 So if you are a normal healthy person, you're not watching this show All right, if you're a normal healthy person You don't You don't need to go searching for meaning If you're a normal healthy person you have a spouse and you have kids you have a profession You have education you have community and you have hobbies Right, you don't need to go searching for community I mean you don't need to go searching for meaning because you should have it in your ordinary levels of human connection Right, the ordinary person is not terribly ideological The ordinary person is not oh Man, okay, the ordinary person is not out there seeking meaning The ordinary person is not struggling with like you know the Automatry meaning of life if you're a normal healthy person you find your meaning in your human connections There people at work that you like you like your spouse. You like your kids. You like your relatives you like your community you like your friends you like your hobbies and That's all the meaning you need Now the problem comes when you don't have a normal level of human connection Which has characterized much if not most of my life. I have not enjoyed a Normal level of human connection and the fact that on a Thursday evening Getting close to 7 p.m. I'm sitting here talking to my phone Indicates that there are probably still some shortcomings at my ability with normal human connection Okay, so if you don't have normal human connection in in adequate Amounts What do you do? You then become desperate for meaning All right, normal person has human connection Doesn't need meaning because they find the meaning in the connection You don't have a normal healthy amount of human connection You are desperate for meaning if you're watching this show you are desperate for meaning You're watching this show. You don't have a normal level of human connection Okay, so what happens when we become desperate for meaning? We become highly susceptible to conspiracy theories to superstition to coping Deventing and and the thinking that we're saying something profound. Yeah, I just got out of the shower I have so much respect for you that I After biking 10 miles on my stationary bike, even though I've been kind of sick for the last 10 days I I took a shower and I put on a nice shirt Because I'm learning like Mark Zuckerberg about human connection. Okay. Oh You prefer the red shirt. Thanks mate. Thanks for the thanks for the feedback. Okay, so oh Thank you. Thank you Okay, so what happens when we become desperate for meaning? You convert to a new religion, which is what I did. Why did 40 convert to a new religion? Well, it was it was the profundity of the Torah It was the morally inspiring message of the Torah It was the opportunity for transcendent connection to you know, the eternal Right, that is what I consciously believed That's what I understood was driving me, but Yeah, there are now two people watching this show desperate for me That's what I understood was driving me. But even at the time I kind of had a sense That there was something else going on with me and I thought by converting to a new religion I'd be able to fix what was wrong with me because rather than doing like the real work of Going inside of fixing myself. I thought the equivalent of doing a geographic So in 12-step work doing a geographic is you like you move to another city So you get away from your friends who are leading you into addiction. So how did seventh-day Adventism lack meaning? Seventh-day Adventism lack does not lack meaning for millions Most seventh-day Adventists are terribly theological, but plenty of people find meaning in seventh-day Adventism, but I didn't and May have had something to do with like my need to show that I was smarter than my father Or rebellion against my father or maybe it just didn't didn't speak to me So seventh-day Adventism tends to last three generations First generation gets in and they become traditional seventh-day Adventists Then their children get a good seventh-day Adventist private school education and then go under secular university Which then tempers the seventh-day Adventism and makes it more of a lifestyle Then the third generation leaves the church all together So seventh-day Adventism is overwhelmingly a three-generation phenomenon And this is not you need to seventh-day Adventism There appears to be no way back for religion in the west Right as societies become more modern certain things inevitably happen One of the things that inevitably happens is that they become less religious now you may say oh 40 Look at the united states of america such a religious country much of this is just show Like my father said to me when I was a kid I think before we even moved to america america in religion in america is a Million miles wide and an inch Deep yet that half the amount of homework he gave his college students when he moved from a college in australia To america if you're religious in australia or europe it actually means something people like make sacrifices And it's it's a theme throughout their life in america. It's It's a social club It's a way that you display your your status It's a way that you try to recapture like rural communal values in a nation that is You know constantly moving back and forth is in You know constantly competitive and so Americans are incredibly dislocated like americans don't tend to Grow up and live in the same place or their lives. So they're constantly moving So the way they recreate that that traditional feeling of community the way they get foe community is by becoming religious I could have become anglican if I was looking for a more upper class former christianity Well, also I encountered an individual who had a profound effect on me So there are people just like there are types of pornography that will drive you wild Even though you're such a religious spiritual person. So too, there are people who will just They will plug into something in your psyche and drive you wild. So there's Throughout my life. I have had this huge thirst for father figures When I was growing up, I was much the type I was more interested in connecting with my friends fathers than I was with my friends like one of the greatest compliments was like When I was about 14 I was hanging out with my friend and his father came home from work and The guy's wife wanted him to do something said I need an hour On the porch drinking caught iced tea to talk football with luke because luke knows more about american sports than any kid I've ever met How did I know so much about american sports is one I primarily read books rather than watching it And also I went through every back issue of time magazine life magazine newsweek magazine and sports illustrated So from the time that these publications started up through the late 1970s I went through every issue Because I lacked normal human connection. And so I went to the library and spent my spare times in the library So Dennis Prager like was the ultimate father figure that I've ever experienced, but even today I get tripped up Like I can get tripped up with substitute father figures I didn't have a particularly good relationship with my own father And so I just had this huge thirst for a father figure. Luckily I had a sufficient relationship with my father that I never eroticized male attention Like I've never been erotically attracted to man, but I've had a huge desire for father figures now There are various therapists who have the theory and their experience in their practice that every Homosexual man they have known didn't have a relationship a good relationship with their father