 Hi guys, welcome back to my channel. I have had a very unwell day. I got so drunk yesterday Anyways, so there's a band outside my window right now. So if you hear that, I'm sorry So I asked you guys on Instagram to ask me some questions. I Swear to God. Do you hear that music? Okay, the band is exiting Thank you. So I'm gonna start with this question That's hard for me to answer. So where am I from? I have a hard time answering this I kind of hate answering this question because I wish that I could answer it easily No one's asking me for my life story every time someone asked me where I'm from I give them my life story and they just didn't ask for that, but I Was born in Boston because my dad was doing his residency there Well, I was born and then my parents moved to Connecticut. So my family home is in Connecticut I have been living away from home since fifth grade To ski race. I was a ski racer if you didn't know I was a very competitive downhill ski racer when I was a baby and when I was Infant I grew up in Connecticut home to me is a lot of different places I feel like the place that shaped me and the place that I really grew up was Vermont I lived there for so long. I lived with a host family so I could train and Live in the mountains and then I went to boarding school. I don't know how I didn't mention this We also grew up with the house in Vermont so it was our ski house but We spent a lot of time there. I had girls who grew up spending Months in Colorado to train. I feel like I'm very connected to Colorado I call a lot of places home. I know that you've said that you've always been confident But what keeps you confident? I am lucky that I'm a confident person I get insecure as fuck but I am a confident person and What I always say is I'm a really good friend I know that I'm a really good partner and I've talked about this. So I'm very confident in that so I know what I Contribute and that's a lot and that's not even me being cocky. I just know my worth I'm not really sure how I stay confident. I Think it's my personality, but I think that you can train yourself to be confident I think that you you can practice being confident you can Even if you don't feel confident Fake it. I'm telling you it manifests itself if you feel like shit do not say it out loud The more you act confident, even if you don't feel it you will eventually just feel better Did your ex-boyfriend write the poem on your back? No, what were you like in high school? Very similar. I think I've always been an old soul. I don't feel like I've changed that much. I feel like I've grown up and I've matured, but I don't feel like I've changed that much I was maybe a little more wild in high school I've always kind of been a loose unit. The shit I did in high school was out of control like some of the shit my hoarding school Was they need to make a movie about this school It's literally 60 kids in the middle of bumfuck nowhere Vermont on a mountain basically living on this campus co-ed dorms we didn't drink but Some shit went down. I mean the shit that we did. I mean, what are you gonna do? You're gonna put a bunch of athletes in a campus and give us co-ed dorms We were like running around naked half the time I'm not kidding least favorite thing about being an influencer probably when people ask me What I do for work and I have to say that I'm an influencer I don't have a shame in being an influencer. It's the stigma a lot of girls in the industry fucking suck I'm lucky where I've met girls that are great but I've met girls that are awful in the industry and it just gives us all a bad name and I just don't like it I Identify it as an athlete my whole life and as a skier. That's who I was it was Paige the skier and I loved that I I almost feel like that's why I'm so confident is because I was an athlete because my Worth had nothing to do with the way that I looked it was a how hard I was working It was how fit I was I said a really good relationship with my body and with the outdoors and I feel like it really grounded me But I was so proud to be a skier. I was so proud to be an athlete and I'm not anymore and Now my thing is an influencer and it's just not I liked being a mountain girl and I Don't like the idea of being a city girl. I'm really not a city girl I'm not just like this influencing city girl I mean I live in New York City and I am an influencer, but I'm so much more than that But I just wish people could get to know me before they find out I'm an influencer. Otherwise. It's literally the best job ever. I Love it. I have a very healthy relationship with social media. I don't compare myself to other people So it's a great industry for me. I'm a very visual person. I'm a creative person. I'm an idea person. I Love it. I love traveling. I love working with brands. I love selling clothes I've passed boyfriends had issues with your Instagram. No No, and not that I know of but I felt like in My last serious relationship. He wasn't really rooting for me which sucked I feel like he saw my success and the photos that I was putting out and was almost insecure I want my boyfriend to be my biggest fan and if you're not that then that sucks Especially in the industry that I'm in I want over to be like fuck. Yeah, you look amazing This is so cool and great like you're whatever, you know, what's the craziest thing that you've done and when you do it again I don't think I can say But I would the story times that I could make Why did you quit skiing? Do you have any regrets? Are you grateful for how it shaped you? I have a lot of regrets. I quit ski racing because of my mental health I was in a really terrible place Mentally, I had not been taking care of myself The demise of my skiing career honestly started when I was in a very very serious Relationship at a very young age. I was so in love with this kid And I was still in high school training and he went to college after that relationship It just went completely downhill. We had a very toxic relationship And I was so obsessed with him and he's all I cared about and I didn't want to be skiing And I wanted to be with him so that distraction was the beginning of the end. That's a long story It's very complicated, but I had a really really difficult last few years of high school Mentally, I've never been in such a bad place I mean it's something that I really want to talk about and open up about it was really dark Honestly, I did not want to go to training. I could barely wake up for training. I could barely even put on my ski boots I completely fell out of love with the sport. I think because of my depression Honestly, I was suicidal. I needed help and I wasn't getting it Which is no one's fault but my own just a mixture of things I felt like I really let down my parents. I felt like I let down my coaches um And I do have regrets. Why