 About a year ago. I disappeared from the world and When I show you where I am a few people are gonna say Oh, that totally makes sense for Jamie, of course And a lot of people are gonna say wait, what is going on? How did this happen? Why are you doing this and? Some people just won't care for those who do grab yourself some popcorn We're going back a year All this dirt fell down during the corona apocalypse of 2020 when I couldn't get cement for six months So what am I doing here building things out in the wilderness instead of getting some real job like a responsible adult? I've been told it's stubbornness, but I think there's more to it See I used to wake up way before the Sun to play with Lego for hours before everyone else got up I'll race you to the house Pop in the universe The pizza tree has something on it grab it. Oh man pineapple feed it to the chickens. Let's go check out the root beer water fountain Well, honey, you found a pepperoni pizza. That's great. Well, I also found some big muscles Maybe after the kids go to bed, I can massage them for you I'm not sure what that means yet, but sounds great. Oh you two are gross And that would be my big sister Love building things. That was a happy little camper Well, at least until Don't you worry about that Of course Being a father isn't exactly in every other week Your mother being a single parent where there's gonna be a lot of screaming in that house Well, you're gonna have a tough time kid. You kind of on your own from oh I mean everything will be totally fine. Hey, just get yourself a good degree there Everything will be good. I did my best to be a substitute dad for my little brother No, it's not a tennis court sure is fun though good-looking donut. This is lightweight styrofoam concrete made out of garbage Committing to a huge project like this with an unknown source of material was kind of risky But I figured if I could take that much garbage out of the world That would be amazing Not really a standard building material, but then I've always been a little bit weird. So Jamie's a very bright student Okay, yep. Yeah, he made the sign here, but we've got some problems As you can see and here's his math test now. We got all the answers, right? Okay. Yeah, okay, but he didn't show any of his work Okay. Yeah, so we got a c-minus. Okay. Yep. That's been a lot of time alone Thinking about my next invention. Oh, I love building things Hold on. Hold on. I'm leaving out something kind of important because it's embarrassing My mom met this real trashy guy Who hit me because I wouldn't call him dad. They bought a house together And I spent a decade standing up to that idiot and getting between him and my little brother The whole time my mom accusing me of stealing and doing drugs. I don't even know it was just an unmitigated disaster Finally this moron was hauled away in handcuffs Yeah, let's put all that behind. All right, let's get back to the movie When I was at my darkest point there was this guy our kids were going on our 65 seconds of pop today So get your butts in gear full tail boogie. Let's get at it. I'm not cheating anymore. What are you talking about Jamie? I'm not taking the shortcut Coach thinks we can do it Yeah, you'll never make it If I die I Die There's simply nothing left Except this ball of screaming Yeah, just don't say nothing new about it. Check out these times He keeps this up. That's our provincial champ in a couple years and I did twice. I started winning everything I even won a bunch of money at some science fair with this walking popsicle stick contraption I was getting straight A's people would stop me in the street and say hey Jamie I saw you break the record last week way to go champ full scholarship offers from universities I took the prettiest girl I knew to the athletic banquet where I won most valuable player in three sports and athlete of the year I didn't say anything stupid. That was cool and everyone said hi way to go. You're the champ Jamie you're the best then this kid comes up to me and says I Wish I had your life And all I could say was no you don't Because all these awards and recognition is just superficial nonsense It didn't make my life any better If anything it made it worse because now I still have the same problems But everyone else thinks my life is amazing My last year of high school. I mostly kept to myself. I did meet my first serious girlfriend I found that a happy Jamie outperforms an angry frustrated Jamie by quite a bit She came to my last race of the year and was upset that I was focused on the race not on her Kind of ruined the whole thing after that No matter what else was going on in my life. I always had my inventions Word got out that I was collecting styrofoam. I started getting it faster than I could use it It has had to figure out what to do with all these garbage bags Three of these makes the first floor I just sum up my university experience by showing the final result All right, fine. I went to an Ivy League school Even though they didn't have athletic scholarships It was supposed to be a really hard program and the smartest people in the world would be there And I would meet super geniuses and feel stupid and learn so much and make amazing friends And we do crazy things and I got there and I found the classes to be absurdly easy and people around me were talking about how hard I Couldn't figure it out at first was I just so lost