 Wow, you guys are having a lot of fun. And then there's that part. That's sick. This is the thing that we need right now. Let's not just make a video. I'm so excited. Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh yeah. Wow. Two pieces. Two minutes. Yes. Look at this. This is cute. Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god. This is good. This is good. This is good. This is good. This is good. This is good. Hi mom. Have you been? Yes. Good. Good. Oh. Time just right. Somebody pulled out and turned up Chief Parkfoot Jerk. So he pulled out. There were two Spaniards! To a generous company's gumball, my name is Mike Vanderhoek. I'm the Executive Director for a generous company. Tonight, what you're going to see is a festival we started a year ago and it brought back this year. It's an opportunity for works to be presented in their nascent stages. People to check in with an audience in process. People don't get that opportunity very often. Everybody focuses on this idea of, well, it has to be perfect before I can let anyone see it. What we create is a world in which you can show it to an audience, have that audience talk back to you and then go back to the drawing board and respond a little more. That's the premise of the entire festival. The first act you're about to see is a two meeting tonight. Different readings every night, so come back tomorrow. A place from Woodridge Playwrights Laboratory, Alumni. Woodridge Playwrights Laboratory is a lab and run in town here and have run for a while. We send a message out to 86 Alumni Playwrights saying, we're doing a festival based on neurobiology plays. Neurobiology ideas. We were fascinated about the idea of the brain, how the brain responds to art, and why the brain responds to art. 18 climbed on board and said, yes, we'll write that play. They written these plays within one month. And this is the first time these words have ever been spoken to an audience. They're going to be all read by these actors. It's a very exciting time to see something in its very early stages. I want to thank you all once more for coming. I want to tell you that everything tonight is free, aside from the gumbo. We do everything we have. We give everything we have. A generous company is truly generous. But we can only be as generous as you allow us to be. So when you exit the room, there will always be someone standing at it with a hat, throw whatever you've got in the hat based on what you've seen and what you appreciate. Outside of that, I would like to introduce the first two plays. One by Kay Frithrop Peterson, named Don Bet. And one by Yasmin Ben-Witt. The end of the world as we know it. I give you the Wyrmbridge players. Short play by Kay Frithrop Peterson. Characters, Chet Osvid and Rachel White. Setting, living room. Time, the present. Living room. Christmas decorations, like music. Maybe the Beach Boys, Snoop John B. Chet and Rachel sit at a table playing Texas Music Bowl. The plot, in turn, are exposed. They study their old cards. Chet has a noticeable tremor holding his cards. Instead of poker cases markers, there are slips of paper. Chet pushes the rest of his papers into the pot. All in. Oh, Rachel tosses her cards on the pot. Chet immediately rests within and pushes them back in. You can't fold. Of course I can. I can. This can't be just a record. There's pot odds. You can't fold. Pot odds are playing more, so I can fold. Fold. Think about what you're doing. You're already back weeks, a week's worth of dishes, showers coming, trash being, and a microwave cleaning. I've got a stove clean, including the burgers. A stove shoveling and a toilet storming on the line. Well, it's just husband cleaning all the vanishes and taking out the Christmas decorations to put me all in. It makes no sense. I don't want to play. I'm trying to get it this way. All you have left is laundry this week. That's it. Next hand, you're going to be all in anyway. But it only costs you laundry to possibly with all of these other chores. It's no greater. Middle of a risk of a mess on the payout. You're already invested. I don't want to. You just lose. I always lose. I guess I need to figure something else out, figure this out. Two years clean. But I guess we'll just... I didn't want to say it. Move, guys. That's what you're saying. Rachel will show us her car in a minute. Chip, Alexis slips and starts to deal with it. Just take it. He calls it the last slip. Come on. Maybe you'll win. Chippin' the chair, they say. Don't want it. So just take it. This was your idea that you could clean. You could let me win once in a while. It has to be real. If it's not real, then it's not real. You can't keep doing that. Acting like it's okay because it was my idea. People make mistakes. Okay. Then let's talk about that. Let's talk about it. Run. You're too. So you're not going to play anymore. Rachel killed the music and grabs the slip. Correct. What am I supposed to do? This was good for me. You have plenty of time to think about that while I'm paying off all my debts. For two years, you're fucking cleaning. She makes a check and so it's packing up the cars. She returns within our Christmas and so it's taking down the decoration. And there's a track line. You know that? I placed my first bet when I was seven. I was going to cap being jockeys by nine. Nine years old, Rachel. Two years. I haven't won a game in two years. We could at least flip coins or something. There's