 I cannot do this with you guys in here. So I wanted to film a little get ready with me makeup video. I got a small tripod so I could do this on my desk because I've got some complaints about the lighting. I always do my makeup tutorials in the dark. So I'm just gonna get ready and then I'm gonna change what we're going to dinner in Fairfield. I thought this was Amanda's birthday dinner. I was gonna do like a get ready with me go to birthday dinner, but it's not Amanda's birthday I just moisturized. I'm using the beauty counter adaptive moisturizer and then I'm gonna use this. It's the Dior nude air. It's one of my favorite foundations, but it's hard to find. You either need to get it at the Dior store or at like a Dior counter. So if you can see these have healed but they still have like a little bit of pigmentation left, the hormonal zits that I had. So I'm just gonna. So I am back in Connecticut if you can tell. I'm in my bedroom at home. We are going to be here for a bit and then we're gonna go down to Florida and close on the house and get it ready. I really like this foundation because it's really thin and dewy. I've never really used a foundation like this honestly. The consistency is like water, literally. So I asked on my Instagram for recommendations for videos for me and that is super helpful. Like I just, I so prefer asking and like really seeing what you guys wanna see. I'm gonna be using the Shape Tape on the Tarte Shape Tape concealer. It's really helpful for me because I have so many ideas especially at night, I'll be in my bed and I'll just be thinking of all these video ideas. Like I'm so excited about them. I'm gonna wake up and just be like, I don't know, I really appreciate people writing into me and telling me what they wanna see especially people who actually watch my videos. So sweet, I've had some people come up to me recently in public like restaurants and stuff and just be like, oh my God, I love your channel. That's just like really crazy and weird for me because I do create these videos and I know that I get views and stuff but I just feel like, I just kinda feel like no one actually watches and I'm not even saying that in like a bad way, I just, I don't know. Okay, sorry, I built lighting. I felt like it was super weird. A suggestion that I got that repeated itself was to do a mental health video and I'm gonna put my hair up, I think. You know, I'm just a big believer in positivity, what you put out is what you get back. Just like law of attraction, part of me or part of the problem or why I haven't made a mental health video or anything of that sort is kind of because I don't like saying negative things. So like, I don't like being like, I feel super ugly today, this is my insecurity, this is what I hate about myself. This is what I hate about my relationship. Like, anything like that is negative and it's not positive, it's not helping me and that's personal. Also, I hate more than anything people who feel bad for themselves who sulk in their own misery. I think attitude is a choice. You're the one who has to make yourself happy, you're the one who has to pick yourself up. You're in charge of your own destiny and I don't wanna sit on here and be like bucking, just like dumping negative energy on my channel. That is so not what I want because I do go through depression and anxiety. I am prescribed medication, I've been through stuff. My family has been through stuff. But it's like, I don't know. I'm just not super keen to be dumping that on my channel but I also know that I want this to be personal and I feel like it is important to share the good and the bad so I'm navigating that. So I think what I'm going to do is make a mental health video and talk about law of attraction and how I picked myself up out of a bad place. How I no longer feel bad for myself. I try really hard to not speak negatively about myself and about situations. I try to be an optimist. I try to be a realist. There's like a lot of things and I feel like that's something that my friends love about me, my boyfriend loves that about me. So I want to share it with you guys and like, I don't know. I feel like I can help you guys. Another video suggestion that I got was to do a video with my boyfriend and he wants to do a video with me. So I think we're going to do like either like him doing my makeup or like a taste test thing. Sorry, I'm just using like this DR backstage palette as contour and then some Hula bronzer. I'll focus it on the outside of my face and then I'll kind of go in with this and buff it in. This is a bronzer that I've had for a very long time. It's MAC. It's called Give Me Sun and it's kind of orange, but it's really pretty and I use it kind of where I would use blush and I use it on my forehead where I would naturally get sun. It really warms up your face and then I'm going to take this same brush and I'm going to like fold it and I'm going to put it all over my eyelids. It's like kind of contouring, but it's like kind of starting my eye shadow. You look so cute. I got a new eyebrow setting gel. This is my favorite. I'm like still unsure about my eyebrows. I think it's just weird because they were so bushy and like out, not outgrown and grown out, that it's like weird to see them like that. I got two new lip liners from Kat Von D, Lolita II and Bow and Arrow. I think I'm gonna use the Bow and Arrow. So for me, the best way to line my lips is to overdraw the top, like the very top and the bottom, not the sides. That's a pretty color. So like, so I'll overdraw like here and down here and then I'll follow my actual lip. A lot of the time I use lip liner as a lipstick and I'm just gonna swatch it all in. That's Winnie sleeping in the back. So I just go to the shower. My hair is kind of air drying, which I kind of like in the summer. So now I'm gonna focus on my eyes. I think I'm gonna do a little bit of eyeliner, but with powder, not liquid eyeliner. I do a little bit of wing and then I'll do like a little bit here just to kind of make like more of a cat eye effect. The nice thing about powder is you have a lot more control. Like you can kind of mess it up and then smudge it. You don't have two SD cards? No, I'm sorry. I'm using my Kylie powder, by the way. I'm just gonna take this color and just kind of like smudge out everything that I did with like a little bit of brown over it. Okay, so I just color my lashes. I'm gonna go in with the IT Cosmetics tight line. Yeah, I'm kind of happy to get out of Toronto, honestly. So bad, but whatever. No, you don't, you look so cute. Hi, okay, step right down. I can't get over the car. Yeah, how good is it? It's like the hottest thing. I can't get over it. Okay, I'm gonna put on a little bit of blush at this beauty counter date. It's kind of like more of a deeper pink, like not peachy. It's more like a flush. Oh, hi. Hi, bitch. I'm just gonna go for my lip liner one more time. Well, I don't know. And then I'm gonna go in with the Better Than Sex mascara. Remember when Gigi, like not Gigi Hadeed? Gigi Gorgeous had a video with her ex-boyfriend with this. The, we're talking about the OG ex-boyfriend? Yeah, like the fucking guy who like- Yeah, his name is Corey. Yes, Corey. Corey Benny. It's like you loved him. I did, I loved Corey. He's short of a movie. Then I'm going to- That's better than him, are you saying? Sorry. Who? I don't wanna talk about that video. What? Give us the tea. I'm not gonna speak on a video. Yay! Riley is a YouTube channel too, so. I don't think so. You look so cute. So then I'm gonna use the Beauty Counter highlighter stick. It's kind of like a bomb. Don't really like glittery highlighter, but it's like kind of dewy, it's looking. Mesh guy, with a poly. Like, perfect. Can we have a look? And the lightens. I don't know if I like, I like don't have a tag on it. I think so. Okay, now I have to get ready. One more of this. This top is from Shop Rumors. They sent it to me, it's so cute. The back is really cute too. And these jeans are from Mauritia. Okay. I changed. Zevi actually drinks a lot. Not with me, and not with me either, but with his- Oh wow, with his- Oh, with his boys. Yeah. Hi. Boys plural. It's like, I turn into like a weird boy when I drink, like do. Like you need something that clothes. Should we take a trip to Best Buy? No. Not today. So I did the video. I'm about to go in the hot tub with my boyfriend. I'm at home now. I'm really looking forward to doing the whole video on mental health and just like, my like personal experience with it. Like what I've found works for me. Like the whole law of attraction. Like how I'm a positive person. How I've like chosen to be a happy person. And that's the life that I live. That's something I'm really passionate about. And just really excited to share with you guys. I felt like this was a super jumbled video, but I'm excited to edit it. Until next time.