that I didn't realize how much I was not understanding or had I just not met the smart kids yet and then along came this engineering contest. I thought This is my chance to get some unbiased feedback and see who else kills it on this engineering contest Because I know I'm gonna be in the top 1% I won that contest By a depressingly large margin I would come to realize that no one else was even trying to be innovative or do anything risky They were just trying to do exactly what was expected of them Because I was in a four-year brown-noser tournament of champions. That is not what I expected at least I was on the track team and I was kicking butt and then My coach and I had a disagreement Regarding the number of injuries an athlete should have and over the next three years of recovery It was beaten into my skull Do not ever Leave my fate in someone else's hands So I stopped attending classes and just showed up for exams and coasted through With all my free time. I started running businesses out of my dorm room I could install a computer network card for half with the school charge and still make a huge profit I could not believe how much the school was charging these kids on top of the already ridiculous tuition They were just bleeding them dry and this is where I learned about business ethics The obvious question is what's wrong with real ethics turns out you can make more money by being a greedy pig Then you can by being ethical In business ethics teaches a normal person how to be a sociopath. I did learn to cook You know those demons with the rocket launcher for a hand How you beat those guys you gotta learn to strafe man. How many times do I need to do this? Oh, you need to do that like a hundred and fifty times to get the good tortillas Kind of sticky Well put some more flour in it. I thought you were supposed to be some kind of super genius And why can you squat like 700 pounds, but you can't bench press like 250 your mom didn't complain Oh crap the girls will be here in like 10 minutes. We need to hurry up. I Also started making movies Turns out doing a terrible job of something is a great way to learn The University workshops were open all night as long as you knew the security guard schedule and Copy a few keys, you know or whatever So I kept making things My little businesses kept up with my financial needs and I paid off my school loan six months after graduating. I Swore I'd never go into debt again I worked a lot of different jobs for a few years with one stipulation Anything I did had to be worth doing even if I wasn't being paid When I saved up a bit of money, I had a big decision to make I could take advantage of those connections I made at school get a cushy job make my parents proud impress all the ladies and Then jump out of a 20-story window Or I can make a break for the woods right now head into the unknown and Maybe find something I can live with Dude, can you think of any reason I should not buy 25 acres of land in Vermont with no road access? Your mom said so I bought this little mountain in Vermont packed my car Deactivated my phone and headed for the woods. I spent the first month just camping no responsibilities Just trying to live life and figure out what that means Then I picked a spot and started building I Even had help from some friends. I Had no idea what I was doing But it felt better than anything else I'd done in my life. I bought every galvanized pipe within a hundred miles and Made this weird contraption to punch holes in them The nearest road was a mile away, so I had to carry everything up the mountain. No, no I got to carry everything up the mountain I'd put unbelievable amounts of effort into things before but it was always to win some trophy or metal This was the first time my efforts were going directly into something that made my life better. I Was hooked I'd never seen anything so beautiful. I Could never go back pretty soon after I got the dome together It snowed and water started pouring in right in the middle of the building What had happened is one of the panels had shifted and fallen in and all that melting snow is coming right inside So I climbed up the side of the building which is a lot harder with all those panels on the outside I had to climb on the inside With a couple zip ties in my teeth, then I monkey barred my way out to the middle of the building hanging above concrete several stories below me and I popped that one panel up with my head and Shove the other one in with a hand and got a zip tie out and started out But then this hand was losing grip. I had to climb back down to the floor Before I fell to my death. I went up and down several times Same result and then on my way down. I Realized it was getting dark. I only had 10 or 15 minutes Before I'd have to leave this till tomorrow. So I thought to myself. Okay. What are my options? I Can leave this till tomorrow and maybe maybe build some scaffolding or something to get up here, but I don't have extra nails I don't even have an extra rope. I was on a very tight budget. I also don't have extra time Like I need to cut firewood. I need to get more food. I'm running out of money When I really thought about it, I realized if I don't solve this right now Pretty soon. I'm gonna have to head back to civilization and I am not going back So I decided that I'm not coming down Until I either fixed that roof or I fall Part of the problem was that those pipes