So they got caught up in their mother's drama and they were so thirsty for relationship with dad That they came to eroticized male attention. Luckily I had a sufficiently sturdy relationship with my father where that never came up But it still left me longing for you know, a father figure and I still experienced I've still made a fool of myself like a total like embarrassing fool of myself I remember there was someone who was much younger than me But he you know a few years ago He became like a substitute father figure for me and every spare moment I could I wanted to go hang out with him but Typical 40 I ignored his boundaries I ignored when he was telling me that he was offended by jokes. I was saying and things I was saying and so I just kept offending him until he just blew up at me And cut me down in front of other people and then I responded equally vehemently and completely destroyed that friendship How do men with an absent father? Eroticized male attention. I will try to find you a link, but it's therapist Mark Smith But you see this how many homosexual men do you know who have a good relationship with their father? right, let's say Anything that we really really yearn for At a certain level of intensity we began we start to eroticize it So even though I've had the yearning for a substitute father figure Luckily it wasn't sufficiently intense that I eroticized it But because I had enough of a relationship with my father my father played games with me My father taught me how to use the library dewy decimal system. My father shared wonderful books with me I had I had a good relationship with my father up until about age 11 And then I continued to regard my father as heroic up until I went to UCLA in the fall of 1988 And then somehow nine months at UCLA I came away from that experience. My father didn't change But I went in nine months from viewing my father as heroic to viewing my father as an emotional cripple And never really had much of a relationship with him after that So what did I want from my dad? well I didn't know I remember one One mother of a friend of mine said hey, you know these games you like to play Why don't you play them with your father and I said oh no, I would never do that because my father was a man on a mission And so I didn't want to you know distract my father from his his mission So what did I want from my dad? I was not conscious of wanting anything and yet I was yearning for substitute father figures so My father was not My father is not Socially at ease or at ease with other people unless it's with a very tiny group of people who share his intense interests Or he's the center of attention so Interacting with my father was really just one way Like I would say something my father would need to trumpet so How would you like to have a relationship with someone who has a phd in rhetoric and uses those skills To always let you know that they're smarter than you are and my father was smarter than I was My father was more accomplished than I am my father um was a You know, it was a better person my father. I never saw my father do anything Um illegal or or immoral, you know many christian evangelists, uh, you know steal money screw around I never saw my father participate in any of that but He was not someone that you could have a horizontal relationship with unless you're on his level I guess unless you had the equivalent of a like a phd in theology And with some limited exceptions so My father in our he had to win every interaction And so that was tiring and it was not fulfilling and I got tired of it and I gave up trying to communicate with him. I just gave up by uh By my teens I dialed way back any desire to connect with him and then by the time I was 21 Or 18 by the time I was 18. I'd completely lost any desire To connect with him after you've tried to connect with someone five 10 20 times And it doesn't work eventually you give up So we we're all making bids right when we are interacting with people We're always bidding for other people's attention and if they turn us down We're much less likely to bid for their attention again And if they turn us down two or three times in a row, we give up on people That's just how it works a man tries to make love to his wife She turns him down. He's then like 50% less likely to try again But let's say he tries again and she turns him down again. He's now like 25% less likely to try than he was initially. She turns him down again He's going to give up after a certain number of times that a wife a man gets blown off by his wife to have sex He will stop trying to have sex with her and he will give up and he will eroticize the attention of his secretary And particularly as men get a get older they have more and more need for admiration And the wife who's been with him, you know, working to put him through school You know after, you know, two or three decades washing his you know dirty underwear she's Often less likely to give him admiration than women who are not his wife Was my father a narcissist and if so, how would you define narcissism? I'm not going to clinically diagnose him. He just With rare exceptions, he did not seem at ease with other people unless he was telling them what to do Which he understood and experienced as being useful like being a servant of christ But from my non-christian outside perspective, it seemed to me that my father was not at ease with a few exceptions unless he was instructing people And I got tired of being instructed And I suspect my brother got tired of being instructed But other people, you know, my sister absolutely loves and adores my father She never tired. They had a wonderful relationship. She could share anything with him. So You know at least 50% of this problem is on me, right? So We can experience the same people very differently, right? My sister experienced my father very differently than my brother and I did My father was charming. He was a diplomat in public. He was bright cheerful and talkative at home cornerstone or business Yeah, so my father lived to be the center of attention on stage on tv You know the most talked about man in the community And his drive for that, you know destroyed his life because when you're that thirsty for attention and recognition and admiration You tend to make some poor judgments. My father made some poor judgments He his desire for attention and recognition which he experienced Right as standing up for christ standing up for the gospel standing up for christian truth That was his experience and the experience of those who admired him People who were not partisan in that way You know saw like an attention getter Storer someone who wanted to be talked about and his drive for attention Eventually alienated Enough people in power that he got thrown out of the something out of his church ministry in 1980 okay, so If you don't have normal human connection, you're desperate for meaning and when you're desperate you usually make really bad judgments so So I just noticed all these really smart people deal with Political and sporting setbacks with like coping and venting. That's just not intellectually rigorous Like this show is the major major leagues You probably don't realize this because there are only 12 people watching And you could probably find another live show like a nick fuente show where there are like 3000 people watching But the nick fuente show is largely talking about nonsense So we've got 12 people watching here. This is life changing stuff that i'm giving you This is based on the latest and greatest of academic research All right, this is the major leagues All