 First off, my mother had a propensity to emotionally abandon myself and my siblings and my father during the early stages of my upbringing. And what happened is she would emotionally abandon us and I would feel like I did something wrong. So to get my mother's attention, I'd be like, mom, look at me, look at me, look at me. And I'm saying this, you know, kind of not literally speaking. And in that, I became an anxious attachment style. What I mean to say is I was, you know, there was an abandonment of love and then I kept chasing it. So that became where I needed it to feel safe in that moment and it didn't occur.