 Hi you guys, it's Lindsay here and I know it's been a while since I have uploaded a video and even longer since I've done a chat video with you guys. I have done some pattern reviews or fabric reviews, you know where I model the garment that I made and talked to you about how I made it but I haven't sat down and talked with you guys in a long long time so I thought I would give you guys a bit of a life update because there is never a dull moment over here and lots of exciting things are happening and then also some sort of bummer things are happening so I thought I would just kind of give you an update on what's been going on over here so if you saw the sort of life update where we've been video that I posted I don't know maybe last October November then you know I was kind of struggling with this feeling of not feeling good but not really knowing what it was I was thinking it was maybe adrenal fatigue but maybe it was some kind of deficiency and I wasn't really sure so I was seeing a doctor and since then I have not seen a ton of improvement I lie actually there's been a lot of improvement since then but nothing consistent and I certainly don't feel right and I had that experience that everyone dreads when you've been going to the doctor you've been poked you've been prodded you've been tested through the wazoo spent all kinds of money on those tests and your doctor tells you you're crazy and it's all on your head yeah I'm not even kidding that's what she told me she told me that the supplements that I was taking were poisoning me and that there was nothing she could do for me so that was a pretty overwhelming day let's just say and I said I did take a little bit of what she had to say to heart I think that maybe women in particular have it's like two sides I feel like we push through things that maybe we shouldn't push through and then that leads us to a more dangerous place I also think that we are like creatures of inertia and once we get headed down a certain path and we get this like idea planted in our heads that idea almost manifests itself and can kind of take over so when she was telling me that I was crazy and it was all in my head at first I was like so upset and so pissed off and so frustrated but then I started to think about it a little bit and I was like you know what I am giving myself a lot of excuses for not doing things that I normally do and things that normally make me feel good because I think that I am sick or because I am feeling a little bit down so in the past I guess that was probably maybe three weeks ago so the past few weeks I have really tried to think mind over matter and you know think happy thoughts I know that sounds so cliche to just find happiness and you'll be happy and it doesn't work that way all the time but it has helped a little bit I think changing your mindset can really affect so many areas that doesn't mean that I'm not sick and it doesn't mean that I still don't feel badly but I'm not making it worse like I'm not exacerbating it by also having this bad attitude about it too so what I've been doing since then is I stopped taking all those supplements and I have narrowed it down to what I believe the root cause is and I think that it is a gut imbalance so we're a we're a gut bacteria imbalance it's called leaky gut you can look it up and basically your body has good bacteria and then based on what you eat and just like natural things that happen inside our bodies you also have bad bacteria and it's supposed to be like an 85% good bacteria and a 15% bad bacteria that would be balanced and if the if the bad bacteria is overshadowing the good bacteria like all kinds of crazy things can happen to you the most notable symptoms would be like bloating and issues eliminating we'll just leave that there and it can also impact your skin you can give headaches anxiety depression I mean so many things can be the root cause of your gut and this bad bacteria just taking over so I've I have been researching different probiotics I think what the biggest thing I learned was is that not all probiotics are created equal and that actually that acid in your stomach can be so strong that it just eats up the probiotic and you have no presence of any good flora even though you're spending all this money on probiotics they're not cheap and you you know you're just not and you're not absorbing any of that like it's not actually making a difference so I have found one and I just started it here recently so I don't want to tell you anything about it because I don't want to say one way or another whether it's helping or not helping or anything until I can give it probably a good few weeks a month maybe longer so I will keep you posted on that I am feeling optimistic about it so we'll see I've also continued to take magnesium that's the one thing that I think the one supplement that I that I've kept because that does help in the elimination process and I have added an iodine supplement there's been a lot of research done out there that shows really a lot of us are iodine deficient and we don't even know it iodine used to be very present in the foods that we got from the food store but due to several different reasons that is not as present as it used to be and there's really no other way to get it so I'm doing those three things and I am well I guess it's four things if you consider the think happy thoughts and I am feeling like I said optimistic still have good days still have bad days but I am not giving up because I will feel good if it heals me well that's pretty serious and sort of literal but you know what I mean and then on top of that I've got really really exciting news actually very very very very exciting news if you've been watching my channel for a while you know that I live and work in a shoebox this place is 560 square feet so basically one area like my my kitchen island serves probably six different purposes one of them being my cutting table another one being my actually sewing table where I set up my sewing machines to sew I iron here I cook here I eat here I work here like this this island here has been a real workhorse for me but I am moving I am moving not very far from where I am now but like in the same city but I am getting a dedicated sewing room yes people it is happening I'm getting a two bedroom place and the guest bedroom will serve as my sewing room and also my filming room where I'll be able to do YouTube videos so I am super excited I don't move for a few more weeks but I have already started packing I have already done some like space designing like I got I went online and found this like free room designer we put in the measurements of the room and you can play around with furniture placement and stuff I've already got all that figured out I know exactly what furniture pieces I'm going to buy exactly what storage pieces I'm going to get and I've got some really cool fun ideas I asked my followers on Instagram Facebook and Twitter to let me know if y'all would like to see that process and no one said no everyone said yes and it was very enthusiastic yes not a pity yes like okay fine no people really want to see that so I'll be filming the process and then do like a like a room reveal room tour type thing but basically I'm super excited about it the neighborhood is like you know when I moved in here no one has lived in this unit before me so the neighborhood wasn't established yet it was so new and over time it has come a place that is just not really in line with my lifestyle take that for what it's for what it's worth I guess there are a lot of younger people here a lot of college students and so a lot of the things in this neighborhood like the amenities I can't even enjoy because they are just overrun by these younger skinnier more beautiful people but the new neighborhood although it is brand new to and I will be the only one that has ever lived in that unit I don't know it feels like it's gonna be more mature it feels like it's gonna be more like of my contemporary so I'm excited about that and just the new space like having more space is gonna be just so awesome I almost don't even know what I'm gonna do with myself there are so many closets so much storage so many cabinets like I'm almost tripling the space I have here well actually it's 560 I'm going to almost 12 so I'm doubling I'm a little more than doubling the space that I have here and I am just like excited and overwhelmed and I don't know it's gonna be a lot of fun it's gonna be like my first real grown-up place so I'm excited about that and I say that even though I used to own a house and you would think that would be your most grown-up space but it wasn't I was far too young whenever I bought that house that was such a silly thing to do anyways so super excited so you'll see some changes obviously like everything behind me will all be different and yeah it'll be really cool so I'm really excited to have y'all along for that journey so that's really it those are the couple things that have been up with me since I last chatted with you guys I am gonna be filming some more videos here shortly I'm gonna get back into doing monthly favorites monthly makes all those things that I know you guys love so much I have been sewing I just haven't been filming what I've been sewing I've got some really exciting favorites coming up I guess they would be our June favorites that I'll post later this week I've also got a really fun tutorial planned for making bias tape using new and exciting tools to make that process easier more precise more professional looking so I'll be sharing those with you I've got a Cali fabrics post that's due in June I've got a blank slate patterns post that's due in June so yeah I've got a lot of content coming your way thank you a million times for just being patient I know a lot of you been wondering where is she and what is going on so I just really appreciate you guys giving me the time every now and again to kind of take a breather and not really feel too much pressure by doing this because I still want the channel to be fun for me and I don't want it to ever feel like work or chore or like that thing in the back of my mind like oh I've really got to do that I've got to do that and then that causes stress which causes anxiety which causes depression which causes me to not think happy thoughts and isn't that the whole point right so thank you so much for that and I guess I will see y'all soon bye