 I did have a question though when you were sharing about reflection because I think I get confused sometimes about reflection in that I kind of take it on because I'm sort of through all the different spiritual teachings it's like there's a mirror, like there's a mirror of your consciousness but I somehow I use that to kind of be mean to myself, like blame myself for what's happening it's very egoic ultimately because I take responsibility I sort of say, ah this is me, this is reflection of me and ah this is my issue and you know even when he was saying those things to me and saying like you know I just don't feel like I can talk to you every day whatever I just immediately was like this blame, me turning it on myself and even I had felt that as well, like we don't need to talk every day you know we just kind of were at that time but it was taking the specific out of it, it's just that reflection I get confused sometimes about that can you speak, does that make sense? it's just coming one giant step back from the interpersonal drama like when you hear psychiatrists and psychologists and counselors talking you're projecting on your husband, you're projecting on your wife she's depressed, you're angry, blah blah blah it's all describing the problem but where's the solution in that and so we grew up, I mean I took years of psychology and it's all described as interpersonal even going to a healer, thinking that the healer's a person John of God or something, going to a body in Brazil or something and still thinking that there's a body that even has healing abilities or advanced healing abilities and lots of witnesses of that it's still all, even the healing is described in interpersonal ways because that's the addiction of the mind it sees through a darkened glass, like the Bible says sees through a darkened glass, it sees everything through this dark interpersonal filter but when that little voice starts to look at you you're just doing this to yourself again you're projecting this and this and this the I is the personality cells, the Emily and then all the characters and scenes and scenarios and witnesses outside of the Emily this seemed to be the environment as if Emily is projecting that's what the psychologists and psychiatrists say persons project the persons, the man persona, the mask is part of the projection too it gets laughable when you get back far enough and you go, oh this person I was putting it all onto this person as if they were doing this but they're not doing anything persons seem to act, they don't I mean, it's kind of like animation Walt Disney one day decides to draw a mouse just draws a static mouse and then he draws another mouse and another mouse and then, you know, there's a little card you know, it actually gives us the illusion of motion like, Mickey Mouse is actually moving that's what motion pictures are about all these repeated symbols that look like they're actually moving and before you know it, it goes from a drawing of a mouse to a mouse that's alive actually animated it takes on motion and it's the same with human beings it's like we think of ourselves and we think of the people around us as these living organisms amazing wondrous things the human body and these amazing organisms but it's all reflecting consciousness and then beyond the idea that it's reflecting it's more that the thoughts I think I think and the images I think I see are actually the same I've got a linear time image problem where I'm generating a whole world of unreality based on one tiny man idea that Nikita talked about that I can separate from my source and until I can actually open up and train my mind to see that there's no difference between the thoughts I think I think and the world I think I see that people aren't living people people are thoughts and these thoughts are of incompletion you know, why would I look for to seek after someone to complete me like the Cinderella with the Prince Charming unless I believed I was lacking lacking thought needing another lacking thought and like John Bradshaw the famous family therapist said the ego teaches us one half plus one half equals one find your soulmate find your love, your partner your true love, whatever your notebook love that dies with you in the bed something, you know, you find that and then you get one but he said it's actually not a plus sign it's actually a multiplication sign one half times one half equals one fourth you feel co-dependently like a fourth when you go with that equation you know, you feel how can I feel so is people, I hear people say I felt better about myself than when I got in a relationship that's why I'm not going to ever have a man or a woman again I'm going to have a cat or a dog not going to ever go with a human again because they've been through the multiplication so many times that there's an incredible shrinking man or woman you know, feel a little totally unworthy and then you start to finally start to say wait a minute, there's something wrong with this equation and that it is a multiplication that is one times one equals one wholeness looks upon itself and that's where the good news happens then the mirror against then the mirror is only there in perception to bring you to an experience of wholeness to a unified perception where you go I am it I am the holy child of God and there's only one of us here there's only been one of us here and this trick of perception to think that there's all these little parts out there seven