 Until the summer of three years ago my life was going perfect, I have three beautiful children, amazing husband, great job, we just bought our dream house and the last thing I needed was my dream car. Of course I've gotten this too. I remember driving this new car and just got overcome with emotions. Here I come from you know poor family from communist Poland and here I am I never thought I would have it all. Week later I found out that I have a cancer. It was quite an experience to say at least I was not truly not that surprised the cancer around my family. My father died at 40 at brain cancer, my brother got a cancer 40 and I figure here it is, it's time for me. Was I scared not really? I'm not sure if I fully you know really accepted what was happening at the time. I just knew I had to take my surgery and see what's going to happen next. Surgery follow-up two weeks later went pretty good. The doctor, my surgeon came and I thought so are we done? And he just looked at me, now you have to go to your cancer doctor because of course there it was some other issues and said I will give you a phone call two weeks later and I will tell you you know what kind was and what's happening. So he did call me home and he said I have stage three four and I asked him how my stages are they. He told me four so I knew I was in trouble. Having three small children, five-year-old and nine-year-old and 12-year-old that was the hardest part. But after the surgery they told us to wait several months and see how the disease would develop and see what's going to happen next. So we did wait. In the meantime since I did not have family over here and that except of course my husband and the children when I did call my family in Poland they told me please don't tell our mother she will not be able to handle the news. So I really wasn't allowed to tell my mother what's really happening. It was incredibly hard. My sister Margaret encouraged me not to do it. Unfortunately six months later she found out she had a breast cancer IBC and even though I couldn't tell her about this she was forced to tell my mother she has a cancer. So even though it was hard for me to deal being sick myself the most important and the hardest things were my children my sister. The only thing I could do not to panic and you know obviously follow what the doctor says is to turn to God and that's what I did and truly that saved me. I had an amazing episode one time when I was basically helping poor people I written the check to help children the poor children to support them. The woman on the Bible study came to me and she said I have to tell you something. I said okay what is it and she said I just have a message for you you are healed and she's taken off the bracelet from her hand and it says Jesus I trust in you. So from this point on I knew I'm going to be fine I wasn't scared anymore and whatever's going to happen it's going to be okay. On March I had my auto treatment in my cancer shock about 60%. Actually I was so ignorant I thought it didn't work because I suppose I thought it's going to be gone first time and then I had to repeat the treatment one more time and my cancer was gone. I felt incredibly lucky and blessed that I have an amazing care amazing doctors amazing nurses and a muffin and tempa and I'm very grateful for what has happened to me certainly life-changing experience. The only thing I would tell anyone who is actually diagnosed right now yes you can listen other people's stories but at the same time you have to believe in yourself if some people did not succeed doesn't mean it will not happen to you we're all unique individuals with all our weaknesses and weaknesses and strength and anything can happen and everyone can hope for a miracle that's it. To speak in the same Polish. I'm not to say nothing is separate my husband like to say something. My name is James Starner and I'm about this husband and I guess caregiver you'd call it and my advice would be to not despair and inform yourself of all the treatment options but don't over inform yourself if that makes any sense sometimes when you dig for too much minutiae and small information you can get sidetracked and panicked and start applying cases to your spouse that doesn't apply she may be 40 years old and suffering from a disease that she can handle better than perhaps the case study of an 80 year old showed and it can send you into unnecessary despair so I would just say stay abreast of all the what's going on but don't overdo it because information overload is not the best thing during treatments.