right, this is not This is not triple a ball. This is not double a ball. This is not single a ball. This is the major leagues Like I read academic studies. I read books Like I take ideas seriously, which does not mean that i'm always right and you know It does not mean that i'm mentally well balanced and it does not mean that i'm this, you know, fantastic youtube personality uh, but I do some pretty serious work so This is the major leagues at times Like there are plenty times and this is single a ball, but there are plenty times This is like major league stuff. And so don't come to the major leagues Right, if you can't hit a curveball Right, don't come here to the major leagues with your single a ball all right You know, you've been getting away With you know, throwing these hanging curves in double a All right, you're now in the major leagues, bro. It's not going to cut it. I'm just going to hit it out of the park right so People who don't have a normal level of human connection have a desperate need to construct meaning So they put people like me, all right, I have a An extra need to construct meaning because I have some shortcomings in my abilities with normal human connection So that's probably why i'm so obsessed with power and status and politics Okay So you have a desperate need for meaning in our likelihood You're then going to attach too much importance and too much of your sense of self and too much importance on things outside yourself such as politics or sports results Like a dedicated sports fan will tell you that yeah, the the new york jets may have only won two games last year But I'll tell you all the reasons why you know, the new york jets are just the greatest And then I saw when donald trump won the 2016 election all these 140 iq people Who I was acquainted with who were democrats were like spewing that that was only because Russia hacked the 2016 election now there's zero evidence that russia hacked the 2016 election There was never any evidence that russia hacked the 2016 election But that was the coping mechanism for democrats And that was the number one news story in the united states for three years because our chattering classes needed to cope And needed to kneecap donald trump who they did not want to see in power so they just sold this completely bogus story and Treated it as though it was real, but there was never any evidence. There was never any substance to it It was an effective tactic for reducing the efficacy of the trump administration And it was an effective tactic for helping people psychologically cope But what kind of person needs to Believe such nonsense to psychologically cope, you know, someone who has an extraordinary Need for meaning someone who's got normal levels of human connection They don't have to believe bs about how russia hacked the 2016 election Then after the 2020 election results, it was so discouraging for me Almost all my friends Believed that the 2020 election was stolen and there was absolutely no evidence for it There's absolutely no evidence for it. So here I am I do some investigation, you know, I read the books I read the academic studies and within within Less than a week after the 2020 election. It was obvious There was zero evidence that the 2020 election was stolen. And yeah, virtually all my friends Were proclaiming as though their life depended upon it that the election was stolen Which is no fun to go against or your friends, but it's just pure cope It had no basis in reality So what type of person needs to believe something fraudulent such as that the 2020 elections were stolen Someone doesn't have a normal level of human connection Therefore has an extraordinary need for meaning Therefore out of that desperation believes What's too much importance on things that they should not be obsessed about because you should only be You know putting a great deal of effort in the things that you can control not things that you can't control But when you're devoted too many of your psychic and psychological and meaning and personality and your definition your resources into Into things outside of your control such as politics and then it doesn't go your way Then you have to cope and the only way to cope with reality is to Petal conspiracy theories and to buy into Superstition and other other nonsense That it was incredibly discouraging to see that virtually all my friends believe that the 2020 election was stolen But there's never any evidence for that So what was going on people lacking human connection of an extraordinary disproportionate need for meaning they have constructed meaning out of something that they shouldn't be putting so much importance on they shouldn't be Beasing their sense of self and identity and happiness in life upon external Political results and the only way they can then cope is by believing nonsense conspiracy theories so then the next major cope was Oh Joe Biden's not really in charge. Right. There's a shadowy cabal Behind Joe Biden who's really running the show like there's there's a puppet master then like George Soros is really running the show and Joe Biden, he's like, you know Mentally not there. He's he's checked out. He's pathetic. And so people, you know buy into these Non-fact based conspiracy theories because without it they would be destroyed They would have to face the gaping emptiness of their own life. They would have to face The huge wounds in their psyche They would have to face how they've completely effed up their life And people don't want to do that. So I told you the story about how I was feeling happy one day listening to rock music and I drove down the Down Sierra college boulevard and I drove right through a red light At about 70 miles an hour Only recognizing just as I was going under the light that I was going through a red light And there was a line of cars who had the right of way who had the green light to turn right in front of me And the only reason that I am not a mass murderer The only reason that I didn't plow into a car, you know filled with innocent people and kill them Is either divine intervention or luck or their forbearance So if you want to get real Reflect on how your selfishness serve the people around you All right, my selfishness my lack of consideration It could have killed untold numbers of people And you think that's the only example of where my selfishness could have devastated or destroyed lives That's the one that comes to mind But I don't know about you, but every few days or every few weeks what I get memories of like some other way That I could have just completely or that I did Just destroyed people devastated people because of my selfishness Because of my lack of consideration for others because of you know my drive. Hey, I'm in survival mode Much of my life. I've had the attitude. Hey, I'm in survival mode. I just got to survive And when 40s in survival mode when anyone's in survival mode They will do anything they will say anything and they will do anything to meet their needs Every addict uses pretty much everyone to meet their addictive needs All right, that's how I've spent my life in addiction And using you know pretty much everyone in my life to meet my addictive needs Thank god, there are quite a few people in my life who had good boundaries who said no And I sometimes I was able to respect that and sometimes I couldn't respect it and I just You know went off in a half in a half or tried to make life miserable for them But you know, I've been blessed with people who are still in my life today being in my life You know virtually all my life. We've been able to put up good boundaries