you've been out you've been floating around in space for I don't know how long so now it's about reintegrating it's what coming you know what I mean and as you reintegrate as you do this process gradually you will you start to feel yourself as a real thing not just as a combination of concepts and ideas and emotions but real physical material this spirituality of the future which is a spirituality of staying here and now in this moment inside the body very clearly not allowing yourself to leave the system and to integrate into the cellular materiality of your body even if you've never actually been out of the body it's to be here and now and to be in a state of in a state of surrender to what to your soul to your truth to your antaratman to the impulse of truth and love that this system is actually meant to obey and not to the ego to the ahankar which is what currently is in charge of your system so you have to bend and go to the truth bend and go to the truth bend and go to the truth don't listen to the ego don't listen to the fear don't listen to the doubts don't listen to the anxiety go to the center of the being where it is solid and quiet and stay there and again bring yourself to that and again bring yourself to that and again and again that's the way to do it you know like to say thank you i really i really feel very grounded at the moment and more comfortable at the day before and um yes i would like to say thank you and i wanted to ask how to hold the balance and to go or to standing in the truth and doing no harm and also my second thing is in the night so at three or four o'clock every night i'm awake and a lot of big snakes are coming and i had a deep experience and my mind is running and i am one part of myself wants to control it and also in the night i hear the voices like the inner architect is working and then i was shocked oh my god and the sinking is running and then a picture from you is popping up and then i feel the energy and i heard a clear voice she's coming it's important and then i heard your voice and only the word sangha yeah so the first question you had was romana it was about how to maintain the equanimity right how to maintain that quiet or that centeredness that roundedness that you're experiencing now and the way to maintain that is to firstly practice very importantly to practice the panchanga namaskar you know the bending down going down on your knees to the ground stretching your hands out putting your forehead on the floor and that is the ultimate yes exactly and that is the ultimate expression material expression of surrender in a state of receiving so whenever there's some strange feeling about things not being grounded you can go into that into that position and completely it will it will feel more grounded also to remember that you are not alone that you are very very how fully guided by by the the soul the truth you know and that is at your center and you are simply an instrument of that truth you are not a doer you are an instrument of the truth so the truth does through you that's how it is to be interpreted that statement you are not the doer you are the one that is in surrender so whenever there are situations that put you out of your balance on your equanimity you just pull into that state of being in surrender down bend down especially someone like you with the kind of energetic action going on in your body it is advisable to do that you know and then you'll feel like you'll feel a solidity in your system which you won't know otherwise if you're not in surrender so you do that each and every time you pull yourself down into that state of surrender if you are feeling that that groundedness is dissolving or you're not feeling connected anymore to your center that is an important thing about you waking up in the early hours of the mornings that is the what what is called in Sanskrit the Brahma more the hour of the gods it's when the gods awake what that actually means is that that is the time of the day when the darkness and all the energies of darkness that go with the darkness also leave and with light of the sun you also have the re-energizing of the body the beginning of that re-energizing and it is at that hour actually that you are waking up watching the darknesses leave and the appearance of light in your life and in your story of your life and point in your life that is represented by this voice and this person that you that you are now in contact with which is me because I'm already in your dreams or visions and that means somehow that the time of of desperation and and also where you were buffeted around is over and it is now time to to tune in to your truth with guidance when required and to open yourself to being part of a Sangha family of seekers that are joined in a similar search and also on a similar path Sangha means a family a group that is held together by a common ideal if one wants to interpret it in those terms one can and the snakes leaving is the energies that that are causing disturbances in your system that in yourself that is blocking these these from moving freely is disappearing as you bend as you bend as you bend as you surrender as you bend as you surrender as you surrender as you become more and more and instrument of the instrument and instrument and instrument all of those energies will find their place and will move and flow like they're supposed to and there won't be any blockages and light will come into your life or is coming into it already light meaning the ability to live without fear to live without confusion to live with at least a modicum of health and the materiality of your body and to have emotions that don't buffet you all around but that are bearable to have