going to be some elements. What? How much did you lose? How many times did you lose? You've never said it out loud. You've shown me some statements once. I've never seen enough number. I've never even bothered to ask if that was old. Every other time I've said, you know I'm not sure. Can you just make it in the house? So this is about the no game. Forgive me. I'm not wanting to give you more reasons to be. I've tried so hard that you got sick. And that's why I can't leave you. And that's why I let you back in this house. And that's why I suggested betting the chores because you did everything around here for two months while I was laying up. But it was a mistake. Helping with the chores would defeat the purpose. But maybe I can help with other things like waiting your stomach tests or vocabulary courses. I can do that. Then what? I can just spend a little bit of my money. It's chemical. I used to spend that half hour in the toilet. You know, chains won't be to come. I used to sit down at the table. And your eyes get all beaded. Shoot around your head. I'm sorry. I'm so bad to look at her. I can't help it. It's like something funny can happen to you all. That's how you were the first time you were a sex. Let me know about the eyes first. I can't believe it. Stop shaking. And I tried to hold you as tight as I could. And you just get shaking more and more. The first year. You shook every time. More and more. So across from you, you want to shave for a stupid number of months. Why did you have to help me like that? I thought I was going to suffocate you. I never felt safer. I was happy when I stopped. I never made a detail. I knew that. Why are you going to go so high? 45. $500. But I hated your shaking. I walked in there and I saw you shaking. I thought you were going to have a seizure on your laptop. I saw a banging slip from your sportsbook and I knew I was going to kick you out before I had any real idea how much you would regret it. Make sure you get yourself your shirt in a loaded manner. Make sure it's in your philosophy bag. It breaks the chat's heart. But then, when I was little, and I started making a sip before we could do what was grown to mine, my mom couldn't deal with the diabetes and the vomiting, so my dad would clean me up when they were sick and I couldn't eat. My mom couldn't sound like me. Her eyes couldn't open. So I would eat. I would then, because of the mind that we're out to dinner in this bag filled up in the middle of this $30 state, and he could gracefully leave a party when I had an emergency or if a client was out embarrassing me or even come back to the house and get an infection and can't get out of bed for two months. There's people who can stomach it and people who can't. I was lucky enough to find a man who could because some people could not bring him back. Jeff retreats his laptop. Log on to your sportsbook. Why would you want anything? Oh, I'm sick. It's a bad idea. You're not sick. It's a disease. It's terrible improvement. This is a disease. Crohn's disease. I don't have a choice. You make a decision. You get to make a choice in everything. What's that? A thousand dollars a year. I need to see it. Why don't we do this? I'm always lucky if you know what I'm talking about. You're always lucky if you know what I'm talking about. I can't have a disease. You understand? There are people who can stomach it and people who can't. I can't. You can. What's funny, I really am sick. This is science. Not everyone who drinks too much is an alcoholic and not everyone loses 45,000 dollars is a gambling addict. People think they're sick. It doesn't mean they're sick. Where did I go to college? Do you know where I went to college? Michigan State. We have a physics lab together. That was my second college. Only my dad knows that. I had a dropout of CMD after I dumped a semester's worth of student loans at the Soviet evil tables. I told them I thought I had a flow. And you know what he says? He says, how much money do you want? And I said, I've got five guys in student loans. And he looks at me and says, call me when you're using me. Make the choice that this marriage was worth more than a thousand dollars. And the bankruptcy I had. I was never going to turn. Those work medical bills I had discharged. You can make that choice. It's only a thousand dollars. It's only a nine bet. What's that for every one you've lost in your lifetime? You cannot be sick. It's just the first time I've been clean for two years since I was seven years old. I am not putting that money in. Not happening. You need two years. You need to be better or you're never getting better. And I need you to be better. We can't be better unless you're better. It'll be gone. Once it's in there, it's as good as long. Don't do this to me. Don't put me, don't put this on me. Please, don't put this on me. Not like this. I have been so good. I have been good to us. I took care of you. I cleaned up. You have to not do anything and you'll be better. You can prove it to yourself and to me but just not do anything. But this marriage, you could do that. What's the number then? I believe you're bigger than this. We're better more than this. I'm not in your marriage. Why? I've already done the last problem. How much do you really need it? Say it, Chet. Goddamn it, say it. $76. Chet puts the numbers in. It destroys them. It starts to shake. Everything inside Chet heard. He turned to the music background. Same song. He