 A life threatening situation that I have no control over. That's very difficult. That's hard She's been a survivor for 10 years and you tell that story as if she got diagnosed yesterday Do you it's always present? What what what does that mean? It's always present. What does that mean? Well, it's the the thought of When you talk about about our marriage We had got to a point. We've been married so long that we got to a point that I Did my thing she did her thing and business and Sometimes we saw each other before we went to bed most time we didn't and Then when you face with the Possibility that one of you may not be there and especially her that she may not be there that