 It's so important to be your own best friend. Hello you guys, welcome to a new video. For today's vlog we're just gonna go out and get myself some Starbucks because it is raining and I honestly was just in like a gloomy mood. Like I barely could even get out of bed this morning because of the rain. Like it just makes me feel so unproductive and so just like like it just honestly really unmotivates me and it just gets me a little down. So we're gonna go out for no reason and we're going to go do a couple of things. We're gonna just have a fun time with ourselves. So here's the little comfy fit for the venture today. We got some comfy soap pants that I thrifted and this is from Princess Pauly the sweater and to spice up my outfit I have some jewelry from On Route and I would just like to thank them for sponsoring this video because their jewelry is so affordable and cute and very good quality and sustainable. Sustainable ladies and gentlemen. 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No like it literally rains way too much here like I'm not even kidding you if you guys live in the Vancouver area you know how much it rains here it literally rains every single day like we don't get a break if I showed you the weather right now there's a rainfall warning right now. What kind of city gets a rainfall warning like I can? Anyways it's just like in between the months of January and I would say April, May in between those months it's like we get rain so much and it can get a little depressing like honestly this is why I'm like trying to treat myself today and just do something for myself because I basically work from home like I'm home like 90% of the week I would say and you know what seeing the rain outside and just having to stay inside because of it it doesn't make me feel so good all the time and you know what that's okay but this is why it's important to cater to yourself and to do things for yourself and me not having that many friends and you know it's also gets to me as well and that's why I have to do some fun things and make like make a reason to get out of the house because I would always just kind of stay home and I'll just be like well why would I go out for what but it's like I have to kind of give myself a reason to go out because if you don't if I don't get myself out then I'm literally gonna be home all week sitting just looking at the rain and if that is not the most depressing thing you've ever heard I don't know what it is so yeah basically I'm saying I want to move to Florida or Hawaii or somewhere tropical where it's sunny um for a lot of the year round but it's not as easy as it sounds you can't just move so it's okay it's okay I just want to go on I don't know I just want like I've just been wanting to change a scenery I don't know what that holds for the future we'll see but I was literally last year 2021 in like September I was about to book a one month trip to Hawaii me and Joel and Madison were about to go to Hawaii for one month like it was this close to happening and then the virus got worse so everything started shutting down again and like you know how that cycle works I just like really am craving a change of scenery but it's okay today we're going out we're doing something for myself and it's gonna be fun just you guys and me I love hanging out with you guys because you guys are literally all my best friends and it honestly even though I don't have many real life friends having knowing I have you guys is like such a warm hearted feeling that you guys like watch my videos and I appreciate it so much like you don't even know like I I just love you guys so much so anyways on that note let's get driving oh my god I literally parked my car I'm not even kidding you like this is not a drill hold on five five five oh my goodness I rarely see this angel number I need to search up what that means that is a sign if that is not a sign I don't know what is the sign is this time I should move to tropical destination maybe it is so I just went into the grocery store and then I went into Starbucks I bought myself flowers because you know what it's such like a rainy day and gloomy day that I needed flowers in my life in my room and for myself to cheer myself up look at how cute they are they're just yellow and I'm just gonna put them in my room and you know what that's like the little spicy little things that you can do to treat yourself and make yourself feel you know special and cheer yourself up like now I'm excited for the flowers you know what I mean just like it's literally just the little things but I got a pistachio latte with oat milk for the first time like I've never tried their pistachio pistachio latte before so this is my first time I haven't tried it yet because I was waiting to turn the camera on okay that's good but he doesn't scream pistachio to me like I can taste a hint of pistachio but it's not very strong it kind of just tastes like a regular latte if you know what I mean yeah like it's it's good but it doesn't give me like it's not pistachio in my face which is good so I think I'd give it like a 7 out of 10 I really hope that the rain isn't too loud right now and you guys can actually hear me but I just basically wanted to do a little bit of a moments with Michaela segment because I haven't done one of these in so long I feel like and this is like truly what I love doing I just like sitting in kind of ranting about something that's on my mind or something that I want to tell you guys or whatever it is or realization and I