were so cold my hands were going numb But that gave me an idea because I had this cut on my thumb So I climbed out to the middle of the building again And when I got there, I flicked my hand so blood smeared across my palm and I grabbed that frozen pipe And it's stuck solid So I popped that one panel up got the other one in got the zip tied tied it in got another zip tied tied it in and then Peel that frozen hand off the pipe climb back down all the way back down to the ground Oh, my arms were so numb my hands were so frozen But when I looked up at that roof and it wasn't leaking I knew that I was gonna make it because whatever problem comes in my path whatever obstacle there is I'm gonna glue myself to a pipe with frozen blood if I have to I'm gonna do whatever I need to to get through Moving to the woods was like waking up from a nightmare. I Figured the more I did for myself the less money I would need and the less money I needed the more freedom I'd have to live the life I want I got my expenses under $2,000 a year which I could make in a solid week of Roofing or putting up drywall. I was developing quite a successful contracting company and thought about putting more energy into it Then I spent three days Discussing the perfect yellow to paint some vestibule and realized I'm gonna start painting vestibules red If I don't get back to the forest soon. I've decided to build a giant robot. Damn it little robot I've been going to the junkyard. It's a ball bearing. I had the last of my maple syrup boiling Huh, I have one window on and a bunch of pieces at the top And now I'm gonna put this window on here. I'm hoping to line the entire pond with rocks All these forest skills led to some really interesting jobs like building houses in Alaska What do you think of your new cabin? All right, here's the pump going right now And it's pumping on that tube all the way way way up there. Is it pumping up there yet? There's waller Then someone offered me an airplane hanger. All I had to do was take it away I figured digging a road up the mountain wouldn't be any harder than carrying the thing up on my back So I spent a summer doing exactly that I also needed to settle a debate inside my head See one side of me said Ah, it's impossible to dig a mile of road through the mountains And the other side of me said just go one step at a time and do not stop holding some nuts The workshop. Well, so here we are at the workshop. Oh, here's all my robot pieces. Well, almost all of them Hi again. Look, there's all those robot pieces Pretty good Wow to Shayna, that's a nice shirt you're wearing there. Yeah, Jamie made it for me. What is it? It's a giant robot shirt Whoa, whoa, whoa. Who is this girl? That's to Shayna. She came to visit never left After sitting on her butt for six months I told her she needed to start helping out Let's get a quick side-by-side contrast of our differing personalities Oh that smile Oh, no, you make it. You make it. We settled on her getting a part-time job and helping with food Yo man, I love when you come visit the city. It's good to see you. Yeah, I can't say that Hey, I want to come up next weekend. Is that cool? I know I can't stay in your house since the Shayna moved in When you get rid of her I'll bring my tent. Uh, anyway I gotta tell you something I'm having another kid. Don't say nothing to my parents. I didn't tell them yet Dude, that's so awesome. Yeah, I mean it's kind of awesome You were planning. Ah, not exactly. But you're right. You're right. It's awesome, man. It's awesome. When are you having kids? You'll be an awesome dad Funny you asked. Uh, Shayna just asked me to have kids with her and she doesn't even want a relationship or anything She just wants to raise a kid. No way man. No with her Well, she's not nice to you. What about that girl, you know the one with the the big uh She just wants a career and money. She doesn't care about a family What about that blonde girl, you know the one who does all that running and exercising She wants to know what I'm gonna stop playing around in the forest and get a real house with a mortgage and No, no, forget that man. I mean you got a good setup. Don't wreck that. You got no bills. That's awesome All right, I'm listening. What is the Shayna deal? Well, I mean she actually wants to be a mom like she wants to have kids and raise them And you know, she's got good eyesight and yeah her She's in great shape for somebody sits on her butt all day and she's terrible with me But she's she's great with kids And like she won't leave just tell her like if we have kids together She's not gonna want to take them and leave because she really likes living off grid. I get what you're saying So basically you want this girl for your kids, but not for you. Yeah Like yeah, you know, I think you should do it. Seriously Yeah, man life is sure you got an opportunity to do something good now Who knows when you get another opportunity But you got to make me one promise You got to promise me that one day when you got your kids and you got your life All strutting out the Shayna's her house over there and you got your house here You're gonna meet a girl who actually wants to be nice to you and take care of you as much as you take care of her See what girl? I mean beside your mom. You don't turn her away. Oh man, you'll be surprised You just got to promise me this before we get out of this car All right, I I have