a thinking which is not over burdened by thoughts but which is kept at a minimum you know to have a creativity which is allowed to blossom and flower without any blocks that's what gradually starts taking over if you allow it to and if you don't allow the ahankar the ego to suddenly jump in and say no no no this is not how it is and you are being fooled here and this one is not okay and that is not okay and you know yes namaskar yes romana namaskar what is about the spirit the focusing is on the soul on the inner guidance and the shakti and so on and what is with the spirits because before I make this practice I had a very strong connection to my spirit and I felt also a lot of love with the spirit and now it feels like different when I go like with my soul yes the spirits are there they do what they have to do and you're not denying them and their existence but you are not a spirit as yet you're an embodied being so you can also just go with the embodied experience and the spirits will do what they have to do which is in a disembodied plane so you stay in the embodied existence and you do work through this body experience life through this body and it's not that the spirits will disappear or that they will love you less they are in their plane of existence you are in your plane that is why there is this body called romana else you would be a spirit thank you so much and one more question if it's time or yes how do you think about the combination self-realization process and feeling process is a combination possible or is this a choice to go with one part as you self-realize you also heal those parts of your being which need healing it's physical healing it's emotional healing it's conceptual healing you know people that are so mad because so many questions are going that quiet settles in thinking when you bend down the source as an instrument you know you are an instrument of the truth and so as you deepen in that being an instrument you become so strong male who is who is in that surrender becomes that much stronger as a male and a female becomes that much stronger as a female in fact a male becomes more male even and a female more female the more there is surrender and that conceptual mess confusion it really really reduces it heals it it heals because you learn to understand that thinking is not a way of knowing that surrender and acting as an instrument of the truth is a way of knowing so obviously there is healing in the whole system and there is also a growing of powers that were not there before and I don't mean this in the sense of having power over other people and being this powerful person that's just striding through the city with a big ego ball on the head no it's this quiet intense power of living a life in the truth and yet embracing everything only if the truth is flowing with it that's the point so you just really do become stronger and the spirits will do what they have to do and you do what you have to do and if there is real need for communication that can be but most of the time it's not needed because the spirits are made of the same material as your soul is so when you're in tune with the soul you're also in tune with everything else thank you so much I don't want to play these games again which in the society so many parts of myself are going away away away and also my profession and everything and yes I have to find myself yeah to embrace the new things yes and to normalize you know to normalize to start living a simple knife maybe maybe having a partner just enjoying the simple beauty of this thing called living and not complicating it with too many desires and too many projections and too many memories just to be a little bit in the here and the now in a state of surrender as an instrument yes thank you Namaskar my mom is sitting next to me because I am actually not in a good condition and you know something about me and I am a lot of struggling I also realized that I fall out of the truth because I was in another energy field when I was four years old I dreamed that my mother will die with 33 years so I saw and I knew that what happened also in my childhood that I will die and so on and I could not handle it and when I was in Peru the man he wanted that I die and in my consciousness everything is mixed up because I saw really really big snakes and this time I I got some information also from a healer about my mom I had I had so much fears that she will die and was in other dimension and I get all all information about my life about the life of my parents and so I was fighting with myself okay you said your mother is with you yeah yes yeah okay Namaskar Namaskar because this is an extreme situation it's all right that your mother is with you that would not be allowed otherwise right I know I know and for that reason because I really feel so okay okay listen to me listen to me now just first you calm down okay okay I can see both of you that's better yes just stay close together okay all right I would like to understand one thing when you spoke about this experience in Peru did you take any kind of substances yeah was it ayahuasca yeah okay so before you took the ayahuasca you didn't have these experiences right um I had the shaking um did you have did you have the movement of Kundalini Shakti I don't I always go to trance and my whole body was shaking but I get not the pictures because I would think I had too much traumas but in my knowing um it reached something in me I also had the feeling um I'm asking you something specific before you took the ayahuasca did you have this extreme heat movements in the body no this heat that you're feeling in the body this extreme heat that sounds very much like a disturbed Kundalini and