 Let's go over my pain killer. This is co-coded one. The joys of being in pain. Hey, what's it you guys welcome back to my channel. I'm Jen New here. Hi. Hello. I'm Lydia and today I am starting on Lydia. So I thought we could have a talk before I actually start taking it. So The dose I'm going on is 400 milligrams 200 of them in the morning and 200 at night. It's a starting dose and then next week we're increasing it. This is my blood test coming back, okay? I'm very anxious about starting it. I've got some anxiety about that. Because I've been on it before and it made me really ill. Physically. And I'm in hospital and I'm starting it where I'm on observations. It's just that I keep thinking back to the last I am. Last time I was on a much higher dose. Last time I was on it I was on 1000 milligrams. It's just it's a very nerve-wrapping thing starting a new medication. Even when you're on nine of the tablets, it's an additional to take and it just It gets your nerves up. I'm going to request to see the excite of action. It's just not an easy thing. I'm so anxious. I'm so anxious about starting it. I do think it's gonna help. Despite my anxieties and fears, I do think that this time it will help. So I'm praying for it anyway. I'm getting a document the first week of me being on lithium. So you can exit that video to come out next week. Is there any of you have any experience with lithium? If you do, let me know in the comments down below. Big Charles by Patreons and almost followers over on Twitter. I have to get a new Twitter account because I can't verify my old one. So my new Twitter will be linked in the description down below. Thanks for watching this video and I'll see you guys in my next one. Peace. It's where I won't forget this. Why do I regret this in my mind, reckless? Thoughts are feeling endless sitting up on breathless. Anxieties infectious. I feel so defenseless Betrayed and embarrassed. I hate being open. I hate being broken I feel like a notion filled up with emotion anger in a potion rub it on like lotion I can feel it soaking reopened the scars have awoken I can't