leaves and returns. He leaves and returns. He filled the furniture. Anything. Desperate. He approaches the computer and retreats. Numbers take over. Bring it back. He sits down. He faces the temptation. He hides. The shaky rose more intense. His skin is crawling. He has to stretch his fingers and arms. He has to try and make it bother bigger than his feeling. He shrinks. He expands. He shrinks. He shuts the laptop. He opens it. He turns off the music. He starts to place the bet. Place the bet's trine inside of his face. Feeling he starts to leave the body. Each bet he places. Each trine leaves him a little more still. But there don't be still. The end of the world as we know it. By his involvement, post-apocalyptic, post-economic fallout world, the US, the UK, Australia, New Zealand, South Africa, and Canada are at war with the rest of the world. Notes. The language should mesh and blow accents from all regions of the New Empire. Language is deliberately connected as an abomination of e-addict speech from all the various and low languages. Scene one. The homecoming. I'm not a pretty city girl because I am a pretty city girl. I'm standing next to a pretzel stand and I'm not a pretty pretzel because they are party and club entertainment. So they are a little held across the way, which is not a part of what I'm telling you. Because it's a American draft beer, which may as well be fermented human piss. I don't know if you've been doing it in human piss. Don't you think like that? You would know because you fucking know everything, don't you? Anyway, speaking of fucking narrative and... I'm going in there and I'm going to give the fashion group way that I look that will stream his nutsack when he offers me a damn Adam and I'm going to get fucked on below for bloody marrying and I'm going. Because it is what the way you think it was. You remember wearing natural crystal necklaces, walking through the forests of North Country and the northern islands rattling through the country with the sound of Joseph and the distance communicating with the galaxy where the people who are not all people by the way, disappeared into when the white fucks came to this land. That's up, the white fucks. I know that we aren't totally back when we aren't fucked. And maybe that was a little negative and not but not for 100 years. So that makes up. It's me, me. You haven't all been married to Jesus. Well, he and I have to say to you at Christmas what is so fucking mad about one guy getting nailed up. People didn't want him. We did a few things that pissed people off and he got the fucking nail for it. How many other boobs got it? The other asshole got off because he knew how to talk to people. He knew how to get somebody on his side. Let me tell you what I think really happened. I think you're a guy who's like any other fucking cult leader. Okay? He knows the voices like maybe he was with a friend there which generally makes people difficult. Let's not get too pissed off at the masters for not believing in and then the voices told him to do some weird shit. Some of it was radical. Alright. And I hate people nervous because there was a big cake of shit going on. I don't load to that. Out of the Jesuses who just didn't have compressed people. The original Jesus in me is original and may get us too nervous for a lot of fucking reasons. And why? Because our brains are rationalised emotions for white people like you would believe. We get scared. Our brain clicks to the overdrive so that we don't have to feel pain. Our brain knows how people make us feel so we can't change our minds so quickly about how we feel for people. I'm 27 years old I've never been an adolescent. You know what? I fucking said it and I've never been an adolescent because I didn't want to let my brain make me beat me. Remember back when I was skinny? You get skinny and I don't remember that. You know what? I know because I'll take that from you because I had to fit 12 and you don't remember. And because that brain really used to make me go to school I used to stick up my bag and then I lock up and then I go to bed and it won't happen to me. And once it spilled on my night I don't have to deal with the smell of it for hours. Everyone thought I had some kind of infection because I smelled like fish and then I was never going to get tipped into prom because I was like fuck you! And no one would sit next to me. I didn't eat at school because I got a bully every fucking day of around beer fucking food and weird fucking love and a weird fucking parents car and a weird fuck for making me go to volleyball training. Thank you dad. For making me play with the university because every fucking girl will tell you on girl wants to play with a bunch of 20-year-olds. You get the hang of eating my lunch because you just can't even be in volleyball. Frankly, if I were a grown-up but thank you all the time because when it's cold outside a few munchies you can't live without bloody fucking bloody marriage. So do some of that. You're not going to have to be a failure. Do you know why not when you're coming with me on that? That's me. It's something I learned. Because you're supposed to be short that I don't care for the world, not make me vulnerable to it. I learned to feel anger this year. Of course, just a sense of me out of my body because you're always saying how good things were that they fucking weren't and I couldn't get to a place where I felt anything