 Good morning. Good morning. Good morning everyone. Let me go back in the side here so I can actually talk. Yeah, I'm thinning out. I haven't even gone to the gym. Look. Let me sit over here. Okay, these bushes need to be cut. Do y'all see this flurry? Normally the hedges are not this tall. It is the week of October 8th and JP is on fall break. Girl, this child has been acting. Victor's shades are crazy when I tell you that I've had to snatch him up almost every day. So y'all know me. I typically have things planned for JP which I have but most of the time it's during the weekend because I am working. Yeah, I work from home. I just don't sit up here and record videos all damn day. I actually have stuff to do so I've tried to take him out and do at least something even if it's you know with him going to the store with me for five to ten minutes. My hopes were to take him with me to the gym every day but they raised the prices for the gym. Let me back up. I've removed my unlimited children's access because he goes to school and he will only go with me to the gym like once every two weeks so I'm like there's no need for you to for me to have unlimited and with that it was a little over $50 right like $52 with tax and just with me by myself it's like $34-35 so I'm like let me remove this. There's no need for me to when he barely goes with me like honestly. But I'm like okay if you were to go with me every day this month it's $8. When I go it's about $8 a day I'm like no that's gonna add up so going into the office on Monday but let me back up this week. Don't have a lot going on but it has been a very productive week for me when I tell you I've gotten so much done um work and we're on the house. I like it when I'm like this. This makes me feel successful and that I'm getting stuff done. I've already started goal planning for 2019 y'all saw the planner I purchased from my previous vlog. Why am I getting a little too hype about the exam sticker planners? Girl I have literally purchased since I've talked to y'all last time I purchased three more packages and now I found out that you can actually um print them you can get freebies so oh yes like another little project I'm going to do because this is so relaxing for me another little project. I harassed a guy at Staples he always he's like what's up Viv. I'm like my name ain't Viv. I don't like nicknamed y'all but anyway I'm like okay if I bring my sticker paper up here can I print off these stickers? He's like yeah that's not a problem. I'm like okay so maybe Friday or Saturday I'm going to take about 10 or 15 sheets of sticker paper and go crazy print out some stickers but I need to get a craft knife probably go to Walmart one day this week get a craft knife and um print out some stuff but y'all um what I was going to say this morning I shared online with you guys um upcoming videos hair related videos I'm kind of thinking about doing a vlog this year but y'all it is a lot of work to film and edit vlogmas is when you upload daily it is a lot of work it was hard for me doing it with so I think JB was three years old at the time about to be four like uh two years ago and girl I know T I know you want me to do those curl formers never alpha I wish you would I know you wanted to be a surprise when you sent me just to let you guys know a subscriber sent me some curl formers with the intentions of me reviewing them but y'all know some of y'all probably know I said I would never do curl formers just I tried I looked at them I tried four or five times and I was a couple of weeks ago I think it's been a couple of months ago but we had shared a picture of some curl formers she did and I don't know if she uploaded that video and so I was excited I was like yes now I get to um I said to her message said now I get to have my subscribers come over to your channel and bother you and look and look at your curl formers video because I'm not doing it and she was like well actually she didn't have a good experience so when she told me she didn't have a good experience and she's good at styling her hair I'm like okay I'm not even gonna try to do curl formers I would return though so you can get your money or send them back since you get your money but I actually ripped two of them trying to use it two of the curl formers yeah okay I'm not gonna do them oh and last but not least my mama says she ran into a subscriber out in east Texas y'all I was like what she sent me a text message y'all I don't be reading my text messages right away so um she's she was out in Carthage Texas I don't know those of you who are from east Texas there's a lot of small towns in Texas Carthage Texas is in east Texas and that's where my grandparents used to live at so she was there for something child and she said that someone named Bryce Bryson she says a tall ice-skinned guy approached her and I said was was he a queen and she was like what a queen I said never mind never mind so um I know I have straight men who watched my channel but most of the men who watch my channel are not straight which is absolutely fine um so anyway um so shout out to you Bryson thank you for your support he apparently approached my mama and was like I'll watch I follow your daughter on or I follow her blog I'm like oh okay so shout out to him anyway let me go over here and wake this child up because he ain't gonna be ruining my morning activities he needs to get up we need to have breakfast we're gonna be going out I'll do a little vlogging while we go out toast of course hey you guys so we are back home getting my y'all see my pink big butt and getting some clothes together like since I don't really go out and do stuff much I just make sure that I have clothes together for the next week getting my outfit ready for work on Monday even though we technically have three days and then we have an outdoor festival next weekend next week is gonna be crazy we have two outdoor festivals to do um my hair's so cute y'all to do Friday we have the festival from his school and then he said he'll have the energy but I'm like okay he apparently wants to go do the trick a treat crawl at our outdoor plaza and everything's really close by and his school is