 Hey, this is Kim Holm, and welcome to this Free Art Friday emergency cast. Yes, let's say that. Most of you are probably wondering what's up with Free Art Friday. I have not been able to uphold my commitment to make as many Free Art Fridays as I wanted. And I thought I'd do a little cast where I present all the Free Art Friday art I have actually drawn two Free Art Friday cast that have never been published, because I've tried to make some. And where I also present my plan for going forwards with this, because it is going forward, because fuck yeah, this concept is awesome! I think. And also connected to my plan going forward, I'm going to talk a bit about why it has been difficult to make these Free Art Fridays. Even with the awesome support I get from Patreon.com slash Kim Holm. So first, let us just have a look at some of the images that I've made for Free Art Friday casts, but I haven't actually published yet. So there's at least a couple. So hopefully some of you have been waiting for those. Now, let's first go into the reasons why I haven't been able to commit to the Free Art Fridays, as I should and as I have promised to. And then let that naturally and cleverly segue into what are my plans for the future. And the reasons for Free Art Fridays taking a sudden hiatus were kind of multi-faceted, but mostly due to my psyche. And I've talked a bit about being bipolar and how awesome that is. And having regular depressions, fuck yeah, and all the cool stuff that all the cool kids do. But what happened this autumn, no, this spring, was that in the winter I got on some medication that actually seemed to help me a lot and got my mind in a positive place, which it hadn't been since I was like 12. So that was new and exciting and a bit weird as well, because I started having this sort of newfangled explosion of outwards creativity of publishing stuff on the internet in August last year. And I started with needing immediate financial help and selling commissions for very cheap and then figuring out, oh, people like these commissions more than I thought. I can actually sell a bit more. I can do more of this kind of stuff. And then I did an Inktober event where I drew 30 ink sketches in a month and sold every one of them and that went very well. And then sort of motivated by that, I took the step into crowdfunding and launched my Patreon campaign, which I had thought about forever in November. And then in December I did a 30 days of drawing for one of my Lovecraft projects and published things every day there and also did Christmas commissions. So it was this real intense level of creativity and output and all of this was done sort of in spite of some pretty fucking terrible depressions. I was just banging my head against the wall, never at my lowest point because then I can't do much anything but at a really low point where I was still in control. And then in December, late December, I got on some medicine that actually seemed to work and cleared up my head in fantastic ways. And suddenly, during January and February and March, it became harder and harder to do stuff. And one of the things was that the medicine had a side effect of making me more and more sleepy. And in the end I spent like three months constantly falling asleep and not realising that this was the medication fucking with my head because the medication was making me feel so good. And there was another factor as well which fucked up my life in a much more positive way which is on June the 22nd, no, 26th, my second son was born. And that was fantastic. But dealing with childbirth and dealing with the later stages of the better half being pregnant means a lot of extra effort. So the combination of being on bad drugs, medication and having the pressure of a second child being born, everything just says said stop. And in the end I've managed to deliver most of my paid stuff without anyone yelling at me yet I'm behind on deadlines but people are really kind and nice and the deadlines I'm not behind on I've actually managed to keep them and just keeping a float like that has been all the effort I've been able to do. But in the days before my son was born I realised that I had to cut the medication in coordinates with my pretty fucking lousy doctors. I started taking less and less medication and then my child was born and that meant a great many days without any sleep and without any chance to take medication that makes you sleepy. So suddenly I was completely off the medication earlier than I probably should have. And that leads us to where we are now which is my son is four weeks old today and we still haven't slept for a month and my depression which lasted all spring even though I'm off the medication it hasn't gone away strangely but it's starting to get more manageable to do stuff. That's interesting and that leads me to my plan for how to get this shit done. So first of all I am going to commit to doing free art Fridays and I'm going to do four of them a month. I'm going to try to do four of them a month regardless of what my Patreon campaign says we're at $300 a month right now which is really good which should be free art Fridays a month but it's no use trying to nickel and dime the costs because it's just good for me to have the continuity of doing them but I need to change the format slightly I tried being perhaps a bit too much of showman I don't really mean a showman but I try to be the host of a program which is in depressive periods for me is really really hard it's something I like to do but I hate to do it when I don't like to do it so what I want to do is take the podcast or art cost over in a bit of a more personal format so I'm still going to be drawing requests just like before some of them will be time lapsed some of them will be me drawing while talking and I will try to do multiple a week but I will also talk a bit about my life and talk a bit about my work and all the cool stuff I do outside the free art Fridays so hey you're getting a sneak preview of the last few things for a CD Digipack for a Norwegian band which I'm working for so that was a sneak peek and I've been working a lot on that and I've been working on some illustrations for Amiensus record ascension Amiensus how do you pluralize words that end with an S? that's fucked so Free Art Fridays is going to have a bit more of a journal format and I'm going to try to shoot some videos while doing some exciting stuff or non exciting stuff or just some stuff that I do and we're going to see how that works and there may be chances to do more stuff and broaden the program so it's going to narrow the field a bit by becoming more about my life and I'm also going to perhaps broaden the format a bit and become about other stuff because there's a lot of stuff I'm interested in in my life the second change I'm going to do is I need to make a new intro and I need to stop using licensed music because every time I use licensed music I use this hurdle of YouTube blocking the video in certain areas and then you have to say to them no don't block it I have permission and then somebody has to look at that permission claim and then don't contest it and it has to go that certain amount of time and then blah blah blah basically one of my reasons for doing the reason for doing Free Art Friday is because I think the current copyright system is fucked and having to deal with that fucked system every week is fucked I will make other videos with music from all the great bands that allow me to use their music but I can't do a little hassle of every week going through that claim again and again so I'm going to make a new intro and we're going to talk a bit more about myself and maybe some exciting stuff will happen and otherwise it's going to be just the same so no big differences I have no idea what I'm talking about anymore I think it's time for me to shut up now thanks to everyone who has supported me on Patreon.com even when I haven't been keeping my commitments so you are fucking awesome to the very few that have declined or kept their money you are awesome as well because you have supported me and hopefully you will support me again this podcast, this artcast, means nothing because I haven't proven anything except that I can talk about plans for the future which you already probably knew so we'll be back next week and start fresh ok, see ya, bye