 Chapter 23 of the Trial This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Nancy Cochran-Gervian, Gilbert, Arizona. The Trial by Charlotte Mary Young, Chapter 23 Prisoner of Hope.Art. Look Up and Sing. In Hope of Promise Spring. Christian Year In the summer of 1862, Tom May was to go out for his examination at the College of Physicians, but only a day or two before it he made his appearance at home, in as much excitement as it was in him to betray. Hasn't it, the Banquish Cork at Whitford, had written to him tidings of the presentation of the missing check for twenty-five pounds, which Bilson had paid to old Axworthy shortly before the murder, and which Leonard had mentioned as in the pocketbook containing the receipt for the sum that had been found on him. Tom had made a halt at Whitford and seen the check, which had been backed by the word Axworthy, with an initial that, like all such signatures of the nephew, might stand either for S or F, and the stiff office hand of both the elderly and younger Axworthy was so much a life that no one could feel certain whose writing it was. The long concealment of the prisoner's pointed reference to it was, however, so remarkable that the home conclave regarded the cause as one, and the father and son hastened triumphantly to the attorney's office. Monsieur's Bramshaw and Anderson were greatly struck and owned that their own minds were satisfied as to the truth of their client's assertion, but they demurred as to the possibility of further steps. An action for forgery, Tom's first hope, he saw to be clearly impossible. Samuel Axworthy appeared to have signed the check in his own name, and he had every right to it as his uncle's heir, and though the long withholding of it, as well as his own departure, were both suspicious circumstances, they were not evidence. Where was there any certainty that the check had ever been in the pocketbook, or even if it had, how did it prove the existence of Young Ward's acknowledgement? Might it not have been in some receptacle of papers, had the two not opened? There was no sufficient case to carry to the police, after a conviction like Leonard's, to set them on tracing the check either to an unknown rubber, or to some Axworthy, his rightful owner. Mr. Bramshaw likewise dissuaded Dr. May from laying the case before the Secretary of State, as the opportunity without due grounds would only tell against him if any real important discoveries should be made, and the doctor walked away, with blood boiling at people's coolness to other folk's relations, and greatly in orn with Tom for having his seated to the representations of the men of law, and declining all cooperation in drawing up a representation for the home office, on the plea that he had no time to lose in preparing for his own examination, and must return to town by the next train, which he did without a syllable of real converse with anyone at home. The doctors had to work with his home helpers, assisted by Dr. Spencer, but the work of them seemed to make the ground give way under their feet, and a few adduate remarks from Dr. Spencer finally showed him, and Ethel, that they had not yet attained the prop for the lever that was to move the world. He gave it up, but still he did not quite forgive Tom for having been so easily convinced, and ready to be dismissed to his own affairs. However, Dr. May was gratified by the great credit with which his son passed his examination, and took his degree, and Sir Matthew Fleet himself wrote in high terms of his talent, diligence, and steadiness, volunteering hopes of being able to put him forward in town in his own line, for which Tom had always had a preference, and adding that it was in concurrence with his own recommendation that the young men wished to pursue his studies at Paris. He had given him introductions that would enable him to do so to the greatest advantage, and he hoped his father would consent. The letter was followed up by one from Tom himself, as usual too reasonable and authoritative to begin said, with the same representation of advantages to be derived from a course of the Parisian hospitals. Ah well, he is after old Fleet's own heart, said Dr. May, between pride and mortification. I should not grudge poor Fleet someone to take interest in his old age, and I did not look to see him so warm about anything. He has not forgotten Colton Hill, but the boy must have done very well. I say, shall we see him, Sir Thomas, some of these days, Ethel, and laugh at ourselves for having wanted to make him go round in the mill after our old fashion? You were contented to run round in your mill, said Ethel, fondly, and maybe he will too. No, no Ethel, I'll not have him persuaded. Easy going folk, too lazy for ambition, have no right to prescribe for others. Ambition turns sour is a very dangerous dose. Much better let it fly off. I mean to look out of my mill yet, and see Sir Thomas win the stakes. Only I wish he would come and see us. Tell him he shall not hear a word to bother him about the old practice. People have lived and died at Stoneboro without a maid to help them, and so they will again, I suppose. Ethel was very glad to see how her father had made up his mind to what was perhaps the most real disappointment of his life, that she was grieved that Tom did not respond to the invitation, and next wrote from Paris. It was one of his hurried notes, great contrast to such elaborate performance as his recent letter. Thanks, many thanks to my father, he said. I knew you would make him see reason, and he always yields generously. I was too much hurried to come home, could not afford to miss the trail. I had not time to say before that the bank that sent the check to Whitford had it sent from a lodging house in town. Landlord Hadirit served on S.A., as he was embarking at Folkstone. He took out the draft and paid. He knew it's important if Bramsha did not. I hope my father was not vexed at my not staying. There are things I cannot stand, namely discussions and Gertrude. Gertrude was one of the chief carers upon Ethel's mind. She spent many thoughts upon the child and even talked her over with Flora. What is it, Flora? Is it my bad management? She is a good girl and a dear girl, but there is such a want of softness about her. There is a want of softness about all the young ladies of the day, returned Flora. I have heard you say so, but we have made girls sensible and clear-headed till they have grown hard. They have been taught to despise little fears and illusions, and it is certainly not becoming. We have not fears. We were taught to be sensible. Yes, but it is in the influence of the time. It all tends to make girls independent. That's very well for the fine folks you meet in your visits, but it does not account for my daisy, always at home under Papa's eye, having turned 19th century. What is it, Flora? She is reverent in great things, but not respectful except Papa, and that would not have been respected in one of us. Only he likes her sauciness. That is it, partly. No, I won't have that said, exclaimed Ethel. Papa is the only softening influence in the house, the only one that is tender. You see it is unlucky that Gertrude has so few that she really does love with anything either reverent or softening about them. She is always at war with Charles Cheviot, and he has not fun enough, is too lumbering altogether, to understand her or set her down in the right way, and she domineers over Hector like the rest of us. I did hope the babies might have found out her heart, but, unluckily, she does not take to them. She is only bored by the fuss that Mary and Blanche make about them. You know we are all jealous of both Charles Cheviot's, elder and younger. I often question whether I should not have taken her down and made her ashamed of all the quizzing and teasing at the time of Mary's marriage, but one cannot be always spoiling bright Mary mischief, and I am only elder sister after all. It is a wonder if she is as good to me as she is. She never remembered our mother, poor dear. Ah, that is the real mischief, said Ethel. Mama would have given the atmosphere of gentleness and discretion, and so would Margaret. How often I have been made by the mirror's pain look to know when what I said was saucy or in bad taste, and I can only look forbidding or else blurred out of her proof that will not come softly. The youngest must be spoiled, said Flora. That is an ordinance of nature. It is when a boy goes to school and when a girl when, when she marries or when she finds out what trouble is, said Flora. Is that all you can hold out to my poor Daisy? Well, it is the way of the world. There is just no reaction from sentiment, and it is the less feminine variety. The softness will come when there is a call for it. Never mind when the foundation is saved. If I could only see that child heartily admiring you looking up, I don't mean love. There used to be a higher nobler reverence, such as you and Norman used to bestow on Shakespeare and Scott and the vision of Coxmore. Not only used, said Ethel. Yes, it is your soft side, said Flora. It is what answers the purpose of sentiment in people like you. It is what I should have thought living with you would have put into any girl. But Gertrude has a satirical side, and she follows the age. I wish you would tell her so. It is what she especially wants not to do. But the spirit of opposition is not the thing to cause tenderness. No, you must wait for something to bring it out. She is very kind to my poor little Margaret, and I will ask how she talks of her. Tenderly, oh yes, that she always would do. There, then Ethel, if she can talk tenderly of Margaret, there can't be much at the root. No, and you don't overwhelm the naughty girl with baby talk. Like our happy, proud young mother, said Flora, and then letting herself out. But indeed, Ethel, Margaret is very much improved. She has really begun to wish to be good. I think she is struggling with herself. Something to love tenderly, something to reverence highly. So meditated Ethel, as she watched her sonny-haired open-faced Daisy, so unconqueredly gay and joyous, that she gave the impression of sunshine without shade. There are stages of youth that are in themselves unpleasing, and yet that are nobody's fault. Nay, which may have within them seeds of strength. Tom Satire had fostered Daisy's two congenial spirit, and he reaped the consequence in the want of repose and sympathy that were driving him from home and shutting him up within himself. Would he ever forgive that flippant saying which Ethel had recollected with shame ever since? Shame more for herself than for the child who probably had forgotten long ago her shaft at random sent? Then Ethel would wonder whether, after all, her discontent with Gertrude's speeches