right down the street so we'll probably show up at the school right at five o'clock do different five to six and then go do the trick a treat thing from six to seven and I believe it actually starts at six so it'll work out well it'll work out real well um let me say I didn't talk to y'all because I had a good time and um the hold on jay b sleeping out on what was I saying he woke up at seven but he went to bed late too he woke with the bed at like 10 o'clock yeah he went to bed but he napped so right now it's not even four and uh we sorry off the camera we've been eating out a lot lately and when I eat out first of all when I eat out I don't eat all my food I look at the calories and eat all my food so yesterday we stopped at McDonald's I had a hamburger that was the first time in I don't know how long it's been almost seven eight years since I've had a hamburger for McDonald's I can only eat two or three bites of that and I just ate the fries then today we had an analogy and oh yes I can eat it in and out burger but I didn't even eat all of that and I had a couple of fries um tonight for dinner I'll be having veggies I have some red cabbage with some potatoes and I will only eat that if I'm hungry gonna definitely drink a lot of water tomorrow tomorrow I'll probably make a lentil soup so I've been limiting my meals to one or two to two meals a day no snacking and uh because I had we got back from Texas I had to be careful and plus I haven't been able to work out because like I told y'all yeah it's too much money so I may go to the gym tomorrow and just take him with me um yeah because I gotta work out oh I could do something at home that's what I'll do anyway y'all um had a good time um JP basically was playing with his best friend I didn't want to put them on cam to make them feel awkward he was playing with one of his best friends from school little boy so sweet um for a while now his because JP's popular at school y'all and I think it's mostly because of his his character his personality and um he's been to two he's been to two preschools so he knows we know at least two or three kids from every kindergarten class and it's four classes but anyway long story short um this family has been asking us literally both grandparents comes and picks up the child and the father comes to pick up the child the mother comes as a literally they're like um you know I don't want to say the baby's name you know our grandson is always talking about JB and they literally have been talking about this for two weeks and so I finally was like look let's just go ahead and get together get these babies together and let them play especially since this week they're out of school and I know that he's been really wanting that that interaction with other children he did get a chance to play with Miss Lori's grandkids um yesterday actually no no the day before yesterday actually so anyway um great time with this woman the reason I want to bring her up is because we had a great conversation this was the grandmother of the child we had a great conversation and I love talking to people who are genuine and just hold nothing back and so I she was apologizing a couple of times because she felt like she was talking too much but I was like you're not talking too much you know we were there for two hours um but you know one of the things that she bought well first of all let me say this I believe that there is nothing that's accidental and I told her that you know I told her I mentioned that to her because as much as we were connecting on a lot of different things and she's like oh absolutely I believe that everything happens for a reason and um she was telling me she's like you're always so bubbly and you know so full of life and you know it's always a joy to just speak to you you're always in a good mood it seems I said why I said well thank you she was asking me you know what are you what are you doing to make sure that you know you're not going crazy and I let her know about my routine and we just have a lot different stuff about meditation and she was telling me some things that she wanted to do but overall she said that this year has been you know very difficult for her because of some things that was happening with her family she lost her mother last year to suicide of all things and the reason I'm not bringing this woman's business up but there's a reason why I wanted to talk to y'all about this um and I was shocked because again this is a grandmother and her own mother committed suicide at 79 years old and I said well you know and she she could guess that or sense that I was curious to what would make a 79 year old woman she said she was in pain she was having a stomach pain and they've been in specialists and they could not figure out where the pain was coming from and she had this intense just chronic pain for a long time and she was just tired over it and so as she's talking to me about this you know I interrupted and I said you know I hate to say this but your your stomach your intuition is connected to your stomach your brain basically your guts and your heart so if you are uh suffering emotionally if you are suffering that can manifest in you physically and thank god she wasn't offended by that she absolutely agreed she's like oh yeah she's like I absolutely know that because apparently they had lost her dad shortly before she started experiencing the stomach pain and that's when she started feeling sick I mean she was so sick and and just in pain and they couldn't figure out what the reason was for um it was just a great conversation I said we should do this again um she we were both inspired by each other and so that really got me thinking about I need to get back on my um oh and real quick I was sharing with her how my vision for uh my vision board for my career was stalled this year because I was so I was holding so much animosity not animosity I was holding so much bitterness and anger towards some things that happened throughout the year and it was almost blocking me from my blessing it was blocking me from um just growing y'all growing within my my self growing within my my career field I should say and she was like oh yeah she said