 Hi, hey Hey party people Hi, oh my gosh. I was just listening to some music Before we started. Okay, so do you want to know the songs I was listening to I will post them on Bridget inspired Facebook Because Well, let me just see here. Let's see if I can I have one of them here Let me just see if I can drop it in the chat I'm not sure if I can go in as somebody else and drop like as my Bridgety self here. Let's see. I'm gonna jump in the chat and see if I can That's okay, okay now I gotta try to see if I can get in here How can I do this as Bridget here I'm trying to chat here I can't you guys. Oh Dang it. Okay All right, whatever Oh my god, I'm so excited. It's so fun to be here. Okay. All right. All right. I've had a day Let me tell you a very full day a very full day today. It is October 1st, 2022. Hi Hey Hi, it's Bridget. Welcome to above life channel the purpose here is to inspire your spirit and to feel you with Hope and tonight we're gonna have some Quality time together as we have a little bit of a part. Hey, I Began the day with a wedding Yes, yes, I did. I began the day with a wedding and Then I went for a walk Strolled through an art fair Yes. Yes, I did and then home To prepare to speak with you tonight. Oh Wow, busy. Yes, busy busy. Let me just do a sound check. Can you hear me? Okay? I'm the speaker here on the mic Checking out the chat. This is a live stream. This is October 1st 2022. It is my psychic birthday. I'm 18 My psychic gifts are 18. Maybe my third eye is 18 Yeah, probably okay Why do we have my air my? Headphones and I'm so used to wearing headphones. Let's undo this. Okay. Can you all hear me? Okay? I could hear myself. All right Yes, yes, okay. All right, so I hope I got my emotionals out Because I Just oh, sorry, I have some lights here going on here. Let's see. I Hope I got my emotions out. I don't know for sure if I did or not I hope so because I I've had some I've had some feels today I've had some feels today. I got in the car to go to the wedding this morning. I'm gonna talk by the way I know above live channel is often a sunday morning coffee a podcast on sundays, which I did do one for tomorrow So you will hear one tomorrow. I know I know you'll hear one if you missed it last week you'll hear one tomorrow and Monday is usually a channeling day And it hasn't been last week. It wasn't and I don't know for sure what's gonna happen on monday this week We'll see I have some things going on. I'll share that with you. I'm gonna update you I'm gonna share with you what's going on with me And also today is my psychic birth. I'm gonna share a little bit about my story about why this is my psychic birthday Why it's important to me and why I'm I'm sharing it with you. Okay? This is gonna bug me in this light, but that's all right. Okay, so I I I'm not sure where to start. So this is a talky chatty Video, this isn't a channeling video. I don't anticipate this to be a channeling. I mean, it could maybe be but I don't know I don't like this light. It's bugging me. Um, it could be a channeling video potentially, but That's not the plan So if that's what you're here for and that's what you like yet above live channel Then you just maybe you should skip this party. This party's for me It's a bridget party. It's a bridget party Okay so I tried to get my emotions out I don't know that I was successful at that so I might get a little And I know emotions. What do I say about emotions? Okay? I'm humaning. I'm humaning with you You usually don't see the whole humaning bridge bridget full out, but you're going to see the humaning bridget full out Okay, you're just going to see the human part of me right now A lot of feelings my heart is cracked wide open right now and um That is not a bad thing And I'm very feely So I don't even know where to start here. I'm just going to start talking to you like we're friends and like you love me And we're hanging out on a saturday night and we're just we're comfortable. We're lounging We look good. We smell good. I had smell good if you could smell me. I smell really good right now And we feel good just being together supporting each other uplifting each other. That's that's the intention for the essence of this exchange tonight. Okay Okay, I'm 18 I'm an adult now when it comes to psychic gifts Okay, so I'm going to share a little tiny bit of my backstory tiny bit and we will cheers to How far we've come to this point above life channel. I think it's four years old It was four years old this year So it's really four and a half almost now. Yeah, but almost not quite four and a half, but it's four years old So some of you may or may not know that I've been on youtube since 2013 or 2012 or 2013 on fairy grasshopper my other youtube channel that I vlogged and I Shared a lot of intuitive information and and and things like that on there and I have taken that off It's down right now because I'm working on something else I hope to put it back up at some point But right now it's down and it's been down for a bit and I had to come down really fast So we could work on something so It's down Don't freak out. It's okay. All right And I've made some changes, you know, and I'm making changes. I'm going to make changes It's been a very change-filled year turning turning changes and some of those things I've shared with you And some of those things I have it Okay, but we're going to cheers for the the path for what has led us all here. I'm looking in the chat I'm going to say hello I'm also going to make mention Just because it's a wine glass Doesn't mean it's an adult beverage There's lots of fizzy things that aren't alcoholic I just don't want to say that Because there's lots of ways to celebrate cheers all right Let me say hi in the group chat to those of you who are chiming in Hallie. Thank you Oh frith. Hi Deb Susie see Oh chris. Hi chris Mother Deb Two dubs Seal hi seal. Nice to see you all the way from to tennessee To to tennessee terry is here Nice to see you Cheryl hi nice to see you happy anniversary Thank you. It's kind of I guess an anniversary to me. It feels like a birthday like a rebirth Okay, so as always when we do live streams watching the chat remember you have the power to Keep people in line if somebody sneaks in because this is a public live stream and they're not quite friendly Go ahead and Off to the side of their comment. There's three little dots. You can click on that and you can block them Just kick them out. It's fine. It's totally fine. Okay. All right. Play nice in the chat. Play nice Okay Let's see queens. Yeah Okay, I don't even know where to start Like I said, it's been it's been so full the last few weeks has been full The last year has been full the last year and a half has been full the last 18 years has been full It's like I've raised a child in 18 years. I've raised myself. I've raised myself and that time I've had multiple things happened in my life and many of you may be aware if you followed my journey that um this august in 2022 I Spent the first week of august In disney world and I did that in part because I really wanted to have time on august 1st Which was the anniversary of my dad's death to really be in a happy place For myself and for my own healing I initiated a deep healing journey in may I didn't understand why that was such a big deal at the time But now looking back I clearly understand it was preparing me for what would happen on july 31st and then august 1st and my dad Was looking out for me He actually came to me in may on one of my walks and said it's time. You need to prepare and I'm like Prepare and I knew that The anniversary 20 years of his since his passing was coming up and I figured I'd do something on august 1st, you know and But it was kind of weird. It was like really early, but I thought okay, whatever I trust I trust the guidance that I was given and so I did and so I Started this journey of healing and trying to clear and walk and I didn't understand what was happening really and really I think my dad was stepping in to protect me through the summer and to kind of cocoon me and give me this safe container to be able to shed and clear and let go of attachments to The way I have lived my life the way I think it should be or the perceptions that I've had that are quite frankly illusions like there are some things that you just kind of grow to assume as just Fact when really it's not fact And you make assumptions about people you make assumptions about relationships you make assumptions about jobs about about finances about all sorts of things and And then you just kind of let it just be that's the way it is forever and that's not true That's not true. Everything changes and evolves and and and shifts just like the seasons of the year And we have to go back and circle back and check in on things We can't take things for granted. We have to be aware of our part in all of the experiences that we're having and To give me I think a sense of maybe control or autonomy He came in and