good. I felt anger when I told my strength someone in my office recommended to people you don't need a lot of fucking help on a kind of cabinet inside that fucking middle-aged woman. I went to him and I said it sounds like you had control of your parents. You really, really want and you know what I said to him before he came out of the back. I was explaining that I have grandma and grandpa say in my mind that the summer I was alone and you wouldn't take me to the hospital. The summer I was coughing my guts up into my mouth and crying because I know from that and grandma, grandma finding me to take me to the doctor and he looked at me and his eyes were wide I always remember his face he looked at me and his eyes were wide I thought he was angry because I'd gone from normal but he was disgusted because I was nearly dead and you were already just taking me in and when we saw they all came flooding out I remember the crust in my teeth I remember the crust and the blood and how it flowed because I was his old man with the horns and I met him tomorrow and I came up, I should be he had me put in and how about medicine how about that? Ever since then I'm the first one here to fucking sneeze in alcohol and that's what fuck do you know what else is your fault? do you know what the fuck else is your fault? let me look the way I do now I've come over there in my experiments and looking at my little fucking weight and you know what I want to do? eat a fucking steak I'm just stupid I want to fucking eat a small little small thing I've got a calm life I've got a smart alcohol with a beer and a stomach that's not good to do to his chinos I need to tell you that he's a piece of software company you take what I want to do let me tell you what I'm going to think I'm going to wish that equal parts are someone cracks the hatch to claim it sucks my fucking soul out of there that toast of no big one I don't know what's fucking like because the truth is that doesn't bother me so much that people here are fucking mad at me and it's not so much better in the city just because people are better and other things can be made up and it's a magical fight it's not that easy working on study about emotions down to heaven working on study lots of government funding give you really pleased with the world that we're going to but probably we'll be able to get there in a month or five or thirty sit down and I'll get some of this something I'll set a little bit of emotion either anywhere from just a little bit to oh fucking hell and you know what I came here last year I still am near to not back then but he was at the back then he's just a magical fight and he's on that desert he took a fork in his right hand and had the plate in his left and smashed the plate over and over again until it cracked and splattered into a thousand feet and he did this with a thing over about looking down at the 300 feet between me and Master's next right and all I could think about was that I was so sharp and I was like I'm gonna kill him do a thing maybe you thought they helped me maybe you thought she's strong enough to make up her own mind or maybe you're so fucking scared that you hide behind a human being and I don't think that's to good and then it used to be a fucking prayer because you can't deal with the fact that the world is not what you fucking think it is I could have let Master's fault I've signed the ballot to meet with me I have beautiful spain up in it the window across the road the shadow I'm gonna find out if I get pushed into the dark a bang on this tiny one that's fine I guess it would be a beautiful dessert if you could show me that bed on my back and I'll tell you my encounter with an ancient person with Christian Jews and Muslim longed out in another time you are there all along this time if you've got me now if you need me don't watch that video that we're now then being there I can imagine a little talk but could the question have been if she wanted to grow up in the country attentive if she wanted to be a sweet girl often better off a sweet girl at least to have no love and no one I can imagine that you do at least to have me feel the shame of the rich world in our part of but the people who are supposed to protect you you get raped in the street by a stranger and I I'm wondering about your parents letting you go I could do better if not for them if not for them how did I think such an awful man because one compass is fucking fucked in front because you gave me your fucking compass because you made me live the life you sent me to the priest to learn when we come with you lost the love we don't have any spiritual when Isabel put her neck in a rope because she got sad she couldn't hold down really when the cat ate her feet because she didn't believe it shit to survive on all had that sense to me and you didn't want me to talk about it at school because it would be embarrassing I was supposed to not come out of my city I was because it wasn't all I was like a model everyone wanted to be skinny and pretty did you think it was normal? I would come back from church crying because you made me go and you made me bring my life and I did my part and I did my confession because I can't get my mouth because that's what you wanted this is the last time last one next Christmas I've done more I've got so many more and I'm practicing it's a fantastic thing that I fucking love to do I've got all the way I'm going to stand over