yeah that could happen you know a lot of people don't take ownership of that and they say stuck and she said we're human things happen and we we are we're built to be emotional but you can't stay in that I said yes yes mama landed and she was like I think there's a reason why we got together today I said I think so too this is exactly what I needed and it's so funny how God can put people together and put them just when they need it this is exactly what I needed and one of the things I feel that I need to get back into is to create my village of women and unfortunately this is something I share with the grandmother my village has been I wouldn't say it's unfortunate it's a good thing I guess my village so far has been older women like women who are old enough to be my mom but I want to be able to connect with women on my age my age level or younger I feel like sometimes especially with other moms there's this almost competition sometimes with other women my age or younger and I don't want to be that way I want to be able to you know lift you up you lift me up and this is there doesn't have to be any competition you know what I mean so um you guys I've been been yeah he's I'm hoping my husband can take him somewhere today so that I can get some work done I mean I've probably been getting I try to work in the morning and when he's sleeping um or taking a nap so my hours have been crazy this week and I've been off track um yeah because I've been crying my father okay JB my father also had surgery two days ago to remove his prostate I didn't even know you could do that but you know you could I thought you needed that man needed that like isn't that like hormonal for him to like let's like remove no one is over he's almost JB stop it so anyway yeah he had surgery two days ago but then he had a little bit of complications um he was in a lot of pain they had originally given him morphine and then they took him off the morphine and then that's when his stomach really started hurting so they put him back on the morphine so y'all that and then one of mine she's not really my cousin but she's my aunt's niece but we all kind of grew up together because that's why I thought they were cousins child didn't even find out till I was in college because they really not family but it makes sense because they treated us a little different they didn't treat us like blood you know what I mean but anyway one of my cousins apparently had open heart surgery um last week and then she had a stroke a little what is a TSA TSA I'm sorry um but she's doing well she is 52 so anyway y'all um yeah keeping myself busy let me show y'all what I've been doing my latest obsession is sticker planners or sticker for your planners y'all did not I told y'all I would budget myself for five dollars that went out the door like that didn't take time at all however what I found is that it's best to print them out yourself now I don't have a printer at home but my homeboys at at Staples they hooked me up they helped me out so I went over there yesterday let me show y'all what I've been doing um so yeah what I did is one I went to Staples and I've already had this sticker paper this is sticker paper that I've been having when I used to have my little shop selling my hair my hair oil and this was for my mailing labels so I just took about a couple of sheets of these and I went to Staples they printed it out for me eight bucks and I had about I have about 18 pages eight dollars 18 pages of stickers I don't know how much how many that is but it's quite a few then I also created my own I'm going to show you my other stickers I've been doing I created my own that fit my calendar so you can see here stuff like um for his school early release filming editing video dentists events appointments volunteer time date night um and then I switched it up sometimes uh you know this is for making phone calls uh me days again helping with my vlog volunteers is me vlogging meeting vacations so forth these were very very basic because I'm going to show you um what my decorative stickers are going to look like um so yeah I saved these files and these right here will definitely fit my calendar so these are for that I don't know the names of the different calendars they have out there because yeah I just started this a week ago um but these fit specific calendars uh pages they're the days excuse me but they're too big yeah so and then hits kids yeah so again this is just what I did very very basic using a couple things I have um these are the stickers I created so yeah another sticker I created an early release which fits perfectly on this calendar in my 2019 but girl y'all all right so these are actual stickers so these are the stickers I have um just productive stickers I created these last week but that career within uh between last night and this morning I've created these stickers don't mess with that baby oh okay so this right here this ribbon right here would be I guess they call it the washi is what this will be and then I have just some largest stickers this is my perfume and purses okay and then we have oh isn't this cute y'all afro queens natural hair and then we have Texas I have a month nothing but Texas we have water burger we have the blue bunnets sweet tea of course and then we have a we'll have a christian um monthly section here some of my favorite bible verse says of course you got a representation matter the brown hands oh and this is really cute I want to show you walk by faith and that's really cute that's probably something I could put like this clip work right here it's something that I could probably put along here or even along there when I'm decorating okay but no let's do the next page okay this is Christmas again representation matter we've got the brown elf the brown santa kwanzaa um yep i am a potter head and so we have harry potter and last but not least this is going to be four not for thank for nothing singing this is one before valentine's day this would be for the month my husband i got married which was april and so yeah i think this would be very very cute so this is for one two three four five six seven months um of next year here's this woman coming up