 So, that line about your interpretations are not in line with what you really are is really just another way of saying that that's your false association, and every seeming specific or individual false association is really just a version of that, that you're not in line with what you really are. This interpretation thing is something that we can just keep looking at, keep looking at. I was just reading a newsletter on the course, and it was saying in the newsletter, it was contrasting the Jesus of the Course with the Jesus of the Bible, and the newsletter was saying they're not the same. They're not the same Jesus, and then I read another newsletter and it was saying the God of the Course and the God of the Bible, and it was basically saying they're not the same God, and the key thing there is, you know, and there was a lot of evidence that was close from the Course to support that this is the real God and that the God in the Bible was not the real God, and that this is the real Jesus, and that the Jesus of the Bible wasn't the real Jesus. But to me, again, it's kind of funny because God is God, but it's just, it's the interpretations. You find in the Bible what you're looking for. You know, there are those that have come and used not this, but the Bible as their tool, and have really insincerely prayed and prayed and prayed for discernment and clarity and have received it, you know, and so how many gods are there? How many Jesuses are there? To me, it's just the whole thing with interpretation is you'll find what you're looking for, and as long as your mind isn't clear, you won't find God in the Course or in the Bible. God or Jesus, you'll find them in your mind, and that these are just tools to help you come to a clear interpretation of the world and then to know God. So to me, that's a key point because then if you start to break interpretations or even God or Jesus down into specific things, you know, it makes it seem like there are two different ones, and they're not. It's only one God. So you're saying it's guaranteed that interpretation brings witness to what the mind believes. Forgiveness is an interpretation. But Jesus says in the Course that it's the one illusion or it's the one interpretation that leaves out of all the rest. So to me, you know, on one hand you could say the one question a lot of times is which of these illusions do I prefer? Well, if you're going to prefer one illusion or hope or wish for one, forgiveness is the one because it leaves out. And all the other ones where you make an interpretation of this is the way or this is the way, or I found it over here, or it's in this person or that, you know, how Jesus said beware of many false Christ. You know, in the Bible at any time you would attempt to think that there's a specific form or person or place that's sacred or that this is the way to enlightenment or whatever, forgiveness is not specific. In that sense, forgiveness is stepping back and just seeing the false is false. It's very simple, very simple. So forgiveness is the one interpretation of the Holy Spirit, obviously. So it's not that I don't want to interpret, but it's like which interpreter do I want to line up with? The mind has to interpret, I guess. So that's the function of the mind. So nature of the mind. Interpretation, another word for interpretation that's really equal to is perception. So you're going, as long as the mind is asleep, it's going to perceive. But instead of just dismissing all perception, Jesus says there's false perception and then there's true perception. And he says the only way you're going to get to no perception or the kingdom of heaven is you've got to come to true perception. You've got to have a constant purpose to stabilize all perception. And then perception vanishes once you come to the needle. You've got to find the needle in the haystack, and then your haystacks are gone. So if we keep asking what the purpose is, and we, it'll be a king. It's like, yeah, right, blackboard. Or we were just listening to the Raj tapes out there and Raj was saying that, you know, a question is a leading edge to the answer. And again, the question, the what is this for, is a real meaningful question. If you keep asking that question, you have to arrive down at the purpose. It just seems, it can seem overwhelming at times. It can seem easier to quit asking what is it for. If I'm watching a movie and saying, what is this for? It's like the ego says, just sit back and be entertained, forget your problems, get caught up in the movie. You've been working hard, you deserve a break. What's wrong with that? Well, again, it's the purpose. If it's being used as a destructive device, like alcohol can certainly be a destructive device, you know, you can start to see. And again, it's the purpose. Here you have all these old movies. What a wonderful opportunity to sit there and say, Holy Spirit, you know, here, or just guide me to which ones are helpful to watch for the healing of my mind. That's, it doesn't say the movies are bad or watching movies are bad, but it's just what's my purpose. Am I using it to just try to cover over all my feelings and just escapism, I think, is the term. A lot of times there's a lot of these adventure movies where it's kind of, it can be an escapism to get off into another world. Or am I using them to watch my mind and see what my emotions are? It's kind of like, am I using them because I'm tired of watching my mind? Or am I using them as a tool to watch my mind? I get tired of watching my mind too. This takes a break from watching my mind. And Bud calls it spiritual indigestion. But when I, is it possible to take a break from watching my mind and stay at peace? And what is that I really want? Well, stay asleep a little longer. See what we shall see? That's a question that is posed to each of us. Wow, so much to stay in the world a little longer. The ending. I have no idea. Yet the ending is certain. Thank heavens. So if it's certain, we can take a little break now and then. You ain't going to get off that easy. You can. You can take a break. But the question is still there. Do I want to be at peace? And is it really a break if I'm not at peace? And can I be at peace if I stop watching my mind? My experience says, no. When I stop watching my mind, that's when I get in the muck. And that's no break. Really. I mean, that's not what I consider a break. It doesn't feel good. I think for a break, it's something that's supposed to feel good. Something I like. Something that's desirable. Being in the muck is not something I like and it's not desirable. I think a good word we could just French and British is effort. And what I've, you know, really discovered is that I want life and being to be effortless. You know, we've all had the experience when something just seems effortless. It's very comfortable and peaceful and restful. And with this mind training business, it's like the expenditure of effort is in the front end. You know, it's when the mind is untrained and it's, it's distorted. It's distracted. It's all these, it's uncom, it's conflicted. Then it is, so to speak, if I've moved and I've been using my effort to learn the world and to judge, then initially to turn my direction around in the other direction seems to take effort. And what I've experienced with the course, you know, like I've said, it keeps saying the same thing over and over and it's just pointing to the same thing. And like you've been talking about these how all the meaning is now, it's there. I'm not reading sentences and just saying, what did he say? It's like it's clicking in, it's clicking in. To me, there's a momentum that gains. And the most effort is in the beginning when you're just turning. And then as the ball gets rolling, so to speak, you know, it's like it starts rolling down the hill, it picks a momentum. And the more you do it, the more you don't have to think about it or it becomes, there becomes an ease and an effortlessness to it. Of course, that makes sense to me. It doesn't make, I've never, I've always been thought, what is this when I've heard people say that you have to go through one big trial at the end, you know, like you gotta go through all this stuff and then at the end, you have a giant test waiting for you. That doesn't cheat on that and that doesn't resonate. The way I see it is, to me, my experience has been that I went through lots of wandering and confusion and hurt and conflict and the more I've given my mind to really watching my mind and questioning my beliefs that it's gotten easier and easier and easier. And so, to me, that's good news, that the efforts required to just really at the beginning and then you start to see that it's mutually exclusive. Yeah, I think in the beginning it can even feel like this snowball or whatever is being pushed uphill. But once you hit the top, once you reach the crest and it starts going down the other side. You just gotta give it a kick every once in a while. That's called, that's pretty good. That's mind-watching though, it's really, that's something so new. It's like practice, practice, practice. That's the message that keeps coming through in the workbook lessons. It's like it does require practice, just like any new skill. Any new skill I'm learning. You can't put it on the shelf and expect to remember. It has to be a daily thing. A recommitment. And if I ask the Holy Spirit as I've been asking the Holy Spirit to guide me through the day in everything I do, then I'll get the help there. And I will be watching Bud's mind. I'll be watching my mind. That's the old, that's the old me.