 I mean, how did you prepare yourself for having a child and did you have any initial worries about being a parent? I think nothing can prepare you for being a parent because being a parent is something that it's individual for everybody because you're not just becoming a parent, you're becoming a parent for the first time and that child is making you a parent for the first time, you know? So it's kind of like, it's an interesting experience, almost a spiritual experience because you kind of like earn like a hierarchy, you know, you earn like a graduation from being just a human to being like, you know, playing the hand of God, you know, you've created life and you have this thing in front of you, but then you have to like play the hand of the universe and to keep it alive, you know, and do the best for it. It's not scary to me. It's kind of like, yeah, you know, it's not scary. It's kind of really cool because like, you know, because because I'm like, you know, I was always like 30 were 31, 32, and I'm like, got from was like 28, 29 or whatever. So we were like, oh, let's just, you know, it's now it's time, you know, we're good time in our lives to have a child. And so kind of like the only preparation we did was like, I kind of had to, I mean, I had this conversation, you said at the beginning, though, like you said, you know, you were scared of having offspring and then passing on issues to offspring, right, which is, which is a huge concern of mine. But then I was like, yeah, but you know, there's so much like, there's so much like help available, right, if you if you know how to access it. And plus it's me. So like, you know, I do this for a living, help people for a living. So I was like, I can help my kid, you know, if they have issues, maybe they and I was like, look, there's a chance they won't have issues. But which we'll get on to in a bit. But in terms of, in terms of like prep, I basically kind of like, literally sat down, because there's some physical like, so when you talk about preparation, there's no mental preparation you can do, but there's some physical preparation you can do, you can make sure that you've got everything you need. Right. So I kind of like made a list of everything we needed and just like bought everything straight away. And so we had this like huge list of stuff that needs to buy and like, and so that to me was like the prep work for it, right? But there was no, there was no, there's nothing you can do to prepare yourself for what is, you know, it's just the thing about it is like, when you have a kid, like it goes from being like everything like, how can I explain? You know, like, you know, when you have to like prepare stuff for yourself, like say, say like, oh, gotta go to the grocery store. So like, then you have to like mentally prepare yourself to do all the stuff and you have to do the things you take your headphones with your stuff. It's kind of like those things come secondary and then you have to prepare the kid first. So you put yourself second and do you know what the biggest problem there is that you, you kind of like, you'll forget about you a little bit. So and then what happens, and this is difficult because what happens is, you know, you'll go to the grocery store, I forgot my headphones, you know, and then you can't deal with all the stuff that's going on. And you know what I mean? So it's like, it's super interesting. Like, yeah, it doesn't mean you can prepare yourself, but it was, you know, yeah, it's good. It's good. I forgot the rest of the question. No, I think you answered it pretty well that I think, you know, as far as my worries being a parent, it's it's less about I mean, the thing that I'm most scared about is their experiences at school, like in later life, I think you know, I feel like sort of the early stages sort of going up to, you know, primary school at the top that, you know, I feel like I could probably do pretty well. But I I'm I'm always worried in the back of my head. It's like, oh, my God, are they going to have the same experiences that I've had? Yeah, I feel exact same thing, but I do have an answer for that. But I think as far as like difficulties that I have, I think, you know, the executive functioning on mental health on my end is is one of the reasons why I'm a bit tentative about that. Yeah, yeah. Yeah. And like that was like one of my, you know, the school thing was really hard. Like I I feel like school is so like my experience of school was terrible. That stop was I was swearing was was awful, right? And like, even like primary school, secondary school, school, school, like the whole thing just suck. And and I and I relayed this to my partner. I said, look, I just I just can't, you know, I can't have this beautiful little thing we just made go off to school. And and then like, you know, he's so because when he's that young, we were as like, I definitely ADHD. And we're like, look, he's going to have some issues in school. And it's like, you know, and she's like, oh, OK, so we decided to homeschool. We were like, we're going to homeschool. And we had this rule, actually, we said, look, if a kid says, like, I want to go to school, we have to allow him to try because he's his own person, you know, like he he wants to he has to live his life as well. And so we have to respect his choice, you know, like that's not we don't dominate somebody's life. We just guide them in the best way we can. You know, we don't make their decisions. And I know everyone's like, you know, you have to make decisions if your kids until 18, yeah, stuff like, you know, drinking and smoking and, you know, driving cars and stuff. But like things like, you know, oh, they saw that and stuff. And so my kid was like, I