her bones and I'm going to throw and I'm going to do up the rope but it should have been me and I'm going to cut my fucking wrist just enough for the door walking up smell me and we can run to the smell while they hunt me down so they can put their tongue in their mouth and face with me and then from this circle I feel them allow me to roll and lie and then when I've had all the fucking roll a lot of them up I'm going to cut my finger and I'm blowing all seven emotions I've got playing today in my fucking skull that's straight out to a fucking next cell scene two she was our people Dany Terry's office Terry has a quick shot now Dany nurses have lost war I come home and she's been in the living room have a comfort program around the world where I've had all these fucking pajamas she had had on three days before watching some program on ancient aliens he's sitting there with fear that they were trying to contact her but she's written out her own alphabet form but she's writing letters and she's standing by the window that's the proof of excellence they could read her message but it's incumbent again almost but it was a thought but she was wrong but what I'm trying to say is that it's not my fault that she was you see the things didn't work out fucking live with someone who thinks they can contact fucking space no but what she makes me think about most Terry is how full that person is if they don't get it right from the start dad was a white fucker I said my mom let's go but they were normal enough one day but that wasn't her she didn't get that I feel as fuck as I've come across in all my days Terry how are you? I need you now I know what you'd say that they were very nice enough because you always see the best in people that's true they were nice but also totally totally fucked Jesus me, amen set those ones on bottom and all you needed was our mental power I'm chanting oh when all the hours are when they I now look around a couple of times oh that's why angels they're quick brains and then they dress that opposite way they're a weird day of speed pouch with a fucking head just popping up at me on the sign just staring at me join in I go fuck those and I'll never forget with the bare head sticking up and its eyes beeping out of me and them looking like a couple of types with their wool bled and grey-eyed onesies well not onesies like our religious dresses they're not the long ones like they are non-sex or guinea-sex they're not sexy anyway that's what they wear when they go home not out of time I pose like normal people who's in my flock here but I'm not the point is that she was fucking weird because her parents were fucking weird and that's all she was ever going to be because of them because it was all I don't know what to think about the real world these people they go in their parents' house and the walls are covered with all this men-n-o-ist indian shit rich people go outside barking at the fucking head off they can go in the front door and be like back a hundred fucking hell with pictures of fucking animals like buffalo and wolves and all over the walls they've been born in TPs and she just sit there around being nervous and shit and all this where the fucking penny really drops this is where the penny really drops it does what our mental handy does she in the lab walked their faces fucking bugged you so that she wanted to stand up don't have a fucking round of arms like she could none of the sparkle none of the fun that she was around us and she'd be pulling at that tail until we get home so she could rant about how she didn't want to be like them but how she wished she could be like me I was even much of a listener and she would rant it all to me I mean I don't know what to mean she never would have and I know everyone thinks this is my fault that when she heard about what we did I did her in what I'd done but I think she wouldn't have done it no matter she almost jumped off the balcony like she was here when I was home did I tell you because I ended with lots of good parts put together a look all wrong honest she was a smart prettiest, loveliest girl the best of time oh you saw the best of her the smart of them a smile in her and she got a nice dress on and she was dancing making bags and blanket for breakfast and she laughed and it didn't make you it choked in your heart because it was like once she forgot screaming about the breeze when she bit in and she didn't get a good time not on me or not on you and that got me thinking like I said they're making somebody get the hand on that and they don't get a chance I was did you hear about it she found out she knew I think she did because of what we did to her because she knew she didn't have me because she knew I got my heart and I didn't know that I was nothing but a shit of a man who got all wrong who left and made her feel nothing but pain but it wasn't like oh she's always hurting was it she she can't keep thinking about that can it need to sort because it can't have the arms having the head over there and then you hear what I said though then I haven't got time to think about some very important things this is important Daryl Daryl she's gone and now who isn't us about 3,500,000 and they're my responsibilities I haven't got along well I wanted to say was that maybe it wasn't my fault and maybe she wouldn't have done it anyway honestly if you had any idea I don't care about anything else right now I know that people