 Hey there friends, how's it going? My name is Kevin, and today we're doing something a little bit different It's a little bit much going on behind me there Maybe Is this a little bit much? Definitely. Yeah, I I definitely need a haircut or maybe even multiple hairs cut I'm a comedian Anyway, how is it going today? We're doing something a little bit different I wanted to do a little bit of a catch-up because it's been a while I think it was the the start of 2020 that I made the Last update video and well it was a very different world back then you spoke a bit about conventions earlier as well I'd like to do some more. I'll be going to at least one in the UK. Oh my sweet summer child So naive, but yeah I wanted to sit down and have a little conversation and tell you a little bit about what's going on with me and How how how I'm feeling you're gonna be my therapist for the next hour It's long overdue that I talked to someone. I mean needless to say 2020 has been a bit of a feckin disaster But I have definitely got some positives out of it And that's that's kind of what I try and do with my mentality. I try and get positives out of Negatives, I mean I'm delighted I got hit by a car for example because if I didn't I probably wouldn't be here I make it sound like the car hit me and pushed me out of the way of a bullet or something But no, I mean I wouldn't be on YouTube because the reason I got into YouTube was because that car accident I know one of the main positives. I've gotten out of this whole thing is I feel a lot healthier. I've I've gained so much mass Over the quarantine. It's it's been crazy like when after the car accident And I don't want to go into too much detail because I've talked about this car Way too much but a few years ago was in a car accident and I ended up I didn't have much way to lose to begin with I was already like 70 something kg like the low 70s, and then I went down to 66 which in American is 66 kg in American 145 pounds which is pretty light for a fellow who's six one or in European One point eight five meter. I don't know why I don't know why that's the accent or for my fellow Irish viewers One point eight five potato plants. I never knew that potato plants could grow up to a meter. That's That's weird. I didn't realize the potatoes were called tubers And then you have the mother tuber, which is which is a big one YouTuber is just another way of calling someone a potato Who would have guessed it? I can't even remember what I was talking about. Oh, yeah, my weight Why am I talking about tubers? Anyway, I was down to 66 kg We'll keep it in kg just to keep things simple and now I'm up to 90 Which is over the space of a few years, but I've always struggled to gain weight My metabolism is just insane. It always has been and I've also struggled with eating a lot in my life That's a whole other issue. Let's just not go into that right now I've had to do exercise quite regularly anyway because of my accident just for physical Rehabilitation and whatnot. I used to do it like three times a week or something like that And I go to the gym and whatnot But now I've been just trying to eat loads and just work out five times a week and I'm feeling Fantastic physically probably the best I've ever felt in my life Other than still a bit of pain in the old shoulderinos, but it's been it's been good It's been a really positive experience for me like that. So that that has That has been a big change in my life that is for the better despite the whole Negative stuff going around us, you know the general the general disaster That is 2020. God, we thought 2016 was rough. This is something else Even if we take a look at some of my content from way back when I first started the channel I close to the accident you can see like how thin I am and even if we look at stuff as recent as The start of the year you can see how much I've changed more focusing on content Which you're probably more interested in or rather than me talking about my body weight I always feel weird about talking about myself in videos because I am hyper aware of the fact that it is Not very interesting. I I am not a very interesting person. But yeah in regards to content I'm pretty happy with what's been going on recently. I'm pretty happy with how my content's been I go through waves I think like most creators I go through like oh, this is going great. And then I go like oh my god My content is garbage. It's like back up again and back down and it's just like the cycle It's just very strange being like a content creator. Whatever you want to call me I don't I don't really care what label you put on it But it's strange because you're constantly competing against yourself So now when I do a video that does really well, I'm hyped and I feel amazing over it and if the feedback is great I'm just so pumped that people are like liking what I've made but it's also there's this hyper awareness of the fact that Next week. I'm not gonna do a video as good And I'm gonna be annoyed because I'm not meeting that bar that I've said this week It's so bizarre, but I've been pretty