want to go to school. We're like, oh, shoot. And we spent all his money buying his homeschool stuff. We're like, OK, so we found this really cool school locally, which my partner's sister works at funny enough. And it was the best school locally. And it's a Welsh school as well, because obviously living in Wales and we wanted him to have bilingual upbringing. So so anyway, this is interesting. We we got him initiated in the school and he was difficult. Like the integration was super difficult because like he was on like the list to be tested for all sorts of stuff. And and they were kind of like, you know, and it was a bad experience. The first class you went to is a bad experience. You're like, does he play with other children? I was like, well, I don't know, it's been COVID. You know, I mean, like, I don't know. And they were like, you know, because we'd never had this experience with him before, because we'd never been around other kids with him. And then they were they were just really they were just it was a bad experience. But then that teacher left and a new teacher came in and there's new teachers, kids is on the spectrum, right? And so this new teacher was like, just dead cool. And she like, she was like, oh, we're doing this, that and the other. And so we had a huge load, there's loads of issues. I could say here all day talking about issues like how, you know, getting him past the gate, you know, like to go into the school. Like that, that on itself is just a nightmare. But in terms of I relate to the the getting past the gate from Seista, do a bit of special needs, TAing. Yeah, a few times. And it's so weird, right? Because like, he'd walk, he'd like run up to the gate and then freak out and we'd have a full meltdown. Like, dude, it's like, and it's like, oh, my God. And then but yeah, but now funny enough, like yesterday, I went to pick him up now. So he's exactly he's been there a year. He's in a he's in a full time position there now. And he's in he's in a class with his actual auntie, which is cool. And he loves it. But the cool thing is two cool things. The first thing is that the schooling had changed the way that we. So when we you and I were in school, right? It was a sit down at a desk. And if you can't sit down at a desk, there's something wrong with you. And that's the issue. You're the issue, right? Not the establishment, but it's changed now. Schooling is what the hell do they call it? It's called like like a rotation development. So the indoor outdoor place, the doors are always open. They can go outside if they want to. And you never sat at a desk doing something. You're always in small little groups doing like different tasks and play learning and and all these things like they did Macaton, they did yoga and they didn't know all these kind of things. Right. And I was like, I always smoke. And the cool thing about it is that the school have a catchment criteria. So he they did certain things with him yesterday. And then so we had the conversation to know he they have to send him for assessment for hypermobility and, you know, find motor skill issues and all the other stuff, the lovely things that come with autism. And so, you know, he's got floppy hands and he can't hold things and he gets frustrated. He doesn't play with kids. He plays on his own. So it's kind of like where I was terrified of that experience for him. He's actually in a really good place because the teachers are looking out for those things to then say, OK, this is what we do in this situation. You know what I mean? Yeah. So my more holistic sort of. Yeah. Case by case kind of. Exactly. And I think this whole new approach to schooling is is an initiative here in Wales. I don't know if it's everywhere in the UK, but it's definitely here in Wales. So I'm kind of like really blessed. And so, yeah, so, you know, all those fears I had, you know, it's kind of helped me therapeutically because going to the school with him and helping him go in there, I'm feeling way more at ease with it, which makes me less like because I was just scared the whole time, you know, thinking back to my childhood, thinking, oh, my God, it's going to be a nightmare. And like, you know, and this is the thing you'll learn is when you have a when you have a kid, it's like holding a very thin glass ball and you don't want to drop it because you could smash anyway. Yes, it's so delicate. You know, you don't want anyone to touch this thing. You know, I had such a such bad anxiety when like family members would pick up my kid when he was a little baby. I'd like I'd be crying and shaking and stuff because I'd be like, so like, oh, my God, I know, so protective because it was difficult, you know, like, you know, you know, we give like personalities issues and stuff and we have a bad time throwing out all clothes. Well, it's kind of like, you know, with a kid, there's a huge there's a deeper connection there, you know, especially for autistic people, as we feel things deeper. And so having other people holding was crazy. So I had this like whole like, oh, no, you know, having him go to yeah, anxiously attached. Yeah, exactly. And you know, but then again, but yeah, it's it's good now because he's like, he loves school and and yeah, I was just like, wow. And so yeah, it's definitely helped me think about, you know, it's helping me as well. And I think that's a good thing, you know, there's therapy there. So that's awesome, man. Thanks, buddy. Well, I guess like, could you could you give us like a couple of or maybe one one for each about like the the positives and negatives about about being an autistic parent? Do you find that there's certain aspects that you struggle with and certain aspects that you really flourish?