you know the practices which are spoken about here have you been practicing the surrender what is spoken about yes so today you're coming here because you're afraid that your mother will die is that what it is was identifying with the pictures I got um when I go on streets this is I this is I when people are talking everything is um when people say no this is not good this comes in my mind and change everything it is really yeah so why are you afraid of that I'm afraid of was came up in the deepest deep when I was like in the hell I had so much pain I had so much pain what was the kind of pain you had I didn't sleep 2019 for one year I couldn't sleep and the man he was talking the whole night with me and I couldn't sleep anymore and I had a lot of sticks here and in my heart so much pain so much pains from witchcraft it was it was so hard but it was it was it was it was breaking but it's not going on now that much anymore right so it will get less and less but you have to practice that bending down and surrender whenever these fears arise all you have to do is to go down on the ground stretch your arms out and believe in that position that you're receiving train yourself to go into receiving from the soul from the source from the center of your being did you do that when this fear came up did you go down and stretch out on the ground with your forehead touching the ground arms stretched out very quietly have you been doing that yes yes so every time it happens you have to do that even if you're on the middle of the road you go back home you go back home or you go to a place where people won't think you're totally mad you shouldn't do this on the road you shouldn't do this in public streets where people will be suspicious of you where do you live romana which country austria yes austria okay okay and and you don't have to be afraid don't give into those fears because when you get afraid you're going with the ego and then it expands the ego and the and the energy starts to disturb you even more you understand you're okay i was mixed my body with all different things with computer with this with that and i feel every energy filed in my body because i mixed so much up with my parents with dogs with i don't know what i yeah you know that there is also this entire world of psychology and psychiatry and and psychopharmacology and have you explored those solutions ever my profession is i am a psychologist okay so you understand these things right yes and what is your feeling your feeling is not that this is something that psychology can i was two times in the psychiatry but medication it's getting worse it was not the way for me i had so a deep gratitude and i believe that everything will be good but when i feel it like so much physical also here romana has two things one is that you simply cannot give up and not see that it will get better it will get better it's a matter of literally of moving immediately immediately there's no waiting you have to immediately you have to go into that position of surrender and remember that at the center of your being at the center of your being is love all of this stuff that's going around is just noise in your head if you move to the center of your being maybe you can think of it where your heart is you just move there that is the love it's only because the ego has grown so big and that fear has grown so big which is what happened through the ayahuasca experience it will get better it will get better but you have to life is telling you romana you have to move into surrender you cannot give into that ego anymore all those ideas all those things that you're experiencing they're happening they're happening in what is the ego lie you know it's a lie it's not the fundamental expression of life is it as a baby you don't have all those things right it's only because the ego has grown over a period of time that now you start to go with that ego story don't give into it always remember tell yourself no romana this is the ego go into the truth bend down go into the truth feel that truth within you and each and every time you each and every time you have to do that as a as a very very very disciplined thing not to give in to all those things the moment the head starts to do all that you bend on lie down flat on the floor stretch your arms out in surrender and move your attention to the center of your being don't give into all that noise outside that's just noise you know that it's noise it's just sometimes you're too weak because you're tired of this thing continuously going on and then you give into it but don't give in fight it all the time and after a few days again it'll because I remember that it had become better and then you and then you forgot right to do that right no I was in the inner conflict of healing art because my mom did a lot of healing work I do also the practice with the truth to the truth and then I realized that some parts of myself yeah you're not good you was a liar and so on romana there is also maybe a part of you which doesn't want to accept that this teaching is coming from me and that you want to somehow try to do it in another way is that possible um yeah I was thinking um I have to do more and I do maybe I have to clean something and this and that but I am I could not give you up you always was in my mind I always go through the truth to yourself and then really my mom my mom really know that I said my mom said that I have to do this and this and really I bend down I bend down how often I could but it was an inner conflict with me with most people who have a Kundalini disturbance and I think it's a good idea if your mother listens in this time what happens is that they come to me and then either through the