happy recently overall I've been I've been pretty happy what's going on and on top of doing the normal content I also started streaming you're probably aware that I mentioned it probably too often I apologize and just making people aware at the end of videos that I do in fact stream But I've been streaming over on Twitch. I started in five days a week now. I moved it to four I think it's it's just more suited to me and my schedule, but I've really enjoyed it I think just getting to chill out with people from the community and I I think learn more about the community Because I've got to know so many of you over on the Twitch channel and it's a more longer conversation So I can actually get to know people and what my community is like Because it's strange I didn't really know what this community was like and I didn't realize how kind and how nice so many people were in This community until I started streaming and it's really kind of opened my eyes to What kind of people are watching my videos and you know what? At the risk of sounding super cheesy I could not be more proud and I don't know how everyone is so chilled and so nice when my content is Me generally being kind of a dick, but it's just been an immensely rewarding experience Honestly, it's one of those things that I feel like it's changed me like as a person and I think for the better And I think that that goes for a lot of this whole lockdown business that we've been in like Ireland's had a pretty strict lockdown compared to other countries It's the 23rd right now of September. I'm not sure when this will be going up I'll have to try and edit in between normal stuff But it was only two days ago that like pumps opened and stuff like that's a big deal for Ireland and I think it's given me a lot of time to kind of Think about who I am and what I want to be and what I want to do I've learned to try and just chill out a bit and sometimes I think I've got something wrong with me because I can't just Chill I cannot relax. I don't watch like TV movies I'll I'll find myself getting super restless if I'm sitting still for like 10 minutes I just I really struggle to just chill and I've been trying to Force myself to do that and it's been good. Whether it's like go for a run go for a walk Just relax do something that that is not fully engaging my brain So I can actually think it was up to up till a few months back It seemed like anytime I'd free time I have to be doing something that's engaging my brain I can't just shut down and just think for a while and I'm just trying to I'm just trying to be better And hey another little thing about me. I've been learning guitar. I have this lovely new guitar I learned a few chords before but I kind of gave up But I've really really been enjoying guitar. Anyway, here's Wonderwall So, yeah, I hope you enjoyed Wow you're talented. Would you like to sign? No, no, thanks. Sorry. I get a lot of this really often actually probably like a few times a day And I'm just I'm more interested in creating content on my channel I'm dedicated to that and I wouldn't sell out to any music label. Sorry. I didn't realize you had such Yeah, you don't let that don't let the door hit you on the on the way out No, I like I can't play Wonderwall. It was all a clever ruse. You're too smart for me I know you'll see right through it I just can't help being honest, you know as I said, I'm improving as a person and I cannot tell a lie In reality, I've learned like one song But look it's been fun. It's been a good little hobby to have and I usually have it right here I think the trick to actually learning instrument is having it like right on hand. So you don't need to be like All right, I'll set aside time or whatever and then I'll go find it and blah blah blah. I just have it right here It's sitting next to me. I'm waiting for a video to render. I got 10 minutes I'll pick it up and I'll just start playing Wonderwall absolutely flawlessly. You see I'm lying again And I don't know why and I hope that as I learn songs I can like post a cover to to YouTube I know they may not be the best. I'm super bad at guitar I've already recorded one cover I don't know if that's the gun up or not in the in the time that I've recorded this and between posting it but I know I'm very bad at guitar and a lot of the songs I would be learning don't really suit my voice But it's kind of nice because it gives me something to work towards and it feels like I've accomplished something when I do the whole Thing and I post it and whatnot. So that's something I'm probably going to be doing but Content in general, I'd like to get two channels up. I'm working on them at the moment. I want to get two more channels I want to have one just for stream archive. So if you're not interested in live streaming You can't make it or if you usually try and make them but you miss one There'll be a YouTube channel with all of the the streams up there upload in their entirety no edits whatsoever So it'll probably boring, but then I'll do another channel I hope that will have stream highlights So it'll be keeping it away from you