where my addictive user Comes out. You know what my stepmother's nickname for me is? user user How many people you think know me better than my stepmother? Especially no one it's entirely possible. Nobody knows me better than my stepmother And her nickname for me very accurately is user user Why would she call me a user because that's what I've spent my life doing Using people to meet my addictive needs without care or consideration for others Like your pioneers Like our interaction. Do you think it's like a mutual caring Relationship that I have with Leponius you think that you know, I I you know Just you know, I'm concerned about him and try to help him and you know, do you think no It's just entirely me using him for fodder for my show or to buck up my spirits or to make me feel like I'm somebody I'm just a user right People who know me well know but what 40 years is a user And yeah, have I thought about all the babies I murdered when I masturbated Now I don't go around feeling bad I'm a user Right, I just you know, I know I need to grow spiritually and I've also done, you know, plenty of good things in my life So I'm not a caricature. I'm not just a user. That's not all I am Now I've also helped, you know, old ladies cross the street I remember I was out for a walk one shubbers and there was this Holocaust survivor Who was all confused and having a dementia moment and I helped guide him back to his home And then I thought oh, wow, this is like a Holocaust survivor I can adopt like, you know, how awesome is this I'm gonna like now I'm gonna become his friend I'm gonna go visit him and pretty much every day whatever he needs. I'll just be there for him So, you know, he's like all it seems to be excited to meet me. I'm excited to meet him I've got my Holocaust survivor and so he invites me to come visit him the next day. So I'll come back the next day And uh, he's far more interested in watching the cable tv news than he isn't talking to me So that was pretty much the end of me adopting this Holocaust survivor Like I go over to visit him and he doesn't want to be bothered. He just wants to watch the cable tv news. So there's my There's my uh Holocaust survivor He used me to get home Yeah with all like I've done so much masturbating And I've had a really healthy prostate. So I could like It would fly up to the ceiling Right and so with all the masturbation I've done And given that that every sperm is sacred every sperm is good every sperm is needed in your neighborhood I've killed more people than Hitler Now I'm worse than Hitler and I don't even feel bad about it Because I've learned to love and accept myself as a flawed human being Who even though I murdered, you know millions of potential babies by whacking off so much I didn't ask to be a masturbator and I didn't ask to be a user All right, I didn't ask to be an underowner or a sex addict or a porn addict or a debtor or Okay dependent. I didn't didn't ask to be a user But hey, I can't get you into a 30 year fixed And I very reasonable rate when I converted to Judaism. I got my own money lending kit So let's get together and make some money. I've got a deal for you Okay, so as I was saying, this is the major leagues. I'm a very respectable man All right, so don't come here with your AA hanging curveball All right all right, you try to bring your AA level hanging curveball to The major leagues of the 40 live stream and I'm just going to knock it out of the park And you're saying to me, well, you know, what the hell are you talking about 40? Well My virtually all my friends one believe the 2020 election was fixed without any evidence and two they believe that Joe Biden is not running the show So I tell them that's not a serious perspective unless you can Provide evidence for who really is running the show If Joe Biden is not the most powerful man in the world then Tell me who is And here's the response I got Ron Klain for one But do you even know who Ron Klain is? But he's he's Joe Biden's chief of staff So the question is if Joe Biden is not the most powerful man in the world then who is And the answer I got which is just a total AA hanging curveball which I hit out of the park Was Ron Klain for one well The question was who's the most powerful man in the world if it's not Joe Biden So if you then say the answer is Ron Klain And then you add for one you're just contradicting what you said right Ron Klain for one means That there are other people More powerful, right? I asked you who's more powerful. You say Ron Klain for one meaning you don't know You're just venting Right, you're just ejaculating all over my computer screen and it's cool because we're friends and you know friends let friends You know whack off with their ill-informed unsubstantiated unthought through you know coping ejaculations of pure nonsense right so most most of the left and the democratic party Were selling the russia hack the 2016 elections pure nonsense now Seems like most of the right and the right-wing pundits are selling nonsense like the 2020 election was rigged that you know covid vaccines are dangerous And that Joe Biden's not really in charge. So for all the right-wing pundits and the millions of You know ordinary republicans who echo their nonsense talking points None of them come up with a coherent Answer to who is the most powerful person So if Joe Biden's not running the show, who is running the show? Tell me who is running the show if Joe Biden's not running the show. So then I get this single a Hanging curveball they're bringing this single ace like the stuff that you you throw and you get away with You can throw strikes in single a right with this hanging curveball. It doesn't work in 40s major leagues So then I get stuff like you know a real leader You know knows all the minutia Like the real leader is like moving the minutia all around No, a real leader is not preoccupied with minutia Right being preoccupied with minutia does not make you a real leader It makes you a bad leader and someone destined for failure Jimmy Carter used to schedule who could use the white house tennis courts You wanted to use the white house tennis courts. You have to go to jimmy carter To to get permission for that All right, that's jimmy Carter was a president frequently occupied with minutia. It was a terrible president highly ineffective. So Joe biden And any effective leader does not have to Be preoccupied with minutia. In fact, that's the opposite of an effective leader So Remember during Reagan like the left said oh, it's just an actor He's not really running the show. There's this shadowy cabal Of, you know, right wing california businessman and Ronnie is just a front for this shadowy cabal of right wing Businessmen that was nonsense Does an effective leader crap his pants? Sure Sure, there's nothing about crapping your pants that inherently proves that you're not an effective leader guess what Have you ever taken three dances tea? so I think I I read the three dances tea had a laxative effect So I bought some three dances tea and I boiled up a lovely cup of three dances tea And I enjoyed my cup of tea. I think after my evening meal and then I went off to yoga And I had a nice 90 minute session of yoga And I started to make my way home And as I was making my way home I was feeling this growingly intense intestinal distress And I am walking like a retarded person trying to keep my cheeks together so that I don't crap my pants and And the problem is the closer I get to home The more intense the need is for me to evacuate And so I'm holding it in I'm holding it in and I get in through the gate Then