 I'm coming to you from my cabin here at the Living Miracles Monastery and have this deep like heartfelt yearning for myself since I was very small that that that I just wanted to know what the truth was, what the truth of everything was and I really found when I came here that I was available to be shown what the truth was. I became aware that what I'd been doing was distracting myself and so there was no chance of me discovering what the truth was because of my fear of being alone or being quiet or being still and here because the container is so pure it was possible to drop in deep it was possible to have this experience of discovering how loved I was you know there's there's a healthness in the mind there's there's a container of the canyon there's the beautiful nature outside and you can hear the wind and the birds and the bunnies and all of the little things around here it's like a st. Francis dream at in this canyon and I really for myself I just wanted my heart to be able to open up and feel safe contained and unafraid because I think there's such a deep belief that there's deep deep darkness there that's going to come up every time you're silent and coming for a personal stay or even a silent week long retreat there's so much support for the mind and that's wonderful so this this space in this place is just devoted to saying take courage come sink in discover your loved discover the beloved inside discover all the inspiration that's going to support you for when you seem to step out of here and there are other calls upon your time nurture and renew this is the water of life and it's for everybody because no matter what tradition you come from it's all about know thyself