here y'all i think she's from houston she has a boxer she's walking her dog y'all y'all know it's friday let me tell you something this boy there is not enough alcohol in the world to make you want to have multiple kids bless y'all heart those of y'all who have multiple kids but um miss jackson is not about that village life right now like i never have been quite as a cap um i was one of those what i was watching i was watching one of my favorite movies is no reservations was with catherine zeta jones and that guy with the dimple in his chin oh i don't know if he's cute or not i don't i don't know he's cute to me but one of the reasons why i love that movie is because i see myself as the main character played by catherine zeta jones who is his career driven now i don't have a lot of issues but a very much career-driven um woman i think catherine she plays someone in their mid 30s and was just focused on the career not really caring about a family being married and i was like that um i was that friend was like i don't like kids i don't want to have kids babies are cute but i'm not about that breastfeeding life i'm not about that you know cloth diapers and in that scene you have to do all that but i guess my point is is that i did not want kids and i honestly never wanted to get married i was okay with being with my husband i was okay with being single for a moment there we were single a few times i was perfectly fine with that because i was focused on my career okay never had this feeling of loneliness that a lot of not a lot that some single women have but i guess what would i was talking about that for oh so you know a lot of times especially when you have one child you just want it done they're like oh don't you want another one no because i didn't even really want to have any at all i love jay b he is the light of my life but i have no desire to gain 30 40 pounds and get my nipples be leaking i just don't have any i don't have that y'all oh i when i see people have multiple kids my heart aches for them no and i'll honestly i um really do respect women who are able to manage and i mean large households when you have four plus kids four or five kids and when they little all at the same time oh girl jay b started singing christmas songs and that was my cue my glasses are dirty all that was a sign for me that i may need to get out the damn house at this point my husband woke up it's nine o'clock he's he's on the treadmill and i'm like okay i gotta go do you have anything going this morning okay i have to go look ladies if you have small kids do not be afraid to or don't feel like you have to be the sole provider caregiver i mean not provider even that too but the sole caregiver for your children especially when they're little you know i under five and under i think a lot of women feel like that the kids have to always tell no jay b has been with his father ever since he was a baby i used to go into the office and when he was a baby um my husband would keep him or sometimes my husband would keep him and then drop him off yeah here's the breast milk in a bottle by i don't or sometimes i've read or sometimes i've heard a woman asking their husband for permission to leave them now out of respect i'll ask do you have anything going on this morning nine times out of ten he doesn't so okay here's the baby gotta go gotta go girl i'm all about my meantime that um very pleasant summer let me get this camera and talk to y'all buy something real quick because i saw something this morning on facebook y'all know i am a huge lurker so i'd be lurking my friends facebook posts i don't say anything a lot of the times i just look staring judge but no on this particular one i kind of briefly read it and she basically asked one of my facebook friends she was like what is y'all budget for christmas you know our budget for presents let me add and she's like our budget is normally four hundred five hundred dollars i'm like what let me tell you something we budget my budget this year is a hundred and fifty dollars and that's for both jay b and my husband i find that as jay b is getting older and i knew this would happen that the presents are getting more pricier so the years before i was able to give him stuff five six eight dollars and give him get him a lot of stuff this year he's technically getting four or five things and he's not getting a dang on thing for his birthday because we're going we're going to Sedona not having a party i'll bring some donuts for his class put him a little birthday boy sash on and that is it let me say something i am not one of those parents that's gonna be let me let me back up and say this you could do whatever you want with your money is your money is your coins but half that stuff that i bought for jay b last year i'm trying to think besides that wash machine besides the washing machine and the keyboard those are the only two things he played with everything else he's either destroyed he's lost or he shows no interest with my children with my child excuse me i'm not going to be spending four hundred five hundred dollars and she doesn't have any kids so i'm assuming this is for her family as a whole i haven't gotten my parents a birth excuse me a um even that i haven't gotten them any christmas presents in years we are about making memories and that's one thing i told i told you know my husband when we were considering like okay should we do a birthday party or let him have an experience and go on vacation so i think that is going to be our our tradition as a family is that instead of um having j.b uh parties you know when he gets to a certain age and he has some friends yeah but while he's this young we're going to be creating memories from him let's go you know let's let's do a day trip somewhere a weekend trip um let's go to the beach i'm not going to be spending three hundred four hundred dollars on holidays and then for his birthday hell no so let me know do y'all have a budget for your presents or do y'all be like forget it um yeah he's not getting me presents for his birthday because his birthday is literally two weeks after christmas and for christmas i already have his j.b is something else i already has