I get in to my door And I get into my apartment And then I walk through my apartment And then I open the door to my bathroom And there is the beautiful pristine porcelain toilet seat And all I have to do is drop my trousers And sit on the seat and I can just let go But This growing intestinal distress has built up and built up and the closer I get to that pristine beautiful toilet seat The more my bowels want to release and evacuate Now I don't want to I I I'm a I'm a gentleman. I'm an old-fashioned Victorian gentleman I'm not going to paint any disgusting picture But it's entirely possible that you are a great man and you have Defecated in your pants Maybe a little bit Right Even great men sometimes think that they're just Sending out some wind into the world And with the breaking of wind There is an accompaniment which is a little bit awkward and inconvenient and a little bit messy and smelly And that does not mean you're not a great man So It was such a wonderful story with the three dancers tea that I think I Yeah, that happens to everyone like you're walking home for like my Olds like or even a mile or half a mile dying to get the bathroom And you hold it and you hold it and you hold it and hold it and you get in the gate And then you get in your door and then you even get into your bathroom but Boom Like before you sit down and properly place yourself. There's just this massive explosion And you wonder why is this happening to me? I held it in for 15 minutes It was it was agony and now I've created a huge mess So That doesn't mean you're not a loser and it doesn't mean you're not in charge Press one if you have never Soiled your pants Hey press one if you have never Thought that you were just breaking wind, but there was an unfortunate accompaniment to the breaking of wind Right doesn't make you a bad person and guess what we're all fallible right we all Have you ever stepped up to the urinal? release your stream shaking yourself Tucked yourself back in your pants And then walked away and you feel like drip drip drip drip down your leg Now obviously this wouldn't happen to a great man like me But it happens to to lesser morals All right, all right, it is not unknown Among men particularly as they age that they step away from the urinal They tuck themselves in and then there's drip drip drip drip drip And I didn't graduate diapers until I was four and a half. So I realized I was a little bit late But you know how I managed to graduate diapers. Do you know where I graduated diapers? In the holy land in Israel, I think this is the ultimate reason I converted to Judaism But that's when I learned I no longer needed to use diapers It was like at four and a half I had this divine revelation that now I am a man. I can largely control my own bowels okay, so So even if you don't have 100 percent perfect control of your bowels or your bladder You can still be president of the United States And you know what if you're an imperfect fallible human being You don't have to hate yourself like this is this is a place for you Right reflect on how your selfishness has harmed other people Right reflect on that Get clear about that Start to make amends for that And then you won't have to build up this imaginary world where you devote so much of your sense of purpose Your sense of identity You put, you know, all your all your eggs for happiness in life on political or sporting outcomes Right come to terms without your selfishness It's devastated the lives of people around you And then you don't have to live in this fantasy world so George W. Bush caught himself the decider, but the chattering classes said oh, George W. Bush is not really in charge Dick Cheney is in charge there's absolutely no evidence that Dick Cheney was in charge of a George W. Bush I've read the book there's a great book on the Bush-Cheney relationship Right days of fire Bush and Cheney in the White House. I've read the book All right There's no evidence that Dick Cheney was the decider of the one pulling the shots George W. Bush was always a decider and During the two terms of the George W. Bush presidency Cheney steadily lost power and influence so Most of what the chattering classes talk about is not very important Most of what's on the front page of the New York Times, Washington Post, LA Times is not very important right there's no inherent connection between popularity prominence fame and importance like this But you are watching right now is the most important live stream Going on in the entire universe right now and yet only 12 people are watching it So does the fact that only 12 people are watching this live stream mean that another live stream which is talking, you know Nonsense about Joe Biden, but has 3000 live viewers that that's like the real deal. No, that's Minor league ball, bro. This is the major league right Don't bring your your single-ay hanging curveball Into 40s major leagues here and think i'm not gonna knock it out of the park Because you're my friend and you know, i'm gonna take it easy on you right you You come at the king you better not miss All right, you you you want to shoot shoot the ball Right, you're gonna try to shoot the ball in front of me like don't be psychologically devastated when I smash that ball away I used to play basketball. I was good friends in high school with rob stutzman So may I ask who is rob stutzman? So he was Arnold Schwarzenegger's Uh communications guy He is president of stutzman public affairs that rob stutzman, you know Probably probably the most important republican consultant in california And that's correct. You cannot dislike youtube videos anymore How tall am I? I am six feet tall approximately maybe five 11 So rob stutzman. I went to plaster high school together. He was two years younger than me So in my senior year. I was the editor of the hillman messenger school newspaper. He was the sports editor And we would play one-on-one basketball on several occasions and he was on like the freshman Basketball team and then the junior varsity basketball team. I was never on any organized basketball team, right? He had he had 1,000 times more organized basketball training than I did But every time I played him I won All right, so don't bring that single a hanging curveball to the 40 verse So Don't tell me that you know covered vaccines are unsafe and untested Like don't give me that nonsense Why are dislikes getting cancelled because they thought it was discouraging people? It wasn't conducive to building a community I used to have a cigar I used to have a cigar and I used to hold the cigar while I was talking And it made me feel strong and it made me feel masculine And it helped me overcome Unfortunate feminizing tendencies But I don't know where it went Like I need a cigar I need a cigar to do these like I don't smoke. I'm not going to smoke, right? I was raised as something adventists. We don't drink. We don't smoke We don't lend our bombs to other blokes Right, that's what it means to be a something adventist. So but just like hoarding it like you would have such a masculine effect on me So it's always been absolute nonsense that Dick Cheney was calling the shots George W. Bush was the decider anyone who says that Dick Cheney was calling the shots It's not read serious books on politics. They're just they're not ready for the major leagues Now it doesn't make you a bad person Right, someone who's been to the major leagues and someone who's never even played single-aid ball Right, there's no inherent superiority between either person except in the area baseball All right, so Sometimes on this show. This is the