 I was probably one of the more aggressive fighters that you could come across and I really had to sort of balance that with the view of myself in daily life being quite pacifist and quite quiet in nature. So it's very, you know, it's very different to how I present on the outside and how I behave. You know, the important thing about this is that everybody has a shadow. Even the benevolent, amazing, charitable, award winning, Nobel Peace Prize winning people, they still have a shadow. They still want to, they still have background desires to do evil things. But the point is that these, this is not, doesn't have to be you. It's a part of your brain which encourages you to do things that I've