 I don't know, my emotions are a bit out of my to-do-ing. I really wish I bought something out of me that I could have taken, correct? Like, with Primozillion. Even though it's only, I don't know, the cat I think it makes me dopey enough, so I can just sleep. Pringly good thing. We're gonna tell us off our clothes this morning, because it's just somewhat sedated me this morning in Dottaloon. And maybe that would've been better than me being awake and okay. Because I don't feel okay. I feel a bit, you know, no, I feel a bit fucked over emotionally. It's not fun. It was got migraine, which is getting worse. Fun, fun, fun. The fun life of Lydia. You guys are in a handbag. I still can't hold a camera. The door, oh, God. You know what, we're just gonna rock it. I'm gonna go with, I'm gonna go with the theory that it was to do with my issues with the dining room, I've been diagnosed with borderline affairs, not an disorder. And this might be something I had to do when I'm indoors because there's a lot to this. I need to talk about, well, one language won't help people treat me. And if you saw my tweet earlier, I tweeted at Lancashire Police, basically attacking them for how they treated me and how they said I did it all for attention. Because one of the biggest and more serious symptoms of borderline affairs is the continued self-harm, the continuous suicide attempts. The suicide attempts, they're the serious side of borderline personality disorder. Here's the tweet earlier at the, I was like, so you're saying that I want your attention, I want anything but it. I get handcuffed, I've been restrained, I think. Literally picked one put in the back of a van. I did that for fun, like, clearly. I do all that, you know, it's, I don't know anyone at all that's ever done anything like that for attention. Who wants to get handcuffed? Who wants to get restrained? Who wants all of that? Who wants to have police officers ask medication to calm you down? No one. The issue that I have with the diagnosis is just the stigma surrounding it. The other stigma. Surrounding the diagnosis of borderline personality disorder is ridiculous. There's an unbelievable amount of stigma. Like, you guys wouldn't even understand the level of, just the level of it. Like, there's so much, and it's so intense for people, because people are like, oh, you're just doing it, you don't mean it, you're just attention-seeking real. It's not that big of an issue, it's not serious, you're not going to do anything. There's just so much negative stigma attached to borderline personality disorder, and you see it a lot. I'm going to talk more like this when I'm on my own, but not as I am, because I can't sit and film this outdoors, in public, when I'm literally surrounded by kids. There's a lot of issues with having the diagnosis of borderline personality disorder. There's just a lot of issues with it. Like, oh yeah, I was right with the tweet, I've actually gone to the toilet, and that is the correct tweet. I can point out an average of it, and this is based off my own observations. Generally speaking, people with a diagnosis of BPD use it as a bit of an excuse to be like, fuck you with everything. Like, oh, I have BPD, like, it's not an excuse, you can't use it as an excuse for your behaviors. Yes, it can be the cause of it, but ultimately you're responsible for that. I don't know. It's really hard to talk about this subject when I'm in public, and it really is. I think I've been called a bad person because of that. Because of having BPD, I'm a bad person because I'm impulsive and reckless, because I'm suicidal, I can't help that, I can't, I'm trying to change it. But I wish the suicide adults weren't there, and they weren't as bad, but would I change? It's just a very complicated thing. People, people believe to stick them around because of their lack of understanding, and I think that's why I'm gonna talk around, and I get a bit nuts with the subject I want to cover. So, we'll do that when I get home, at home, back, you know what I mean. Anyway. Walking and walking and walking. Napping is my cat, it's probably out of focus. And the salad. No microphone, my microphone's in my handbag. I can't say, can't really say it. This is from the reactor, the video, but I'm not sure if she finished filming the video. No microphone, but it's, it's over.