major leagues. Sometimes on this show. You're getting better stuff than you will find. I'll swear so Don't give me this nonsense that Dick Cheney was calling the shots or that, you know, Barack Obama, you know, his his birth certificate shows that he was born in Kenya Or that uh, Russia hacked the the 2016 elections Or, you know, the 2020 elections were stolen from the right for winner or, you know, covid vaccine is really dangerous because there's this There's this website where you can you can say if you add an adverse reaction to a vaccine and there have been 700,000 reports and You know 700 You know 17,000, you know, whatever. Don't give me this nonsense. All right Just because someone could make a report that an adverse reaction to a vaccine. That's not evidence of anything right I feel stronger at taking Uh beef organ capsules that is not scientific evidence The beef organ capsules that's purely anecdote. It has no evidentiary power And that you feel like because you know, Joe Biden may have crapped his pants at a public gathering That means he's not the decider. Then you're wrong. Give me an example. Who's got the real power? Like what is the Biden administration doing that's incompatible with Joe Biden's 50 years in national politics? All right, the Biden administration reflects Joe Biden. Joe Biden has never been an ideologue It's always been a basically a union guy A center left pragmatist And as the democratic party has shifted further left He sat to pivot to accommodate to his party just like donald trump made all sorts of compromises To make himself acceptable to the republican party, you know, donald trump was never like a republican, but he made Compromises, you know push pro-life agenda, which he didn't share But you know, he just went along with the republican party for all sorts of things so that he could get power Just like guys, you know, tell women that they love them that they'll always care for them They'll always protect them so that they can have sex Like guys lie to get laid all the time people will lie to you people will take everything from you that they can People can't help trying to do that. It's up to you to have good boundaries Where do good boundaries come from good boundaries come from focusing on the things that you can change All right, your own life your own choices your own decisions And they're accepting That which you cannot change, right? So it's not like grant me serenity guy grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change I just heard this no you have to accept the things you cannot change and then from that comes serenity, right Keep the focus on yourself and that which you have influenced and power over Right, you'll automatically develop good boundaries but Place most of your sets of self and meaning and purpose and happiness over things you can't control You'll have terrible boundaries and you'll be miserable Have I lied to women to get laid? I'm sure I did I mean, I can't think of Probably too ashamed. I'm probably blocking out all those examples, but But uh, you know if I talk about all the women that I You know laid then I'm just being a pompous ass All right, like oh my god 40s discovered that a life of you know hedonistic sexual promiscuity Is not the path the lasting happiness Oh, wow 40 is so profound. No, I'm just uh, you know, I'm pretentious so Much what the chattering classes talk about is nonsense like, you know dick journey is the real power Hey barack obama, not a real american Uh, donald trump was only because russia hacked the 2016 election, right? So so what's what's on the news is just frequently You know nonsensical But at least we have each other man I have been going at it. I had a really good shower Right. I felt like crap for 10 days and uh At least I've had at least I've had a good shower and I hope my sore throat's going. How long can you have a sore throat before you should get get worried? All right Like I've had a sore throat for 10 days 10 days So I think it's I think it's getting better No, don't bother me Don't bother me I just I just need a break here No surprise control step workshop Okay, uh chat says covet wasn't invented in wuhan institute due to peer review The evidence does not point to covet being invented, right? That's not a serious case But I understand you want to believe that because you don't have normal levels of human connection Therefore you have an extraordinary and desperate need for meaning and to say your desperate need for meaning you Do Need to buy into bogus conspiracy theories because it makes you feel better It's a coping mechanism. Some people drink too much alcohol other people take too many drugs You buy into bogus conspiracy theories to hold yourself together Please But I think I know about myself my unmanageability the 12 steps in you you're listening to this From open mind and a new experience with myself my unmanageability the 12 steps and especially I would love to debate kenneth brown Because he does have a lot of interesting things to say. I'd love to just interview him or talk to him Luke Ford reads the relevant articles of books and owns the magapheeds. Check me bros Okay, how did an old decrepit man who poops in his pants win the presidency? Right. It's like two guys Are in a forest and there's a bear chasing them right one of the guys Is old and craps his pants. Does that mean automatically that the bear will eat him? No, all he has to do he can crap his pants all he wants. He just has to be faster than the other guy Right or Joe Biden had to do Was to be a little bit more appealing than donald trump So donald trump had so alienated much of america That Joe biden just had to come across as less scary than donald trump and he succeeded All right, he didn't have to be wonderful. I've never met anyone who's passionate about Joe biden there's no fervor and intensity and excitement about Joe biden but biden and trump were in the woods and the bear Was the loser of the 2020 election And biden simply got out of the woods just a little bit quicker a little bit smarter He ran a better campaign than donald trump. He came across as more competent to the unbiased observer All right, not saying he is more competent. I'm saying he came across as more competent He did just enough to win Without being as scary as all the really left-wing candidates who are running for the presidential nomination So that's how an old decrepit man who allegedly poops in his pants That's how he won the presidency and that's how you too can win courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference And the chat says I have three kids and a happy family life Yet I think the election was stolen. How do you explain that bro? You don't want to face the darkness in your life. You want to live in a world of delusion You don't want to confront how your selfishness is hurting other people So you prefer to live in a losery delusional world just like some people Pop opioids and other people drink to excess and other people watch too much sports and People pursue their distractions and delusions to get away from the confronting the darkness in their own soul Right before our eyes coup Nothing to do the 2020 election So We looked at step 10 Really deeply and richly Okay People say biden isn't running the show that who is right? Are you giving me? Oh a shadowy cabal man George sorats man ron claim. He's really running the show Right, so you know better than the really smart people who actually You know study politics and report on politics for a living But you have the special insight a little of the political pros don't give me a