guys if you don't like them, you know, you want this high-production quality video like like that Please be something cool, but if you for some reason want more of me Please seek help and all that if you for some reason want more of me There would be that other channel you can watch like the streams condensed just down to the best moments And that's something I'm working towards. Hey Kevin just in case just in case you're so productive that you get both Those channels done we can include this clip and like just tell people that those channels are actually live now and the links Are in the description if you want to check it out that the content over there is top notch It is amazing like you will be amazed by what you see over there If you don't like them, that's fine. I get it. I get it You can only have so much called me Kevin in your life and honestly One a day is probably pushing it you don't want to overdose do yeah But honestly if you watch my content at all at all whether it's you watch every single video whether you watch one a Week once a month once a year are Just this one specifically which I'm not gonna lie would be an odd one to just watch this video But I appreciate it Honestly like as I was saying a lot of time to reflect in this whole situation We found ourselves in and I just find myself just thinking how incredibly lucky and how Incredibly appreciative I am to have people actually watch my content and it blows my mind to this day that people actually Watch it and I put a lot of my a lot of my Time a lot of my a lot of my soul into the videos is weird as that sounds It's it's like my life So I I just I'm just so lucky that people actually want to see and that I have the opportunity to To actually have this kind of creative outlet and it'd be such a rewarding one too but just mentally and and the fact that I can have a comfortable life like a Once I had that car accident Third time I'm bringing it up after said I wouldn't but after that car accident It really felt like I was gonna have just a really tough few years of struggling to make ends meet and Have that change and to actually have a very comfortable situation. It's just It just blows my mind so thank you so much For supporting what I do and of course with the whole lockdown I know that there's been a lot of downsides for everyone I don't mean to just wash over all the problems that this whole situation is brought on I just hope that you're as good as you can be I hope everything is going okay in your life And if something bad has happened, I'm sure you'll get through it And I hope you're doing it as well as you can Given your circumstances. It's hard to talk to such a large amount of people at once with this But I just wanted to make that point clear that I am not minimizing the situation I only hope things go back to normal soon because I Could really use some normal and I'm sure we all could but in the meantime if you want more or not normal I'll be posting a way to keep us all distracted I'm just over here like whoo look at the pretty video games to keep everyone distracted I'm like a clown except with a worse stress sense But yeah, I'll be posting as normal for the foreseeable future I love what I do as I said super thankful to be able to do it And I'm gonna keep doing it as long as I am able to so I hope you'll stick around and Enjoy some of my content. I hope you're enjoying if you've any feedback for me. Honestly, I'm Super active on twitch like engaging with the community and whatnot getting feedback there I've got a subreddit you can put feedback there my Twitter Even if you just got game suggestions and whatnot, I hope this video wasn't boring even now I'm like is this gonna be a video because it just feels like I rambled for like 20 minutes and I'm just gonna cut this down and See if it makes sense. It made sense to me But when I look back, maybe it'll make no sense and maybe this will never see the light of day Maybe I'll just be talking to myself But let me know if you did like it because I'm fine with keeping these things to myself You know bottling everything up is extremely healthy from what I've read online Usually I do these kind of videos like once a year. I decided you know what everything going on. I do too this year Big big steps, you know that that is doubling the output of these sorts of videos But yeah, I just thought it'd be nice to check in you know But I hope you enjoyed the video anyway if you want to check out more of my stuff I post every day usually I don't ramble this much. It's usually not about me It's about funny games, but yeah, anything to distract from me Just just focus on the screen. Look look funny character character creation funny I just hope this wasn't boring either way. In fact, especially if it's boring, I appreciate you sitting through it I it means a lot to me that you want to hear a bit about me and I just hope you'll keep on watching I I would super appreciate it as I said super thankful for all you guys have done for me But yeah, that's about it. Hope you enjoyed and I do hope to see you next time Bye for now And