 Good day mate, 40 here. So, I was plugging in my iPhone to power it up, plugging it straight into my laptop. And using, is there a C, is there a C thing? That's where I plug my, my tech, my new stream cam into, is there like a C thing you plug into? And I plugged in my phone to power it up. And we're looking across here to Bondi Beach, plugged in my phone to power it up. Like it, it killed my internet, just killed the internet for everyone where I'm staying. And I didn't know that, took me a day or two to figure it out. So when I lost my internet, I immediately started plugging and unplugging. And in the course of plugging and unplugging, you can imagine what happened. I didn't plug the plugs in correctly. And so I created a problem for everyone else. So in my anxiety about technology, I made life worse for everyone else. So, I don't know about you, but when I have clarity, that makes everything so much better. And when I don't have clarity, just drives me mad. So I need a name for things. I need it like a diagnosis. I need an explanation. Oh, mate, I can really lose my cool. So, there's a spiritual lesson here. Just thinking about patience, all right? I, I'm not a very patient person. And I've come to realize that patience, like a whole lot of virtues, is really only possible indirectly. All right? It's not really possible directly. And so I can try to work on my patience and it does absolutely no good. And I find that with a whole bunch of other moral issues. Like, if I work on my patience, it's like trying to stretch the tight muscle. Like, a lot of people are into stretching and chiropractic adjustment. And it doesn't really work because if the muscles tie it in spasm, it pulls back into place. And so you stretch and stretch a tight muscle and it's going to pop. All right? You can't get very far. And if you simply adjust your musculature, all right, then the muscle spasms are going to pull, pull the musculature out of alignment. That's why a chiropractic adjustment only seems to provide benefit for a few hours or a day because you haven't addressed the musculos spasm. But when you release the musculos spasm, then your body comes much more into alignment. Everything works much better. So too with, with patience, like you can try to, I find you try to develop patience. It just doesn't work. It's like trying to stretch that tight muscle. But what does work is like a change in mindset. So if you go to like a silent retreat, you come back a lot easier to be present and patient. And so when I'm hungry, angry, lonely and tired, all right, I don't tend to be so good with the old patients and consideration and courtesy and decency and empathy. Like all these virtues aren't nearly as accessible to me when I'm hungry, angry, lonely and tired. So like direct, direct working on these particular character virtues doesn't really work for me. So watching out for being hungry, angry, lonely and tired and then indirect approaches such as a whole new relationship with God. So I've lived in God pretty much my whole life. But I needed God with skin on it, like I needed to hear how people with my problem would find access to a higher power and enable them to overcome this self-defeating compulsion that was also affecting me. So God just didn't do it. I needed to be integrated into a community with, with steps and tools and a change in mindset like a new pair of glasses. That's what I needed, because just working on patience or working on not under-earning or not deading or not masturbating or not looking at porn or not acting out emotionally with my various compulsions just didn't work. I needed new pair of glasses, a change in mindset, just like releasing a tight muscle instead of trying to stretch it or trying to manipulate the bones and the bones just pop back into place. And my character defects just pop back into place unless I can release the bad habits of character that have got me into trouble. Now I've believed in God my whole life and didn't do anything for my emotional compulsions. Didn't do anything for my addictions really. So people haven't say, oh, I'm sober by the grace of God, but they believed in God prior, right? And they were still drunk and acting out. So God's not enough. You have to make the decision to abstain and integrate into a community where you learn from other people and you get access to a new way of living so that your happy joys are free and therefore much less likely to be impatient. I don't know about you, but when I'm happy joys are free, patience comes much more naturally to me. When I'm hungry, angry, lonely, and tired, patience comes less naturally to me. So anything I can do to be in a state of emotional equilibrium, to be in a state of emotional comfort. Look at all these helicopters. What's going on with the copters, mate? So many copters working out around Bondi. So anything I can do to be emotionally stable and calm and happy, that's going to work to the benefit of everyone who's around me. I need to get centered and at ease and in reality. So the more I can do to have an accurate understanding of reality, my place in reality, then the less likely I am to get into trouble and to act out and to be impatient and rude and lacking in empathy. The more sophisticated my top-down models for how the world works, the less likely I am to be impatient. And the more sophisticated my understanding of how I work bottom-up, what's going on inside of me, the more likely I am to be rooted in reality and to be at ease and free, like a free muscle, a muscle spasm that's been released, then has much more flexibility, like a lot more room to deal with the ups and downs and the stresses of life.