 Good morning guys. Welcome back to vlogmas day 23. I have some packages to unbox. I just woke up I think it's like 8 30. I honestly really just want to read this morning. Today is my last like work day. Hopefully of 2020 I'm really really trying to take the entire week off after Christmas There's probably a few things that I'm gonna have to do but for the most part I think I want to be able to. So I have to shoot some deals this morning Then I have to finish wrapping presents the whole shebang guys my twin flames has finally arrived Which is perfect because it's my perfect outfit for today Okay, oh So cute. I got the medium in the top. Oh my gosh. You're so soft and then I just got a Small and the slow pants. Oh my gosh So cute, so this is what I'm gonna wear today. Next we have my new recess package. I'm gonna make some mocktails with recess So they sent me more. Here is the 12 pack sampler It's my favorite if you guys are new to the vlogs These are like CBD him drinks that really helped me relax They are just like the best tree after a long day. I'm also really into drinks So I have I'll show you This entire thing in my fridge just for my recess drinks. You guys want you can use 15 for 15% off Look at what I'm wearing Twin flames. I'm gonna lie. This is probably the most comfortable thing I've ever put on my body It's not 1 p.m. I just door-dashed some the other taco. I just got out of the shower I've been shooting brand content all morning. I actually had so much honestly I still have another thing to shoot so I don't know what I'm gonna do that Christmas Eve Eve I don't have really any other plans today besides Getting this stuff done at an instant end. So I'm gonna import some footage get going on that And then we'll see. Oh my god I face I'm keen and just like went on with my day and we're literally Matching. Oh my god, is that sweet green? Yeah, I'm so jealous Hey, can I just have a venti vanilla sweet cream cold brew with peppermint instead of vanilla, please? Yes That's it. It's not 460. He said 460. I said venti right Morgan. That's so funny I was literally recording the clip of me and then all of a sudden all you hear is yeah The speakers in my car. How are you? Good? Thank you. Have a good day Wow, we're good. I got my I got our drink really, you know Morgan honestly I totally forgot that you I was trying so hard to think about who showed me this drink last year And I just want to now give you full credit because I'd like to be forever to remember and then someone commented They're like, oh my god, I remember when you and Morgan. I was like, oh my god I got it from Morgan. So are you vlogging? Yeah, I'm vlogging, but I just forgot like I don't know, you know, honestly I forgot even about the drink order until someone DMs me that they got it and I was like, oh, I should go back to that And now I just like can't stop Yeah, I'm royalties from this. I'm just kidding. It's not a groundbreaking drink, but it is okay at it Okay, well, thank you. I just needed to clear the air here on Vlogmas I'm turning the last three days until week in my life because my life is so uneventful But like I just can't do it This may be the last year of Vlogmas if anything I'll do week in my life's like Keaton next year But I think it's something you grow out of like I cannot fathom having done it like Or I'd hire an editor it depends on my life is like next year Morgan What do you think about me meeting the love of my life in the next year and just eloping? Could you see me eloping because I would No, I can't I don't think you would um I really don't want a wedding after 2020 Well, I don't want a wedding either. Yeah, so I don't want to look well not within a year. You wouldn't do it in a year Well, you know today's at least two years for I forget why I read this thing about it a long time ago I know that is like a thing. Yeah We'll see. I don't know I see out of all of our friends. I do see myself to be the one to Hello, so I see myself, but thank you. No, I well, okay. I think we have different versions of what eloping is What is your definition The fact that we're just having a phone conversation right now My definition would just be like I see you like not even secretly but like one day you just like gone Instagram and you see that I'm married You know You don't think I would do that No, cuz you're good at planning stuff Now what I just want to go to the end and get married there Yeah, but you've always you've always wanted a destination wedding and Morgan like honestly yourself is always so fun So like I'm hoping that you stick to that and we still have a great time at your wedding But mine on the other hand Ideally I would do I like with the beaver said where you do the courthouse And then you get married you do the wedding a year later because I don't want the wedding to be like I don't know. There's just so much stress That's why you just like I don't consider this my my vision to be really a wedding I just consider it to be a vacation with a cause Yeah, okay, well, I'm gonna in the vlog clip so we can get back to what we were really talking you about me Okay, I got Starbucks. I have therapy. I'm just home right now, but I got a package from Luxon filters So thank you it's the Vaughn. I feel so cool because it's Vaughn earless in a year package She said she wanted me to try out the new products because I tagged Her and how much I love her normal self tanner. These are the self tanning drops the face drops, which I love You guys are looking for a good self tanner. This is the self tanner for you for multiple reasons the biggest being that it's gradual It's really natural looking. It doesn't streak. It doesn't stay in white clothes I mean the list goes on and on on body cream, which I'm excited to try and then I'm and then some more self