made this year and just really said okay prepare. I'm like prepare for what the Wt. I guess I'm gonna probably swear just so you know if you're like offended by that Number one and probably not the life coach for you and number two I know I don't usually do that on a blood channel. I try to keep it really But I'm an adult not my teen Okay, so Finally though in august after my bout with covet after I returned from Disney August was just such a painful time and Right about the end of it When we shifted in to september I started to feel a little bit better Enough for It's like I was I felt like I was pushed under water and like could barely come up for breath And I'm like am I dying am I dying am I literally dying? I feel like I'm dying And that's what happens when you go into a really deep clearing process Some people call it like this dark night of the soul I'm not really that dramatic with it because you know that kind of stuff does happen to me from time to time It's never been this bad. It's never shook me like this. It's never been so in my face so incredibly Heart-shattering as it has been this summer And now into the fall I find some peace within myself again being able to feel like I can stand up and Feel myself again. I can feel bridge it and The energy inside me and knowing I had a dear dear friend that gave me the most beautiful piece of advice and I'm gonna share it with you and that is She said You have such capacity to love bridge You have so much love. She's like there's just this endless depth in in you And she said And i'm saying this as your friend With that Also comes pain You you can now know Pain Equal to the depth of the love that you have you can hold that And she's like I know that's a really hard thing for you as a person to feel that and to go through that and yet It's beautiful because part of what that is is a sacred trust in the of the universe to gift you with this capacity to hold this energy and I said Yeah, because it's about killed me, you know and I wish I could be i'm gonna get emotional I wish I could be to the point where I could say that I was grateful I'm not quite there yet I am In such full awareness of this 18 year life that I've gift been gifted and so so appreciative For the level and the depths of psychic connection and people that I've met And experiences that I've had and there's just been so many things over the course of all of these years in practicing and groups and public speaking and online groups now and In private sessions and classes and all these things and podcasts and things that I've had this opportunity and traveling and all that But I'm very very grateful at four I am But this last year It's been really hard And I know for many of us the post covet And the kind of in it in between and all that has really shaken us and caused us to pause and relook at things and So I know I'm not alone in that and yet There's such a change and a shift in me and I'm I'm grateful for that being broken open is what had to happen in order for me to Really step out Into my fullest light and I will be sharing that with you in the months to come I'm working on a launch for um, it'll either be the first of jan A first in the first part of the new year sort of i'm hoping it will be february 1st. That's my goal It'll be so poignant To have a launch then we'll see It's not like massive, but it's important to me So working on something like that. That's big behind the scenes for me. It's very big. Okay, it's very big Very special so The story is my dad passed away He struggled he went into the hospital six weeks before he died and then he died there He was diagnosed with hiv aids. He was gay But he lived his life as a heterosexual man married to a woman for like 25 25 plus years He died at age 52 He had three children. I was the oldest And we were all there. We were all there the days before his death. He was in hospice care at a hospital That morning I left I was very very pregnant with my second child my first son and went home My husband at that time had just finished taking the bar exam to become a lawyer Graduated law school in may and took the bar exam and was studying and then took it literally the two nights two days before My dad died so when I came home on august 1st, I I got to see my daughter and play with her. She was like a year and a half and Rest of my big baby belly for a bit It was probably about two hours and then I got a phone call I just laid down I got up and I took my time Because I knew when my grandpa said you need to come back to the hospital bridge You need to come back That's all he said So I did I think I was the last person there Nobody said anything. I just rushed it to the room and went to put my gloves on in my mask because he had this viral or bacterial thing that I don't know how much you know about hiv or aids it just Wrecks your immune system and you get all sorts of funky weird stuff, right? And most people will die of like ammonia pneumonia just like a common cold could kill somebody with hiv aids now Oh, thank god. There's so many more treatments for people. They can live, you know in a healthy way And we know so much more about that the illness the disease and the virus that causes it thank god and At that time there was all I had to glove up and all this because I was pregnant and and it was you know There were some risks there and so I went into the room and I didn't even notice I couldn't hear the breathing I couldn't hear the machines. I couldn't hear the stuff It was a morphine drip machine that goes it makes these weird little noises. It's not like a breathing He wasn't on any kind of breathing stuff. I was the one that made those decisions I was the one that That's the sucky thing we should talk about that We should have a whole session about that if you're the person that has to make the decision My mom didn't make them I did So my parents asked me to when my dad was still able to make those choices and I said, of course, I will yes, I will So um He was gone And the realization of that was really hard Even though it was expected I was very very close to my dad And when he left with him There is this It's kind of like when you see an airplane fly across the sky and there's like a jet stream like a stream that comes out after It's like he left that stream of grief Not just for us missing him but for him missing life He was 52 he Barely I mean he had so much time left potentially had he just said hey, I need a blood test He was very there's a lot of shame and a lot of guilt wrapped up in that grief stream And to this day I have been dealing with that Because I feel it I remember when he called me and told me that he had AIDS and It was right around father's day of 2002 not long after that he went into the hospital and didn't come out and During the times when he was really coherent in the hospital because at first we thought he was just they'd be there for a while And you know how that goes and then all of a sudden it gets worse and then this happens and that happens It's like a dominant effect when you have a terminal illness I had conversation with him One day when I was visiting and I said I touched him, you know, I wasn't afraid to touch him I actually did a paper on AIDS when I was in high school. That was back in 91 My senior paper was about AIDS Isn't that interesting? Yeah, Bridget wasn't psychic then But I learned a lot about it So I knew enough about it and I you know would hold his hand and touch his hand and all that I mean that was before he had this other thing And it was like he was like, oh, I don't know if you want to touch me like of course, I'm gonna touch you Of course, I'm gonna hug you. Why wouldn't I do that? Of course, I'm gonna do that And I said all I said to him was you can't change the past You can't change the past And in these past few months he's been coming to me Especially in August, which is probably what made it so intense emotionally too And even now Forgiveness So in that moment in that hospital bed when I said you can't change can't change the past dad And he said, yeah Can't change the past That was my way of saying Like I forgive you like I'm not upset with you I'm not mad at you And none of that matters and I none of there's none of that none of that stuff that's affecting you so deeply dad It doesn't affect me you're my dad and I love you And I don't want you to suffer And when you carry Secrets like that and when you carry you can't be yourself That is the worst pain To be scared that people won't love you anymore Or to be afraid to hurt the people you love That is the worst pain that is the trail Of grief that he left That fear I so easily forgave him So easily And yet I was angry because I thought God damn it If you would have just said something a year or two years three years before you could live But you were so Stubborn that you didn't want to tell anybody because you were so scared to lose us that you'd rather die You'd rather die that's so heartbreaking