all my kids and I get my life all straightened out and you know, blah blah blah I mean girl actually wants to be nice to me. I won't turn her away. Okay, you can't break her promise I know what a promise means to you. All right, let's go see my mom. She made us dinner She wants you to build her some kind of a tamale machine to pay with tacos and tomales You know when you have that feeling that you forgot something, but you can't think of what it was So you figure it must not be that important But then it is get to put the post in it's right here. Oh an idiot All right, it's not that bad It's like a day setback. Oh Totally unnecessary Setback Okay, I can regrind this Oh, I'm such an idiot. Okay, that's not what you're doing Jamie Okay, I need to risk it. Now the reinforcement rope was obviously still strong. That's why it was so hard to get that back up So I got it back up and put some Cement in those cracks. I think it'll be all right At least once I get the pieces up here on that's where it really gets the strength when it gets all that up there Which is why When I built this one over here, I put a post in Before I put those in I'm pretty sure that I still have enough sun left To go home get two squares for this come back and put those suckers. Let's go We're not losing a day today No fate. I do not accept you With kids on the way. I renovated I tore that dome right down to the steel pipes. I got the roof on a day before it snowed And I searched craigslist and found a pile of used insulation and free windows Free Oh, I couldn't believe it. This place was becoming even more amazing. I also found a lot of free paint Mostly pink that should fix it and you have fun right now. I thought it was pretty cool It's looking pretty good in there I figured it would be pretty easy to heat this place, but you know, it's not even done and like I'm sweating like a pig Apparently grocery stores throw out unbelievable amounts of styrofoam delivery boxes Which make amazing insulation For my workshop Hey kid Where you going? You'll take care of the zombies Okay, what are these cool walking toys? Ah long story short. I worked with a toy company and made these walking robots It involved a bunch of trips to china and england Sounds like some sort of little uh, little animal. No, it's like a like a vehicle like a spider tank. Oh like this Vanguard Strider I don't think the kids will understand that it's got legs. It's not a vehicle It's more like a little pet crab in it Do you guys ever watch any anime or play any video games anything like that? I haven't got time for that kind of thing We're busy in the office making new toys for all the little boys and girls bottom line When they hit stores, they started winning awards Boys toy of the year in england and australia and then I started getting invited to these weird product development meetings With the heads of the biggest stores in the world. Uh, you're just not getting a kid All right, what's your name jamie? Look jamie. I'm gonna explain this in terms that uh anyone can understand We sell garbage Do we sell some kids something they like they're at home playing with it for uh weeks We sell them some piece of trash That breaks the minute they get at home Or is uh, yeah in some way just uh, totally disappointing They're immediately asking their parents to come buy something new And that is how we make the big bucks business Ethics that was a bit of a strange meeting wasn't it? I've been told this myth over and over Which goes something like this You know the richest people in the world are the ones who work the hardest and do the most good for society Really? Because as far as I can tell the richest people are the ones who took everything good out of themselves and threw it away They live their lives with contempt and greed and treat others like slaves And then to pretend they're virtuous They go around saying stupid things like well, you got to give back to society one weekend every year Oh, how magnanimous of you? How about you stop taking The entire rest of the year Have some compassion use some imagination Figure out how to do things that are mutually beneficial for you and other people that creates real value in the world Instead of just destroying it But then you wouldn't get as much money I realize that no amount of technology or inventions is going to make the world any better As long as people are willing To sell out their morality and ethics for a buck So I came up with the adventure builders club to keep myself on the right track And to make it easier to teach my kids all the stuff I should have learned growing up an adventure builder follows eight basic principles find the truth Tell the truth Don't be lazy face face your fears Have loving your heart Think for yourself Choose your own life and no matter how far you've come you've still got a long way to go No tool or machine I've ever owned is as valuable as having a set of principles Something to answer the questions that don't really have answers To give life meaning to make the impossible Seems like it might actually be doable You want to go fast? I've been told I need more faith But I don't know I put myself in a position Where I need to build a concrete thing that will span this entire distance It almost defies logic Except that logic is the only reason I think it's possible And somehow I'm counting on myself to do this Okay, one step at a time Figure out how