tanning cream Which I'm so excited for oh here are the last of the last the presents that I haven't wrapped it Actually, my cousins is still not here and hers was the first one I ordered which is crazy. I don't know what's up with that, but I got my brother Another pair of outdoor voices sweats because he stole mine when we went to the lake house I got him a pair so I could have mine back. I also got a PS5 game, but he already knows about that my stepdad I got him a butter cloth like really nice shirt that he likes that he's so hard to shop for but it's a good gift for him I got these smart bulbs that I'm gonna give one to my brother one to my sister Maddie Cody I know there's gonna be so many questions I know that I'm thinking about it in this vlog my parents are divorced they're both remarried I technically have I have eights I grew up with eight siblings seven of them are still here And there's three on my dad's side. There's two still on my mom's side three of them are triplets There we got and then for one of my step siblings both of the other two gifts are already wrapped But for Seth I got him the Saint Laurent glasses that were like legit 75% off So yes, I'm the best sister ever But also this is probably the best deal ever and there's no way he hasn't seen this as he's coming over to my house. Oh Wait another Dior. They're not saying they're off, but still like I don't know. He knows all these good deals Okay, I finished wrapping my presents guys and look I ran out of wrapping paper in The middle like literally on the very last present that I had to wrap So we're just gonna ignore guys. Merry Christmas Eve. It is currently I think like 10 30 a.m. I just did a long divo this morning I'm about to head over to my dad's house. My parents are divorced as most of us know So I'll do Christmas Eve with my dad side of the family and then Christmas day with my mom's side We just alternate every year. So anyways, I'm gonna head over to my dad's We're not doing anything until tonight, but I just like want to hang out there No, really weird because I feel like I like neutrals in softer colors now, but I got this in the mail Here's the where I got it from sorry guys. I don't know. I'm so cute awesome in this green jacket that I'm gonna wear tomorrow Anyways really comfy really cozy. I didn't feel like dressing up for Christmas Eve. So I did it Anyways, I'm gonna pack up a little bag for today to keep myself entertained and then pack up my presents and head over to My dad's house forget currently Dom and I are doing a giveaway We're giving away a 250 dollar giveaway if you guys go post you guys go enter by Commenting on this post and tagging through fence. All right, so I separated my presents I think this is what I'm bringing to this house. So I'm gonna have to carry all these down I just clean my house a little bit. So when I come home tonight and pack for my mom's house It's already clean which makes you feel so much better The tree is starting to be empty around because all other gifts are like over here. So Wow, Merry Christmas everyone. Come on fitzy. Come on boy. Let's go upstairs We're gonna wait fits to see how much he weighs obviously that's come on. Oh My god It's congratulations. You're exactly 51 pounds Congrats. Oh This is shocking to see All right guys Seth and I are on a mission right now if you don't know Seth I get questions That's how people are like so confused anytime you're in my vlog They're like who's that guy in the background cuz they hear your voice like my step brother Seth is my step brother on my dad's side and he is one of three. He's a triplet. How do you feel being a triplet? You know nice. I I forget that like that's like such a crazy thing To be a triplet. It's normal the klochie donut store closes in I don't know what time like in the close at noon historically speaking So we're going really quickly to get klochies. I realized I wanted it and now here we are run It's like a speed racer thing. So don't play a song. You can show me what music you listen to Seth drives this like big truck Which honestly like I don't even feel bad for you that you have to like do all of my like manual labor Because that's just like part of getting a truck if you're especially being a big family like you should have some They're coming. Yeah, I don't know why if you had known that I was moving back after you got a truck Yeah, that's so true your car gets a horrible gas mileage Either that or I just like always sent I normally just like fill your tank Well, I send you my car's like a hundred bucks to fill a tank. It's just like 12 miles per gallon That's just like so stupid. That's horrible. So but I do think that being in a truck just makes you feel more powerful You know, I mean not really. It makes me feel more powerful. Just when I'm high up. Yeah All right, let's hear it. You know when you get covid tested It's really messing up their footage is I know yeah You know, at least my siblings get it. Yeah, I know you're one of eight like it's it I think I mean like she called you and you just got a run Yeah, I'm literally I Don't we get the clock make sure you don't hit that car because I'm not gonna hit these cars. I'm driving totally right All right guys, we're running into the donut store support your local donut store stop So look at my outfit isn't it so cute? I was wearing a cute leather jacket to you messed up Okay, whatever I swear to God, I'm not getting this exact Range Rover is always parked outside of here always Here we go. Thank you. I Mean we are facing horrible news guys. They were out of kolaches. Oh No, okay donut King opens at 12. They're close to the 12 30 I'm helping that they don't disappoint. It looks promising. Oh I saw something other day, you know all those like tweets about the vaccine and they're