was only from feeling older and grayer, and perhaps from a certain resentment at finding a sharp edge of compassion towards Leonard. A little more about Leonard was gathered when the time came of release for his friend the clerk Brown. This young man had an uncle in Paris, engaged in one of the many departments connected with steam that carry Englishmen all over the world, and Leonard obtained permission to write to Dr. Thomas May, begging him to call upon the uncle, and try if he could be induced to employ the penitent and reformed nephew under his own eye. It had been wise in Leonard to write direct, for if the request had been made through anyone at home, Tom would have considered it as impossible, but he could not resist the entreaty, and his mission was successful. The uncle was ready to be merciful, and undertook all the necessary arrangements for, and even the responsibility of, bringing the ticket of Leave-Man to Paris, where he found him a desk in his office. One of Tom's few detailed epistles was sent to Ethel after this arrival, when the uncle had told him how the nephew had spoken of his fellow prisoner. It was to Leonard Ward that the young man had owed the inclination to open his heart to religious instruction. Hitherto merely endured as a portion of the general inflection of the penalty a supposed engine for dealing with the superstitious, but entirely beneath his attention. The sight of the educated face had at first attracted him, but when he observed the reverential manner in chapel, he thought of mere acting the humble prisoner, till he observed how unobtrusive, unconscious, and retiring was every token of devotion, and watched the eyes, brightened or softened in praise or in prayer, till he owned the genuineness and guessed the depth of both, then perceived in school how far removed his unknown comrade was from the mere superstitious bore. This was the beginning. The rest had been worked out by the instruction and discipline of the place, enforced by the example, and latterly by the conversation of his fellow prisoner, until he had come forth sincerely repenting, and with the better hope for the future that his sins had not been against full light. He declared himself convinced that Ward far better merited to be at large than he did, and told of the regard that uniform good conduct was obtaining at last, though not till after considerable persecution, almost amounting to personal danger from the worst sort of convicts, who regarded him as a spy because he would not connive at the introduction of forbidden indulgences, and always stood by the authorities. Once his fearless interposition had saved the life of a hoarder, and this had procured him trust and promotion to a class where ganglions were better conducted and more susceptible to good influences, and among them Brown was sure that his ready submission and constant resolution to do his work were producing an effect. As to his spirits, Brown had never known him break down but once, and that was when he had come upon a curious fossil in the stone. Otherwise he was grave and contented, but never laughed or joked as even some gentlemen prisoners of age had been known to do. The music in the chapel was his greatest pleasure, and he had come to be regarded as an important element in the singing. Very grateful was Dr. Maid to Tom for having learnt, and still more for having transmitted all these details, and Ethel was not the less touched because she knew they were to travel beyond Minster Street. Those words of Mr. Womots seemed to be working out their accomplishment, and she thought so the more when in early spring one of Leonard's severe throat attacks led to his being sent after his recovery to assist the schoolmaster instead of returning to the carpenter's shed, and he was found so valuable in the school that the master begged to retain his services. That spring was a grievous one in Indiana. The war, which eighteen months previously was to have come to an immediate end, was still raging, and the successes that had once buoyed up in northern states with hope had long since been checkered by terrible reverses. On, on, still fought either side as though nothing could close the strife but exhaustion or extinction, and still ardent, still constant, through bereavement and privation were either party to their blood-stained flag. Mordot Miller had fallen in one of the terrible battles of the Rappahannock. While sobbing in Avril's arms, had still confessed herself thankful that it had been a glorious death for his country's cause, and even in her fresh grief she had not endeavored to withhold her other brother when, at the urgent summons of government, he too had gone forth to join the army. Coral was advised to return to her friends at New York, but she declared her intention of remaining to keep house with cousin Deborah. Unless Avril would come with her, nothing should induce her to leave Bassasaga. Certainly not while Ella and Avril were alternately laid low by the spring intermittent fever. Perhaps the fact was that, besides her strong affection for Avril, she felt that in her ignorance she had assisted her father in unscrupulously involving them in a hazardous and unsuccessful speculation and that she was the more bound, injustice as well as in love and pity to do her best for their assistance. At any rate, Rufus had no sooner left home than she insisted on the three sisters coming to relieve her loneliness. In other words, in removing them from the thin ill-built frame house, gaping in every scene with the effects of weather and with damp oozing up between every board of the floor, the pastiferous river fog, the close air of the forest and the view of the phantom trees now decaying and falling one against another. Cousin Deborah, who had learned to love and pity the forlorn English girls, heartily concurred and Avril consented knowing that the dry house and pure air were the best hope of restoring Ella's health. Avril and Ella quickly improved, grew stronger in the intervals and suffered less during the attacks. But Mina, who in their own house had been less ill, had waited on both and supplied the illest efficiencies of the kindly and faithful but two-fisted caddy. Mina, whose wise and simple little head had never failed in sensible counsels or tender comfort. Mina, whom the rudest and most self-important far-western never disobliged. Mina, the peacemaker, the comfort and blessing was laid low by fever and fevered that as the experienced eyes of Cousin Deborah had once perceived met mischief, then it was that the real kindness of heart of the rough people in the West showed itself. The five wild young ladies, whose successive domestic services had been such trouble and whose answer to a summons from the parlor had been, "'Did your holler, Avie?' I thought I heard a screech, each, from Cleopatra Betsy to head and marry, or constantly rushing into inquire or to present questionable dainties and nostrums from their respective maws.' The charwoman, whom Mina had coaxed in her blandest manner to save trouble to Avril and disgust to Henry, were officious and volunteers of nursing and sitting up. The black cook at the hotel sent choice fabrics of jelly and fragrant ice and even Henry's rival, who had been so strong against the insolence of a practitioner showing no testimonials, no sooner came under the influence of the yearning and treating but every patient eyes than his attendance became assiduous, his interest in the case ardent. Henry himself was in the camp before Vicksburg, with his hands too full of piteous cases of wounds and fever to attempt the most hurried visit. "'Sister, dear,' said the soft slow voice, one day when Avril had been hoping her patient was asleep, "'Are you writing to Henry?' "'Yes, my darling, do you want to say anything?' "'Oh, yes, so much,' and the eyes grew bright and the breath gasping. "'Please, big Henry, tell Henry "'that I must. I can't bear it any longer "'if I don't.' "'You must what, dear child? "'Henry would let you do anything he could.' "'Oh, then, would he let me speak "'about dear Leonard?' "'And the child grew deadly white "'when the words were spoken. "'But her eyes still sought Avril's face "'and grew terrified at the sight "'of the gush of tears. "'Oh, Aide, Aide, tell me only, "'he is not dead.' "'And as Avril could only make a sign, "'I do have such dreadful fancies about him, "'and I think I could sleep "'if I only knew what was really true.' "'You shall, dear child, you shall, "'but I'm not waiting to hear from Henry. "'I know he would let you.' "'And only then did Avril know the full misery "'that Henry's decision had inflicted "'on the gentle little heart, "'in childish ignorance, "'imagining fetters and dungeons, "'even in her sober-waking moods, "'and a prey to untold horrors in every dream, "'exaggerated by feverishness and ailment. "'Horrors that, for ought she knew, "'might be veritable "'and made more awful by the treatment "'of his name as that of one dead.' "'To hear of him as enjoying the open air "'and light of day, going to church, "'singing their own favorite hymn tunes, "'and often visited by Dr. May, "'was to her almost as great a joy "'as if she had heard of him at liberty. "'And Avril had a more than usually cheerful letter "'to read to her, "'one written in the infirmary during his recovery. "'His letters to her were always cheerful, "'but this one was particularly so, "'having been written while exhilarated "'by the relaxations permitted to convalescence, "'and by enjoying an unwanted amount "'of conversation with the chaplain and the doctor.' "'So glad, so glad,' Minna was heard murmuring to herself again and again. "'Her rest was calmer than it had been for weeks, "'and the doctor found her so much better "'that he trusted that a favorable change had begun. "'But it was only a gleam of hope. "'The worry fever held its prey, "'and many as were the fluctuations, "'they always resulted in greater weakness, "'and the wandering mind was not always able "'to keep fast hold of the new comfort. "'Sometimes she would piteously clasp "'her sister's hand and entreat, "'tell me again, "'and sometimes the haunting delirious fancies "'of chains and bars would drop forth from the tongue "'that had lost its self-control. "'Yet even at the worst came the dear old recurring note, "'God will not let them hurt him, "'for he has not done it. "'Sometimes, more trying to Avel than all, "'she would live over again the happy games with him, "'or sing their favorite hymns and chants, "'or she would be heard pleading, "'Oh, Henry, don't be crossed to Leonard.'" Cora could not fail to remark the new name that mingled in the unconscious talk, but she had learned to respect Avel's reserve, and she forbore formal questioning, trying even to warn Cousin