just wanted to tell you guys that it's so important to be your own best friend you can't rely on anybody in your life like you can't 100% rely on your friends you can't 100% rely on your family because if one of those options fails then it's like what do you do you're gonna be lost and yes it's great to have that support system but at the same time it's so important to have a support system within yourself and have that type of relationship with yourself be your own best friend treat yourself like your own best friend like it's like saying going in the mirror and start starting to say negative comments to yourself like if you don't feel like you look at it and then you look in the mirror and you're like it'll like pointing out all your flaws about yourself it's like would you go to your best friend look at her or him and be like by the way like this is ugly that's ugly like you would never ever do that to your best friend because you value them and you love them and you don't see flaws in them because you love them right like you wouldn't and it's also like disrespectful like you wouldn't do that so think about that to yourself and it's like don't do that to yourself don't be so down on yourself because you want to do that to your best friend if your best friend was feeling down what would you do you would cheer them up you would do something to cheer them up you would give them words of encouragement you have to start doing that to yourself i know it sounds cheesy but it's so true like building that relationship with yourself where you treat where you treat yourself like a best friend is so important ever since i graduated high school honestly like i don't really have that many friends like i've never had many friends but especially since i graduated high school i don't really like see friends pretty much ever i would say the most i hang out with a friend is once a month maybe like even that besides obviously joel my boyfriend who i see every day but i'm just talking more like friendship wise just friendship wise like obviously joel is my best friend but it's kind of different when you're in a romantic relationship versus having just like your girlfriends or you know what i mean something aside from that romantic relationship but yeah i've never really had many friends and it's made me realize that like it's so important to put in the love into yourself put in the effort into yourself to be in love with yourself like i know it sounds conceited but it's so true because if you're not in love with yourself if you're not best friends with yourself then you're not going to be able to rely on yourself you're gonna be negative to yourself sometimes and it's you're not going to have the best relationship to yourself but at the end of the day you're all that you have everything else disappears around you you're gonna be what's left and you have to question that like am i okay with being alone like that like do i do i have that relationship with myself where i can be on my own two feet and be alone and i feel like that's so so important to have and so important to kind of reflect on because it's like me not having having that many friends and that like people that i see all the time it's like it's honestly forced me to think of myself first and honestly going to grind like i feel like lately i've just been grinding a lot and this past whole year like 2021 i was grinding like i was doing things for me and not having that many friends around me like also kind of pushed me to do that because it's like i didn't have to rely on anybody else i didn't have to put effort into anything else if that makes sense it's honestly a good feeling like just to be focused on yourself but it can also be like lonely like you can also think of it on the negative side where it's like oh that's lonely or it's good to have a balance and yes it is good to have a balance but at the same time if you never have that relationship with yourself then nothing is going to be balanced i would say 2021 was a year of me literally just like focusing on myself and following my dreams and putting things into action i think i did that because of the relationship that i have with myself because i have so much trust in myself that happened and you know i was always like reassuring myself in positive ways i was also shutting down the negative things i would say to myself and that made me very confident within myself and at the end of the day you're gonna have like i've had friends go come in and out of my life like not many but there's been like a couple i'm a firm believer in everything happens for a reason like i feel like that's such an important mentality to have when you go through things in life because it makes you it forces you to pull a lesson out of it rather than just see it as something negative you know and that mentality has helped me so much honestly i think one of the most powerful things i see in someone is when they don't give a shit about anything they're focusing on themselves they're on their grind and that is it like they don't give a shit if they have people around them supporting them they don't care because they have them themselves that's the most honestly the most one of the most powerful things that i've like personality traits or whatever i've seen it off of someone in someone before it's such a vibe thing where you're like whoa yeah i encourage you guys to focus on yourselves and create a relationship with yourself be your own best friend because at the end of the day you're only gonna