 deserve this whatever this is it's meant for me it's meant for me my biggest fear being alone stuck with alone nothing but these fucking plots even if this is just me on my deathbed dreaming why can't I dream my friends these rocks will do stupid fucking stupid why can't I remember the names of the ones that burn I deserve this I deserve this I suggest and it and it and it and it and it you're fucking kidding me I've dreamed of my death bed before let me have this I'm certain I'm being punished for my lies my failures that cost so many their lives I don't think that I could change things I didn't want to change things wanted to hide hide from the truth