presence or through the practice they start to get better and immediately get a little better and then the ego pops up again because they don't want to accept that this knowledge is coming from me and they prefer to try and see if there are other ways by which they can move forward which is also fine but the thing with this is that you're messing around with a Shakti it's a power you cannot take your ego trip with it you cannot you have to bend down and and I'm very glad if you find somebody who has you know who can help you more that would be fully fine but the thing is that it isn't easy to find someone who understands how this Shakti works and also has that ability to quiet that Shakti down so the problem is that all the Kundalini people they are like that because of the big ego if there's no ego then there's no Kundalini disturbance the disturbance is there to to make you realize that your life is governed by that ego so you move into the truth and it will just dissipate but when it dissipates again that ego builds up that you can handle it on your own you can do this you can do that finally you are handling it on your own but you'll have to realize that it is not something that will allow you to move into ego the moment you do that again the ego will start to expand you have to bend down you have to be humble and and you are doing much better I remember your story yeah and and really in my Harishika um I feel so good everything was so good and this was a little a little thought and I was asking my mom ma would you join um this workshop and then my system was oh my god you did the wrong thing this was the only thing I don't go to another healer or something like it just stop a second I don't have any problems if you go to a healer who can heal you I think it's beautiful I think this world is full of great teachers healers gurus it's it's wonderful to have these people in this world and if you have somebody that is able to support you through that process I'm there with you I would never object to that at all you know I want you to strengthen up and normalize it's not about going to another healer or this or that it's about within you there is a resistance to the idea that somebody has managed to quiet this Shakti down in you even if it is for a day or two that's the resistance that has to go your system is not ready to say okay Maharshi has said this amazing I'm going to go with it and I'm so grateful to her and that's fine you have to be in that posture I really was praying to you I really feel you in my heart I really from my mom can really tell this I really love you maharishika and I don't want to go everywhere to another to another one because I really feel a deep connection and I don't know it's like a laugh on another level to you from my heart it is really the truth so that's beautiful and that's I also feel that you should not feel guilty if you go to other people it's not the problem the problem is there cannot be resistance to other people or to whoever it is the resistance is what is causing this not just to me but maybe even to others the thing is that that ego will quiet down if you just bend down and keep it simple just keep it simple every day you're bending every day it's not easy romana I understand that it's really really not easy it's painful and it's very very very frightening but don't be afraid it'll be all right remember you have a center that's where your heart is be in touch with it I am not a healer I'm only someone who understands how Kundalini works you know I'm not a healer that's not my work so I'm not saying that I can heal you I'm saying that you can heal yourself by moving into a state of surrender and being a psychologist you already know the medical limitations of that field so this is the way that is going to take you to a quiet and a and a peace and I mean peace you know peace is something you have it for one second then it's not there it's not the aim the aim is to have joy in one's life and that will come just don't be afraid it'll be fine move to your center move to the divine within to the to the soul and and remember it is love then how will you be afraid where will the fear be if you know that there is love there at the center at the enter guru the enter guru means the inner guru the inner master which is love so that is your center that's where you go when you go into surrender okay so don't be afraid it'll be fine and and whenever wherever you are if something like this happens immediately find a quiet spot somewhere where nobody can see you in a garden maybe in a park and lie down and do the surrender and also try to see that you can that you can have contact with mother earth sometimes yes don't be afraid don't be afraid don't give in to the fear that's the main problem okay thank you so much and I really I really go with you from my from my heart thank you and you'll be fully fine you just have to always move to that center because that ayahuasca experience has disturbed the kundalini and it's now there moving around and when the ego is big then it starts to to create these disturbances and when the ego is small it quiets down it's a shakti you know it's an energy power one can one can function with it so you keep the ego down don't give in to fear whatever it is just stand up and say I'm not afraid even if I die that's fine I'll die then that's fine but I'm not going to be afraid that's the approach be a warrior stand up take a sword in your hand and cut off the head of your and move to your love your love move into that center what are you afraid of few images here and there right don't be went to that nonsense anymore okay yes all right all right namaskar you'll be fine thank you namaskar namaskar