isn't it? That's just heartbreaking. That's heartbreaking. I don't want anybody ever to feel like that So I don't really think that aids killed my dad I think shame did That makes me really sad I know things times were so different than I know even in 2002 was different You know and he was in a different generation and like right now he'd be 72 Okay, so picture a 72 year old Like that. Okay, just just picture that so And thank god things are so different now, but yet people still have to deal with shame and guilt and internalized homophobia and challenges with identity and fear And all sorts of variations, you know, not just with sexual orientation Or gender bias or gender identity or fluidity or There's so many ways that people have to deal with so much It's a lot so I will Continue to try To work on forgiveness, especially for myself For what I have held so close to my heart That hasn't served me because I shield myself deeply I over protect myself with boundaries and then When I have opened up I felt like very vulnerable and And had heartbreak, you know a lot of pain A lot of pain It's hard to trust someone else with your heart When you can't trust yourself with your heart because you're not being yourself You know, you're not honoring yourself. You're not It's like it's not all or nothing. It's always and there's always a middle. There's always a balance between this or that There's always a middle And that middle is the alignment that we have for ourselves and integrity and authenticity and the being ourselves and that's So so fiercely important to me So important And I have always known that I have was raised that way. My dad um did a march on washington for women's rights um When I was in high school, he took a bus there and did that And it was very very politically active and In one of the national conventions he went to he got me this really cool bag that said never under or wait that said the spirit of The spirit of the woman or something like that the spirit of the woman or something Never I can't remember what it said something like spirit of the of a woman or something like that It was this huge bag and it had all these famous women's names on the back of it It was so cool and then inside was this sweatshirt that was green and had this kind of ugly thick at the time Had like this ugly kind of thick Grayish letters, you know, it kind of textured and it said never underestimate the power of a woman Never underestimate the power of a woman so After my dad died two years it was about two years that I delayed my grief and I had an experience on the weekend October 1st And I have my psychic story posted on above life channel I'll probably have to redo a video for that to just tell you the whole story because it's really a great story it's kind of amazing actually And uh, it was that weekend that I literally discovered that I had psychic gifts I just I literally quite literally saw dead people and I was at a girl's weekend at a friend's cabin And it was quite the experience and it was random And crazy and then all of a sudden I just started doing sessions for people and I started off doing group sessions as a medium And I had never never been to a psychic never been to an astrologer Never had card readings never did any of that stuff ever in my life never been to energy workers Please I never been to any of that stuff And all of a sudden i'm doing it So Yes, it's because of my dad being in the afterlife I had a reason to believe in that was possible the connection With spirit was possible and a connection with dead people is possible connection With your fucking itself is possible. Okay, so go in and find yourself because that's what I've been doing And it's pretty awesome in here like uh, bridget. She's pretty cool I'll just tell you she's fucking awesome. Okay So cheers to having the courage to begin the process of finding yourself Cheers Yeah, there's a lot. There's so much I want to read you one of the poems. Um, I Was always a writer when I was young. I used to write poetry and stuff in fact, I won a uh a couple of writing contests when I was in third grade and fifth grade and Then in middle school and stuff and so that's kind of cool money was in the paper and all that so fun I got trophies and stuff But I've recently discovered poetry again And I love it. So I'd like to read you um from the book that I've got just a a while back and This one is really just special. It's really pretty. It just looks pretty and I can't read too much it wants because My heart leaks When I do and that's okay because it gives me a breathing room, you know, and uh, I mean that's okay, but it's It's emotional So how about I want to read it to you? I see the chat is going going going. Thank you for being here I'm going to mention there is super chat if you want to um Give me a birthday present. You can do that Maybe I can find more books Some more poem poetry books Or more cake. I have a great cake here from the wedding today that I'm gonna eat with you. We're gonna blow out Did I bring on the candle? I don't know if I did Oh, I had a candle. We'll have to blow out one of my other candles and use that but um Yeah, so I okay, let me just say hi if I feel up to it I may move my channel. Let's see. Let's see what happens. Yeah, I have a new I like blue and I have this I got this really great new um Really cool shirt has like It ties like at my neck it ties and then there's like this long scarf thing And you can like do all sorts of things with it and tie it really tight or tighter on the side I wanted to make it like a man's tie. So here's what I want to do So I have like a job interview on next week and I was thinking I'm gonna wear Well, I think I might wear the dress that I I wore today. Actually, I really like that dress, but um I totally want to like mix my vibes. I want to wear like Like a structured pants and like a flowy dress shirt, but it's fitted You know kind of a thing like I want to mix my vibes Like I want to get like a loose like tie kind of thing and stuff and be able to wear that like if I work Yeah, if I end up having an office job or I have to go in a couple days week Don't worry guys. It's just it's not full time. So that's okay. All right But I'm like, I like a tie like I really am super into like the mixing the masculine feminine energies I love it. I love it So much fun Like I rocked a freaking dress today. Holy crap. Look at my instagram And facebook and I rocked the dress and I did go with the I I could have went a size smaller But I didn't you know want to be too too tight into the dress. So I didn't But I could have If I was going out like to a cocktail party or something really likes I needed to be sexy I would have totally got a smaller but no, there's a little more professional. So it couldn't be so tight it wouldn't look good though And then I put pretty dress shoes with it and then when I was done with that I kicked those bad boys off and I put my boots on and it looked better with the boots I think it looked good with the boots. So if I get this office-y job thing Maybe I'll be wearing a dress with my boots. Yeah, I totally will do that You know, I'm so gonna mix my in my medias with textures and styles and clothing and yeah Nice pair of tight fitted chinos and Dress shirt that's really fitted nice. Okay. I saved this one. I just posted it today. I didn't share I haven't shared this one yet. Now. What do you see in this? But me? This is my special little Little prize and she sits next to my bed Rumi Yeah, it's beautiful High tish nice to see you. All right So I'm gonna read you one of the poems. It's it's heart. Like I said my heart leaks when I read these so we'll see It's kind of dark here. All right. Are you ready ready for a beautiful Rumi poem? Okay This is a good one all the precious words all the precious words You and I have exchanged Have found their way Into the heart of the universe One day They'll pour on us like whispering rain Helping us rise From our roots again Helping us rise From our roots again today when I was at the park officiating my niece's wedding I They stood in front of this beautiful tree Beautiful tree and this morning before I left I was walking and I was thinking about the olams and the tree wisdom the Celtic tree wisdom that I've been in love with since September 2020 is when I discovered the Celtic tree wisdom So I've been sharing the olams If you don't know what that is check out virgin inspired instagram And I was thinking about the birch trees the ladies the white ladies Of the forest and it was really because birch is super super so so special to me Oh god so special birch trees and my niece had When I got to the park The tables were set up and my niece had bought some special decorations These are birch tree hearts They were on the tables She got them off at sea Birch tree hearts Birch tree hearts the birch represents beginning begin again And the birch tree came up in one of my divine feminine groups that I belong to