billion little parts trying to find each other and all these stories and Cinderella stories and Snow White stories and all of our fairy tales and everything that was all that much to do about nothing that was seeking to try to find the love in all the wrong faces like the country song had it right but we didn't get it and we even beat ourselves up with this idea that we personally were projecting these partners and personally projecting this world and that's another trick that's been my favorite trick lately beat yourself up yeah, yeah and just the more that I will have moments where I'm not in that than when I am it's just very difficult to accept you know, when I was suffering so much all weekend I was just very difficult I was very embarrassed I was ashamed because, you know, I feel these moments of what you're talking about where the sham is up a bit but then, but then not they all part you see the light yeah, walking on your second and the mirrors don't actually matter because the mirror is just like, oh yeah, that's me but it's actually not even me but it, you know what I'm saying it's like, it's fine all the mirrors are fine thank you, that's really helpful what a ride it reminds me of like Katie Perry's video, White Awake where, you know, at the end she goes through with her little inner child or inner girl but she comes in the Prince Charming she hits it she hits him into, knocks him into the bushes he finally, Prince Charming finally appears at the end of the video she hits him, it's like oh no, I am not following for that one anymore that's quite a beautiful thing of letting it go of like, no, I'm not going to be fooled and then, what's the alternative well, if you're in your your joy, your expression and everything then you seem to, while there's still the witnesses you'll go call forth in the mirror the witnesses of love, of happiness but it's so expanded that's what we're calling this tour we're doing a tour around the United States calling it quantum love because it's not Newtonian it's quantum but it's not what is it, it's not romantic it's bigger than the two of us it's beyond romantic it's bigger than the two of us you know, those are the lines in it it's opening to that vastness and to feel that vastness and then to see that vastness just witness to you in so many direct directions is so like, yes like this is it, this is the this is like the Holy Grail this is the, well, the Sadevter and nothing is pushed away then you know, you don't try to label anything in form as the problem anything in form that needs to be avoided because you're into all-inclusive love you're into not judging anything that's what projection really is is to attempt to get rid of something that you do not want and in the end we have love, we are love we don't want to get rid of love and the projection ceases you know, we don't see the world as a part of our mind that's the final awareness that the world is in me Christa Murray said I am the world, the world is me there's no sense of separation talk about the end to gossip that's the end of gossip I am the world, the world is me you know, you've got nothing to gossip about you can really be quiet in the truest still sense you know, trying to talk about the latest news I'd love that, I'd never have to catch up with anyone anymore, you know it's an instantaneous knowing and recognition so there's not a sense of where you've been what have you end up doing or even when people ask me they'll say about a friend that I had 10 or 15, 20 years ago how are they? I say, without hesitation I said they're wonderful have you seen a reason that? No but how do you know they're wonderful? I'm wonderful so they're wonderful because they're in me to see how that would be the end of guilt around family when did you visit your mother to ask when did you see your child when did you do this, when did you do that those questions don't have meaning those are irrelevant because our presence, our heart, our love is how we look upon the world and it's as simple as acknowledging and totally being willing to embrace and accept that love not to play a little, play small hide in these little little person games not to take anything personally good or bad the pride is trying to take it good I've accomplished this I've achieved this I have special like this special skills, you are special no, it's not really true if we're one, we can't be special we can't be special at this or the flip side but we can't be flawed happily we can't be flawed or special, you know yeah, what a relief yeah, I see it's like an over eagerness to be personally responsible even for our own mind if the one responsibility is accepting the atonement and I prayed it was really going into prayer about that at one point then why, if there's one responsibility to accept the atonement and then basically that's done when that's completely accepted whatever that means I was praying on whatever that means then it's done awakening is complete then why is that so scary the resistance to that like what is happening with the resistance to that I just went into prayer and responsibility and just saw how like addicted mind is to take responsibility for everything else so many other things in the world in realising that that's all a distraction from the one responsibility because only one and I seem to have, you know, count them how many there are and also it was just coming to my mind around forgiveness even or that like taking responsibility for the projection