die every second but not Martin can't you try to see how big this is it's not your fault you didn't do it did you a prisoner gets us separated he's spoken miserable he wraps a belt around his neck and on the door they set the darts off what do we fucking teach here listen to yourself that's what I saw I drove off to the house ready to break off because that was when you told me that we give it a good you said it you're looking at me like you didn't but you did how many people do it and the girl is a stronger place for because it means that the way that they get weeded out her parents never should have had kids so you think it was maybe not our fault I said in the dark what you said and now us we'll beat yourself to shit if you want to but don't make this up this isn't my fault who ours how can you not care about this she was our person she was us if it was you it's so easy for you having no view about the rest of the fucking universe she's dead Terry fucking dead that means nothing to you every places you become this cunt that doesn't care about anything or anyone you've got to learn to take tragedy and understand it on a bigger level I get blown to shit tomorrow someone it'll hurt for a minute my mom will cry you'll give her the flag so fucking cool honestly you need to get a taste of the real shit now kids you are going to find her cool it's from the right fucking animal if she couldn't have your money then maybe she was back the fuck off this Christmas new years your girl mine 15 of those in a row number one all your best friend this just isn't what it can't do and anyway wasn't this what you want fuck you fuck off fuck you never never would stop lying to yourself okay just Danny's proud Danny screams to see it Danny picks up Danny and turns him out of the room he re-enters there is an unseen knot scene three the interrogation the sound of water dripping shrooms your manners don't cost a fucking thing and don't forget that just cause everything up there is fucking shit you know the trick this position but it means something because it does how many lines are there how many stars do kids would so completely have this you'll just remember this is not for granted and I hope you're not expecting me to put you in any awkward slag because your smack come together and I want you to understand I choose you out there before what that smug ass smile of your fucking face you keep your ears scratched your head clear and your fucking eyes as open as you can fucking open your brain it's got compartments what you need to learn to do here is tag you make it your business the point of place in your brain you push it into one of the compartments in your suitcase don't enter on the fucking front okay don't come in here complaining that your babies cut their arms or moms that you got high cholesterol your mother is dying and don't even think about dragging your ass in there going over snotty coffin you got it there is no with me there is no now and now some day you'll be over here you'll be over there staring at it and then when you leave it let me fucking the way out so I know I'm not wasting my time or calling with it write it down and note the air for it and also note the position chair about this when you feel at a little then wait for the knock he 10 feet distance a smile not a too deep one just enough to relax them they will come in sweat wearing too much perfume work them out then they protest at first they're in dance if they're lying they'll plenairy they'll wiggle a fucking block because no matter what they do no matter who they are we fucking own them and there won't be one of them doesn't know I wish in our spot we'd break people to seven humans are naturally broken like this we all do it every day I saw you do it at lunch did you have your chicken yes that was a fucking lie you know it was shit you wanted to get laid later so you say it was good they ask you when your clock's up and you're all woke up and committed knowledge do you have that magic cheating no why a poor chicken we all do it in bed in the shower, in the cab in the fucking grocery store at the beach when the fucking bombs go off you know what you do you went up you look down at your clock you take that engine and then you go out there know exactly what you've got you fucking lie you act like a homeboy I know the size I know the hospital I know who did it I know your father did it I know every fucking thing there is to know about you of course you do because you're a fucking liar just like every country goes through it but let me tell you something about the art the art is a snippet out and I hope a fucking idiot is down because I really won't say it again life is all a fucking lie animals in it or they're afraid they allow they attack when a pit bull has a joke in it that's what that is he shared this upon and so you get it the whole point of us is to see a lie for what it is not anger not injustice not privilege not all wrong that's not us that's not our job just to get all the meat of the story all the singing all the bristle just a fucking bounce bear liars and guys come in and they want to do the right thing well that's a lot of politics there is no such thing as right here no one is right no one is wrong the kids are dogs you nail our guy right what are you literally thinking about how fuck are they who comes and lies in your face they shot one of our guys they're paranoid you get it sorted that is your best case