break It's so obvious when people have power. We instinctively suck up to people who have power All right, you can go to a party and you immediately Unless you're complete moron You can start detecting who has juice and who has power. It's just obvious people flow gravitate suck up to those in power So if Joe biden isn't the most powerful man in the world that who is more powerful than Joe biden Who are people sucking up to more than Joe biden? You can't come up with anyone or you can tell me it's like shadowy conspiracy, bro Shadowy conspiracy behind the scenes Through emotional sobriety. I thought you know what that's not really unpacking the big book So we're not going to really do that. Do you want emotional sobriety? Meditate for a few minutes every day about how your selfishness has Devastated the people around you. Just think about that. I got that from fred laskin. I didn't come up with that dr. Fred It's certainly I think rabbi tovia singer is a very troubled man and people should be very careful in dealing with him particularly Women should keep their distance from rabbi tovia singer. He's a very talented man He's very good at some things He's a dangerous man Wow emotions sobriety the word Portings that both i've made personally as well as the ones especially the ones with dr. Helen berger um We have And uh, laponia says it may be a group of people who are running the scenes. It doesn't need to be one man Yeah, okay name the group who's the group and who's in the group Because people will naturally suck up to them if they're the real source of power It's like here's another nonsense talking point from the chattering classes It's like it's all about like this, you know, it's super powerful advisor So in 2016 2017 it was steve bannon man. He's the real power behind the throne He's like manipulating donald trump and uh for boros johnson. It was dominic Cummings his advisor He's the real power behind the throne for the desire. It was rasputen man And uh, the chattering classes in the news media are always about oh, this advisor is really powerful It's it's carl rowe man. George w. Bush. He's stupid. He just does what carl rowe tells him carl rowe Is george w. Bush's brain? Right, this is like chattering class obsession nonsense like this always this advisor Who's the real brain behind the people who actually will power like don't fall for that nonsense, all right? George w. Bush is more powerful than carl rowe The czar was more powerful than rasputen Donald trump was more powerful than steve bannon donald trump did not need steve bannon To the degree that people said he did Chair bradden's running the show like don't go for this chattering class nonsense about oh, it's this You know this this secret advisor. He's up this week and this other advisor. He's down this week The series of four That we've done in this year quarterly, which will be completed the fifth of the session in january january 29th so I think that's more than you need to know about emotional sobriety and i'd like to Go right into step 11 and as i was preparing it for over the weekend and now it was Very present to me that that's if there's any one step. That's my favorite step I'm watching this show dope sick. It is so dope. It is a great show watch dope sick. It's on hulu Dope sick. It's an amazing show. It's so humbling. All right. There are erotic scenarios There are situations to which we are all incredibly vulnerable and they're often pharmaceuticals to which we're incredibly vulnerable so i don't know Who do you primarily blame for the opioid crisis or let's say someone someone Someone dies From opioids. Do you primarily blame the opioid manufacturer? Do you primarily blame the person? So i'm not sure So i'm not all in. Oh, it's the manufacturer and i'm not all in Manufacturer had nothing to do with it. It was you know, it was all these losers and drug abusers. So So on the opioid crisis My tendency is that That is 90 about the vulnerability of certain people that how do you become less vulnerable? You get into reality you focus on the things you can change You get clear about how your selfishness has hurt people around you You make a man's you clean up your side of the street. You become less vulnerable to opioids to pornography to Inappropriate sex to drugs and to alcohol This guy, okay, he's the real deal. This is what sobriety sounds like I'm a poser. I'm a poser compared to this guy It is the one i I mean i've come to the conclusion because this is what i talk about the most most of my writings most of my recordings or on step 11 What about all the plastic surgery joe biden had he looks totally different than he did a few years ago come on man Having plastic surgery does not make you any less of a man Does not make you any less of an effective leader does not morally compromise you it says nothing about a person Right says nothing I remember I once said about to to rabbi from South America about how the leader of the country He was from it added a lot of plastic surgery and he's like who cares it doesn't matter It doesn't matter. You're not a bad person if you get breast implants Right, you're not a bad person because you get plastic surgery All right, you can overdo it. You can sometimes it can be a symptom of a problem. All right Like we've got to stop like Having all these, you know 50 checklist points that we can automatically use to dismiss the humanity of people We don't like right. This is a circle of love and inclusion. We're not here dismissing the humanity Right. We're recognizing and reveling in our humanity. We recognize our frailty. We recognize our blind spots And this is this is a a growth community where we're growing together for good reason It's the whole point of the 12 step process and it's the whole point of being human this to be conscious Step 11 from the big book page 58. It's not a passive step We're seekers. How did six people dislike this dream the stream? I was a seeker This is stream gold. This is a strong steady Stream of gold coming right at you This is a strong stream of gold coming right at your face And yet six people downvoted. How could that be? It's a shonda. No, that's what I was But I wasn't a finder until I was four years sober in the program at 48 And I began to discover What I had been looking for all those years. I went to a monastery I was there for seven years. I left in 1964 You know the amazing thing in my retrospect? I spent seven years in that monastery studying to be a catholic missionary priest And uh, you know, and I've said it it was silent not the strict trapeze silence, but 247 silence, so obviously in classes and those kinds of things We we had conversation And it was a Reasonable amount of recreation by their standards Have you guys read this fake news website? It is so good fake Us net it's by these philosophers and there's a terrific essay here the fallacy of rationalism All right, so rationalists tend to identify concepts with definitions that way if you if you can define a concept then you can Prove it's true or prove it's false, right? So rationalists tend to place great faith in defining things Rationalists have principles Right, they believe that knowledge has a top-down structure and you just get your foundational principles, right? Then everything flows from that, right? It's like Euclid's elements is like the rationalist model for for true knowledge Spinoza Leibniz paradigmatic examples ain Rand right The rationalist view of how do you accomplish something is you first have to know how to do the task and this knowing Will consist of knowing a set of propositions that adequately