his presents in the amazon cart so just a second ago he's like mama are you going to add that um school that game to your cart i'm like yes j.b he's oh you could go to staples and get it i'm like oh my god he already five years old and already knows exactly what he wants but i will say j.b is a very he's very humbling in that i could get him four or five things i mean if it's what he absolutely wants he doesn't care about having more stuff you know what i mean he's okay with just enough he's okay with that so um yeah and i get my husband will get some um i have some uh versace sitting in the cart waiting for him but even that's like 40 50 dollars so between him and j.b i hundred oh and he's gonna give me money for j.b's presents so i might even spend the four hundred dollars for j.b's present four hundred dollars hey hey can y'all see me i lightly wet my hair and now i am going to remember that honey you can see it here that honey in all mask i did for y'all here at the bottom i added some conditioner and that's gonna be my pre pool let me shake this up i know this is gonna work the reason why my hair looks like this is because i lightly i put my hair under the um shower head um girl look at that look at that foresee though lord oh my god now looks like this so i'm going to pre pool this is going to be a ridiculous wash day for me because i'm doing that flexi-raw set for y'all i'm not looking forward to that because i'm still sleeping on my back i am i think my husband in my back hail i am a belly sleeper but i accidentally rolled over on my stomach the other day and i woke up in the middle of the night i wasn't so much it wasn't pain it was sore as hell i almost cried out it was so sore so i'm still healing and unfortunately i'm gonna have to sleep on those damn flexi-rots i could probably do my side because normally i sleep on my belly if i'm doing perm lots of flexi-rots i sleep on my belly and i sleep with my head lifted up and i can sleep you know but i don't want to figure something out y'all oh lord anyway let me go see if my husband and them are back and i know jayby's been going crazy he's not acting bad or anything he's acting like a five-year-old i mean but this is the first time we've had him home all week since the beginning of the year since january and he wasn't this active look at those curls anyway y'all my whole plan is to put this pre-poo in i'm putting it a lot and um twist it up put a cap on come back in and then detangle oh lord what was i talking about keep getting interrupted hell oh real quick child khanye west those of us in the states know that khanye met with trump look i have no problems with uh khanye supporting trump but this is the problem khanye is unstable he has been diagnosed as a he has bipolar and instead of trump addressing the hurricane that recently occurred in florida he's gonna have what hour two hour long meeting with khanye west oh lord how mercy you know i really do believe that khanye is still mourning the mourning the loss of his mother i don't think because he went down he was already weird but and there's nothing wrong with being weird he went down this long spiral of being out of control and making all these off-the-wall comments and it's just gotten worse since his mother has passed so um i've been lucky enough i still have both my parents but i know some of you guys have lost your parents he i don't think he ever had his father in his life and his mother he was really close with his mother you know remember that pain and then imagine if you were married to our kadashin the kadashin clean which i located think that they are into witchcraft i really do i have two narcissistic people having a conversation with each other but hell for a minute i didn't work the entire interview but for a minute there i was sitting there trumpeting even trump was like what the hell was i thinking letting this man come in here and talk to him crazy just crazy hey i'm sorry he's not crazy just the entire scenario which is crazy um and i you know i really do feel like and i'm trying to talk about politics on my channel but i really do feel like trump is taking advantage of us of a clearly sick and ill man and that's just disgusting it really is you guys we're at desert ridge for eating and then we're gonna go see a movie together and it's raining look it's raining let's see if y'all can see it yeah it's really raining and the temperature is like 60 water rain in texas rain water rain in texas rain sit down baby so they can see you you want to talk to me i brought my bendy and it's raining outside but we're gonna go see a movie and we gotta get our tickets and we're gonna walk around like a little tiny minute jay b has his candy he should be good you guys we are at the amc this is the first time i've been in amc in years and they actually assign you seating they ask us what type of sitting um those tacos i got from they got food food over here the tacos i got from what's the name arubio's was bland as hell i didn't even eat all of them let me look at the food they have stay right here below stay right here i'm gonna look at the food that they have they have actually food food even if you tell me i can get some nachos here the amc seems to be a lot nicer than hawkins let me look at they have little mini tvs to let you know it at hawkins they just got the picture child and my battery's really low so i think we got a wow they're still cleaning we have about 15 minutes y'all like this lipstick this is a purple lipstick blue and purple i got last year kiss mark no you don't have a kiss mark no you don't have any kiss marks from fries this movie's in 3d they also have a bar should have gotten me something hell i would have eaten here but you know this movie food is basically warm up food so it's probably just as expensive as those tacos i don't know what we're gonna eat tomorrow i mean tonight um actually i know i'm gonna cook that salmon i have some salmon and some broccoli and some spinach and then tomorrow i'm gonna do wild rice crock pot style over all right y'all that is it for this vlog it's gonna be pretty long can you see back there look at that skin tone those red undertones yes bye y'all