scenario okay the bottom line is when you want something from everyone else all you have to do is sniff out the light keep the shit out of your eyes let's see my fucking words this is exactly what will fucking happen this one is going to come in here all twitchy like that like I'm making you see the fucks and it's going to pass around the room stalking that chair down like it's a piece of street ranch there because he hasn't slept with the fucking model does he have a shit mind because he told a lie because he fucked his way into the unit because he's done something he doesn't want us to know you see the files it's no such thing as innocent in this place you've seen the soldiers out in the streets fucking bodies like the blow up cops so don't you look at me like I'm some awful cunt sucker for saying you're too pussy spanked to realize for yourself the blow up ladies every mother fucking cunt has another fucking agenda alright you get me and sometimes it's harder because and some will come in here not all of their own and we don't go on anti-depressants and riddle in it go so we go to the lines but when you go to that age you'll find all over your fucking mind don't look at me this is not my fucking fault and let me tell you this guy is going to do it he is going to come in here and cry fucking cry he is going to be livid to that emotion if you fall for that guy you'll be in a relationship you'll get all caught up in the game in a story and you'll forget why we've got them in here at all you're welcome you want the tips he will come in here and try to get that ASAP oh he's going to have a job he's going to have a job he's going to have a job he's going to have a job he's going to have a job he's going to have a better business he's going to have stress and family and debt and a buy all the shit around it all and then you've got it okay do your things get your talk you'll walk the shit straight you'll be the guy I'll take your analysis again don't make a fucking sound you're about to yes but I'm not going to tell these two people seems to me like I'm exactly as relaxed sound from the door here we go haven't you got some questions you're supposed to ask me do I have a history of mental illness in your family no no history of depression or bipolar disorder I told you do you guy you never know the size of your parents manifest the illusions of being used about reality you who fired your incident report and how did you figure what he issued that report if there were no other humans left just you how could you be so sure you were human that was the question I was working on that night it was what I was saying about the problem don't you respect remember the last time he was on top of me his breath was hot I loved him he was nice to me but I loved him he wasn't nice to you I imagine he was going to need the pain in his life I guess he was fucking new the whole time that's right what have you done that way have you been your report suggests that you were under the influence is that true I've been working for a day straight I was exhausted I thought it was not a good start what about me you haven't been taken gross you know what you were doing you were clear it was a dark face in my head but it wasn't because I've done anything hair you wouldn't want to be fair than that all the more I know I was driving around the hospital to an empty house to a house alone to a house where there was no love but I must open the door and I knew there would be pictures of Danny in his head and pictures of when we were kids were you happy as a child yes we're not happy with that if you lied once it's hard for me to believe the rest of what you said I'm not here are the photos see me champagne for new years last year became in my head and on my show he said to me I don't think this is appropriate I don't think this is appropriate this is what I had, I brought what I had isn't it true that you have been having mental difficulties struggling with reality I've got a fixer long hours I miss carriage yes you've been mine you wasn't a fit father I wasn't a fit mother you weren't fit you've got Terry Eisenberg Edgerton your mother it's those girls who do you love though you should tell them the truth if you love them tell them tell them it's your fault to you tell them what you think tell them he never would have left me if you hadn't made it tell people no it's not you you're just all barbie if you haven't been it's so far away it's never going to happen the room is already this is the gun I used to blow my brain back you went down the top of your suit with it I used to hang on the back of Daddy's bag cabinet it was really long it's terrible did you know that and he had to have been feeling you he tasted of a true love it feels so much Terry I've been angry before and scared the trigger for always left so sick to my stomach and then I didn't think anything my last thought was that I wish I could have documented what it felt like because it would have been my biggest contribution for science did you know that during the French Revolution the leading French scientist had the kind of faith in it because it really could have come back to life made it feel like a burden after that he'd been decapitated he'd keep linking as long as he could he'd linked 13 times well and well here's your book let's get a hand for our actor we have Sonar coming all straight music in the dark we'll talk to you a little bit more about that