Deborah, who, with the experience of an elderly woman, remarked that she had too much to do to mind what a sick child rambled about. When Cora had lived to her age, she would know how unaccountably they talked. But Avel felt the more impaled to an outpouring by this delicate forbearance, and the next time she and Cora were sent out together to breathe the air, while Cousin Deborah watched the patient, she told the history, and to a sympathizing listener, without a moment's doubt of Leonard's innocence, nor that American law would have managed matters better. And now, Cora, you know why I told you there were bitterer sorrows than yours. Ah, Avel, I could have believed you once, but to know that he never can come again? Now you always have hope. My hope has all but gone, said Avel. There is only one thing left to look to. If I only can live till he has sent out to a colony, then nothing shall keep me back from him. And what would I give for even such a hope? We have a better hope, but both of us, murmured Avel. It won't seem so long when it is over. Well was it for Avel that this fresh link of sympathy was riveted, for day by day she saw the little patient wasting more hopelessly away, and the fever only burning lower for water's strength to feed on. Utterly exhausted and half torpid, there was not life or power enough left in the child for them to know whether she was aware of her condition. When they read prayers, her lips always moved for the Lord's prayer and doxology. And when the clergyman came out from Winiamac, prayed by her and blessed her, she opened her eyes with a look of comprehension. And if, according to the custom from the beginning of her illness, the psalms and lessons were not read in her room, she was uneasy, though she could hardly listen. So came Easter Eve, and towards evening she was a little revived, and asked Avel what day it was, then answered, I thought it would have been nice to have died yesterday. It was the first time she mentioned death. Avel told her she was better, but half-repented, as the child sank into torpor again. And Avel, no longer the bewildered girl who had been so easily led from the death scene, knew the fitful breath and fluttering pulse and felt the blank dread stealing over her heart. Again, however, the child looked up and murmured, You have not read today. Cora, who had the Bible on her knee, gently obeyed and read on where she was the morning first lesson, the same in the American Church as in her own. Avel, dull with watching and suffering, sat on dreamily with the scent of primroses and opted to her. As it were, by the association of the words, though her power to attend to them was gone. Before the chapter was over, the dose had overshadowed the little girl again, and yet, more than once, as the night drew on, they heard her muttering what seemed like the echo of one of its verses. Turn you, turn you. At last, after hours of watching, and more than one vain endeavor of good cousin Deborah mourn but absorb nurses, the dread messenger came. Men turned suddenly in her sister's arms, with more strength than Avel had thought was left in her, and eagerly stretched out her arms, while the words so long trembling on her lips found utterance. Turn you to the stronghold, you prisoners of hope. Oh, Leonard dear, it does not hurt, but that last word was almost lost in the gasp, the last gasp. What did not hurt was death without his sting. Oh, Cora, was he with her? Is he gone, too? Was Avel's cry at the first moment, as she strained the form of her little comforter for the last time in her arms. And if he is, they are enjoyed together, said cousin Deborah, tenderly but firmly unloosing Avel's arms, though with the tears running down her cheeks. Take her away, Cora, and both of you sleep. Deaster Lamb is in better keeping than yours. Heavy, grievous was the loss, crushing the grief, but it was such as to be at its softest and sweetest at Easter, amid the resurrection joys, and the budding flowers. Though Ella's bitterest fit of weeping was excited by there being no primroses, the primroses that meant a love so much, and her first pleasurable thought was to sit down and write to her dear Mr. Tom to send her some primrose seed for Mina's grave. Mina's grave, alas! Massa Saga had but an untidy, desolate-looking region with a rude snake fence all unconsecrated. Cora wanted to choose a shaded corner in her father's ground, where they might daily tend the child's earthly resting place. But Avel shrank from this with horror. Finally, on one of the Easter holidays, the little wasted form in its coffin was reverently driven by Filates to Winiamet, while the sisters and Cora slowly followed, thinking the one of the nameless bloodstained graves of a battlefield, the other whether an equally nameless graveyard, but one looked on with a shutter unmixed with exultation, had opened for the other being she loved best, the resurrection and the life. Yes, had not he made his grave with the wicked and been numbered with the transgressors? Somehow the present sorrow was more abundant in such comforts as these, than all the pangs which her heart, grown old and sorrow, had yet endured. Yet if her soul had bowed itself to meet sorrow more patiently and peacefully, it was at the expense of the bodily frame, already weakened by the intermittent fever, the long strain of nursing had told on her, and that hysteric affection that had been so distressing at the time of her brother's trial recurred and grew on her with every occasion for self-restraint. The suspense in which she lived, with one brother in the camp, in daily peril from battle and disease, the other in his convict prison, wore her down and made every passing effect of climate or fatigue seize on her frame like a serious disorder, and the more she resigned her spirit, the more her body gave way. Yet she was infinitely happier. The repentance and submission were bearing fruit, and the ceasing to struggle had brought a strange calm and acceptance of all that might be sent. Nay, her own decay was perhaps the sweetest solace and healing of the worried spirit, and as to Ella, she would trust, and she did trust, that in some way or other all would be well. She felt as if even Leonard's death could be accepted thankfully as the captive's release, but that sorrow was spared her. The account of Leonard came from Mr. Wilmot, who had carried him the tidings. The prisoner had calmly met him with the words, I know what you're come to tell me, and he heard all imperfect calmness and resignation, saying little, but accepting all that the clergyman said, exactly as could most be desired. From the chaplain, likewise, Mr. Wilmot learned that Leonard, though still only in the second stage of his penalty, stood morally in a very different position and was relied on as a valuable assistant in all that was good, more effective among his fellow prisoners than was possible to anyone not in the same situation with themselves, and fully accepting that position went in contact either with convicts or officials. He has never referred to what brought him here, said the chaplain, nor would I press him to do so, but his whole tone is of repentance and acceptance of the penalty without, like most of them, regarding it as expiation. It is this that renders his example so valuable among the men. After such a report as this, it was disappointing on Dr. May's next visit to Portland at two months' end to find Leonard drooping and downcast. The doctor was dismayed at his pale, dejected, stooping appearance and the silence and indifference with which he met their ordinary topics of conversation till the doctor began anxiously. You are not well? Quite well, thank you. You are looking out of condition. Do you sleep? Some part of the night. You want more exercise? You should apply to go back to the carpenter's shop or shall I speak to the governor? No, thank you. I believe they want me in school. And you prefer school work? I don't know, but it helps the master. Do you think you make any progress with the men? We heard you were very effective with them. I don't see that much can be done anyway, certainly not by me. Then the doctor tried to talk of Henry and the sisters, but soon saw that Leonard had no power to dwell upon them. The brief answers were given with a stern compression and contraction of face, as if the manhood that had grown on him in these three years was no longer capable of the softening infusion of grief. And Dr. May, with all his tenderness, felt that it must be respected and turned the conversation. I have been calling at the castle, he said, with Ernst Clef, and the governor showed me a curious thing, a volume of Archbishop Usher, which had been the Duke of Lauderdale study after he was taken at Worcester. He has made a note in the filet. I began this book at Windsor and finished it during my imprisonment here. And below are models in Hebrew, Greek, and Latin. I can't construe the Hebrew. The Greek is Oestian, K, Elpistian. One must bear in hope. The Latin is Duret. Will you accept your predecessor's legacy? I think I read about him in an account of the island, said Leonard, with a moment's awakened intelligence. Was he not the L the persecutor in all mortality? I'm afraid you're right. Prosperity must have been worse for him than adversity. Endure, repeated Leonard greatly. I will think of that and what he would mean by hope now. The doctor came home much distressed. He had been unable to penetrate the dreary, resolute self-command that covered so much anguish. He had failed in probing or inhaling and feared that the apathy he had witnessed was a sign that the sustaining spring of vigor was failing in the monotonous life. The strong endurance had been a strain that the additional Greek was rendering beyond his power. And the crushed resignation and air of extinguished hope together with the indications of failing health filled the doctor with misgivings. It will not last much longer, he said. I do not mean that he is ill, but to hold up in this way takes it out of a man, especially at his age. The first thing that lays hold of him he will have no strength nor will to resist. And then, well, I did hope to live to see God show the right. End of Chapter 23 Recording by Nancy Cochran-Gergen Gilbert, Arizona Chapter 24 of the Trial This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org Recording by Nancy Cochran-Gergen Gilbert, Arizona The Trial by Charlotte Mary Young Chapter 24 We T'wa he wandered o'er the braze and put the gowns fine. I wandered many a weary foot sin old line-zine. And I wandered, l the little change since Mary's marriage. She was a happy, excellent wife that she was made to be, and perhaps it was better for Ethel that that the first severance had been so decisive that Mary's temptions to her old home