on sunday last week We stepped into a new oil that we're using it's called release It's one of my favorites. It smells so good. It's called release emerald emerald temple oils dot com It's called release and we were initiating that this oil and She was talking telling a story and she was talking about the white ladies the birch trees In the forest the birch trees and I just I was like boy wait what My trees are showing up in this practice And they showed up today. They were right there I laid them Underneath The tree the wedding tree the tree that they stood in front of for the wedding The huge tree and at the base was a Just huge roots just big you can kind of see them wide and Like like footings into the ground and so I took these and I laid them down in front of the tree like a honoring Like an offering and I took some pictures and I was thinking about the roots And then I looked way up at the tree and I took a picture above with the sun coming through and I shared that with her and I shared it on my facebook. It's actually on birch it inspired on Facebook And I think it's on birch inspired Facebook And it just struck me how Like they're union today. They're getting married today It's like The two become one like the roots were commingled like They're growing together You know And they both it was just a very small intimate ceremony and there were two families just small like it was my sister and I and her sister For her family and then his mom and dad and his brothers for his family and Just so intimate so just sweet just family very family just really close and I officiated. I think that's why I got an invitation I was my sister's plus one. She was mine. She was my date and The roots though the the The solid foundation and it goes right back then to when I was walking this morning I was thinking about the birch trees and the ladies of the The white ladies in the forest and And the energy of a tree that I got today. I pulled us an oom today. I haven't shared it yet but it's the mistletoe the heather or the mistletoe and It's meaning part of its meaning is a solid foundation like a solid foundation. I thought That's what we all really want, you know a solid foundation. What is that? What is a solid foundation? I think it's to really know yourself I think it's to really Know you and I think our roots continue to kind of grow and reach in So that we can have more footing more solidity More of an expanded awareness of our presence our presence And then we can commingle with other trees if we choose to do that I can maybe we can even share a ball And in that same Divine feminine group There was this beautiful talk of the swans and the swan temples So Those swans they made for life. Did you know that they made for life? They're a symbol of a twin flame And so much so that when one dies they have to bring in a whole mother pair So that there's three of them then instead of just because they won't mate again. They just won't I thought wow is that is that commitment? Or is that Just an example of heartbreak Like not healing Maybe swans just don't heal From loss. Maybe it's about grief grieving love and not understanding or Maybe it's about feeling so so grateful for the time that you have with that person However long it is like with my dad You know 52 years. He was here. I didn't know him that long obviously, but the 30 almost 30 years. I knew him Yeah, he died when I was what 29 so you know life is Kind of amazing And it comes with struggle And that's normal and natural and challenges and I think in part those difficult times are made so that we can recognize Our roots, you know, what what is what is giving us that stability that strength and it's not Beating off of other people or grabbing on to other people to make us feel joyful or happy or good momentarily or temporary It's not temporary thing Living is is being present for whatever is showing up and when your heart is aching and heartbreaking wide open like when I read this book It makes me cry. Okay So then you're like, well, why do you do that to yourself Bridget? Well, because it's medicine it lets me understand that the depth of love and the depth of pain are Commingled their roots are part of the same experience or the same expression of a tree And to know the shadow then means to know the light and to appreciate it and to know the pain Means you had the love. Okay So as much suffering as you might be going through right here right now For as much as you miss that person And as much pain as you feel in your heart You have to believe that there was so much love there There is because love transcends it is eternal It is not external love is not external. It is eternal It is truly Eternal I believe that so even though I have so much pain around that And I'm getting the opportunity for deeper levels of healing and deeper roots and broader expanded understanding of love and presence and essence and life The pain has been worth it. It's been worth it to know that kind of love in my lifetime It has been worth it Yes, yes Oh tears that doesn't mean it's not hard because it is it's still very hard and It calls me into question myself and to challenge myself and to really I want to understand why I set so many intense boundaries and hello. I understand why that is But to try to find a difference or kind of a balancing point between autonomy and agency and communion and connection And healthy attachment not codependency but healthy attachment and Co-creation and ups and downs and give and take and not Taking or not just all giving or not. It's just a balance, right? and within myself, you know So my psychic gifts have helped me tremendously on this journey Especially my gift of sight and then the last year I have been challenged I've been called into question myself Not believing my psychic gifts because if you say if you share something to somebody and you're like well This and this and you give them the chance to say oh, yeah, yeah, okay kind of come clean or whatever and they don't and you're like Yeah, but I see and what is well And then they kind of blow you off and the truth is you're exactly accurate or you're damn close It causes you to question your psychic gifts people don't like it when you can see and it's hard to believe that you can You know and just because I can see also doesn't mean I'm right I'm not accurate But if I share with you. Hey, I see this this and this then you need you better step up You step up step into me and let's figure out what this means then Like that because if we're friends or if you're in my life if your family or friends or we're talking about something You're like, yeah, no, no, no I can't be possible. She wouldn't know that. How would she know that? Um, because she's psychic. That's why And it's just true. I even had a friend recently say to me and she's psychic I had a friend one of my besties was totally psychic shaman girl Hello, sacred sensual woman She is amazing. Okay. My one of my besties and she actually said to me. Oh my god, Bridget You're so psychic because I said to her something like two weeks before And then she was coming full circle and leaving me a message about it saying, oh my god You just she's like, oh, oh, you knew that Oh, you are so psychic. I'm like, oh my god Don't say that. It's like this person joking. I'm like stop. She's like, oh my god, Bridget. You're so psychic Yeah, you maybe should listen when I say something. I'm not full of it. Okay, okay But it is extraordinarily difficult to be psychic for yourself and to be accurate for yourself So I highly suggest a psychic friends And divination tools like the ohm Celtic tree wisdom Or cards you guys get cards Not you don't have to learn to roll. It doesn't have to be complicated get denise lin decks I have shared lists of those decks. That is a great place to start super basic. The most basic one would be Gateway oracle cards by denise lin simple straight to the point boom boom boom There you go If you want cards that are going to kick your ass and tell you the truth which I kind of love hate these cards there by kyle gray Got this one tonight when I asked a very specific question and it says spiritual growth, but they're awesome. They're orange. Hello, sacred chakra Hello, sacred chakra Good when I talk about work my energy changes, I felt better than I don't feel so Sad my heart is breaking. Okay Kyle gray deck. This is a great one too, but this these tell me the truth these bitches don't lie. I'm like Uh Like I'll ask like these are my august cards that always told me pretty shit. Let it go There's nothing you can do There's nothing you can do You got the covet you're stuck in your bed. You can't get on the plane You can't do x you can't do y you can't do z whatever you do. It doesn't matter. What's done is done This happened in like june and july, so it's over now. It's done. You're done, you know, you've been on this healing journey There's a reason this is it Clear it baby clear it. I'm like Okay This