 Hey what's up you guys, welcome back to my channel. If you're new here, hi, hello, I'm Lydia. Welcome, hello. Hi. Today we're going to be talking about how my mum reacted to my self-harm. So I started self-harming around the age of 6 or 7. I'd find metal and I'd just scratch it there until it bled, which obviously my mum knew about. I was a kid and she knew my life. But as far as I can remember, nothing dramatic really happened. We didn't move on to high school. Now this is where it gets bad. I was cutting every day. And then one day, my mum said, show me your arms. So I did and then it was covered in cuts. And she reacted by moving everything sharp that she could find out of my reach, so to speak. But it wasn't then there. One year I was at home alone and my mum was away. Then I self-harmed to the point that an ambulance got caught. And when my mum found out, she just thought I asked, am I the reason you're doing this? And I said no. She asked me if I'd stop. And I said I'd rather try. My mum didn't really understand why I was self-harming. My mum reacted very slowly to it. She didn't really react at first. And then I went to have an allergy test done on my arms and she said, is there anything now? I said no. I had braces like I do now, but my mum and she knew. I don't think my mum knew how to react. I think she was a bit afraid of it. But her reactions for me were not what I expected. I expected her to be raving mad at me because that's how how mine and her relationship was. I expected to get shouted out for her. That didn't happen. So yeah, how my mum reacted to my self-harm. It wasn't anything dramatic. She didn't hate me to see a doctor or anything, which she probably should have, but she didn't. There are a lot of things she probably should have done that she didn't. That doesn't make her a bad mum. It makes her a mum dealing with something for the first time and not really understanding it. So yeah, that's all I've got for this video. I hope you've learned something. It's a part of my life that I'm putting out there for you. Parents don't always react how you think they're going to react. That's my message for this video. Thank you for watching. I'll see you in my next one. Quick shout-out to my Patreons. People who follow you on TikTok, Twitter, Instagram. Love you all. I'll see you guys in my next video. Peace.