were received as favors instead of as the more scanty relics of her former attachment. Mr. Chevevill, as the family shook down together, became less afraid of Ethel Though she still knew that she was only on terms of sufferings, and had been, more than once, need to repent of unguarded observations. He was admirable, and the school was so rapidly improving that Norman had put his father into ecstasies by proposing to send home little Dickie to begin his education there. Moreover, the one element wanting to accomplish the town improvements had been supplied by a headmaster on the side of progress, and Dr. Spencer's victory had been one at last. There was a chance that Stoneborough might yet be clean, thanks to his reiteration of plans for purification, apropos to everything. Baths and wash houses were adorably carried as a monument to Prince Albert, and on the Prince of Wales's marriage his perseverance actually induced the committee to finish up the drains with all the contributions that were neither eaten up nor fired away. However had he been more happy and triumphant, and Dr. May used to accuse him of perambulating the lower streets, snuffing the deodorized air. One of them evening, contrary to his want, he allowed himself to be drawn into the May drying room, and there fell into one of the bright, bantering talks in which the two old friends delighted, quizzing each other and bringing up stories of their life. While Ethel and Gertrude listened to and laughed at the traditions of a sunnier, gayer, and more reckless age than their own, and Ethel thought how insufficient are those pictures of life that close with the fever dream of youthful passion, and leave untold those years of the real birthing of manhood, and still more the tranquil brightness when toil has been over-lived, and the setting sun guilds the clouds that are drifting away. Ethel's first knowledge of outer life the next morning was the sound of voices in her father's adjoining room, which made her call out. Are you sent for, Papa? Yes, he answered, and in an agitated tone, Spenser, I'll send word. Should she mention what she had two years ago heard from Tom? There was no time for the next moment she heard him hurring downstairs. She saw him speeding up the garden. There was nothing for her to do but to dress as fast as possible, and as she was finishing she heard his dread slowly mounting, the very footfall warning her what to expect. She opened the door and met him. Thank God, he said, as he took her hand into his own. It has been very merciful. Is it? Yes, it must have been soon after he laid down at night, as calm as sleep, the heart, I am very thankful, I had thought he would have had much to suffer. And then it appeared that his own observation said made him sure of what Ethel had learnt from Tom. But as long as it was unavowed by his friend, he had thought himself bound to ignore it, and had so dreaded the protracted suffering that the actual stroke was accepted as a loving dispensation. Still, as the close of a lifelong friendship, the end of a daily refreshing and sustaining intimacy, the loss was very great, and would be increasingly felt after the first stimulus was over. It would make Tom's defection a daily grievance, since much detail of hospital care and, above all, town work, his chief fatigue, would now again fall upon him. But this was not his present thought. His first care was that his friends' remains should rest with those with whom his lot and lives had been cast, in the cloister of the old grammar school. But here Mr. Cheviot looked concerned, and with reluctance, but decision declared it to be his duty not to consent, cited the funeral of one of his scholars at the cemetery, and referred to recent sanatory measures. Dr. May quickly explained that he had looked into the matter, and that the cloister did not come under the act. Not technically, sir, said Mr. Cheviot, but I am equally convinced of my duty, however much I may regret it. And then, with a few words about Mary's presently coming up, he departed. While that is too bad, was a general indignant outburst, even from Richard, from all the clashes, but Dr. May himself. He was quite right, he said. Dear Spencer will be the first to say so. Richard, your church is his best monument, and you'll not shed him out of your churchyard nor me either. Cheviot could not have meant, again Richard. Yes, he did. I understood him, and I'm glad you should have had it out now, said Dr. May, though not without a quivering lip. Your mother has won by her side, and will find each other out just as well as if we were in the cloister. I'll walk over a cockpaw with you, Richie, and mark the place. Thus sweetly did he put aside what might have been so severe a shock, and he took extra pains to show his son-in-law his complete acquiescence, both for the present and the future. Charles Cheviot expressed to Richard his great satisfaction in finding sentiment thus surmounted by sense, not perceiving that it was faith and love surmounting both. Dr. Spencer's only surviving relation was a brother's son, who, on his arrival, proved to be an underbred shrewd-looking man evidently with strong prepossessions against the May family, whose hospitality he did not accept, consorting chiefly with Bramshaw and Anderson. His disposition to reverse the arrangement for bearing his uncle in an obscure village churchyard, occasion a reference to the will, drawn up two years previously. The executors were Thomas and Atheldrid May, and it was marked on the outside that they were to have the sole direction of the funeral. Atheldrid, greatly astonished but as much bewildered as touched, was infinitely relieved that this same day had brought a hurried note from Paris, announcing Tom's intentions of coming to attend the funeral. He would be able to talk to the angry and suspicious nephew without, like his father, betraying either indignation or disgust. Another person was extremely anxious for Tom's arrival, namely Sir Matthew Fleet, who, not a little to Dr. May's gratification, came to show his respect to his old fellow student, and arriving the evening before Tom was urgent to know the probabilities of his appearance. An appointment in London was about to be vacant, so desirable in itself, and so valuable an introduction that there was sure to be a great competition, but Sir Matthew was persuaded that with his own support and an early canvas, Tom might be certain of success. Dr. May could not help being grateful and gratified, declaring that the boy deserved it, and that dear Spencer would have been very much pleased, and then he told Atheldrid that it was wonderful to see the blessing upon Maggie's children, and went back, as usual, to his dear old Tate and Brady with, his house the seat of wealth shall be, and in exhausted treasury, his justice, free from all decay, shall blessings to his heirs convey. And Ethel, within herself, hoped it was no disrespect to smile it as having so unconsciously turned away the blessing from the father's to the mother's side. It was his great pride and pleasure that so many of Maggie's children were round him to do honor to her old friend's burial, three sons and four daughters, and three sons-in-law. They all stood round the grave, as near as might be to the stone that Gertrude, as a child, had laid under his care, when his silver hair had mingled with her golden locks, and with them was a concourse that evidently impressed the nephew with a new idea of the estimation in which his uncle had been held. Tom had traveled all night and had arrived only just in time. Brady was able to say a word to him before setting off, and almost immediately after the return Sir Matthew Fleet seized upon him to walk up to the station with him, and, to the infinite disgust of the nephew, the reading of the will was thus delayed until the executor came back, extremely grave and thoughtful. After all, Mr. Spencer had no available grievance. His uncle's property was very little altogether, amounting scarcely to a thousand pounds, but the bulk was bequeathed to the nephew. To Aubrey May was left his watch, and a piece of plate presented to him on his leaving India. To Dr. May a few books. To Tom the chief of his library, his papers, notes and instruments, and the manuscript of a work upon diseases connected with climate on which he had been engaged for many years, but had never succeeded in polishing to his own fastidious satisfaction, or in coming to the end of new discoveries. To Atheldred his only legacy was his writing desk, with all his contents, and Mr. Spencer looked so suspicious of those contents that Tom Mater opened it before him, and showed that there were nothing but letters. It had been a morning of the mixture of feelings and restless bustle, so apt to take place where the affection is not explained by relationship, and when the strangers were gone, and the family were once again alone, there was a drying of freer breath, and the doctor threw himself back in his chair, and indulged in a long, heavy sigh, with a weary sound in it. Can I go anywhere for you, Father? Said Tom, turning to him with a kind and respectful manner. Oh, no. No. Thank you, he said, rousing himself, and laying his hand on the bell. I must go over to Overfield, but I shall be glad of the drive. Well, Dr. Tom, what did you say to Fleet's proposal? I said I would come up to town and settle about it when I had got through this executor business. You always were a lucky fellow, Tom, said Dr. May, trying to be interested and sympathetic. You would not wish for anything better. I don't know. I have not had time to think about it yet, said Tom, pulling off his spectacles and pushing back his hair, with an action of sadness and fatigue. Ah, it was not the best of times to choose for the communication, but it was kindly meant. I never expected to see Fleet take so much trouble for anyone, but you are done up, Tom, with your night journey. Not at all, he answered bristly. If I can do anything for you, could not I go down to the hospital? Why, if I were not to be back till five, began Dr. May considering and calling him into the hall to receive directions, from which he came back, saying, There, now then, Ethel, we had better look over things and get them in train. You are so tired, Tom. Not too much for that, he said, but it was a vain boast. He was too much fatigued to turn his mind to business requiring thought, though capable of slow, languid reading and sorting of papers. Aubrey's legacy was discovered with much difficulty. In fact it had never been heard of, nor seen the light since its presentation, and was at last found in a lumber closet in a strongbox in Indian packing. It was a compromise between an aproné and a candelabrum, growing out of the hounday of an unfortunate offent, pinning