bitch is moving on So I stepped in to explore other alternative options for my life experience Which is why I am now interviewing for a job next week another one I did interview for a job in august actually third week in august and I actually got the job and I said no Because it just wasn't it was a great fun cool thing But like the the compensation package just wasn't there the compensation package was not there And so then I had this other opportunity that bubbled up the night before a perfect timing Felt really good. I'm walking to the process. I don't know if it's going to work out if it does great if it doesn't great it's fine I have other stuff in the irons in the fire so to speak. I'm fiery, you know I'm so fire element. It's so funny another one of my friends. She said that to me too. She's like, oh my gosh, Bridget You're so fire and I'm like would you say I'm fiery? she's like Yes, you are definitely fiery. I'm like, yes, I am in my astrology chart. There's no water It doesn't mean I'm a cold-hearted person and it means I am very very highly sensitive. So I don't need extra water. Okay. I got lots of fire So, right Okay Birch can you believe that the birch I was thinking about it? It showed up So in the ceremony I talked about the trees and I talked about the birch and the meaning beginning My two favorite trees of all time history are the willow tree and the birch tree Yeah So Okay, so we have some cake and I'll read your um I'll read your stuff here I know Well, let's have some art. Cheers Cheers to divination tools. What divination tools do you do you use? Oh, I also have um Let's see. I have cards. I have a couple different decks right here handy dandy I have a grid. You probably can't see it. I have a grid cloth here with a schriantra mudra or schriantra A secret geometry I have a Let's see. What else do I have here handy dandy I have my ohms Celtic tree wisdom Right here. Here's one of them. These are the big ones. I have a travel. I have a little travel set too I got two Here's a little travel set See These are the ohms the Celtic tree wisdom There's 20 of these trees and then these little lines on there is like represents a letter or series of letters It's like words. You can create words with them and it's called a picked pict Oh, I have I have crystals and rocks too. I have rocks and crystals I have one right here Carmel calcite, this is one of my new ones. It literally looks like uh like caramel like you could lick it You can't like it. I mean you could lick it. I guess but it's not caramel I would not suggest it but it is Carmel calcite it amplifies energy and assists with change It helps with mental clarity focusing energy grounding, which is necessary to complete tasks. This is in my office here for that purpose and To help long-term projects be completed successfully. It can help overcome drowsiness if you're tired And at the same time it facilitates the state of relaxation. So it's a good office one I'm just being silly one of my new absolute favorite decks of all-time history here is the kali oracle deck. This is intense This is um, I love the decks by alana fairchild if you're A better along if you're more seasoned on the path if you're a wise woman or an alchemist yourself This energy she's a badass. I kind of I kind of love her. I have a crush on kali. Yeah It's that blue skin. I think it's all those arms all those hands anyway, she is amazing and she's always been a guide for me kali ma and Now she and I are working together very directly. So that's pretty awesome. So I love her She's on my actually on my altar. You probably can't see her Over here and then Essential oils our divination tools also release special ones like I have a courage oil here. I've been using this a lot I haven't used my honor oil as much, but I do like it an awful lot Um, I use my intimacy oil right now I've been using intimacy with release because this is exactly what I need for my heart chakra. Nice balancing of energies And I'm trying to think if I have all um The other ones that I could show you of course a candle is always great bringing in the fire element to help set an intention And I got candles over there. I got little mini altars for people that I I'm working with right now I got one for my kid. I'm going to see my daughter tomorrow Kind of busy week you guys got a busy stuff going on and then I have another one for friend Who's traveling have two friends that are actually traveling this week at retreats And so I have an altar for them for safe travels and then um, what else? I think that's oh This is the incense that I'm using right now. That's burning in the background. I love this incense this balsam fur Incense it's super awesome the way it comes it comes like this in a little box and you just stick it in this little uh It's got a little um stand that you put it in and you burn it. It smells Divine I burn this every morning. I have an altar upstairs in my kitchen like a table in the corner by the windows And I have it's my nature altar. There's all sorts of nature stuff my um My sand dollars are there and my sticks my feathers that I've gotten on walks My new leaves that I just got my moon water is there and then every morning I burn this when I pull an L on So and I burn this like literally I've I've had like probably eight packs of these at least eight Since september 2020 I've been using these Bridget has gone through some changes Okay All right, so let's have some cake and let's talk. Okay. Oh, oh And then we should really pull a card. We should totally pull a card. Where am I? Oh gosh, I'm at like an hour I should probably wrap it up soon, huh? um My absolute favorite deck right now I shouldn't say favorite. I wouldn't say it's my favorite. No, let me not say that very special sacred deck right now that I have I bought for myself it came If you're on instagram you already saw this it came with my journal Oh my god, it's like having a ponytail, but I don't have long here. This is my special journal. I bought for myself finally It's the kiss Yeah, and in the first page I wrote September 17th is when it came I love me I This was a scary one. I didn't know if I wanted the kiss one, but I decided I really want it Yes, I do I want it so I bought it So this again, remember I said a lana fairchild, right the roomie oracle the big one They have a pocket size one too, but I bought myself the big one so I could use it Okay, this is small um These are gorgeous gorgeous cards beautiful Beautiful cards and look at the purple. I mean come on gorgeous gorgeous Super special deck for me. I love this Energy of this is hard. It's very Deep and personal and it's very much heart medicine So like if you're trying to heal you have like a heartbreak or a loss or separation Or a relationship change or relationship ending or that kind of thing That would be a good one. I think but also then I mean it could be for anything But for me it feels like it's very relationship based and just trying to rebuild my heart structure Because that's what I need right now I need that support Oh this cherry is good Oops, okay, so we're gonna have nothing bunt cake My niece gave me an extra one Yes, I know it's not gluten-free. It's not gluten-free, baby, but I'm gonna eat it anyway And so if I get a tummy ache, so what my daughter will just have to hear me whine about it tomorrow. Okay Oh, we should blow out a candle. I thought it you guys I seriously thought I had a candle I don't have a candle. I thought I did I thought I thought I brought one down. Let me just pick just a minute Oh, I didn't Dang it Okay, oh, I did buy this bracelet for myself Mm-hmm It's a jasper. It's like picture jasper. It like looks like wood. I loved it And it's called it allows you to mellow out and calm down Which I really needed to do because we've had a lot of stuff going on in the family like my kids Two of my kids have had like Mom, I need you. Okay, so I'm like, all right So we should probably make a wish, huh? If we need this should we make a wish? Oh wait Let me grab a little candle. We can blow it up. Okay. Oh, thank you My assistant brought me a candle That's what happens when people are watching you on live stream And I don't know that because they're not in the chat, but they're watching you from upstairs And so they brought me a candle and that's we okay, so we're gonna blow out. Okay, let's do that Let's See I picked an orange and yellow one for sacral chakra and so they're plexus That's what I'm more billed right now. That's really sweet wasn't that that was really nice. Thank you Okay, I'm 18 I'm illegal Actually, I don't think in the state of minnesota, I can't smoke cigarettes because you have to be 21 Which is so weird. That's so stupid And but I can buy lottery tickets so I can gamble I can't drink or smoke cigarettes, but I can gamble as a psychic Which I wouldn't do other one of those things as a psychic anyway. Maybe the cigarettes because it's tobacco, but All right, so I'm gonna give you the