does baloo stay with your parents all the time? So this is something that I've wanted to address. So if you're new here, I was in a very serious relationship I moved to Toronto to be with my ex-boyfriend. We were very serious um, he wanted to get a dog and I was super down. We got a dog together and then we broke up so I was not gonna let him take the dog. I was definitely the more responsible one in the relationship I raised the dog and so I took the dog and my parents Basically said that they would help me with baloo. So baloo is a 160 power newfound plan and I needed help. So in the summer in New York City, if you haven't been here in the summer, it's very very hot and my apartment is hot. I have one small measly ac and It's just too hot for him here honestly and he really loves to swim and my parents have two other dogs So in the summer, he's been staying with my parents I'm very grateful. I'm very lucky and fortunate But a lot of Glasgow, did you just abandon baloo? Like you just don't permit your parents. You've no responsibility ultimately, this is what's best for baloo and I also travel a lot in the summer work has really picked up for me right now It's best that he is majority of the time staying at my parents in the summer. Uh, I really missed him I have him back for a bit because I was really really missing him. He's doing okay It's definitely way too hot for him here, but he's doing okay He hangs out in my room most of the time where the ac is. Toronto, how was it? Give us the tea I love Toronto. I think it's an extremely toxic city I think that a lot of the girls are really terrible And I know that sounds like the biggest mass generalization, but I had So many intense bad experiences with girls there Uh, I've never really seen anything like that. I don't know what it is About it. Uh, but the food is amazing. It's a very clean city. It's a beautiful city Uh, the beauty services Insane makeup artists nail tax hair Like I've never seen tea wise. I'm not gonna dig up old dirt. It's not even worth it. What's the deal with you and amanda? Nothing, I don't know why people think that like Amanda and I aren't friends anymore. Amanda is my best friend from my hometown She's been my best friend my whole life. She's actually coming with me on the next revolver trip Like I didn't tell you guys that I'm going on another trip with revol on the 24th I don't know if I can say where we're going No one ever told me we can't but no one's announced that where it is. So Where were you just recently on vacation? So for the fourth of july, I was in south carolina q island My family is a home there biggest compliment you've received Probably that I'm special Probably that I'm special and unique And then I'm a light like in a room. That's really really flattering Whenever people Understand me and my energy and that stuff. It really means the world to me This girl I know in Toronto shits on you all the time. It watches all your videos lol Are you seeing anyone? Honestly, I'm I've already talked about this, but I'm not sharing my relationships on my social media anymore It's the worst idea ever Don't make the public until it's permanent I'm just not doing that anymore. I made a huge mistake With my last relationship. So when I asked what my favorite place to ski was And that's a really hard question The cool thing about my sport was is that I was able to travel to some of the most amazing places That you just normally wouldn't get to go to it's not like glacier norway. I was in south america In chile, it was in new zealand in this random part of new zealand So just really unique places that you don't go On vacation to I had a training camp in italy and we made a huge effort I went with a private coach and we made a huge effort on this trip in particular to On our off days So we trained three days on and then have an off day effort to always go Leave them out in town and go to a city or go somewhere To experience the place because I felt like in a lot of these places that I went I should have or I wish my team would have You know done other things. I wish that we would have explored a little bit more So italy was really great Because I was able to go to malan. I was able to just do all these things That weren't only skiing snow condition wise. I want to say that colorado I think condition wise is some of the best snow that I've ever skied on or montana I one of the best runs in my life in big sky and it wasn't a race. I wasn't racing. It was just a free run Uh, I'll never forget it. It was perfect. It was early in the morning I got so many questions asking how do you grow your instagram? I get that question a lot. How do you grow your instagram? How do you become an influencer? You have to be yourself. There will always be someone prettier. There will always be someone richer There will always be someone skinnier There will always be someone cooler What's going to make you stand out and what's going to make people actually Want to follow you and follow your journey and not just passively follow you is being yourself And this was really hard for me for a while For example, remi one of my best friends and ella saw my instagram and then they met me and they said I thought you were gonna be so serious. I thought you were gonna be You know, they didn't know they didn't know and they met me and I don't even fully let loose on here. I am Weird as fuck and silly and just like I don't know like you guys don't even fully see that And what they always say to me and I almost I honestly need to take my own advice. Is there like page if the page that we know Transfer it onto your instagram. I'm starting to I feel like show my silly side more my actual personality and why I'm saying this is because You have to be you. That's the only thing that we have Don't try to be like someone else. Don't try to follow like the aesthetic that everyone's doing Don't try to make your shit look like someone else's who are you? What are you interested in? What's your personality like even if you have 500 followers if you want to do a haul do a haul Try on your clothes. Even if it's for your friends Posts a lot take photos Um be yourself. Okay. I think I'm gonna sign off. I'm gonna take a long walk with blue tonight I've been treating my body like shit. I love you guys Thank you so much for watching if you're new here. I hope that you guys got to know me a little bit better I think my next video I'm going to do is the skiing video, which is what I've talked about for so long I'm like a little nervous to do it I don't know why maybe because it'll feel like emotional or digging up the past a little bit Because it's something that I literally don't talk about at all I think that you guys should know that side of me because it is It is completely shaped me as a person. Okay guys until next time