one tiger to the ground and with another hanging on behind, in the midst of a jungle of palm trees and cobras, and beneath was an elaborate inscription, so laudatory of Aubrey Spencer, M.D., that nobody wondered he had never unpacked it, and that it was yellow with tarnish. The only marvel was that he had never disposed of it, but that it was likely to wait for the days when Aubrey might be a general and own a sideboard. The other bequests were far more appreciated. Tom had known of the book in hand, was certain of its value to the faculty, and was much gratified by the charge of it, both as a matter of feeling and of interest. But while he looked over and sorted the mass of curious notes, his attention was far more set on the desk, that reverently, almost timidly, Ethel examined, while knowing why she had been selected as the depository of these relics. There they were, summoned brown by a burn in the corner, as though there had been an attempt to destroy them, in which there had been no heart to persevere. It was but little, after all, two formal notes in which Professor Norman McKenzie asked the honor of Mr. Spencer's company to dinner, but in handwriting that was none of the professors, writing better known to Ethel than Tom, and a series of their father's letters, from their first separation till the traveller's own silence had caused their correspondence to drop. Charming letters they were, such as people wrote before the penny post had spoiled the epistolary art, long, minute, and overflowing with brilliant happiness. Several of them were urgent invitations to stone borough, and one of these was finished in that other hand, the delicate, well-rounded writing that would not be inherited, in treating Dr. Spencer to give a few days to stone borough, it would be such a pleasure to Richard to show him the children. Ethel did not feel sure whether to see these would give pain or pleasure to her father. He would certainly be grieved to see how much suffering he must have inflicted in the innocence of his heart, and in the glory of his happiness. And Tom, with this sort of shutter, advised her to keep them to herself. He was sure they would give nothing but pain. She had no choice just then, for it was a time of unusual occupation, and the difference made by their loss told immediately, the more, perhaps, because it was the beginning of November, and there was much municipal business to be attended to. However it might be for the future, during the ensuing week Dr. May never came in for a meal with the rest of the family, and was too much fag for anything to sleep when he came home at night, and on the Sunday morning, when they all had reckoned on going to Cocktmore together, he was obliged to give it up, and only come into the minster at the end of the prayers. Everyone knew that he was not a good manager of his time, and this made things worse, and he declared that he should make arrangements for being less taken up. But it was sad to see him overburdened, and Tom, as only a casual visitor, could do little to lessen his toil, though that little was done readily and attentively. There were no rubs between the two, and scarcely any conversation. Tom would not discuss his prospects, and it was not clear whether he meant to veil himself of Sir Matthew's patronage. He committed himself to nothing but his wish that it were possible to stay in Paris, and he avoided even talking to his sister. Not until a week after he had left home for London came a letter. Dear Ethel, I have told Fleet that I am convinced of my only right course. I could never get the book finished properly if I got into his line, and I must have peaceful evenings for it at home. I suppose my father would not like to let Dr. Spencer's house. If I might habit and keep my own hours and habits, I think it would conduce to our working better together. I am afraid I kept you in needless distress about him, but I wanted to judge for myself of the necessity and to think over the resignation of that quest. I must commit it to Brown. I hope it is not too great a risk, but it can't be helped. It is a matter of course that I should come home now the helper is gone. I always knew it would come to that. Manage it as quietly as you can. I must go to Paris for a fortnight to bring home my things, and by that time my father had better get me appointed to the hospital. Yours ever, T. H. May. Ethel was not so much surprised as her father, who thought she must have been working upon Tom's feelings, but this she disavowed, except that it had been impossible not to growl at patients sending at unreasonable hours. Then he hoped that Fleet had not been disappointing the lad, but this notion was nullified by a remand's drance from the night, on the impolicy of bearing such talents for the sake of present help, and even proposing to send a promising young man in Tom's stead. Not too good for poor stone borrows, said Dr. May, smiling. No, no, I'm not so decrepit as that. Whatever he and Tom may have thought me. I fancy I could tire out both of them. I can't have the poor boy giving up all his prospects for my sake, Ethel. I never looked for it, and I shall write and tell him so. Mind, Ethel, I shall write, not you. I know you would only stroke him down and bring him home to regret it. No, no, I won't always be treated like Carl in debit and credit, who the old giant thought could neither write nor be written to, because his finger was off. And Dr. May's letter was the first which this son had ever had from him. My dear Tom, I feel your kind intentions to the heart. It is like all the rest of your dear mother's children. But the young ought not to be sacrificed to the old, and I won't have it done. The whole tone of practice has altered since my time, and I do not want to bind you down to the routine. I had left off thinking of it since I knew of your distaste. I have some years of work in me yet that will see out most of my old patience. And for the rest, write is a great advance on reward, and I will leave more to him as I grow older. I mean to see you a great man yet, and I think you'll be the greater and happier for the sacrifice you have been willing to make. His blessing on you, your loving father, R.M. What was Tom's answer but one of his cool good letters, a demonstration that he was actuated by the calmest motives of convenience and self-interest in preferring the certainties of Stoneborough to the contingencies of London, and that he only wanted time for study and the completion of Dr. Spencer's book, enforcing his request for the house. His resolution was, as usual, too evident to be combated, and it was also plain that he chose to keep on the mask of prudent selfishness, which he wore so naturally that it was hard to give him credit for any other features, but this time Dr. May was not deceived. He fully estimated the sacrifice and would have prevented it if he could, but he never questioned the sincerity of the motive, as it was not upon the surface, and the token of dutiful affection, as coming from the least likely porter of his family, touched and comforted him. He dwelt on it with increasing satisfaction, and answered all hurries and worries with, I shall have time when Tom is come, reopen old schemes that had died away when he feared to have no successor. And no one then showed a certain comical dread of being drilled into conformity with Tom's orderly habits. There was less danger of their clashing, as the sun had outgrown the presumptions of early youth, and a change had passed over his nature which Ethel had felt, rather than seen, during his fleeting visits at home, more marked by negatives than positives, and untraced by confidences. The bitterness and self-assertion had ceased to tinge his words, the uncomfortable doubt that they were underlaid by satire had passed away, and methodical and self-possessed as he always was, the atmosphere of, number one, was no longer apparent round all his doings. He could be out of spirits and reserved without being either ill-tempered or ironical, and Ethel, with this as the upshot of her week's observations, was reassured as to the hopes of the father and son working together without collisions. As soon as the die was cast, and there was no danger of undue persuasion in stroking him down, she indulged herself by a warmly grateful letter, and after she had sent it, was tormented by the fear that it would be a great offense. The answer was much longer than she had dared to expect, and alarmed her lest it should be one of his careful ways of making the worst of himself. But there was a large private, scored in almost menacing letters on the top of the first sheet, and so much blotted in the folding, that it was plain that he had taken alarm at the unreserve of his own letter. My dear Ethel, I have been to Portland. Really my father ought to make a stir and get Ward's health attended to. He looks very much altered, but will not own to anything being amiss. They say he has been depressed ever since he heard of men's death. I should say he ought to be doing out-of-doors work, perhaps at Gibraltar, but then he would be out of our reach. I could not get much from him, but that patient, contented look is almost more than one can bear. It laid hold of me when I saw him the first time, and has haunted me ever since. Verily I believe it is what is bringing me home. You need not thank me, for it is sober calculation that convinces me that no success on earth would compensate for the perpetual sense that my father was wearing himself out, and you pining over the sight. Just at first I was meant to come and see how the land lay before pledging myself to anything, and nothing can be clearer than that in the state of things my father has allowed to spring up. He must have help. I am glad you have got me the old house, for I can be at peace there till I have learnt to stand his unmethodical wades. Don't let him expect too much of me, as I see he is going to do. It is not in me to be like Norman or Harry, and he must not look for it, least of all now. If you did not understand, and know when to hold your tongue, I do not think I could come home at all. As it is, you are all the comfort I look for. I cross to Paris tomorrow. That is a page I am very sorry to close. I had a confidence that I should have hunted down that fellow, and the sight of Portland and the accounts for Massess Saga alike make one long to have one's hands on his throat. But that hope is ended now, and to lawyer about Paris in search of him, when it is a plain duty to come away, would be one of the presumptuous acts that come to no good. Let them discuss what they will. There is nothing so hard to believe in as divine justice. And yet that uncomplaining face accepts it. You need say nothing about this letter. I will talk about Leonard with my father when I get home. Ever yours. Thomas May. End of Chapter 24, Recording by Nancy Cochran-Gergen, Gilbert, Arizona. Chapter 25 of the Trial. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Nancy Cochran-Gergen, Gilbert, Arizona. The Trial by Charlotte Mary Young, Chapter 25. But soon as once the genial plane has drunk the lifeblood of the slain, indelible the spots remain, and a for vengeance call, till wracking pangs of piercing pain upon the guilty fall. A. E. Shellis, translated by Professor Anne Steis. If Thomas' arrival at home was eagerly anticipated there, it was with a heavy heart that he prepared for what he had never ceased to look on as a treadmill life. He had enjoyed Paris both from the society and the abstract study, since he still retained that taste for theory rather than practice, which made him prefer diseases to sick people, and all sick people to those of stone borough. The student life in the freedom of a foreign capital was, even while devoid of license and irregularity, much plesner than what he foresaw at home, even though he had obtained a separate establishment. His residence at Paris, with the vague hope it afforded, cost him more in the resignation than his prospects in London. It was a week when he would have been canvassing for the appointment, and he was glad to linger broad out of reach of Sir Matthew's remonstrances and his father's compunction, while he was engaged in arranging for a French translation of Dr. Spencer's book, and likewise in watching an interesting case esteemed a great medical curiosity at the Hotel Dieu. He was waiting in the lecture room when one of the house surgeons came in saying, Ah, I'm glad to see you here. A compatriot of yours has been brought in, mortally inchered in a gambling fray. You may perhaps assist in getting him identified. Tom followed him to the extant ward and beheld a senseless figure with loaded and discolored features distorted by the effects of the injury, a blow upon the temple which had caused a fall backwards on the sharp edge of the stove, occasioning fatal injury to the spine. Albeit well accustomed to gaze critically upon the tokens of mortal agony, Tom felt an unusual shudder of horror and repugnance as he glanced on the countenance, so disfigured and contorted that there was no chance of recognition, and turned his attention to the clothes, which lay in a heap on the floor. The contents of the pockets had been taken out, and consisted only of some pawnbroker's duplicates, a cigar case, and a memorandum book, which last he took in his hand and began to unfasten without looking at it, while he took part in the conversation of the surgeons on the technical nature of the injuries. Thus he stood for some seconds before, on the house surgeon asking if he had found any address, he cast his eyes on the pages which lay open in his hand. Ha, what have you found? He does not hear. Is it the portrait of the beloved object? Is it a brother, an enemy, or a debt? But he is truly transfixed. It is an effect of the gorgon's head. July 15th, 1860, received 120 pounds, L.A. Ward. There stood Tom May, like one petrified, debt to the words around, his dazzle eyes fixed on the letters. His faculties concentrated in endeavor to ascertain whether they were sight or imagination. Yes, there they were, the very words in the well-known writing, the schoolboys forming into the clerks. There was the plot in the top of the L. Tom's heart gave one wild bound, then all sensation, except the sight of the writing ceased. The exclamations of those around him came surgeon gradually on his ear, as if from a distance, and he did not yet hear them distinctly, when he replied alertly, almost lightly. Here is a name that surprises me. Let me look at the patient again. No dear friend, asked his chief intimate, in a tone ready to become gady or sympathy. No indeed, said Tom, shuddering as he stood over the insensible wretch, and perceived what it had been which had thrilled him with such unwanted horror, for, fixed by the paralyzing convulsion of the fatal blow, he saw the scowl and grin of deadly malevolence that had been the terror of his childhood, and that had fascinated his eyes at the moment of Leonard's sentence. Changed by the bottery, defaced by violence, contorted by the injured brain, the features would scarcely have been recalled to him but for the frightful expression stamped on his memory by the miseries of his timid boyhood. Whoso shedeth man's blood, by man shall his blood be shed? The awful thought, answering his own struggle for faith in divine justice, crossed him, as he heard the injury on the head defined, in almost the same scientific terms that had so often rung on his ears as the causes of Francis Axelor's death, but this was no society where he could give vent to his feelings, and mastering himself in difficulty he answered. I know him. He is from my own town. Has he friends or relations? Relations, yes, said Tom, are they able to restrain the trembling of the lip, half-core, half-irony. None here, none near. They shall know. And means, once he had, probably none now, to Tom's great relief, a new case drew off general attention. There only remained a surgeon who had called him at first, and with whom he was particularly intimate. Gaspar, he said, shall you have charge of this case? Brief charge it will be, apparently. I will volunteer to watch it, if it is your desire. Is it friendship, or enmity, or simply humanity? Ah, said Tom hastily. It is a clearing up of a horrible mystery, freedom for an innocent prisoner. I must tell you the rest at leisure. There is much to be done now in case of his reviving. This was remotely possible, but very doubtful, and Tom impressed on both Gaspar and the nurse and sister, the most stringent in treaties, to summon him on the first symptom. He then gave the name of the unhappy man, and, though unwilling to separate himself from that invaluable pocketbook, perceived the necessity of leaving it as a deposit with the authorings of the hospital, after he had fully examined it, recognizing Leonard's description in each particular. The cypher F.A. on the tarnished silvercloth, the chagrin cover, and the receipt on a page a little past the middle. On the other half of the leaf was the entry of some sums due to the house, and it contained other papers, which the guilty wretch had been evidently eager to secure, yet afraid to employ, and that, no doubt, were the cause that, like so many other murderers on record, he had preserved that which was the most fatal proof against himself, or could it be with some notion of future relenting, that he had refrained from its destruction? With brain still seeming to reel at the discovery, and limbs actually trembling with the shock, Tom managed to preserve sufficient coolness and discretion to bring back to mind the measures he had self-implanned for any such contingency. Calling a cabriolet, he repaired to the police station nearest to the scene of the contest, and there learned that acts where they had long been watched as a dangerous subject, full of turbulence, and with no visible means of maintenance. The officials had taken charge of the few personal effects in his miserable lodgings, and were endeavoring to secure the person who had struck the fatal blow. His next measure was to go to the British Embassy, where, through his sister Flora's introductions, and his own eat and connections, he was already well known, and telling his story there, without any attempt to conceal his breathless agitation, he had no difficulty in bringing with him a companion who would authenticate the discovery of the receipt, and certify to any confession it might be obtained. A confession, that was the one matter of the most intense interest. Tom considered whether to secure the presence of a parchment, but suspected that this would put acts worthy on his guard rather than soften him, and therefore only wrote to the chaplain, begging him to hold himself in readiness for a summons to the Hotel Vieux, whither he drove rapidly back with his diplomatic friend, whom he wrought out well-nigh to his own pitch of expectation. He had already decided on his own first address, pitting, but manifesting that nothing, not even vengeance, could be gained by concealment, and then, according to the effect, would he try either softening or threatening to extort the truth. Gaspar was eagerly awaiting them. I had already sent for you, he said. The agony is commencing. He has spoken, but he has not his full consciousness. Tom Hurredam, drawing after him the young diplomat, who would have hung back, questioning if there were any use in his witnessing the dying struggles of a delirious man. Come, come, grumpthorily, repeated Tom. There must be some last words. Every moment is of importance. Yet his trust was shaken by the perception of the progress that death had made in the miserable frame during his absence. The fixed expression of malignity had been forced to yield to exhaustion and anguish. The lips moved, but the murmurs between the molds were scarcely articulate. He has almost passed it, said Tom, but there is the one chance that he may be aroused by my voice. And having placed his friend conveniently, both for listening and making notes, he came close to the bed and spoke in a tone of compassion. Axworthy, I say, Axworthy, is there anything I can do for you? There was a motion of the lid of the fast glazing eye, but the terrible face of hatred came back. With the audible words, I tell you, you old fool, none of the maize are to come crying about my place. Appalled by the deadly malice of the implication and the look that accompanied this partial recognition of his voice, Tom was nerveing himself to speak again. When the dying man, as if roused by the echo of his own thought, burst out. Who? What is it? I say, Dr. May shall not be called in. He never attended the old man. Let him mind his own business. I was all night at the three goblets. Yes, I was. The new darling will catch it, going off with the money upon him, and the laugh made their blood run cold. I've got the receipt, and he made an attempt at thrusting his hand under the pillow. But failing, swore, shouted, howled with his last ring, that he had been robbed. A pocketbook, it would hang him. And with one of the most fearful shrieks of despair that had perhaps ever run through that asylum of pain, woe, and death, the wretched spirit departed. Tom may turn aside, made a few steps, and to the infinite surprise of everyone fell helplessly down in this womb. A nature of deep and real sensibility, though repressed by external reserve and prudence, could not with entire impunity undergo such a scene. The sudden discovery, the vehement excitement forced down, the intense strain of expectation. And