like if you drink this every day before school You should not be I'm not We're in different age brackets I'm wise and mature you are young and I'm deadly legal. You'll know this Okay, you just killed it No, you absolutely Honestly, this is such a movie song choose where Seth goes to college in the comments below Give them your options. Um to lane college at Charleston on Arizona SMU TCU Denver I'm missing Then it's all good He's gotten into these schools too. So like these are like legitimate picks. So Let him know in the comments below where he should go. Yeah, your opinion will really make a difference on what I do You need to start listening to other people, you know, yeah, can we listen to a different song? Yeah, just maybe like a jewelry Yeah You're having the bus I'm ever hanging at me so great. Yeah What do you think you got from me? I'll be thankful for whatever you get. That's so not true No, it's not true. What do you think? What do you think? No, I'm not. I just I want to know what you think I got you feel like you're very No, I don't know what you have any guesses to what I got you. No, no, yes, you do. Oh my gosh He's so big. Oh my god What do you think I got you for Christmas? This is better because it's um, it's more practical okay for college Comment kind of so it's it's not something cooking for college. No, okay, but I'm no no cuz that was better I feel like a better grad gift Look at his sweater. It's what a bird. We love it Wait model them off. Let's see. Oh Look at you go Do you like it? Thank you. I had no idea what I was getting. I know I it was really me and my best pup always look Oh, she's hiding now Let us do me. I'm recording. I just don't know to see me The wild Kenzie in her natural habitat Yeah Merry Christmas Merry Christmas One guys So cute Oh Nasty cow hall for you guys because this stuff came in last night and it's all chocolate brown And we know that's my favorite color right now, so I need to show you also I think I might wear one of them today Part of me wants to like wear really cute outfit and then part of me just like doesn't have the energy The first thing I got is this set. I'll link them below guys I already feel more motivated Even though this is like my last day of vlogging for like a week or so But I'm really so excited for next year and to like make my vlog so much better I'm not gonna be in college anymore. We have so much more time So comment below what videos you really want to see for me even if they're more like personal and about certain whatever Okay, this top which I would just wear with a long sleeve under and then these pants which are like sweat pants But they just look like you tried harder, you know look at him This is what happens when he forgets how to jump on the bed Do you think fully jump this chocolate brown the laser? Super cute a chocolate brown little tank thought this was cute. There he goes into his chair I don't think you guys can even see but he's literally Always on his chair. Okay. I also got this set which I thought was so cute So I actually like this set better this cute top With these really cute bottoms like guys should I just wear this instead today? I Feel like my family is gonna dress up for the first part and then worry we rented out a movie theater So we're gonna go there Maybe I'll just bring this for Tim McKinney to wear at some point and this top which I'll probably end up wearing today Just like a little white Turn neck that I really need it. I feel I can go through these really easily. Here's my outfit It's not my fate. My jeans are really wrinkled and I just need a new pair of jeans that are exactly this cut Without the asymmetrical thing because these are the best jeans ever princess poly jeans. I've shared them so many times in the vlogs I know a lot of people have them too, but they're so comfy this jacket from a store. I shared yesterday. It's so cute It's also green so it's like festive. I don't know. I think it's really cool my favorite some element boots and Yeah, I haven't decided how long I'm gonna stay at the end of McKinney I'm really trying to just take time off And not do much so I packed as if I'm there for days which like Probably won't be the case. I'll probably be there like two or three. I packed a lot of clothes I'm not gonna lie you this bag the base weekend there. It's so good Normally, I'll just bring this but I need it more stuff. I am almost to my mom's house I'm passing my old middle school in elementary school. I feel so old anyways. I'm on my way to my mom's You know in your hometown you have like flashbacks like I'm pretty sure I'm on a date with someone there and I'm pretty sure it was awful You know like I don't know and also I'm like I'm only 23 like why am I forgetting dates and stuff that I've gone on But I think just because they were so bad that I'm just like trying to forget, you know Like that was like an active level of forgetting Fit are you so excited for your first Christmas? He does not care And then unscrew these So this doesn't nothing spills Well, if you want to pop it pop it Okay, you want 80 20 for me. Yeah, I expected I mean we are an Irish family Oh So if he's so excited because she's looked at the camera and said we can vlog we were having a conversation, but Did you have a good Christmas morning? Yeah, we're gonna want go watch a movie. What are we gonna watch? Buddy buddy the elf And what else are we doing? Oh Yeah, we're coming back here and open the present. Yeah, are you so excited? Do you want to see it like that means I Know That's why I was like don't buy anything fair I got a dolly part. I trained her so Another book that I can read to a is for awesome all of these Brothers and that's so cute Oh my god, that is so cute Oh We're going to the movies you're ready for the movie