have you you don't know what's gonna happen around you you don't know who's gonna bail on you who's not gonna be a friend in two days in a year um so make sure that you create that relationship with yourself so if anything anything can come at you and you'll be okay because you have that within yourself and you're your own best friend because at the end of the day that's literally all that you have if everything else disappears so yeah i just wanted to get that across i was just like in my mind that was like wow i was just like thinking to myself like it's just so important to have a good best friend relationship with yourself like it is so important anyways i think i'm going to drive home now i feel so good like just getting myself out of the house into just like a fresh not a fresh environment because i'm not in a fresh environment but like just like getting out of the house after like working and sitting feels really refreshing even though it's a gloomy day i'm trying to see the positive side you know boost my mood do little things and yeah that's just what i wanted to get off my chest so i hope you guys enjoyed that little moments with mikaela i'm going to do more than more often i just haven't done one in a long time but i'm definitely going to be doing more of them because i have so much to say and it's kind of like a video diary to be honest like it really is a video diary time to go home i feel like i took myself on a little date that was really cute it looks so pretty honestly this just adds like a little bit of color you know and freshness like this gives me something alive even though it's raining and gloomy this is like adds the alive factor to my room you know what i mean it's a little things so cute i love the pale yellow color so we just had like this giant mason jar um we have a couple of these giant ones in my house so i just used it as a little flower vase because it's honestly like perfect size and i just cut the flowers down like a lot like a few inches so that it can fit because this is not like i feel like as tall as a regular vase but since i chopped the ends it works and it looks really cute apparently every single day you're supposed to trim your flowers like a quarter inch i think like trim the bottoms every day and then that helps them last longer so a little pro tip okay so i want to give you guys a little bit of a period update so if you guys um don't want to hear about this then you can skip this portion but i just want to talk about it because it's not should be something weird to talk about and i want to be really open with you guys and potentially help one of you if you're going through like a similar situation as me or you know anything like that i just want to try and help out and talk about it on my channel i want this to be a safe space for everybody so basically you guys know if you do know if you've watched um a couple of my videos or some videos you know that i have very very very very bad period pain and it's like unbearable to the point where i literally throw up because my body cannot build pain and it's just literally being getting progressively worse i had an ultrasound done a couple months ago and my doctor called me with the results and she basically said that it's like they didn't detect anything wrong like because i was thinking like i have endometriosis basically she said that the ultrasound was clear so you probably don't have it and i was like okay and then i just kind of didn't know what to do after that so i just had an appointment with a naturopath yesterday and he basically told me that i he's like 99% sure so he basically asked me a bunch of questions and everything and he said like you probably have endometriosis because when you get an ultrasound it's very highly unlikely that you can detect endometriosis through an ultrasound because the imaging is so shit for that so basically he said that he's very confident that i have it and so he wants me to give a referral to the pelvic chronic pain clinic i believe it's called um and what they do there is they pretty much like go inside and they analyze everything they basically like rule out what's wrong with you why are experiencing this pain on your menstrual cycle and they help you and if it's endometriosis they can attempt to surgically remove it because the only way that you can really get rid of endometriosis completely is through surgery like they have to surgically go in and remove it so it's not like an easy fix the thing is is that clinic takes a year to get into like the waitlist is really long so he suggested that in the meantime i should get an iud and that will take away my periods like a hormonal one and that will take away my periods like completely so i don't have to suffer at least like until i get um potentially you can get into the clinic to get an appointment so i don't have to like suffer in between like that's a year away like it's a long time and i'm not willing to suffer hello as i was saying he said that literally like the smallest fraction of a hair like tissue like whatever the endometriosis stuff is it could be so small it could go completely undetectable because it could be that small but it can cause so much pain and he said the pain that you can feel having endometriosis while you're on your period the pain you could feel is equivalent to being stabbed in the abdomen or gunshot how crazy is that like like blowing my mind definitely and i like i've always said like it definitely feels like i've been stabbed in my abdomen and that is