finally, the closing whore of such a death, betraying the crime without repenting of it, passing to the other world with implications on the lips, and hatred in the glare of the eye, all the frightfulness enhanced by the familiarity of the illusions, and the ghastly association of the tones that had tempted and tyrannized over his childhood, altogether crushed and annihilated his faculties, mental and bodily. Oh, when our very hearts burn for justice, how little do we know how intolerable would be the sight of it. Tom's caution and readiness returned as soon as, after a somewhat long interval, he began to distinguish the voices around him, and perceive the amazement he had created. Before he was able to sit up on the couch, where he had been laid out of sight of the scene which had affected him so strongly, he was urging his friend to set down all that had been spoken, and on Gaspar's writing his separate deposition. The pocketbook and other effects were readily ceded to the British authority, and were carried away with them. How Tom got through the remaining hours of the day and the night he never recollected, though he knew it must have been in the bustle of preparation, and that he had imparted the tidings to Leonard's friend Brown, for when he and his friend had attended that which answered to an inquest on a body, and had obtained a report of the proceedings, he was ready to start by the night train, bearing with him the attestations of the deathbed scene at the Hotel Dieu and the long-lost memorandum book, and was assured that the next male would carry an official letter to the home office, detailing the circumstances of Samuel Axe for these to cease. Brown came to bid him farewell, full of gladness and warm congratulation, which he longed to send to his friend, but which Tom only received with hasty, half-comprehending sense. Late in the afternoon, he reached Stoneboro, found no one come in, and sat down in the firelight, where, for all his impatience, fatigue had made him drop asleep, when he was roused by Gertrude's voice exclaiming, Here really is Tom come, and she said he would, without writing. Here are all his goods in the hall. Is it you, Tom? cried Ethel. Notice or no notice, we are glad of you. But what is the matter? Where's my father? Coming, Charles Chevia took him down to look at one of the boys. Is there anything to matter? She added, after a pause. No, nothing. You look very odd, added Gertrude. He gave a nervous laugh. You would look odd, if you had traveled all night. They commented and began to tell home news. But Ethel noted that he neither spoke nor heard, only listened for his father. Gertrude grew tired of inattentive answers, and said she should go and dress. Ethel was turning to follow when he caught Halterberg folk, and drew her close to him. Ethel, he said, in a husky, stifled voice. Do you know this? On her knees, by the red firelight, she saw the LA ward and looked up. Is it, she said, he bowed his head. And then Ethel put her arm around his neck as he knelt down by her. And he found that her tears, her rear tears, were streaming down, silent but irrepressible. She had not spoken, had asked no question, made no remark, when Dr. May's entrance was heard. And she loosed her hold on her brother, without rising from the floor, looked up from under the shade of her hat, and said, Oh, Papa, it is found, and he has done it. Look there! Her choked voice and tokens of emotion startled the doctor. But Tom, in a matter of fact tone, took up the word. How are you, Father? Yes, I have only met with this little memorandum. Dr. May recognized it with a burst of inquiry and exclamation, bringing Tom's hand, and giving no time for an answer. And, indeed, his son attempted none. Till, calming himself, the doctor subsided into his armchair, and with a deep sigh exclaimed, Now then, Tom, let us hear. Where does this come from? From the casualty ward at the Hotel Dieu. And from? He is dead, said Tom, answering the unspoken question. You will find it all here. Ethel, do I sleep here tonight? My old room? As he spoke, he bent to light a spill at the fire, and then the two candles on the side table. But his hand shook nervously, and though he turned away his face, his father and sister saw the paleness of his cheeks, and knew that he must have received a great shock. Neither spoke, while he put one candle conveniently for his father, took up the other, and went away with it. With one inquisitive glance at each other, they turned to the papers, and with eager eyes devoured the written narratives of Tom himself and of the attaché. Then, with no less avidity, the French reports accompanying them. Hardly a word bespoken while Ethel leaped against her father's knee, and he almost singed his hair in the candle, as they helped one another out in the difficulties of the crooked foreign writing. Will it be enough? asked Ethel, at last, holding her breath for the answer. If there is justice in England, said Dr. May. Heaven forgive me, Ethel, this business has tried my trust more than anything that ever befell me, but it will all be right now, and righter than right, if that boy comes out what I think him. And oh, how soon! Now, the moment longer than can be helped. I'd go up by the mail train this very night, if it would do any good. Tom, who reappeared as soon as he had spared himself the necessity of the narration, was willing and eager to set out. But Dr. May, who by this time had gathered some idea of what he had gone through, and saw that he was restless, nervous, and unhinged, began to reconsider the expedience of another night journey, and was, for once in his life, the person cool enough to see that it would be wisest to call Bramsha into their councils, and only that night to send up a note mentioning that they would do themselves the honor of calling at the home office the next day, on matters connected with the intelligence received that morning from the British Embassy at Paris. Tom was disappointed. He was in no mood for sitting still, and far less for talking. As a matter of business, he would elucidate any question, a conversation on what he had witnessed was impossible to him. And when Gertrude, with a girl's lightness, lamented over being balked of a confession and explanation, he gravely answered that she did not know what she was talking of, and his father led away from the subject. Indeed, Dr. May was full of kindness and consideration, being evidently not only grateful for the discovery, but touched by his entire absence of exulting triumph and his strong sense of awe in the retribution. That changed in awestruck manner impressed both the sisters, so that all the evening Ethel felt subdued as by a strange shock, and even through the night and morning could hardly realize that it was intense relief, joy, not sorrow, that made her feel so unlike herself, and that the birthing was taken away from her heart. Even then there was a trembling of anxiety. The prisoner might be set free, but who could give back to him the sister who had pined away in exile, or the three years of his youthful brightness? There might be better things in store, but she knew she must not look again for the boy of ingenuous countenance, whose chivalrous devotion to herself had had such a charm, even while she tried to prize it at its lightest worth. It was foolish to recollect it with a pang, but there was no helping it. In the great tragedy she had forgotten that the pretty comedy was over, but she regretted it rather as she did the pleasant baby days of Augre and Gertrude. Indeed, during the day of suspense, while the two physicians were gone to London, taking with them the papers, and a minute detail of the evidence at the trial, Gertrude's high spirits triumphed over Charles Cheviot, and desire to trumpet forth the good news were oppressive. How many times that day was map stroked, and assured that her master would come back? And how often did the two sisters endeavor to persuade themselves that she was not grown broader in the back? Mary was, of course, told early in the day, but Gertrude got less sympathy from her than answer to that damsel's extortionate expectations. For, according to her wicked account, Mary's little Charlie had sneezed three times, and his mama must regret what sent all the medical science of stone borough away by the early train. However, Tom came home at night. The interview had been satisfactory. The letters received in the morning had prepared the way, and revived the recollection of the unsatisfactory case of Leonard Axworthy Ward, and of the representations of the then mayor of Market Stone Borough. After all the new lights upon the matter had been looked into, the father and son had been assured that, as soon as possible, a free pardon should be issued. So drawn up as to imply a declaration of innocence, the nearest possible approach to a reversal of the sentence, and they further were told they mention of his exemplary conduct in the late report from Portland, containing a request that he might be promoted to a post of greater influence and trust, before the ordinary time of probation had passed. Dr. May was eager to be at Portland at the same time as the pardon, so to give Leonard the first intelligence, and to bring him home. And he had warmly closed with Tom's offer to look after the work, while he himself waited till the necessary forums had been complied with. He had absolutely begged Tom's pardon for going in instead. It is your right, he said, but somehow, I think, as I have been more with him, I might do better, to which Tom had assented with all his heart, and had added that he would not go if he were paid for it. He had further taken care that the doctor should take with him a suit of clothes for Leonard to come home in, and had himself made the selection, then came back with the tidings that filled the house with the certainty of joy, and the uncertainty of expectation. Nobody was, however, in such a fever as Tom himself. He was marvelously restless all the morning. Gertrude asserted it was because he was miserable in not venturing to set his father's study to rights, and to be sure he was seen looking round at the litter with a face of great disgust, and declaring that he was ashamed to see a patient in a room in such a mess. But this did not fully account for his being in and out, backwards and forwards, all the morning, looking wistfully at Ethel, and then asking some trivial question about messages left for his father, or matters respecting his own new abode, where he kept on Dr. Spencer's old housekeeper, and was about to turn in papers and painters. He had actually brought a drawing-room paper from Paris, a most delicate and graceful fare, much too ladylike for the old house, as Daisy told him, when she pursued him and her