many of these pieces I'm going to need and the angles they need to be I don't know how I'm going to get these all in place I'm pretty sure I can put the first row in So let's start there At this point I was exhausted I kept saying to myself Just keep going One step at a time Do not stop Once I had kids I started becoming more sensitive to events like this But howdy, son. I'm your local tax assessor Saw you on the news last week. Looks like you've been busy. We're gonna have to reassess this property value here Oh, why'd you get up here? Oh drove up on the service road, of course. You mean the service road I'm not allowed to use All right, now you're getting it. All right. Well, here's your new property value. It'd be a mild increase in your taxes Dude, this is triple Wait, let me get this straight Anything I do up here to make my life better for me and my family I'm gonna have to pay more taxes Which will pay for the road that I'm not allowed to use that you can use to come up and tax me more That's American way No, it's not You know when I decided to leave it wasn't because It had become illegal to collect rainwater or that it was illegal to be off-grid in some states It was a fact that no one cared people would say oh that law doesn't affect me personally. So ah, I'm just not gonna pay attention Quickest way to lose your freedom is to ignore when your neighbor loses theirs Freedom is not free So I and several of my friends have decided that we're going to buy an island And start our own little community there while my friends were busy looking for excuses to not follow through I decided to give my family a test drive and we spent a winter in the Bahamas Hi, Jamie. Oh, did you get lots of stuff on your adventure? I got a hack dirty from the previous owner, but it had been washed in the sea for quite some time I also got a buoy and a pipe and a jug with some fishing line and lots of rope Oh, yeah, I also got a barrel It's from my boat. I'm building a boat. You put some nails in your jug, too. Yeah Good work. Awesome sauce. But it's for nothing. Yeah, that's where you found all this stuff Oh, do you want to go for a walk? Oh, you want to hang out on the boat? Okay, when I moved to the mountain, it was my second choice I always wanted to live on an island And with confirmation that the rest of my family loved the ocean I sold the dome and I thought between that and the money I saved from those robots I think I have just enough money to start a new life somewhere else It'll take a bit of luck and a lot of hard work So Deshaena, I'm going to be carrying two kids around and all their stuff I need you to carry your own weight. Okay Are you just saying that or are you going to ask me to carry your bags for you? I just had one loose end to wrap up before we left. You going to go swimming in, in Chelly? Okay, the sign says that this dude is like 200 years old and he's got 150 years to go roughly It's crazy, man. Okay, I can't take what I already don't have Mega Johnson's No, please don't get up. I got it. It's fine. Yeah, maybe we'll just live here for the rest of uh Okay, we're only here for a week, but it'll be good There's a pool right over there swimming pool on this totally awesome tent here I found it in the junkyard like 10 years ago Long-lasting metal zippers Check out my spoon. Cool. Hey, no way. You can't have that. I already made you a shovel A one-legged dinosaur a duck a baby a chain without I can't believe you just took my spoon I want my spoon I'm gonna eat your head Oh Good morning sunshine All the mountains are awesome So the first island guy I talked to wanted 2.4 million dollars for his island Which is never an island and then there was this other island I could look at But I had to wait like two weeks to go see it I don't know in that shell. I just wasn't feeling it, you know I guess this big tree fell down Between the last time I was here and today so that was kind of convenient and uh That's my first board. It's not bad. There we go Now I have a bunch of 2x sticks starting to get somewhere now Excuse me, sir. That seems to be a leak in your roof No, no, where? Oh, I think I see it. Oh, man Oh, there's food ready. Yes. I should go get some food. Yes. All right Did you make it? No Sometimes to find your way You have to get real lost first Which is scary when you have a family to take care of A very limited budget and no home We made our way to the Caribbean I got this sudden feeling that we were close to where we needed to be So we rented a house on an island Kind of out in the middle of nowhere We didn't have a boat yet So I decided to make one It would be a lot cheaper than buying one And being able to build a boat is a guaranteed job when you live by the sea Make sure those lines are straight there chief and I'm getting excited Where'd you find that weird dude? That's my brother I have a brother. He's cool. Let's go be nerds Okay, where I do some steering. Yeah So I cut me mast to the right length. I think It's gonna go along this edge of the sail here All right, I got that sucker up there Again and those parts should be done I don't think you're gonna hit the dock Electric boat is totally viable Oh, you have two babies on the boat now. I know. Come on. Let's go So lots of sun today I got my solar panels slid into their grooves and I don't know if you can tell on the camera, but That's significantly faster Smoke started coming out of here