opportunity to make a wish Set an intention for the next year. Okay Through for for yourself through the end of this year and into the new year. Okay What is it that you want? If if nothing like if money wasn't an issue if time wasn't an issue, what would you wish for? Like what would you want? Like and maybe just a little tiny sliver that can come through for you. Okay, or maybe the whole thing What do you want? I know what I want, but I don't want to ask for it either. It's scary, isn't it? Because you just might get it you just might get it You got to ask for what you want. You got to practice that. Okay So you can do that with me like I'm not gonna tell anybody. It's totally fine If you want to put it in the chat, you can But I'm not gonna tell anybody So ready Okay, close your eyes and set an intention For a wish that you'd like to Thanks for being here with me I'm gonna check out the chat This cake is white chocolate with the raspberry filling Because the stuff on the inside is so good. You got to really dig in there Don't be gentle. He's frosting. Oh cream cheese frosting No, we don't need the five second rule, but there's plenty more here. Let's just Scoop that the whole thing in the middle. It's just frosting I'm sorry This isn't an ASMR channel, you know, but oh my god, look at this Hmm. I don't need dinner. I need this, right? I've had two of these today Okay, so this is messy Which is fine So I'm gonna check the chat. Let's see how you guys are doing and then I'll jump off in a bit We should probably do a roomy card because I really do they're beautiful. I should just show them to you I love the poetry It's incredible. It's been very much medicine for me I Spend really really healing Like just so it just brings it just lets my heart feel good and sad Let's me cry So the energy flows kind of thing. It's I like because it's not a bad cry It's like, uh, oh my god, the sweetness of this love is so deep. It runs so deep like a river There is love even though there's pain. There's so much love. There's so much love. I have so much love Even though there's pain, I have a lot of love. I do. I want that for you Unconditional love. I want that for you. You have to give it to yourself. Other people can't give you that You have to give it Yep, I'm just pouring a little more of this cherry stuff. This is good Whoops We had champagne this morning. We have mimosas. My sister's like It's brunch. I'm like, okay With the park, I'm like, all right I said a little I was driving Like I said, just because it's in a wine glass doesn't mean it's alcohol All right Oh my glasses So I'm gonna post a couple of my songs. One is the 50 cent The birthday song the 50 cent birthday song I'm gonna party like it's your birthday. I mean to have seen into making love a moment. Yeah that one And uh the mix with the bg's it's fun I will link it on my facebook page because I can't do it here because I'll get in trouble on youtube and the second one is the um memories one That's all so Memories bring back memories bring back you do do do do do okay So let's see Queenette Just sitting oh, thank you sandy. You feel so lovely Energy sprinkled on top of the cake. Arlene is here. Enjoy the mini bunt And you're so good for it. Thank you. Collie oracle is very special. Yes, it is queenette. It's sure She is Love her I'll show you the card that I have right now on my altar anyone see it If you have the collie oracle, you'll know this one You could just read it This one is that 33 I love comma like fire. I'm good with the fire element. Oh inspiration and direction to get unstuck Oh my gosh, David. Oh, thank you so much. Oh my gosh David andrew and dash Dash is a sausage dog We call them leaner dogs over here are doxies, but in the uk they call them sausage dogs Isn't that funny? Yeah My sausage dog really isn't doing so good. He's kind of sad. I think he misses his diamond, you know Yeah, it's been since july, but Oh my gosh, David. It's so great to see you. Hi, andrew. Hi dash Colleen is here. Hello Hallie that looks divine. It is divine. It's super good Miss slide. Thank you for allowing us to make. Oh, you guys are so sweet. Oh my god, you guys are so sweet Aside from cards and a pendulum. Oh, yeah, I've been playing with using the body as a divination tool. Yes Embodiment that has been my goal this entire year is embodiment Thus all the heart stuff. I think Thus the oils are amazing for me because it's the kiss of spirit on the body I was just going to show you something you just reminded me of something when you said that one Oh pendulum. Oh It's funny. One of my really good friends she was like We were sitting under a circle of pine trees and she's like, oh, let me ask and she pulls out her Her um dowsing rods. I'll show them to you I have them too and it's so funny because I haven't used them for years But I have them I have them in my my office and stuff, but she said She said Let me ask. Let me ask and she pulls out her dowsing rods. I'm like, you have dowsing rods and she said, well, yeah And I'm like, so do I she said you do I said These like they're used to fine water. See like a pendulum, but it's not you just ask them questions And then they like mine go out for yes and in for no Thank you like that. Cool, huh? Aren't they cool? They're awesome. These are just copper See they're just brass. I think actually they're brass. I think these brands. Yeah So anyway, interesting I have tools I don't use pendulums usually but this dowsing rods are good with energy If you can use your body clearly, but your body has to be a clear channel But this has given me a really good this week. Um, gosh, what day was it last week friday a week ago friday I was like, oh, oh crap. I did something stupid like totally by accident and I was like, oh, no God, please no, please no, please god. I can't handle this And so I used my rods. I'm like, oh my god. What's our what is this man? And it was they were super accurate because I'm like I have to use something different because when I get cards And I use those I'm gonna tell you the truth no matter what cards They're kind of in my face those kyle gray ones. I'm like, uh, don't be so obvious. Thank you I don't need to know everything because it's a painful sometimes It's like, please just lie to me universe Just let me believe that it's not that bad Yeah, okay. Anyway, so Let's see. Christine's here You're beautiful. Oh, thank you The angel guys are hot Well, if you like that kind of thing technically they're androgynous, okay androgynous Both masculine and feminine energies Super digging that right now. You look beautiful plant. Thank you. Lots of beautiful words. Thank you You guys are really sweet. Thank you. That makes me feel really good. Thank you. I appreciate that Yeah, I am posting late aren't I somebody's like, wow, you're so post late. Yeah Tonight's different because I had to squeeze you guys in I had a wedding today. It was a family wedding Tomorrow I'm going to see my kid two hours away two hours each way come and go in there and back because guess what? I got to get ready I got to do some prep because I got an interview at 9 a.m on monday morning Then after that I got counseling and then after that, you know life, okay life This week I got to get ready for some I'm working on a project And I got to have some stuff done and ready for that so that the person that's going to be creating the stuff can do it And already did my deposit. So I got to get some content. I got to get some stuff done And it's spiritual and this whole week has been focused on stuff happening for the people around me Stuff has been going on and happening and I've had to be present and listening help people that I really love and care about and I've had to practice holding space for my kids without Telling them what to do but also making sure they're safe safe They have the support that they need To make the decisions that they need to make in order to be healthy Okay So my job is to make sure that they know that they're loved but also to be a clear mind To listen deeply And then to provide guidance and direction When that is needed and if they can't do that for themselves I got to step in and do things for them or do things very You need to do this you need to do this you need to do this sometimes that happens sometimes you have to do that But I've been trying not to be in that space too much, but it's been a lot Then I just tell you when you're on call 24 hours a day for three days in a row because you know somebody's really going through it And it's your freaking kid you damn well better bet you're going to do that How hours of the night you're going to be there, right? That's human life and we all have it and it's okay. It's okay It's okay I wouldn't train being a mom for anything medicine is good for the soul and is here. Happy birthday. Thank you Oh, you're my pretty girl Thank you Deb have you ever looked up? Looked up into the evening sky and seen a star burning steady and bright Is there