Yeah, yeah, are you one of the girls they're right behind us Oh So let's have another one finish the movie. How was it? Buddy the elf was it's so good. Yeah, it was so good. I'm drinking my ice. You start you finishers I love you Hi guys, we're back from the movie if you guys didn't know at cinemark you can rent your own movie theater It's actually not that expensive at all. I definitely really recommend it I have been trying to film this clip and I just cannot get the right words out So I'm just gonna say what comes to mind and then just end it there Merry Christmas everyone I was driving today and just thinking like to be honest This has been a very very hard year, especially just in the past few months specifically like Not even necessarily. I mean a lot having to do with like my personal life But also like so many people that I love and like adore so many things going on with them Like I don't know what is going on, but this has just been Horrible, but I just mean like even on top of pandemic stuff like there's just been so many things that have happened that are just like Tragedy after tragedy after tragedy after tragedy like I literally wasn't therapy this week talking to my therapist I'm like if I just get if I can go it's the remainder of 2020 without getting another call and then I got a call Literally an hour later. That's probably the worst call. I got in 2020 I'm also so aware when I say I've had such a hard year to know like I still have my family members I still have a job. I still have all those things like and I am so Unbelievably grateful. There's just been so much going on honestly just all of 2020 I think you guys really genuinely know like maybe 10% of the hard things that have been going on and I just feel like You know when you just feel like you're like drowning and then you are like, oh, I can like breathe again And then it's like just bad again So I feel like I go through periods of time where I'm like no I feel really good like I've got this and then something else happens and then I'm like I got this I got this and then it just keeps happening and I'm like, oh my gosh Like when is this going to stop? I just wanted to talk about this and it's kind of like a very real chat at the end Of today's vlog I feel bad because I know so many of you guys come to my vlogs because it is an escape, but at the same time I I don't know. I really care about being honest Even though sometimes just like not the time to share but also I know there's so many of you guys Who had a really hard holiday season and you're on YouTube or on Instagram or whatever and seeing all these people like even if you Look at my Instagram right now It looks like I'm having the time of my life, you know, and I definitely do have good times too And so this is what I'm trying to get across basically, um, I Lost two really close family members within the span of a year and a half in this week There's also like another loss this week. That's just horrible horrible And I was on the phone with a friend this morning And I was just talking about grief in general and I think a lot of us are I know a lot of us are currently in my life grieving right now and The thing that I've learned the most about grieving whether you're grieving a life you're grieving a Person you're grieving a job You're giving the idea of what you thought you were gonna have whatever it is is that joy and mourning are not respectors of each other so and I just think it's really important to Be gentle with yourself and give yourself grace and also recognize again joy and mourning are not respectors of each other So there are gonna be things that happen You will have really hard times in life But even in the midst of that like you can still have joy There are still gonna be like the small things that make you happy I think that's also why sometimes I have a weird relationship with social media because it's like You know what I'm sharing with you is really my life and is really what's going on But it's only a portion of it right like I'm not gonna share You know two nights ago when I got a call that was horrible sobbing that whole night Like that's just not what I want to put on the internet And I also don't think it's productive for either one of us at that time But I do just want to be realistic in this holiday season and just be honest like it has been So hard for me. I've been going through so much my dogs are at the door I'm unbelievably grateful for you guys if you had a hard holiday season. I'm right there with you I see you things are going to get better I just keep thinking about like this time a year from now how much different life can be I know there will be a day where I am grateful for a lot of things that have happened I'm more than anything grateful for who I've become through it. I'm just not quite there yet I feel like I'm getting close So if you were having a hard time and if you didn't have the best Christmas ever You were not alone and I love you so much and I'm so sorry And I I don't want to say I get it because I don't know all of your circumstances, but I get some things, you know Anyways, I hope that made sense. I don't even know if that was helpful but I just wanted to say like I know it has to be so hard getting on social media and Seeing all these people who are having the time of their lives and I think because I have a YouTube channel And I'm like really in the game. I know that's just not always the truth And I'm just really grateful to see who we all become through this. I love you guys so much I just realized that my nails match my outfit. Um, and I will see you guys in 2021 I'm gonna take some time off. I One need it into my videos are just gonna get worse and worse if I keep posting So I love you guys and Merry Christmas, and I will see you guys soon. Bye