Girls are taking off on a boat adventure And I'm just working my way up this seam Connecting it all the way Oh, my four-year-old told me I needed to work on my little boat today So I slapped some fiberglass into this here mold Oh, that's a nice smooth mold Oh, hey, he's got the lid on and everything And out here we got the speed dryer I got you a hair tie Oh, yeah Hey you guys, what do you think? Do you like the boat? I'm just gonna shut up and show you Here's my third floor with all the solar panels Here's our bay We're the only one here on this little lagoon There's like Lots of wide open ocean just on the other side of this little bay And there's my island over there My house looks nice. Oh, thanks Okay, I'm seriously so excited I'm like gonna Put like a five-story tower like right where the camera is or back there just a little bit It's gonna be a water slide that starts way way up there and the canal will have a beach Big enough to like do cannonballs and dives and it's gonna be like food grown everywhere It's just tangled an avocado and a banana and food that's grown on a thing And I don't have to buy at some store where it has pesticides on it. Oh, I'm so excited This is one tenth of a dome. How awesome is this? Oh nice muscles. Oh, it's so beautiful Oh look my boat ties up and everything Banana I grew it. It's the one we grew. Isn't that awesome? Are you the chicken whisperer? One of the primary purposes Was to be able to go get materials building materials And this was my first test, but it is basically done. I don't care about the paint job And here's my basic first drawing of what I'm thinking about So this island has way more land than my first one Get some practice in the skinny kayak That's where they've been hiding those things Oh, I can see it from the windows anyway I just painted my second kayak Oh, and of course I have a j now because I had to clean my roller off somewhere and I'm continuing with concrete up here Since there are two sides to every story, I'm gonna get some help explaining what happened next So what happened when I was building your house? I don't know. It was pretty stressful for both of us, I think Yes, it was very stressful That pretty much covers it. Let's just leave it on that. I don't want to be mean to you I really don't A few weeks ago when you came over to my house and as you were walking out the door You screamed f you except to use the whole word I effing hate this effing place and it stopped away. Yeah Was that being nice to me? It wasn't about you when I was working on your house. I was so physically exhausted I didn't have Like the energy or the presence of mind to say to myself Oh, she's just upset about something else not at me So it really started affecting me like everything you said that was not nice Like when I was pregnant and hormonal and totally like kind of out of my mind in general Yeah, that that was not good. Yeah Yeah, that's that kind of stuff. Yeah, being a woman really sucks sometimes a lot No, it does Let me tell you I envy you guys. Oh, well good. You should even Like hormone levels that never change. Everything's easy for me Yeah You mean the progress in being able to tolerate each other's presence. Yeah. Yeah. That was so horrible about me. That's what I understand It's not there's nothing horrible about you jamie But like I feel like you think that I think that so I'm not making up anything About what you've done. I'm just saying it in a way that makes it sound worse than it was. Yes So that's probably because from my perspective it was a lot worse I really am I'm sorry jamie for taking advantage of you and being brood and obnoxious and bitching at you I think things are a lot better now that we have we each have our own space Because like you can do whatever the bloop you want here and I can do whatever the bloop I want over there I think things are much better now. Yeah, what's not wrong with us fine We have awesome kids. We do have awesome kids. That worked out great. That was the deal though. That was that was the point of us Sticking the other Yeah, good work. Oh, wow, there's a lot of speckling to do out here I'm gonna need more sand I got my gutters done up there So now I've got water coming down here Cross there Through that pipe and into my concrete water tank. Yeah, I'd like to see someone steal that thing Oh, and what am I gonna do up here on the hill? Oh, I don't know yet exciting stuff though Oh and a climbing wall back here. I gotta put like little holds all the kids are gonna love that Maintaining to Shayna's house proved to be impossible It reminded me of my old contracting days We disagreed on everything After years of working against each other. I realized we'd never become self-sufficient She thought that was just me being negative. I became so demoralized and frustrated That I started getting sick More sick than I care to admit Well, is that you Jamie? Oh, what's happening man? How's it going? Good to hear from you. Look, I'm at work right now I can't really hold on hold on Um, excuse me. Could you close the door, please? This is an important call. I really need to take Man, you sound terrible What's going on? No, I've been watching your videos on the internet And uh, I know you've been doing a lot of hard work and all that But I don't think that's a problem because I've seen you do hard work before and the harder it gets like the more The more red w gay like