because like the when you get stabbed or shot whatever the reason why i feel pain is not because of like the knife or whatever it's because of the internal bleeding bleeding that happens and that same kind of bleeding happens when you have endometriosis on your period that can happen so that's why you can feel the same amounts of pain and that's why i feel so much pain is because i definitely have endometriosis but anyways so this is something very serious and he said that a lot of women deal with this and it goes undiagnosed or they feel too embarrassed to talk to a doctor about it because it's such like a tag can be such a taboo thing and i just wanted to talk about it on here in case i can help somebody in case um somebody else is going through this because like i said i want this to be a safe space and i just want to be able to talk about anything and everything on here because this is my channel so if you guys have horrible periods just know that that is not normal and nobody should be sweeping that under the rug because the amount of pain that women can endure through all this shit that they have to go through their periods and all of that like is crazy and i feel like it's just so underrated and doctors can just like wipe it off and be like oh whatever just take some painkillers and that's it like bye but no like this is a real thing this is a real problem and there is there can be solutions for it you can do something about it so if you guys have horrible pains like that then please go and see somebody and go and see somebody until they listen to you and help give you solutions i will put the naturopath that i went to post it i'll put his link down below you guys want to book a session with him if for whatever reasons but he's really really good and he actually understood the pain that i was going through like i was like wow do you actually understand like i was just so happy that someone finally can like understand and help me so he does do like online sessions if so i'm pretty sure you can like talk to him or from around the world which is really cool but anyways yeah i just wanted to be a voice for people who have terrible period cramps because it is not fun it's something that so many people suffer with and that shouldn't you shouldn't have to suffer and it should not be swept under the rug because if you can feel pain as severe as getting stabbed in this stomach that is not okay so yeah i just want to get that off my chest and tell you guys because in case any of you are suffering with similar things please get help because you do not have to suffer and i do not want to see anybody suffer so i hope that i can be a voice and let you guys know that you can get help and there are things that you can do so i will be taking you guys along the journey on what i do specifically to help me in case you guys were suffering too i was thinking about this in the shower and i was just kind of thinking like women are so strong what they go through like literally we grow baby we have to go through a pregnancy we get birth we have a mental cycle of the month like that shit's crazy and then our label does is like a strong people in society like yes maybe they can can be more physically strong but like coming through that like internal strength or women all the way women but yeah i just wanted to get that out in case it can help anybody because i love you guys and i want to be a voice literally on the bathroom floor because i didn't know most of the camera but i wanted to share this with you because i feel like this is a very good idea i got this idea from my cousin natasha because on her tiktok she posted she basically said how she's creating an email account for her daughter and she's like writes letters to her on the email account and then like someday she's gonna let her read all the emails that is such a good idea but for like a journal tactic so i'm literally just about to create a email address and it's going to be just for my journals like i'm gonna journal on there so that it'll like never disappear it'll always be there and it has like the date attached to everything and honestly with journaling i don't really like writing physically writing because when i journal i like to go ham and writing just doesn't do it for me like my hand starts hurt because i'm writing so much and it makes me like not want to do it so i realized that i like typing it out so much better and that's like the perfect way to do it so i'm literally gonna create an email just specifically for my journals and i feel like it's such a good idea like i'm just so excited and in every like um subject i'm gonna write like what it's about like if i'm having a bad day i'll just be like bad day and then write a couple keywords of the day so that if i ever want to go back i can like you know but yeah i just feel like it's such a good idea and you guys should do the same i feel like it's a cool time capsule because i just feel like it's so much easier than journaling because you can write so much more it's like quicker and so organized if you guys want to do it you should do it with me um but yeah i'm so excited to start this but yeah just thought that i'd share um i'm going to end this video because i feel like it's already been so long but i hope you guys enjoyed and um thank you too on root for sponsoring it again if you guys want to like shop the jeweler with my code the link is in the description love you guys so much and i'll see you guys in my next video thank you guys so much for watching peace out