taking responsibility for the doubt there's something wrong oh it's my fault just constantly addicted to personal responsibility even for the world for how someone else is feeling for peace so what's happened for me is and some of that direction is helpful if the mind is used to projecting it's associating it's like no pull it back but the pulling it back is more to take responsibility for how it serves my awakening to take responsibility for what is this what can I see in this what is the gift for me to help free my mind from whatever it seems to be getting hooked on or disturbed by giving that over so it doesn't just stop with itself if you come back to here and you stop here without going back way back, way back then it's just all short and people haven't said where do you perceive yourself do you perceive yourself existing in between your ears behind your eyes as located in your head some people feel it's more lower it's more like in their heart like who they are it's somehow in their chest or something still it's within the body it's like pulling everything back to a body as if everything emanates from the body and then this mind that made up all the bodies and that is just pure awareness is so far back you almost could get the visual and it's just going much further back and that's so important so that game to be up you can think of that metaphor anytime you start to have that I do this all the time here I go again whatever the little self-talk is critical, condemning really a harsh little resping voice it doesn't mean as well it so wants us to say stop right here this is all that there is and there's nothing nothing more and it's just not the truth because we're not responsible for the error like that's it we're not responsible for the error we're responsible only for the correction so it's anytime it's seen it's like oh good my opportunity for correction to let it go you know it's like a trick of the ego to just say you're seeing it so you're doing something wrong or you're seeing it so it's your fault somehow there's lots of it here and it's so helpful to just like shift it from eye to beliefs this is what's being seen this is the belief these are the thoughts arising it's really not personal it's just mind mind is healing the ego is not personal either it's like the ego is the belief system that is being exposed thank god is actually being seen and being exposed it's not comfortable pretty or attractive but it's been thank god this is really what we've called for we want the healing it's interesting to snip the positive and the negative like a lot of times people will talk about god they'll talk about ghandi and Mother Teresa and Muhammad and Jesus but you can't even find it if you go into the characters some of the characters behaviors were so lofty as the world would judge it that people just start getting a buzz a high feeling being around Mother Teresa and ghandi just watching the movie and yet there was an Indian saint Meher Baba who was so happy and so still had a big handlebar and I remember one story with Meher is that the devotees were always around him they loved being around his body because he didn't even speak he didn't speak for decades he didn't speak for decades and then he started using and spelling the words out one the images they're happy to be around him he doesn't speak he just spells very slowly talking about it spelling is is what but anyway one story was they were so happy to take him out like a trip with them so they got him and they put him on the train and they went out and they were just going to have a picnic in North America and they got to the place and they were doing everything and they lost him they lost the guru they were like where is he oh my god they finally gave him out of the house from him and they lost him and they just were distraught they thought it's not worse than losing a wedding ring it's just losing your guru and nobody was paying attention and the train just so sad because they had gone out with their guru and they lost the guru and there was another train passing and they saw him smiling on the other train he was just so detached from everything that he was just like playing with it like I'm not a body you know don't think you can lose me I'm still here and then they would go around and he would be on the move and when he would stop they would be so happy that they could build an ashram around him when he would stop because they wanted comforts and conveniences of the world they would always be on the move following him so they built this small ashram around him and once they would get to the very end the final paint the finish touches on the ashram he was gone then they look at the ashram they look at him it was a choice between the best of the world shelter all the things that humans believe is so important and the happy one and they would just there was many ashrams vacant ashrams you talk about buildings here in Brooklyn eight people living together it's measured finding these ashrams vacant because the master had walked out always teaching it's fluid you don't ever have an object of love you never have an object of your love because as soon as you objectify it it's not it it's just not it it's good to remember when your boyfriend says I have some doubts about the relationship oh you are not the object of my affection my love you are helping me find the love in my heart thank you the only true emotion we can have is thank you because it's so helpful