you're some kind of nutcase and like these challenges But right now you sound like you're you're losing your will to live and I'm wondering where where is that guy who wakes up at 4 30 a.m. And starts shouting at the sun to hurry up and get in the sky. What's going on? No, I think I think you got another problem because I've been reading between the lines a little bit because I You know, I know the background information I think the problem Is that for a lot of years you've been hoping that maybe you and the Shayna will grow closer together But now you're at the point in your life Where you know it's not going to happen and you need to let go you need to make a final decision on that Yeah, I've been going to counseling a little bit. It's good stuff, right? So you need to let go of uh, whatever guilt you have that you're like not taking care of her enough or You know, you're not letting anyone down because you you start doing what you need to do to get back to The person you need to be because right now you're not the guy You're not the guy you want to be for your kids, right? This is not the dad you want to be you want to be that guy who uh build a Build a trampoline in the third floor And put in a slide and does all kinds of crazy cool stuff and is like happy and super positive and all that stuff Right now you sound like you sound like you're you're just giving up, man Yeah, man, you got to do what you got to do All right, man. Next time you call I want to hear I want to hear the other guy All right, I gotta go back to work Good luck, man Thanks, dude He's all right I can't give up not when I'm this close I just need a year I can't do another year Unless it's different I'm gonna have to block out everyone and everything Except my kids Focus on it a hundred percent Top priority Come on, Jamie Do what you do now get up Inspiration inspiration mind Oh, it's gonna take months just to get a path in what wait, okay If I divide this project into a thousand pieces Can I do at least one per day? Yeah, I think so Is any one of those thousand pieces going to be impossible? All right, then what's the problem? Let's go. I need to put my mind in a state That is not conducive to other people In order to make some incredible thing happen So that's where I am right now Said a lot of you guys Didn't don't even need that explanation. We're just like, oh, yeah, totally get it. All right I've got this project and it is a hundred percent my Main focus top priority right now I gotta go do it All right, and I promise to get some video That I'm just not gonna be able to show for a while. Oh my gosh, son. Come up. I got stuff to do. Let's go. Let's go Oh, I love it Excuse me. Mr. Street sweeper man That's not my stuff Whoa, you're caught in the act Poopy poopy condensed sky bears. Is that what we've got now? A happy ending I was told over and over that all of this would never happen But I could not do it Here's the thing about People who are overly concerned with what's impossible They're never the ones who are making things possible And I guess that's a decision everyone has to make for themselves You know, do I want to spend my life telling everyone else what they can't do Or do I muster my own courage and start something that I know I can't finish And then go with the journey the adventure Of finding the strength and the determination and the skills To follow through anyway and turn that impossible thing into something possible You know here I'm I'm past all the impossible parts. I still have a lot to do But nothing too hard that means I'm gonna have to come up with something new Ah in a few months Right now I'm just gonna enjoy the fact that Kind of got my life straightened out I'm gonna get my life all straightened out and you know, blah, blah, blah Me to girl actually wants to be nice to me. I won't turn her away. You promise man. You can't break your promise How's that good ending? How do you muster your own courage if you've ran off mustard? What I'm out of mustard? Yeah Well, let me squeeze you maybe I can get some out of you Hey, can I get mustard out of your sister by tweezer? I'm not a mustard seed You're not a mustard seed. How do you know where mustard comes from? But you don't know what mustering your courage is. Do you know what mustering your courage is? You don't you don't put mustard on it. You muster it like you gather your courage But you collect your courage But you could I mean mustard might help if you put some mustard on yourself You know your mustard tastes good. I'll give you more courage Okay, so this is supposed to be the credits Uh, I guess I'll Wait, hold on Okay, this is supposed to be the credits so Well, Jamie was me and I'm Jamie. So that was super easy to do Deshaena was Deshaena and then my kids were my kids and then I think kind of obviously all those other characters were just me with yarn on my head or a crayon mustache Being silly I think that's everyone Oh, if for anyone who's Uh, really upset that I shouldn't be doing any of this stuff And you need to call someone and whatever don't worry. It's all made up total fiction So just go back to your cubicle and Have a latte or whatever you do Everyone else Keep being awesome Oh, okay. Here's what you do next When I say go Turn off your computer with a little button there and then stand up and turn around and then Go do the stuff you need to do to be the person you need to be. Okay ready? Go