describe The task and this applies to knowledge too a rationalist says that to know something you must know how to know things You must know some propositions that describe the correct belief forming methods that result in knowledge Rationalists believe in philosophical proves you should be able to verbally justify Your propositions and your positions you should be able to say to know how you know it and the way you know it And it should be by having inferred it from some other proposition that logically supports it So you should be able to produce the series of steps that lead to the conclusion When confronted with an apparent counter example to a principle He is lauded the rationalist instinct is to reject the example in favor of the principle Rationalists believe that they're empiricists And almost all empiricists are rationalist thinkers So Hume was an empiricist and a rationalist So what's the mistake? Okay rationalism is false But uh, I can't prove that in just a few self-evident axioms and deductions from that but Number one don't assume that most concepts have definitions Usually the way you know a general principle is by generalizing from particular cases So the way we really work and the way that usually is superior to rationalism empiricism Deductive or inductive logic is abductive logic. That's where do you Reason what's the most likely best answer is the it's the approach of the detective and the detective story abductive logic Okay, so the way we know general principles is by generalizing from particular examples You don't start with general abstract principles. You start from particular cases Most knowledge does not come from articulable justifications Reality is annoyingly complicated Every generalization has numerous exceptions. The way to proceed is abductive bottom up But not always. There really are some self-evident axioms The rationalist problem is over-perceiving The power of reason and self evidence for finding stuff for self-evident, right Great essay here on fakenoose.net So much good stuff here the anger merchants. All right, this show is against you know The anger merchants Feeding the the pornography of hatred and outrage. All right So there's this former facebook employee francis haugen who's blowing the whistle on facebook for Sowing outrage discord anger and other negative emotions. Well, why is facebook and social media doing this because this is what people want This is profitable think about how good you feel when someone makes, you know, a devastating Outrageous response That aligns with your point of view Right, the media has been doing the same thing as social media And profiting from it for centuries. They're just not as effective as social media Right, the the news media don't focus quite as much on outrage Because maybe they haven't figured out that outrage sells better Sells better than anything else outrage compels interaction more than anything else hate mongering All right, maybe only porn is a superior way to engage people news media Stokes outrage and passion. That's effectively the facebook and twitter and social media But that's their business model stoking outrage and passion Right stoking the passions to maximize engagement. That's yellow journalism, but it's all It's the business model for almost all journalism, you know media Regularly sensationalize the news. They try to make everything more dramatic than it really is So you've seen that video from the weather channel You know reporter pretends to be able to barely stand due to the high winds Then two guys appear and walk behind him casually having no difficulty right Traditional media have the same basic business models as facebook and twitter capture attention then sew your attention to advertisers So the content that makes Media money and makes social media money is usually content. That's bad for you Just like the most immediately accessible compelling food is bad for you The most immediately accessible compelling entertainment and music is bad for you Most immediately accessible and compelling live streams are bad for you If it's easy and exciting, it's usually bad for you. And if you're an addict, it's not just bad for you It's dangerous for you So left-wing outrage mongering is largely race-based and identity-based and And so the core message is to various minority groups is your group is under attack Society is exploiting robbing murdering killing your people And the ones are responsible the dominant white Christian male majority and the people who disagree with our ideology So every successful belief system has belief system defenses So those who disagree with this belief system, they're destroying society Must not be listened to promoting this this other belief system You know the key to saving society so for modern left-wing outrage ideology It's important that everyone be told just how unjust and outrage worthy The current society is and no one be permitted to deny the core points of this ideology Then The right-wing outrage mongering is similar your group is under attack But here the culprits are different. It's the elites, bro. It's the government. It's the media It's the academics the people who disagree with us and the immigrants. So hatred against elites And the ruling class It used to be a staple of the left now It's the staple of the right like the left has become much more intellectual sounding in the last couple decades in America and the right In the last decade in particular has become much more populist and dumb sounding So now it's the right-wing commentators who are warning about the evil billionaires who are running our society and cheating the little guy This is the essence of Tucker Carlson's business model outrage mongering So the right is learned from the left so Tucker Carlson will tell you that leftist billionaire elites are importing millions of immigrants to dilute the voting base Outvote the existing native-born votes. No, there may be something something to that is but The way Tucker does things it's uh Usually crass and sensational but very entertaining So the leftists don't actually believe In any of their arguments supporting immigration. They don't care about the rights or interests of foreign-born people They don't believe that immigration benefits society Obviously immigration is destroying society immigrants are murdering our people, bro The leftists all know this. They just don't care all they care about is getting more political power for themselves The children of immigrants are just going to vote democratic And that's going to turn all the red states and the blue states and we'll be living Under a third world tyrannical state ruled by the democrats forever, bro So you may wonder what evidence supports these beliefs Partisans do not care about evidence. All they know is this provokes outrage Tucker Carlson doesn't try to argue the democrats are doing the things he says. He just asserts it as self-evident so argument from outrage p is outrageous therefore p and uh Listen to a strident commentator like Tucker Carlson from your side of the political spectrum And when Tucker Carlson gets to his most outrageous accusations against the other side Stop and observe your emotional state. You're outraged, but You're having a great time. You're having a grand time. You are so happy. You're thrilled. You feel morally superior You feel reinforced in your righteousness. It gives meaning and drama to your life So eschew argument from outrage book for it in your own belief system Don't feed it if you're feeling outraged about something you heard Ask yourself. What's the evidence? Bye. Bye