a fire in its heart? That makes it light up the dark Or does the darkness bring out? Stars light That is beautiful. Have you ever looked up into the evening sky and seen a star burning steady and bright? Is there a fire in its heart? That makes it light up the dark Or does the darkness bring out a star's light? That is beautiful Those birds heart tree hearts are very precious. Yes, they are. Thank you I miss my mom. Oh, I'm sorry Heidi. I know I miss my dad, too It's kind of hard to miss him though when he kind of has pain in the ass sometimes He was definitely there today. He was totally there. I'm wearing my disney ring because of that I purchased this ring at disney world In august of 2021 when I was there. So I was there a year ago august also I've been there a lot The last two years like four times Yeah, during the COVID too. Yeah This is Cinderella's coach reminds me of my dad But it was blue too and I love blue Kate is here. I love the name Kate Just came across for your tube. Oh, thank you Sandy. Oh my god. Rumi has been popping up all week That's a divine message right here. Hi tish. Nice to see you Alex says I love the dress and the boots definitely completed. Look, I know, right? They're like They're like hardcore regular boots. I know I'm like, come on. I didn't wear the boots, you know I wanted boots with heel So if I get this position this job, I'm so gonna get I have these they're there I think I guess actually they're at Macy's. I saw him. I'm like, oh like in those They're black boots like combat boot type things kind of like cute boots, you know boots like that like rugged boots But they have a heel instead. They're like a heel So I literally can wear them with dresses, but they look cool. Like I can wear them with dresses and I can wear them with Dress pants I'm really into fitted dress shirts right now like more crisp kind of more men's style But fitted like for a woman's body. I really like those really Okay, let's see what else we've got here. I think I want to order those roomy cards. They're beautiful Okay, the roomy cards are beautiful But the roomy there's a huge roomy book that I've seen actually I have two friends that have it I have one friend that charged me um And then I have a new friend That actually it's like, oh, I have this big the big I we talked about we were saying something and she's like Oh my gosh, like she said oh, I have roomy I have a big book and I'm like wait like a big book like the nice leathery one That's like 50 bucks and she's like, oh, yeah, I'm like, oh my god. Do you really have it? She said, yeah, I do. I'm like Well, isn't that something? Yes. Yes, it is Hey Erica, oh my god Nice to see you. Hi Margaret. Thank you. Oh my god. Erica. Nice to see you. Hey honey. Nice to see you Nice to see you Cheers Mm-hmm. Okay, so let's do one of the roomy Um cards Oh, that's so sweet Erica. You're so sweet Erica. You're so sweet Erica's one of my west coasters. Okay All right, we're doing the roomy cards. Oh, you would like these two Erica. We totally love these Linda nice to see you Happy birthday from Alaska Oh, my sister works at Alaska Airlines. Actually, I phoned them a couple times but Alaska I need to go to Alaska. I've never been to Alaska Okay, so Um full disclosure It's hard to read these because look at how small the font is and I have eyes that are not Liking that right now. So I might have to actually use my glasses and a magnifying glass so you can laugh at me if you choose to But that's just life. That's what you have to look forward to when you get older just saying that When you get seasoned like I'm 18. I'm an adult now Okay All right, so we're gonna do the roomy deck I love this deck. I love this deck. No, they're truly awesome. Yeah, I'm Um, I've used them a few times. They're hard to use for me. They're very oh here's one right here They're very um, they're deeply emotional. They're personal. They're profound They're good for me to like read write me for bed and then read the poetry with it And then fall asleep with it because it makes me I'm so totally romantic That way. I love it. It makes me like, oh like that kind of and then also it's like Like that, you know, then when you go to bed and you're all by yourself. It's like, oh That's so good But it's all right. We're never truly alone, aren't we? Oh, let's see what we got Are you ready? Queen are you ready? Come on. All right From nothing to everything This is the card deck. This is the card. Let's just turn this away a little bit There we go. Oh, that's better light. Actually, isn't it? From nothing to I'm trying not to get the there's a glare here. So I'm trying to get from nothing to everything Kind of feels like if I had to vibe this before I read about this from nothing to everything number 16 For those of you who are into numerology one plus six equals seven seven is an angel number Seven is also the completion of a cycle right now. I am at 14 years post working in my former profession, which is human resources in the public sector government work usually public sector and public service And I'm 14 years post that I left that job 14 years ago and I'm interviewing for a job in that same scenario Two cycles have went through and now I'm at the end of a second one. So it's fascinating, right? But seven years a cycle This the vibe of this for me feels life supporting like kind of placenta like I mean I can't use a different reference because that's legitimately what it feels like like i'm supporting you like i'm nurturing you I'm providing you with what you need from nothing to everything like Miraculous like this birthing process where you have this choice to you got to listen to sunday marine coffee tomorrow because I talk about that Like this solid Like how miraculous we are and how much we're supported how we were built to be support for ourselves We were built as support for ourselves and that includes energetically that includes emotionally that includes mentally So if you're relying on other people to bring you joy That's an issue Because you're defaulting you're you're not using something you're bypassing something that's already there within yourself You got to meet with joy and then amplify amplify amplify You don't come with less than you come with what you have to offer and provide and then mixes and amplifies, right? And are my joys on my mind the word joy is on my mind right now? And i'm not sure why that would be why is that joy joy joy? Why would joy be in my mind right now? It's an it's a different energetic from happiness Maybe it's the spirit in its fullest expression Maybe that's what it is. Yeah, and maybe that's what we all desire is to be in our fullest expression That that's probably what it is. Maybe it's authentic expression is what joy is. Maybe that's what it is From nothing to everything. Okay, so let's read the room equal Again, this is what this feels like to me this sourcing this just Beautiful beautiful. Okay. I will post a picture of this on virgin inspired on instagram. Okay, so you can see that there I did make my instagram private I did that because I was getting so much spam and weird DMs from people like creepy DMs But before we do that, are you guys cool staying on for a little bit? Okay, we need to have more cake I'm gonna have my cake and eat it too I gotta be careful because I haven't kind of seen it like Be all licky licky with this and that's probably not appropriate on youtube Mmm, like I said white chocolate raspberry Mmm I'm really just here for the frosting. That's it. I'm working on my winter body Mm-hmm. I'm working on it I'll just have a little extra around the middle and under the butt for a while. It's fine It all drops off on the spring and summer anyway Mmm In february I have a milestone birthday a real human birthday And I'm thinking of having a party and if I did I would want to have these cakes, but I want to have a real party much in person And I think I want to do a tour like I want to have a birthday party in february I want to have a birthday party in june on the solstice I want to have a birthday party in october on my second birthday But for my human birthday year It's a milestone birthday. I'm not gonna tell you how old I am. You can probably guess It's a beautiful thing. Hmm a woman's work is never done. Hmm Yeah, women. We're just beautiful, aren't we? Yes, we are Love that message. Okay. Remember this book is amazing It's a great gift for somebody. Okay, so let's find this number 16. Okay. Oh, I was just at 17. Oh, that's really close Okay, you can laugh at me if you choose to but look at how tiny this writing is and it's like weird font. Okay, it's like all cursivey So here we go. All right ready I'm gonna read the roomy part and then I'll read the interpretation of the author who is alana fairchild She's so good. Her decks are great She's got an ices deck a kalimah deck and a roomy deck which is I have all three of those as she is incredible I should interview her on my podcast. She's great