sister down to a consultation. Late in the afternoon, as the sisters were coming up the high street, they met him setting out in Hector's dog cart. Oh, I say, Ethel, he said, drying up. Do you like a drive out to Chilford? Here's a note come to ask my father to see the old lady there, and I want someone to give me courage to be looked at, like the curate in the pulpit instead of the crack preacher. It was an offer not to be despised, though Ethel knew what a waiting there would be, and what a dark drive home. Up she jumped, and Tom showed his usual thoughtfulness by ordering Gertrude to run home and fetch her moth and an additional cloak, tucking her up himself with the carriage rug. That affection of Tom's had been slow in coming, but always gave her a sense of gratitude and enjoyment. They drove all the seven miles to Chilford without twenty words passing between them, and when there, she sat in the road, and watched one constellation after another fill up its complement of stars as well as the moon permitted, wondering whether Tom's nearsighted driving would be safe in the dark, but her heart was so light, so glad, that she could not be afraid, she did not care how long she waited, it was only sitting still to recollect the deliverance had come to the captive. Leonard was free, free as heart can think or eye can see, as would keep ringing in her ears like a joy bell, and some better things, too, until the time came that his cause was known. The word of the Lord tried him. Whether she were really too happy to note time, or that gossipy was deducted from the visit, Tom certainly returned sooner than her experience had let her to expect, made an exclamation of dismay at finding the machine was innocent of lamps, and remounted to his seat, prepared to be extremely careful. I could not get them to take me for my father in a new wig, he said, but it was a very easygoing romantic case, and I think I satisfied her. Then on he drove for a mile, till he was out of the bad cross-country road, and at last he said, Ethel, I have made up my mind. There's no press of work just now, and I find it is advisable I should go to America before I get into harness here. To America? Yes, about this book of dear old Spencer's. It is a thing that must be complete, and I find he was in correspondence with some men of science there. I could satisfy my mind on a few points, which would make it infinitely more valuable, you see, and get it published there too. I know my father would wish every justice to be done to it. I know he would, and continued Ethel, as innocently as she could. Shall you see the words? Why, said Tom, in his deliberate voice, that is just one thing. I want particularly to see Henry. I had a talk with Wright this morning, and he tells me that young Baines, at Whitford, is going to the dogs, and the practice is coming into him. He thinks of having a partner, and I put out a feeler in case Henry Ward should choose to come back, and found it might do very well. But the proposal must come from him, and there's no time to be lost, so I thought of setting out as soon as I hear my father is on his way back. Not waiting to see Leonard? I did see him not a month ago, besides, and his voice came to a sudden end. Yes, the first news, said Ethel. Indeed, it is due to you, Tom. Ten minutes more of silence. Ethel, did she ever tell you? Never, said Ethel, her heart beating. Then how did you know all about it? I didn't know. I only saw— saw what? That you were very much distressed. And very kind and rational you were about it, said Tom Wormley. I never thought any woman could have guessed so much without making mischief, but you must not put any misconstruction on my present intention. All I mean to do as yet is to induce Henry to remove them out of that dismal swamp, and bring them home to comfort and civilization. Then it may be time too. He became silent, and Ethel longed ardently to ask further, but still she durst not, and he presently began again. Ethel, was I very intolerable that winter of the volunteers when Harry was at home? You are very much improved since, she answered. That's just like Flora. Answer like yourself. Well, you were. You were terribly rampant in eating refinement, and very anxious to hinder all the others for making fools of themselves. I remember. I thought you had all got into intimacies that were for nobody's good, and I still think it was foolish. I know it has done for me. Well, hastily catching up this last admission, as if it had dropped out at unawares, you think I made myself disagreeable? On principle. Ah, then you would not wonder at what she said, that she had never seen anything in me but contemptuous irony. I think, sometimes feeling that you were soterical, she took all your courtesy for irony, whatever you meant. I have heard other people say the same. But when? Was this on the day? The day you went to remonstrate? Yes. I declare to you, Ethel, that I had no conception of what I was going to do. I never dreamt that I was in for it. I knew she was, was attractive, and that made me hate to see Harry with her, and I could not bear her being carried off to this horrible place. But as to myself, I never thought of it till I saw her, white and broken, and then came that old action Ethel knew so well in her father, of clearing the dew from the glasses, and his voice was half sob, and with no creature but that selfish brother to take care of her. I couldn't help it Ethel, no one could, and this, this was her answer. I don't wonder. I had been a supercilious prig, and I ought to have known better than to think I could comfort her. I think the remembrance must have comforted her sense. What? What? Has she said anything? Oh no, she could not, you know. But I am sure, if it did anger her at the moment, there must have been comfort in recollecting that even such a terrible trouble had not alienated you. And now? Now that's just what I don't want. I don't want to stalk in and say here's the hero of romance that has saved your brother. I want to get her home and show her that I can be simple without being satirical, and then, perhaps, she would forgive me. Forgive you? I mean forgiveness one, not purchased, and after all, you know it was mere accident. Providence, if you please, that brought me to that poor wretch. All my plans of tracking him had come to an end. Anyone else could have done what I did. She will not feel that, said Ethel. But indeed, Tom, I see what you mean and like it. It is yourself and not the conferrer of the benefit that you want her to care for. Exactly, said Tom. And, Ethel, I must have seen her and judged of my chance before I can be good for anything. I tried to forget it, on it as a lucky escape, a mere passing matter that I carry as affairs, but I could not do it. Perhaps I could, if things had gone well. But that dear face of misery that I only stung by my attempts to comfort would stick fast with me and to go and see Leonard only brought it more home. It is a horrid bad speculation, and Flora and Chevio and Blanche will scout it. But, Ethel, you'll help me through, and my father will not mind, I know. Papa will feel as I do, Tom, that it has been your great blessing, turn out as it may. Hmm, has it? A blessing on the wrong side of one's mouth, to go about with a barb one knew one was a fool for, and yet couldn't forget. Well, I know what you mean, and I believe it was. I would not have had it annihilated when the first mood was over. It was that which made it so hard to you to come home, was it not? Yes, but it was odd enough, however hard it was to think of coming you always sent me away more at peace, Ethel. I can't think how you did it, knowing nothing. I think you came at the right time. You see, I did think that while Spencer lived I might follow up the track and see a little of the world, try if that would put out that face and voice, but it won't do. If this hadn't happened, I would have tied myself down and done my best to get comfort out of you and the hospital and these diseases of climate. I suppose one might in time if things went well with her, but, as it is, I can't rest till I have seen if they can be got home again. So, Ethel, don't mind if I go before my father comes home. I can't stand explanations with him, and I had rather you did not proclaim this. You see the book and getting Henry home are really the reasons and I shan't molest her again. No, not until she has learned to know what is irony. I think if you did talk it over with Papa, you would feel the comfort and know him better. Well, well, I dare say, but I can't do it, Ethel. Either he shuts me up at first with some joke or, and Tom stopped, but Ethel knew what he meant. There was on her father's side an involuntary absence of perfect trust in his son, and on Tom's there was a character so sensitive that her father's playfulness graded and so reserved that his demonstrative feelings were a still greater trial to one who could not endure outward emotion. Besides, added Tom, there is really nothing, nothing to tell. I'm not going to commit myself. I don't know whether I ever shall. I was mad that day and I want to satisfy my mind whether I think the same now I am sane, and if I do, I shall have enough to do to make her forget the winter when I made myself such an ass. When I have done that, it may be time to speak to my father. I really am going out about the book. When did you last hear? That is what makes me anxious. I have not heard for two months, and that is longer than she ever was before without writing, except when Mena was ill. We shall know if Leonard has heard. No, she always writes undercover to us. The course that the conversation then took did not look much like Tom's doubt whether his own views would be the same. All the long repressed discussion of Avril's merits, her beautiful eyes, her sweet voice, her refinement, her real worth, the wonder that she and Leonard should be so superior to the rest of the family, were freely indulged at last, and Ethel could give far hardier sympathy than if this had come to her three years ago. Avril had been for two years her correspondent, and the patience, sweetness, and cheerfulness of those letters had given a far higher estimate of her nature than the passing intercourse of the town life had left. The terrible discipline of these years of exile and sorrow had, Ethel could well believe, worked out something very different from the well- intentioned, woeful girl, whose spirit of partisanship had been so fatal an element of discord. Distance had, in truth, made them acquainted and one their love to one another. Tom's last words, as he drew up under the lime trees before the door, were, Mind, I am only going about the diseases of climate. End of chapter 25, recording by Nancy Cochran Gergen, Gilbert, Arizona.