all right, so Here we go from nothing to everything. Oh my friend If you are longing to be written on become a blank page roomy Oh my friend if you are longing to be written on Become a blank page That feels like rebirth. That's what this feels like to me Don't be afraid to be reborn. Mm-hmm. Don't be afraid to be reborn Start something new like the birch tree, right? That's totally what this is Oh, and here's an artist interpretation ready for the author Have you been shedding your skins your layers your Certainties Gone are fixed identities and Define definite opinions Keep casting those shackles aside. Even if you fear you are releasing too much and then Perhaps you shall ease Cease to exist You shall only cease to exist as you have been known To be thus far. Oh god. This is totally for me Heck yeah, okay another Amination of you awaits blazing angel something more beautiful and true Blazing angel. Oh, that sounds awesome. Doesn't it blazing angel something more beautiful and true Oh my god more beautiful and true True and beautiful. Okay. Okay. Okay. Give me a second. Oh my god. Okay. Can you just give me a second Oh my god That was definitely a message for me. I just felt that I just felt that Okay, I'm trying to like pull myself out of it But it's a little hard because I'm feeling the kind of like the freefall vibe, you know, like, oh my god That's for me. Oh my god. That's for me Okay, there's more a little bit more. Okay. I pull myself together. Here we go Yet here you are at the pruning stage Like a gardener for the soul Shall the gardens bring back to life? Or will the enthusiastic demanding process Be rather too much and unintentionally kill off the garden altogether Fear not your soul is made of hearty stuff It can handle a lot Of culling And will shine even brighter for it There is a greater story to be impressed upon your essence Than the one than the one You are currently dreaming up Though you are brilliant. No doubt about it My angel of love There is one Who is even more so The imagination of this great writer is beyond our Comprehension the stories that pour forth From the cosmic poets in every moment are so rich. They inspire the creation of art And music one such story is especially created for you. Yes, you With a starring role and all the best supporting cast you shall Gasp in wonder. Ah glee and delight When you hear it It is a great romance a great adventure With an ending truly spectacular and divine Would you wish to hear it? Become attentive now Put your own tail aside as dramatic As the way Bridget's reading this As dramatic as as they may seem right now and prepare to be Entranced by the greater storyteller The living poet of love As you are entranced in a tale of your unfolding divine Destiny Okay, that was powerful right like wasn't it like it wasn't just for me It was for me, but it wasn't just for me, right? Did you get something from that? Yes, you did Again, this was the rummy deck. I'm feeling very Grateful right now That I have as I look back on this year. I'm reflecting on Last October at this time A lot has changed for me life has gotten crazy and intense And I've been brought to my knees In so many ways on so many in so many relationships in my life And I'm a better person for it I am And as hard as it is I have been asked to trust deeply trust the universe to support me and love me and guide me And I was so fiercely Powerfully in a stand where I believed in that whole heartedly that the universe had my back And then it would support me and that things would work out I was so so sure things would work out. I was so so sure And there have been times especially this year over the past few months where I wasn't so sure All right had moments where I didn't understand Why why life was just so hard and why love was so hard and why my heart was just aching so much and It seemed like there wasn't anything I could do about it, you know and there were times when My faith was low Like if it was a gas tank my faith was close to the empty and maybe even the light was Like the light wasn't quite on yet, but oh I was getting close to that light turning on But every time I got close Something came through like a message like that something came through to just Remind me that I wasn't alone Even if I was lonely and I felt very lonely at times Like the weight of the world is on your shoulders or like, you know, there's or you feel like there's nothing you can do That's even worse than feeling like you have to do everything. It's it's worse That when you have to when you feel like there's nothing you can do like when my dad was sick Like there was nothing I could do but just be there, you know And appreciate every every goddamn moment of life And when I look at the age he died and I'm not that far from that age Myself I'm not going to lose time Time is precious No time to there's no fucking around here Not doing that I'm going to do things and I'm going to get shit done now That I want to do not just as a mom not just as a partner not just as a business person, but in life like purposeful things and adventurous things and meaningful connections and deeper I'm willing to go deeper with people than I've ever gone before and at the same time have healthy boundaries to honor and love myself While I'm loving other people That's the key And I know I have work to do I have to work on healing To continue healing. I have to work on forgiveness. I have to work on that jet stream of shame That that guilt piece for wanting to be me In all the ways I want to be me, you know and express myself and balance life You guys it is such a gift When you have people in your life that are terminally ill like my dad and then like my big kids, um dad my oldest three kids there dad And he's younger than me just a little bit to see you're younger than I am and it's like What if that was me? How would I be living my life and why am I not living my life like that now? Doing all that I can do because I have privilege to do that like I have opportunity. I don't have excuses. What are my excuses? It's ridiculous life's too short It really is it's too short And the intuitive gifts that I've been given I have the opportunity to acknowledge and recognize them and use them during this lifetime Damn all better, but I'm going to use them Of course I'm going to use them in all the ways that I can and help people And make a difference and make an impact and support families and support kids and support People who are moving through life the best that they can, you know, and that's good enough 100 percent It doesn't feel good enough at times. I know you feel like you're doing halfway But as long as you're showing up, you're doing better than some people You are Please please take care of yourself Okay, let me just read a couple comments and then we'll wrap this up. I have to go to I should Shed old definitions Yeah, because we aren't the past. We are just ourselves. Thank you Erica. That's beautiful Yeah, we're never alone agreed. It's very incredible It can really feel like it. Oh god. I'm in a house full of people. There's like What four of us here? I can feel really alone. Yeah Thank you Sasha Stephen Blazing angel, I know queen I I saw that All right, my beautiful people. Thank you so much for being here on my birthday live stream I appreciate you so much. Oh my gosh. We've gotten two hours. Are you kidding me right now? I have to go to bed people. I have to go to bed All right Thank you so much for being here check out sunday morning coffee the podcast tomorrow on monday I don't know if i'm gonna have a channeling or not. I really just don't know because I have like other things I also have like a client thing. I'm supposed to be doing. I haven't got to yet I mean it's just been so busy stuff's going on So i'm not sure if i'm going to do a channeling. We'll see if I can I will it might actually be a live Live stream and it might be later in the day on monday. So we'll see what happens fingers crossed, right? Thank you so much for being here. Thank you so much for celebrating my psychic birthday with me I know this is a long live stream Hopefully you can just listen to it if you're following the replay Know that the energy is alive and evergreen that you are part of the process and connecting with us I hope you enjoyed my roomy reading and my roomy cards that I shared with you tonight and a little bit of the story As well All right, thank you so much for being here. I hope you have a great rest of your evening I hope I've inspired your spirit and filled you with hope tonight and encouraged you to live your best life This is your life after all it's yours Nobody else is going to live it for you. Okay? You get to live it So just Live it Thanks for being here Bye you guys. Thank you Thank you for being here. Oh Thank you. Gosh. I'm reading your comments. You guys are awesome. Oh gosh. Thank you. You're so sweet. Oh my gosh I'm just gonna type in Thank you everyone Oh, did I do that? Oh, whoops